At the end of June 2007, the weather in Seoul was already hot, and today the weather is quite good, not very hot, like the drunken wind of late spring blowing the trees outside that are just beginning to flourish and thick, and showing emerald green leaves, cloudy, and the sun is faint and faint.

"Doodoo Dot ......"

Taeyeon was lying on her desk, her cheeks bulging and making a meaningless sound as she looked out the window. It was between classes, energetic boys running in front of them laughing, windows vibrating in the shouts of running and youth, and sometimes girls holding hands, in contrast, she seemed a little lonely alone.

In the future, this kind of loneliness is probably normal.

When the mind is withdrawn by chance, the brain will have such thoughts, and then I don't know what kind of expression I should show......

She's running out of time in Seoul.

“…… Do you really have to go back to Jeonju?" bored for a while, a girl sitting in front of her turned her head and asked her as if she was reluctant and sad.

Taeyeon pursed her lips and wanted to say something, but in the end she just nodded: "Hmm......"

After coming to Seoul to study for three years, after all, I have close friends, so it seems that being a man is not a failure.

"It's good here, why do you want to go!"

"The school doesn't allow truancy, and the applications have been returned, so there's no way. ”

“…… A bunch of old-fashioned!old stubborn!" muttered the good friend, his expression dark.

Taeyeon didn't know what to say at this time, at the age of 17 or 8 years old, he hadn't learned to deal with too many partings, and he didn't know how to sincerely say the comfort of "be strong" or "it's okay", and when faced with difficult things, he was mostly silent.

The transfer procedures have been completed, today, it's the last day here, and tomorrow she will go back to Jeonju, and the reason is that she can't resist, during the summer vacation, the group she belongs to has been named "Girls' Generation", and she is about to prepare for her debut.

Makeup, rehearsals, MV shooting, etc., have been put on the agenda, and life has begun to become busy, this kind of life makes her no longer able to stay in Qingtan High School, which rejects ghost students, and can only choose an art school with a relaxed curriculum in her hometown, according to the family's intentions, at least let her finish high school, and her academic qualifications will not be too ugly.

The parting came so suddenly, and it became a reality reasonably.

She lay on the desk, her eyebrows unconsciously drooped, and she obviously expressed her low feelings, which made her good friend in front of her speechless, just muttering "A group of old-fashioned people, can't they be accommodating" and other complaints, and then fell into unspeakable sadness.

Leaning her head on her arm, Taeyeon tucked her chin into the small space where her arms were encircled, as if this subtle movement could bring her more security.

In fact, saying goodbye to her current life, she has already been prepared, to be precise, even if she doesn't have such thoughts, the company will teach her to think.

"What the company wants to launch is a star, an idol! Not a sentimental, self-pitying little girl all day long!"

"You're the captain of Girls' Generation!"

The reprimand in her memory was still in her ears, and she still remembered the sudden startling heartbeat in the sharp gaze behind the thick lenses.

That was the first time she knew that the place she longed for, the place she stepped into in order to follow in his footsteps, was not so beautiful, on the contrary, even if only a tiny corner was revealed, the cruelty behind it was still intuitively revealed!

"In a few months, when you walk out of this gate, you will say goodbye to your former selves!"

"Whether you are self-deceptive or self-hypnotic, you must convince yourself that you are a star, an idol, not an ordinary teenager who is indulgent and wanton, wearing casual clothes and eating cheap ice cream! Because in a few months, your every move will be amplified by the media and the audience, and your words and deeds represent the achievements of the company! The company does not allow any individual to appear that destroys the overall image. ”

"If you can't accept it, or don't want to accept it, it's okay......" In the memory, the finger pointed to the door, and the faint noise behind the door seemed to penetrate time and space, echoing:

“…… You can get out of here, there's people out there who want to come in!"

It was the first lesson she was about to learn in society, cruel and merciless, whether she or anyone else, knew that the company did what it said, and at S.M, no one could not be missing.

Zoom in to the entire entertainment industry, and there is no one who can't be missing.

Especially when she recognized the so-called reality.

Saying goodbye to friends, it's too heavy.

Say goodbye to the past, but the real self is even heavier.

It was so heavy that she couldn't breathe......

She wanted to call An Yuxi, pressed the number, and found that her mobile phone did not have international calls, she then thought, it turned out that Oppa had gone abroad, and the call record had Jessica's phone, as well as Tiffany's phone, they both opened international calls, she looked at the phone, ready to press the call button, but thought about it and put down the phone.

Taeyeon put away her phone and lay back on the table.

……

At the end of the day's classes, after school, the boys cheered as usual and rushed out of the door, and Taeyeon was rightfully surrounded by sadness.

04 years of transfer, although because it is a foreigner, has been ostracized, isolated, but the feelings of the student days are not mixed with too many realistic factors after all, the relative purity brings tolerance, sometimes a sentence is speculative, or just want to come to a trivial concession and care later, friendship can sprout, intimate in the blink of an eye.

It's not child's play, but when one day we "mature", no matter how much we want to recover it, we can't get it back!

The parting scene is never joyful, when Taeyeon carries her school bag and drags the packed box full of clothes. While responding to the reluctance of a few friends, when she got in the car, even though she said that she would be back soon, and everyone could meet in the future, some people sobbed, and then, several little girls couldn't control it anymore, and hugged and cried in front of the school.

Passers-by couldn't help but look sideways.

When he was finally taken away by the car, he detached himself from the atmosphere of that moment and wiped away his tears. Taeyeon, who has always prided herself on being strong, was a little embarrassed, and was surprised by passers-by at the time, I'm afraid they would think they were insane, right?

In fact, if you think about it, it would be nice if you could be a "neurotic" for the rest of your life!

The members of the team didn't come to see her off, this matter, Teacher Li Xiuman talked to her alone, she never told SùJessica them, even An Yuxi didn't tell Sù, and she never told anyone about dropping out, and today's incident just said that there was something at home and that she had to go back to deal with it, and they didn't suspect it, they just asked her to come over early.

Call......

With one hand on her chin and her hand propped up by the window, looking at the shadows of the city that were speeding back with the cars, and the neon lights up, she thought: at least don't think too much, at least it's real!

The car sped through the shadows cast by the setting sun, constantly leaving the various buildings behind. By chance, she saw "AWM" in the rows of shadows and neon, and she looked at its magnificent doorway, its brightly lit silhouette flying away in view, and finally faded into the whole city, indistinguishable from the others.

Same night, all over the state.

After a few hours of bumps, returning from Seoul to his home in Jeonju, the family had a long-lost reunion dinner, during which they were nagged by their parents for a long-lost reunion, and Jin Zhiyong had a long-lost reunion, and by the way, they slapped Xiao Xiayan and her little ass after a long-lost reunion.

In short, it was very warm, and Xia Yan, who was moved, cried!

What the world is like when she really grows up, Taeyeon doesn't know very well, other people's experience is just someone else's, she has no experience, and she will never be able to understand the details and ups and downs, although it is a distance of hundreds of miles from Jeonju to Seoul, but the fact that she is going to make her debut has finally brought some changes to herself and her family.

Of course, for Taeyeon, who is about to make her debut and become an adult, that qiē is more like endless trouble.

Maybe in the eyes of Seoul people, artists are not remarkable, walking in Apgujeong, Hongdae or Chungmuro, throwing a stone out may be able to hit an artist, but in the "countryside" like Jeonju, in the ordinary families in the neighborhood who are like her own home, struggling with firewood, rice, oil and salt all day long, suddenly an artist who can often appear on TV in the future is incredible, and the curiosity and freshness brought by it are incredible, and it is simply a sensation.

Taeyeon didn't come home before, and Taeyeon didn't know what to do, but now she came back, and even though her parents didn't inform anyone, the neighbors still came to her with a keen sense of smell that made the Intelligence Agency ashamed to death, and they actually stared at her all the time, either explicitly or secretly, and said something like "Taeyeon is really getting more and more beautiful, look at this cute", "I heard that she is going to make her debut soon, right?

Hehe...... Hehe......

Taeyeon giggles from beginning to end, and doesn't know how to react at all, so she admires the neighbors who boasted about her age in open crotch pants now, saying that they looked like stars at that time.

Late at night, the noise dies down, Mom and Dad clean up in the living room, and Taeyeon returns to her bedroom and slams herself on the bed, almost exhausted.

Before she came back, her mother had already cleaned up the bedroom, and except for some remnants of the strange cold smell that was often unoccupied, everything else was still the same as when she was at home.