Chapter 121: I'm tired
Xiaoxiao entered a busy state, in the company during the day, practicing for Du Sanmei, she seemed to be a different person, very strict, Xiaoxiao did a little bit badly, she would nag in her ear for a long time.
When Xiaoxiao saw her, she felt that she was better than her fat boss before.
Du Sanmei is now watching Xiaoxiao work, and she will teach her if she understands. corrected and pointed out the ideas, but she didn't do it, just watched Xiaoxiao busy.
Xiaoxiao sometimes really wonders if she came to menopause decades early, or if she was possessed by something, why she seems to have changed a person.
Du Sanmei looked at Xiaoxiao's gaze, ignored it, and still went her own way.
Throwing everything to Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao has changed from an idle person to a busy person, calling Zhang Yunjun to wake up every morning, if she is late, Du Sanmei will be verbose for a long time, so that she is embarrassed to be late, or leave early.
Leave every day when it's over.
She originally wanted to complain to Zhang Yunjun or something, but when she saw Zhang Yunjun, who was even more tired and cold than her, and had no smile at all, and there was a little feeling of avoiding her, Xiaoxiao's heart was very uncomfortable.
It's uncomfortable.
Since he came back from school, he has become cautious, and he has begun to have secrets about Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao's sixth sense has always been very accurate.
She didn't know what had gone wrong with them before, she wanted to find out and make up for it, but she couldn't do it, she knew him really little. I don't understand anything, so to speak.
She can only use her work to numb herself. Distract yourself. Tell herself that she won't be cranky, that she thinks too much, and that tomorrow will be a sunny day.
But her feelings told her that it wasn't for her to think too much, and that she sometimes hated her sixth sense.
Several times she saw Zhang Yunjun standing on the balcony, looking at the night scene in the distance, motionless, standing for an hour or two.
She wouldn't be so naïve, he just looked at the scenery.
Her heart began to ache sharply. Is there a problem in their relationship, is there something he can't confide in himself, she reviews it herself, and comforts herself. That's all thinking too much.
The two scenes were not once or twice, but several times, he was either looking at the starlight outside in a daze, or in the study in a daze, with a serious expression.
It was cold, like a block of ice, and the temperature around it dropped by several degrees. Her heart is also cold.
Every time she pretends not to see it, she has no heart or liver or lungs, and sometimes she will be coquettish to him and joke, but he keeps her away on the grounds of work, what can't be said, let's figure it out together?
Gradually, she didn't dare to disturb him. Knowing that he was tired during this time, he worked until late at night every day before returning to his room.
On this day, she wore the sexiest pajamas, leaned against him, her little hands slowly caressed the skin of his chest, and her little feet slowly pulled his calves, sending a signal of invitation.
It's the first time she's done such a bone, such a shy thing, she checked it on the Internet, how to seduce people, they haven't had married life for the fifteenth day, and they haven't had it since he came back that day.
It is said on the Internet that a marriage without a husband and wife will not be happy.
She was happy for the first day or two, but after a day, two days, three days, he hugged her every day, and at most kissed her forehead.
Her thoughts made her feel cold.
Today she finally mustered up the courage to invite him.
Zhang Yunjun grabbed Xiaoxiao's small hand, put it in his big hand, and said softly, "Xiaoxiao, go to sleep, you have to get up early tomorrow." ”
There is no follow-up here. She could feel the heat underneath him, holding up a few cracks. But he didn't ask
Her heart was like a bucket of cold water, and this was the first time she had made such an invitation, and he had refused.
She checked on the Internet today, if a man doesn't want you physically, then your marriage is going to end.
When they first started, he thought about it every day, and work was important, that's what he said. And now she's sent to the door, and he doesn't want it.
She herself felt that she was a little cheap, and others didn't want it, so she sent it to the door.
Xiaoxiao is the kind of person who is sadder, the calmer she is, and she still has that kind of smiling expression on her face, and there is no superfluous expression. Nothing has changed at the time of peace.
Zhang Yunjun thought that his tone was a little cold, he stretched out his hand, hugged her waist, and gently comforted her and said, "I'm so tired." The voice was tired and hoarse like never before.
Xiaoxiao smiled and patted his hand, "I know, I'm tired too." "It's an Italian pun.
Physically tired, psychologically even more tired.
Zhang Yunjun thought that she was at work and didn't say much.
The two of them were quiet, sleeping in the same bed and dreaming differently, each thinking about it.
The hearts of the two went farther and farther away.
Halfway, Zhang Yunjun heard Xiaoxiao's gentle and even breathing sound, he slowly got up, walked out of the balcony, and looked at the sky outside, his heart panicked. Can't find anything to vent. He remembered what Yun had said.
"Zhang, Xiaoxiao is that kind of special physique, if you want this child, you have to be mentally prepared."
His mood after just a happy day fell to a low point, this is the first child he and Xiaoxiao, how much he hopes that this child can grow up safely. The family is happy and safe.
But God always makes this kind of joke, is it because he sees that he Zhang Yunjun is having a good time during this time, so he makes this kind of joke.
That day, he locked himself in his room, with his back against the wall, his head tilted, looking at the ceiling, and tears rolling in his eyes.
How could he be reluctant not to want this child, but if he wanted it, what should Xiaoxiao do, if Xiaoxiao had any accidents, he would never forgive himself for the rest of his life, and he didn't have the face to see Dad Lin.
He had never been so sad, sad, decadent, and helpless.
It was as if a century had passed on this day, he stood like this for a day, never moved, and when he got off work, he had to pretend that he had nothing to do, and went to pick up Xiaoxiao from work.
Seeing Xiaoxiao smiling like a flower like this, his heart ached faintly. How long will she have such a smile.
He hadn't made up his mind, thinking that that that would be enough. It is a day to be able to escape.
Xiaoxiao looked at Zhang Yunjun's back, her heart was like a knife, she just pretended to sleep and died, just to see his expression, but seeing his injured face, she still felt a faint pain, he was under more pressure than her, looking at him like this every day, what should she do.
He can't make a decision, so let her do it.
Thinking of this, she shivered at her thoughts, she couldn't leave him, and if she opened him, there would be no more joy in her life. She tried to find a way to get his heart back. What kind of difficulties can the two of them face.
The next morning, Xiaoxiao got up very early, Zhang Yunjun went for a run, and she made breakfast, although she didn't do it very well, but it was also a heart, and she tried her best to do her best.
She made breakfast and began to dry her clothes again.
Zhang Yunjun came back from running and saw two bowls of white porridge and a bag of mustard on the table. There is also a bowl of black fried noodles.
He twisted his eyebrows, and through the window, he saw Xiaoxiao's busy back, looking at Xiaoxiao like this, his heart ached faintly, and he walked out softly and helped dry his clothes.
The two didn't say anything, Zhang Yunjun didn't know how to face her. Xiaoxiao didn't dare to face him, how to please him, for fear that she would say the wrong thing. There were a thousand ways in his mind, but none of them worked for him.
Zhang Yunjun ate the breakfast made by Xiaoxiao, and suddenly spoke, "Xiaoxiao, don't make breakfast, let's make it for me." ”
When Xiaoxiao heard his words, she stopped eating porridge, continued to eat, nodded, and still had the same expression on her face, as if she had never heard it, but her heart was like a wave, and she felt very uncomfortable, did he dislike the breakfast she made was not delicious.
Why is she so stupid, she didn't even make a good breakfast.
"I see." Xiaoxiao said lightly. He lowered his head and drank the white porridge in front of him.
Zhang Yunjun couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief when he saw that Xiao Yesterday was not angry, he was afraid that he would be willful to the little girl, and he was not in the mood to coax her now.
His heart has been in turmoil for the past few days, and he doesn't dare to say anything in front of Xiaoxiao, he wants to be quiet and talk to Xiaoxiao again. Now, he's not in the mood.
He didn't want Xiaoxiao to be too tired, she didn't know much about the kitchen, he was used to doing it himself.
But Zhang Yunjun didn't know that Xiaoxiao had misunderstood what he meant. In Xiaoxiao's eyes, it's her Lin Xiaoxiao who can't even cook breakfast, so it's useless.
The two of them had their own thoughts, breakfast was quiet, and everyone was silent. Neither of them is a person of many words, and just like that, the atmosphere is very stuffy.
All with a sense of escapism. Everyone became cautious in their words. I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing.
All keep silent is the mentality that is golden.
Xiaoxiao didn't have much appetite, but she still resisted the urge to vomit, and slowly finished eating the bowl of porridge in front of her, she didn't want him to worry about her anymore, she was not a child anymore, and she was most afraid that others would say that she was a child and was arrogant. Even if you don't have an appetite anymore, you can eat it.
There were several times when I wanted to get up and wanted to spit out, but I held back.
Zhang Yunjun didn't pay attention to Zai Xiaoxiao's movements, he only cared about eating from his bowl, but he was thinking about other things in his heart.
The two of them finished eating breakfast in this weird gaze, and when Xiaoxiao ran back to the room after eating, they rushed to the bathroom, and vomited in the bathroom in a panic, and the yellow bile water came out, and she vomited all the breakfast she ate today, so that she felt a little more comfortable.
She changed her clothes, put on a light makeup, looked left and right in front of the mirror, and couldn't see her pale face before she came out.
Out of the bathroom door, showing a faint smile, this is what she has always pretended, the more sad and sad, the better she disguised, and there was no other unhappy expression.
It's the same as usual, it's just less talking than usual, and the usual twitter has become silent.
Zhang Yunjun just saw Xiaoxiao running quickly to the room, but when he saw her face come out calmly, his heart was also relieved a lot. He was really worried about her just now.
Xiaoxiao saw his eyes, showed a faint smile, stepped forward intimately, and took his hand.