Chapter 53: Confession
Luring the snake out of the hole?
And Xiao Geyan also said that there are certain risks, Bai Xue couldn't help but think of her previous few thrilling encounters, and suddenly she really felt a little upset and uneasy in her heart.
"Don't be afraid," Xiao Geyan didn't have to turn his head to observe Bai Xue's face, and he could also guess her current mood, "With me, it will be fine." I've thought about it, if I haven't led the snake out of the hole, I really choose to avoid it, which will push you into a dangerous situation, with me, the other party will choose some thunder and rain in order to get me away from you, and there will be no danger, so it will be safer for you. ”
When Bai Xue heard this, she understood and figured it out: "So you were ruling out the possibility that I was implicated because of your side, right? I'm sure it has nothing to do with you, so you can rest assured that you can boldly appear by my side, the purpose is to lure the snake out of the hole, right?"
"Yes, it's not right. Xiao Geyan shook his head, was silent for a few seconds, and let out a long sigh, "I did take a little time to confirm whether it was because of my side that something that threatened your personal safety, and I didn't dare to take any risks to approach you until I confirmed it." Now I dare to do it, and luring the snake out of the hole is part of the reason, and part of it......"
He paused, and Bai Xue's heartbeat also suddenly accelerated and then suddenly stopped, as if he was riding a roller coaster, and after the car rushed all the way to the top, he stopped there, and people who couldn't get up or down were hanging their hearts and fears, not knowing if it would be a surprise in anticipation or a kind of fright that they didn't want to hear. Bai Xue was secretly looking forward to it, but she didn't dare to let herself have too many illusions.
"I can't go back to the way I used to be. Xiao Geyan took a deep breath, as if to say this, for him, it is also a very courageous thing, "In the past, I liked a person very much, and I also enjoyed the time alone, because I lost my parents overnight when I was a child, so I have long been used to not being close to people, the more alienated, the more I don't have to worry about the blow and pain caused by losing again, my grandfather and grandfather are very good to me, but they are old, sooner or later they will leave me, friends...... For me, it is enough to have a noisy Qiao Guang, Qiao Guang sees the dragon all day long, and I will not form any dependence on his existence.
I always thought I was good alone, quiet, undisturbed, and I didn't lose anything. But in the last two days, I suddenly realized that being alone is a little quiet for me, and the pain of pushing that person away with my own hands is far more terrible than gaining and losing. If you get it, at least you can work hard to protect it, and if you push it away, there is no hope. ”
Bai Xue felt as if there was warm water, rising from under her feet, slowly flooding her chest, drowning her neck, drowning her entire head, she knew that it was her blood constantly surging upward, making her face red, even a little dizzy, as if she had just been drunk.
"Y-What did you say...... I don't understand. She stumbled, her tongue almost bitten by her own teeth, and her jaws became a little sour from the tension.
Xiao Geyan didn't talk right away, he slowly leaned the car to the side of the road, stopped steadily, and after parking, he turned his head and looked at Bai Xue, I don't know why, the man who is always as calm on weekdays is nervous at this moment, and every pore on his body exudes nervousness.
"I can explain a lot of things, I always thought that as long as I was exposed to everything, I would know the ins and outs, the causes, and so on, but I can't tell when it started, and why it became the way it is, the only thing I know for sure is that after meeting you, I will never go back to my old life. Xiao Geyan opened his mouth and said to Bai Xue, his voice seemed to be a little tense because of nervousness, "I only know that what I was most afraid of in the past was losing, and now what I am most afraid of is that I haven't even had the opportunity to go." You have made me understand one thing, I am no longer the little boy who has no ability to protect himself except for fear, I can not only protect myself now, but also protect the people I like and care about, so I have to work hard to fight for it. ”
After he finished speaking, he looked at Bai Xue with some nervousness and expectation, wanting to hear her response.
But after waiting for a long time, Bai Xue just sat there quietly alone, without saying a word.
"Bai Xue, don't you have anything to say to me?" he asked, a little apprehensive.
Bai Xue turned her head with some sloppy eyes and looked at him: "I...... My mind is a bit messy right now, I'm probably too tired, I want to go back and go to bed early......"
Xiao Geyan was slightly stunned, then nodded, didn't say anything more, and drove home without saying a word.
Bai Xue followed Xiao Geyan and returned to his residence in great silence, and after entering the door, he hurriedly said goodnight to Xiao Geyan and ran into the study, closed the door, and never came out.
Xiao Geyan waited in the living room for a long time in a daze, making sure that she should not come out again, so he went back to the room to rest alone with a little disappointment.
Early the next morning, Xiao Geyan did not go out for a morning run as usual, but made breakfast in the kitchen, and he didn't sleep well all night the night before, which was obviously not suitable for exercise.
When breakfast was almost ready, Bai Xue came out, and she was wearing a set of small flowers for sleepiness, looking a little sleepy-eyed.
"I dreamed of you last night, I dreamed that you said to me......" Bai Xue saw Xiao Geyan busy in the kitchen, so she walked over in a daze, and said to Xiao Geyan in a slightly vague voice, and when she was halfway through the words, she stopped, and her eyes widened all of a sudden, as if she had suddenly completely awakened.
Then, under Xiao Geyan's gaze, her cheeks slowly flushed.
"Actually...... I didn't dream about it when I was dreaming...... You really said those things to me last night...... Isn't that right?" she asked, her voice getting quieter and quieter, her tone full of hesitation and uncertainty.