After finishing the meal, he returned to the room, cleaned up a little, and went to bed, and Jin Lian fell asleep after a while. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Lying in the soft quilt and closing your eyes to feel the warmth of the quilt makes people unconsciously relieve the fatigue of the day, but the heart is too much to worry about and make people unable to sleep.

I remember the surprise when I learned that I was reborn, and now I learn that the world I have lived in for eight years is actually the masterpiece "Dream of Red Mansions" in my previous life, in a book, in an illusory world.

This kind of realization makes me very confused, I don't know which is the real me, is it the Qi Xingzhen who was full of enthusiasm and vitality, and then pale and bald lying in the ward that smells of potions, or this Qi Xinghua, who was only eight years old and was abandoned by his parents and sold into slavery, is me.

Thoughts like this have never stopped in the past eight years, but this kind of confusion is only for a moment, after all, I am not a real eight-year-old child; children will not have such mature thoughts, children will not have such cognition; I am Qi Xingzhen, the Qi Xingzhen who is lying on the hospital bed full of baldness and waiting for death.

I was scared, afraid that one day I would go back to that cold hospital bed. After a cry, I was abused by my father and my mother washed my face with tears, I knew that I was not loved by my parents, I was hungry, thirsty, and wanted to urinate and urinate, and I tried to endure it as much as possible, and when my mother was in front of me, I could eat, drink and lazar; when I was just able to crawl, my mother worked next to me and threw me aside, I didn't cry or make trouble with her, I just crawled silently on the side; I finally learned to walk after crawling for so long, and I helped hand this when my parents were working. When I was older, my parents were very happy when my brother was born, and of course they aroused me more often, and after that, I will not be counted.

I do so much just to live a good life, to live in this sunshine in good health. I didn't resent them, because they gave me this life and gave me a healthy body, and I could only do what I could to repay them.

But even I, who was so well-behaved and sensible, could not warm their cold hearts, and they sold me for silver.

Before that, I tried my best to please them, and after doing what I could do, I went to the back mountain to find some wild fruits or some firewood, in short, I never returned empty-handed when I entered the mountain, and I also got a fishing rod to go fishing, catch pheasants, dig loaches, and fish for yellow eels. In my previous life, I was a city girl, and I didn't know anything about growing crops at the Agricultural University, even if I had some ideas, it was useless for people to talk softly, so I could only follow the children in the village to find something that could add food. Children do these are with the idea of playing with the ingredients, and this is not long, these things are generally easy to find in summer and autumn, but it is difficult in spring and winter, especially in winter, there is nothing, but I will still go out twice a month with a fishing rod in the cold season, more or less always bring some fish back; It's not that the adults are lazy, but they know a kind of bait when fishing, earthworms catch crucian carp, and where to find earthworms in winter. In my previous life, my grandfather loved to fish and knew a lot of baits, and of course he made some bait, and I naturally knew a little bit about it, which is why I was able to catch different kinds of fish in different seasons. Since I made that fishing rod, my family has been eating a lot of fish, and the food is much better than before, and the people have grown better.

But even so, they still don't agree with me, in this era they are farming-oriented, I can't do farm work when I'm young, and what I do is not serious for them to think is just children's play. So the girl's me is still the one they gave up.

Knowing that I am going to leave and never come back, my brother is very reluctant to cry and very sad, that is natural, I get some delicious food every once in a while, in this era of rural children can be full of food, where can they still eat well, and every time I go out can bring good things back, I become my brother's Santa Claus;

When I was about to come, my mother took my hand and cried, and my father smiled at me for the first time, all of which made me feel cold, and I had never resented their hearts, but at this moment a trace of resentment rose. I'm not a saint, and I used to find all kinds of reasons to convince myself, but now I don't know what kind of reasons to use to convince myself.

When I left, I took my two old and torn clothes, and sat on the ox cart and followed the ox cart out of the village. looked at the family of three standing at the door of his house looking at me, and suddenly sighed: It turns out that I have always been superfluous, and my superfluous one is finally gone. Looking at the familiar village road, the familiar house, and the familiar figure standing in front of the house, it has been eight years, and I have unconsciously left two lines of dew on my face.

Far away from the remote mountain village, Renyazi took us to the outskirts of Jinling and settled in a courtyard. There are two grandmothers to ** us, a few days down naturally also our appearance ability to feel clearly, divided into a grade; I look average, ability is not bad, rare is that the grandmother found that I still know a few words, naturally is the best level.

I stayed in this yard for more than two months, during which I did not have to work hard, and the difficult training of the little girls was naturally a piece of cake for me, so I had my leisure, and boredom followed, and in this boredom I stumbled upon a pleasure, and it was this discovery that allowed me to find myself again.

I like to see the innocent and bright smiles of the little girls, I feel like I am bathed in the warm sunshine when I see their innocent smiles, but under this high-pressure training, everyone has no smiles, in this environment there is a bad taste of mine, I like to tease them when I have nothing to do, Jin Lian is one I often take care of, even if it annoys her, but she is angry and full of vitality everywhere also makes me happy; naturally I am not the kind of person who builds my happiness on the pain of others, every time after she annoys me, I begin to give her a smooth hairLater, she naturally knew that I was joking with her, and she wouldn't be really angry with me. This period of time was the most relaxing time in the past few years when I came to this world, and it was their smiles that infected me and made me overcome my fears, put aside my troubles, see hope again, and be myself again.

Although today's realization hit me, it didn't hit me.

Turned over and looked at the sleeping Jin Lian on the side and smiled, I just want to live in the moment, no matter where it is, even in an illusory world.