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Nana didn't speak for a long time, so she stood quietly for a while before she spoke: "Brother Yue, how can this be? Before hospitalization, my body was not like this, why did I stay in the hospital for almost two months, and this disease is getting worse and worse the more I look at it?" I can't figure it out. Tell me what's going on?"

"Nana, don't get excited, you have to stay quiet, calm down to wake up, let's sit down and talk slowly. I paused, pulled her to sit on the chair next to me, sorted out my thoughts, and then said: "What is cancer? I don't care how to answer those professional terms in medicine, I personally believe that the so-called cancer is a disease that cannot be completely treated by the current medical technology in the world. Your father was unfortunate enough to suffer from this disease. First of all, as a family member, you must have a full ideological understanding, we are hospitalized, first, we come with a slim hope of cure, that is, we hope that a miracle will happen to us, and second, if a miracle does not happen, at least the condition can be controlled and will not deteriorate, but this kind of requirement is also very difficult to achieve at the current level of medical care. The third is to delay the process of disease deterioration, so as to prolong the patient's life as much as possible, this method seems to be more popular at present, and hospitals are working hard. So although we have been in the hospital for nearly two months, it is not surprising that the world-renowned Professor Lawbon has not done the first point, and the second point does not seem to have done well, and he has not been able to control the condition. This is not to blame the hospital for not doing its best, because the current human power of this disease is very limited. As for the third point, delaying the deterioration of the disease and prolonging the life of the patient does not seem to be very good. Unlike traditional Chinese medicine, which treats people from the inside to the outside, from the human body to the spirit, from the daily diet to the mood regulation, and so on, it is a multi-faceted, multi-level, and three-dimensional comprehensive treatment. Although the effect is slow, it can play a greater role in delaying the progression of the disease and prolonging the life of patients. ”

Nana looked at me with blazing eyes at this time and listened very carefully.

I continued: "So when you father and daughter first came to me, I suggested that you should relax your mind, go out to travel and play more, and assist in the treatment of traditional Chinese medicine, the purpose of which is to delay the deterioration of the disease, so as to achieve the effect of prolonging the life of the patient as much as possible." It's just that as a patient and his family, when they find out that there is a 1 in 1,000 or even 1 in 10,000 hope for a cure, they will desperately want to seize it, which is understandable. ”

The meaning of this passage is actually only an allusion to the fact that the father and daughter want to grasp Professor Lawburn, which is a life-saving straw of 1/10,000, and it seems that they cannot save their lives.

When he had said that, I said no more.

Nana was also silent, as if she was thinking seriously.

At this time, the door of the emergency room opened, and the patient was slowly pushed out. Nana and I rushed forward, only to see Director Wu's sallow face, wearing a breathing mask, looking at Nana with difficulty, with old tears in his eyes, while Nana had tears on her face, constantly calling: "Dad, Dad".

Pushing into the intensive care unit, Nana was called into the medical office by the doctor, and I followed me with no worries. The doctor introduced the reasons for the recent recurrence of the condition, as well as the current physical condition of the patient, and issued a critical illness notice.

Nana was silent and didn't say anything. I held Nana's arm and cautiously walked out of the medical office, watching her quietly staring at her old father in the care room through the glass, and I felt very uncomfortable. I began to seriously think about whether I should go out and try the magic of blood exchange, but they didn't bring it up, and it seemed very inappropriate if I took the initiative to mention it.

It wasn't until the evening, after 12 hours of intensive care that nothing unusual happened, that the two of us were allowed to enter a person to visit the intensive care unit, which lasted no more than half an hour, and naturally Nana went in and saw her talking to her father, who had already woken up, and I waited patiently. When Nana came out, we were asked to leave the hospital and only be allowed to visit tomorrow afternoon.

Nana and I still haven't eaten water, hungry and sleepy, so I took her by the hand, walked into a restaurant, ate a little food, and went back to the hotel. That night, I didn't go back to my room, I stayed with her.

The next afternoon, when we arrived at the hospital, Mr. Wu had been sent back to his original ward, indicating that his condition was stable. Although Director Wu's complexion has not yet eased, his spirit has obviously improved, and we just sat down for a while, and then sent Nana out of the ward again.

I guess there's something important to talk to me about.

I saw that Director Wu stroked the hair that was no longer left, and then sighed, and then said: "Xiao Zhang, let you run so far to accompany me to a bad old man for treatment, if you can't eat well and sleep well, I have wronged you during this time." He paused.

I hurriedly said in real time: "Uncle Wu, don't say that, I'm very good, not only do I not have a little grievance, but I also have a lot of knowledge." I'm ashamed that I didn't do you any help, and I was left to the nurse to do all the work I should do, and I became an idler."

"What a good boy, when I saw you, I remembered that when I was your age, I only knew one thing all day long, and that was how to get a bite to eat so that I wouldn't starve to death. Alas......"

I didn't answer this time, I know it's just a prelude and there's a lot more to come.

Sure enough, he continued: "I have been a strong personality since I was a child, a person who values love and righteousness, and values face, although I have experienced a lot of hardships and hardships, but it is also those experiences that have made me more mature, and I have changed a lot over the years, but these character traits have not changed." I don't want to see those sympathetic and pitiful eyes, and I don't want to see the people who love me and the people I love, and I see the appearance of me lying helplessly struggling on the hospital bed, which makes both sides of the liver and intestines broken, and the pain is unbearable. To be honest, I'm not afraid of death, but I'm afraid of this situation. But for now, it seems that this scenario is not far off. ”

He sighed leisurely, looked out the window, and showed a determined look on his face: "Since death cannot be avoided, it is better to choose a dignified way to die."

When I heard this, I was shocked, what was this trying to do?

I followed his gaze and looked out the window, there was still a tall building on the other side, oh my God, this is on the eighteenth floor, isn't this thinking about jumping off the building to commit suicide?

Thinking of this, I hurriedly said, "Uncle Wu, don't think nonsense. Yes, as you said, there are many people who love you and people you love who are concerned about your health at the moment, such as Nana, if you have other abnormal thoughts, it will play the opposite role, not only can you not alleviate their pain, but you will share the pain equally between them, and you will also force their own pain to them, doubling the torture of them. You yourself are a hundred, and those who love you bear the double pain, think about it, can those who are not as strong as you bear it? Nana, for example, will there be unpredictable consequences?"

I also paused to give him a moment to think.

It took a while to hear a sigh: "Alas, it is so tiring for people to live, people not only live for themselves, but also for those who love you and those you love."

"That's right, your old sentence is too classic, and it shows the helplessness of life."

I struck while the iron was hot and continued, "I already told Nana yesterday what I think of your condition, Nana doesn't know if I talked to you?"

Seeing him nod, I continued: "Actually, you and I both understand that there is no possibility of curing this disease with the latest medical technology in the world, otherwise it would not be called cancer." So let's face the reality, just don't take chances, and do something down-to-earth that is conducive to delaying the deterioration of the disease and trying to prolong life. What do you think, uncle?"

"Well, I don't know what's wrong with me? Once again, I made the old mistake of not being able to think about it, not being able to see through, and not being able to let go. I feel like I'm an old man, and sometimes I'm really not as mature as you. He smiled at me.

As soon as I saw that Uncle Wu was in a good mood, I hurriedly smiled and said: "You are the person concerned, 'people are lost in things', this is a classic quotation summarized by the ancients." I was out of the way, and I was naturally able to look at everything calmly. ”

"You stinky boy, you're not a little modest. ”

I scratched my head embarrassedly and laughed dryly.

"Xiao Zhang, what you just said did shock me a lot, I can't let the people I love and the people who love me bear more pain in order to escape my own pain. Since it is impossible to cure the disease and control the disease, and this road is no longer possible, then try to prolong my life, as long as I can see my Nana get married and have children, I will be content, even if I am given another year of life, I will be satisfied. People will always die, and if they die for a year, they will also be earned. ”

Taking a breath, I heard him continue: "I have this disease, and few people know about it except for a few people close to me. Due to various reasons, this time I came to Hong Kong to see a doctor, I also kept it a secret from my superiors and the factory, and now this way, not only did I not see a good doctor, but I felt even worse. I know my own condition, and now the last hope falls on you, that is, you should use a dead horse as a live horse doctor. ”

Now that the words have been spoken, it's time for me to take a stand.