When Gao Shan shook a big circle, calculating that the time was almost up, and when he got home, he found that Wang Kenan had already left.

"What about people?" Takayama was a little surprised.

"Gone. Zhao Xiaozi was expressionless and panning for rice, exuding the dark emotion of "ignore me".

Gao Shan didn't ask any more questions, and it wasn't until they had eaten that the two of them slowly talked more, avoiding the topic of Wang Kenan, and the two could be regarded as having a good conversation.

Seeing that the atmosphere was just right, Zhao Xiaozi hesitated for a long time, and then Ai Ai called out to Gao Shan.

"Huh?"

"Well, it's afternoon...... I'm sorry. "A belated apology is better than no apology at all, and you can't let the two of them be estranged because of a little thing.

"What's going on in the afternoon?" The surprise on Gao Shan's face didn't seem to be fake, she really didn't react to what Zhao Xiaozi said at once.

"That's it...... After he came, I said what I said, and he said to you...... That's it. ”

Zhao Xiaozi said vaguely, and Gao Shan smiled indifferently: "I thought what was the matter, what is this, isn't it just that the words are said there, I know you didn't mean it." ”

"I didn't know what to think at the time, I just annoyed him and wanted to get rid of him. I didn't expect to bring you in when I spoke, I have no ill intentions. You...... Don't care. ”

Takayama sighed, "I thought there was no need to say this between the two of us. You told me not to care, but in fact because you cared, that's why you thought I cared too.

I...... I know what you think, if I hadn't experienced anything before, you probably wouldn't have taken such angry words to heart, and now it's night, but you apologize to me for this incident, I think you think I'll be haunted by your words because of what I have experienced?"

"I ......" Zhao Xiaozi was a little embarrassed and a little annoyed when she was told the central matter.

"Those things did leave a deep shadow on me, and I was even more helpless and frightened than you are now. You don't know how panicked I was when I somehow had a child, and you don't know how disgusting it was for me to get rid of that fate in order to continue my education, and how disgusting it was to pretend to live with that family.

I was disgusted with all people for quite some time, and I couldn't listen to any jokes for quite some time, but not everywhere in this world is darkness, and not all jokes are malicious.

By the time I decided to tell my story, I was no longer the thorny mountain that hid in a dark corner. So, you don't have to think of me as sensitive. ”

"I'm sorry, I ...... I, I'm not as good as you. Zhao Xiaozi wanted to apologize, but when she thought that Gao Shan's experience was more sad than her own, she was left with only a strong sentimentality and admiration.

"There is nothing as inferior, but the children of poor families are in charge of the house early, and they don't know much at that time, so they don't think much, so it's naturally easier to come out.

You...... Your family conditions are good, you grew up smoothly, you encounter great changes by chance, and it is normal to not accept it for a while, and you can not make noise or noise after waking up, but work hard to live, which is already very good.

I wanted to die many times at that time, and I even thought about dying with the evil obstacles in my stomach. But then I was very lucky, fortunately I didn't really die at that time, otherwise wouldn't this great youth be let down?"

In fact, Zhao Xiaozi didn't think about dying in the past, a girl encountered such a thing, although she finally escaped from the clutches of sin, but in the end, she suffered a huge blow to her body and mind, and she didn't want to face it.

What's more, Zhao Xiaozi often dreamed of the scene at that time, and the helplessness and despair at that time made her whole person depressed. It turned out that Hehua was afraid of water, and now even Zhao Xiaozi was afraid of water.

In the cold and biting lake, the torn pants, the messy clothes, and the gnawed wounds all reminded her of the fact that she was almost "forced".

The water poured into her throat, choked into her lungs, and the aquatic plants wrapped around her like the devil who dragged her down the swamp of death. It would have been nice if she had died at that time, but the process of dying was so long, and there was a moment when she regretted it, what could be more important than life.

Even if he is really resolutely strengthened, at least his life is still there.

Such a thought made Zhao Xiaozi feel very ashamed, and Hehua's words that provoked her seemed to be in her ears, she was indeed not worthy of Wang Kenan, and she was not worthy of his sincere efforts.

Because if he encounters such a situation again, Zhao Xiaozi may not have the courage to fight with his life. How can such a self be worthy of Wang Kenan?

"Gee, if only I had a little bit of wine at this point. Zhao Xiaozi sighed, and suddenly remembered that she and Gao Shan chatted late at night while drinking, and that feeling was really unforgettable.

"Want to drink?"

Zhao Xiaozi nodded.

"You have to recover well now, you can't drink. ”

Zhao Xiaozi looked at Gao Shan, the two looked at each other for a while, and suddenly laughed.

"In life, who hasn't been willful, drink it if you want. ”

"There was wine at home. Zhao Xiaozi said an affirmative sentence.

"I pinched my fingers, maybe I needed a little wine tonight, so I bought a few bottles of vinegar by the way. Takayama looked like a god, pinching his fingers and looking at the ceiling.

"Pull it down! it's just you......" Zhao Xiaozi looked incredulous, and then leaned over to Gao Shan: "Seriously, why did you buy wine?"

Gao Shan's eyes rolled: "If I say that it is to get you drunk and then find out why you have such a bad attitude towards Wang Kenan during this time, do you believe it?"

"Hmm......" Zhao Xiaozi also learned from Gao Shan and rolled her eyes: "Then now that your conspiracy has been revealed, what are you going to do?"

"Then I'll have to settle it, and I'll tell you when you figure it out. Takayama acted like he didn't care.

This made Zhao Xiaozi want to take the initiative to say what she thought. She thought for a moment, and then opened her mouth: "Let me make an analogy, before that happened, did you like anyone?"

Takayama shook his head.

"Well, what if, if you had someone you liked at that time, and he liked you very much, what would you do after that happened?"

"What else, that's it, as long as he doesn't dislike it. ”

"But, but...... However, how could he not dislike it?" Zhao Xiaozi muttered a few words in a low voice, but it was not good to think that it was not good to say this, after all, the mountain experience is special. So his heart was crossed: "Forget it, I'll just say it, I'm afraid that Wang Kenan will dislike me." ”

"Why does he dislike you? You don't have anything, isn't he as good to you as he used to be? Last time you said that I was afraid that he would dislike you, I was very strange, but it just happened that Dai Yiran's mother came, so I forgot to ask, what do you think?"

"It's just because he's treated me as well as ever, and I'm even more uncomfortable, and when I encounter something like this, how can he think that nothing has happened. But he acted like he was fine, and I think he should blame himself for the day.

I just think that he originally disliked me, but because of the so-called responsibility, he had to continue to be kind to me, and I felt uncomfortable all over my body. ”

"How do you know that he continues to be good to you because of responsibility? Actually, I think this matter has nothing to do with him to put it bluntly, he is good to you because he loves you, because he loves you, so he blames himself for not protecting you well.

With such a Wang Kenan, I really can't imagine that he will dislike you, not to mention that you would rather die than rebel against the ...... Well, if you resist him, Wang Kenan will only love you more because of this, how can he dislike you?"

"Is that really the case?" Zhao Xiaozi thought thoughtfully.

Takayama's version is indeed a little different from Hehua's account. For the fact that he almost lost his innocence, Hehua is very strict. She repeatedly told herself that such Zhao Xiaozi was no longer worthy of anyone.

She is like a feudal patriarch, who rudely regards the victims who should be comforted as a family shame.

But Gao Shan told himself that his actions should be respected, because in order to preserve his innocence, he chose to pay with his life.

With such a comparison, Zhao Xiaozi felt that something was wrong, but she didn't figure it out for a while. Hehua's thinking is a little strange, but thinking of the two of them, she will not deliberately harm herself, she can only say that Hehua's values are different from modern people, so she cares so much about this matter.

Seeing that Zhao Xiaozi fell into deep thought, Gao Shan covered his mouth exaggeratedly: "You have been such a demon during this time, don't you think that you are not worthy of Wang Kenan to deliberately drive him away?"

Zhao Xiaozi was a little embarrassed and nodded awkwardly.

"I think you're really sick, not light. You don't even want your life for him to protect his innocence, he will only feel sorry for you and love you because of this, how can he dislike you?!"

"Oops...... I just haven't turned a corner for a while...... That, by the way, what about the wine?" Zhao Xiaozi quickly changed the topic.

"You still dare to drink? You forgot how it happened? It's all because you promised him to drink with him!"

Gao Shan's words were indeed very deterrent, Zhao Xiaozi shrank back when she heard this, but she really didn't dare to drink it.

"Hmph, I know you don't dare to drink it, that's right!"

"Who knew there would be a problem with that wine, I watched him open it in front of me. Hey......"

"I can only say that you believe in him too much......"

"By the way, the doctor said before that you have * residues in your body, and it seems that you are still ingesting them one after another, this ......" Gao Shan didn't say anything behind, she naturally believed that Zhao Xiaozi would not take the initiative to eat * by herself, but the facts were in front of her, and she couldn't refute them.

"I'm also curious, Dai Yiran doesn't have so many opportunities to drug me, besides...... He didn't have to. Although he was emotionally repulsed by Dai Yiran, and wished that all the sins would be pushed on him, reason still prevailed over emotion after all.

Zhao Xiaozi knew that this matter should have nothing to do with Dai Yiran.