This night was very tiring, I was always thinking about it, always calculating. I was deliberately talking to my co-workers in the hope of finding someone I could help with. But apparently, I overthought it. I was like being in the middle of a mountain stream, trying to grab a life-saving straw. But I couldn't catch it, or even touch it.

The phone was always off, and I didn't have the courage to turn it on. I know that whenever I turn on my phone, I keep getting very bad calls. I was exhausted and didn't have the ability to face it. I rarely run away like this, and I know I can't run away for the rest of my life. I knew that I would have to face all this unhappiness and unhappiness in the end. If I could, I really wanted to never turn on my phone for the rest of my life. However, I realistically found that this was simply not possible.

It was nearly eight o'clock in the morning, and I was riding my bicycle and waiting for a green light at an intersection when I turned on my phone. After a few dozen seconds, this dead thing-like thing began to remind me how many missed calls there were, and then I received a message: Don't answer the phone, right? I know that your daughter-in-law is setting up a stall there, and if you don't pay back, I'll look for your daughter-in-law!

The green light was already on, but I didn't tread forward. I stopped where I was, letting the horn sound behind me. I feel like the world has stopped, the world has perished. Before my eyes, it was dark. The dozens of hours of relaxation I had asked for were now being exchanged for endless pain.

I pushed my bike to the side of the road and sat down on the flower base on the side of the road. With my phone in my hand, I unconsciously turned it over to one call after another, and my mind was in a mess. Despair welled up in my heart, suppressed by me, and surged back into my heart. I was pressed down and came back to my heart.

I know that your daughter-in-law is setting up a stall there, and if you don't pay back, I'll look for your daughter-in-law!

The screen on my phone was last stuck on this message. I don't want to face it, but I have to face it, and I have to face it now. After hesitating and making up my mind, I dialed the phone number on this message. The phone rang for a long time before the other party's faint voice came: "Who? so early?"

"It's me, Lao Zhang. ”

I tried to be as calm as I could. "I'm sorry to wake you up so early. ”

The other party was silent for a while, obviously taking time to react: "Lao Zhang... It's on?"

"Yes. I responded, "There's something wrong with my phone, and it has just been repaired - Mr. He, I'm really having trouble here." See if you can do this, I'll pay you back 5,000 yuan first, and the rest, give me a little time, and I'll think of a way. ”

The other party was silent for a while before he said, "Everyone has difficulties, and we can understand them - we also have our difficulties." Lao Zhang, it's not that I don't want to sympathize with you, but if this drags on like this, when will you be able to pay off the tens of thousands of yuan? To be honest, we have no confidence in whether you can repay this money at all. You know, we believed in you. But you've dragged it over and over again, so we can't believe you... ”

"I know ... ”

I'm speechless.

"You pay back 5,000 today, when do you plan to pay back the rest of the money?"

I listened, hesitated.

The other party waited for a long time, and then sighed on the phone: "Let's call five thousand first--for your initiative to call me, I'll give you some time." ”

After the other party finished speaking, he hung up the phone.

I hung down my hand holding the phone weakly, and I couldn't feel the presence of my body when I sat on the flower base—now I had to call the 5,000 yuan, but after calling the 5,000, it would be impossible to pay back the fixed 8,000 yuan per month today. It's going to be a nightmare, and it's going to come to me soon. It's not the first time I've learned the ways of those people. They will only be more and more brutal each time, but they will not make any concessions for your reasons. In their consciousness, if you are an hour late in repaying, it is not allowed. And today, it is the date when the repayment must be made. After 11 p.m., if I still haven't managed to repay the full amount, my phone, don't expect a minute to stop ringing. If I don't answer the phone, or don't pay the loan right away, they'll call my daughter-in-law, then my relatives, then all my friends. And this is not the first time this has happened. But in any case, I don't want to get things to the point where they are.

--But what can I do now?