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Summer has passed, and autumn has come.

The sun was soft, there was not a hint of wind in the air, and the surroundings were quiet.

I suppressed my agitation and tried to sit quietly under the shed, the westerly sun shining on my lower body and reflecting on the corner of the tabletop.

"Sir, would you like to change the table?"

A waiter came up and looked me up and down, perhaps surprised by my shabby dress, but he asked me if I had asked for it.

"No need!"

I nodded at him and replied with some awkwardness. I tried to stand up, but eventually sat back in my chair.

"Waiting for a friend?"

The waiter then asked me, and I nodded.

"Got you some coffee?"

When I heard this, I hesitated, after all, it sells more than 40 yuan a cup of coffee, and I was really delirious to agree to my friend to meet him here.

“。。。。。。 No more!"

"Sir, this coffee you ordered can be refilled—unlimited refills!"

I paused for a moment and looked at the waiter a little blankly.

The waiter smiled, "Do you need to refill the glass?"

I nodded. The waiter politely bent down to me, then turned and walked to the store. This café is located at a crossroads, stuck between two streets, the area of the shop is not large, but there are several Western-style tents on both sides of the sidewalk, and the tables are scattered among the flowers and plants, which is also elegant.

I saw the waiter walk into the store, and when I got to the counter, I whispered to the barmaid. Before I could see the barmaid look in my direction, and then write something on the bar. After a while, the waiter came out with a cup of coffee. I couldn't help but feel uncomfortable and smiled at the waiter. I think if I could, I'd take out even ten dollars from my body as a tip. But I didn't, I didn't even have ten more bucks on me.

"You use it slowly!"

The waiter put down the cup and turned away, not dragging his feet at all.

I stared at the cup of coffee on the table and was silent for a long time. I was thinking, I don't need a cup of coffee, I'm ashamed, I need more. But I'm not sure if anyone can help me today, and if not, I'm going to have a hard time getting through the day. I wanted to do whatever it takes, but I couldn't, we couldn't do it as a family, and I couldn't do that for the sake of my children.