Tough every minute in the past. The money was divided into two payments, and I had to go to the ATM, deposit the cash, and withdraw the other one in WeChat. After putting together these hateful banknotes, I transferred to a designated account. A few minutes later, the other party sent a message confirming that the money had been received. I was relieved.

After resting in front of the bank for a few minutes and smoking a cigarette, I called my daughter-in-law and told her that she could go home and that the matter had been resolved. She asked me about the money I borrowed from. I said don't ask about it. She sighed on the phone and told me to go home early for dinner.

I propped up my heavy head and walked home with a lot of thoughts, smoking cigarette after cigarette. During this period, Lao Li called me again. He asked me if I had called, and I said yes. He asked me again if the matter had been resolved. I said solved.

"Is it all?"

Lao Li's tone was very hurried.

I was silent for a while before I replied that it was not, only this month.

Lao Li immediately became angry: "I'm not sure what to say about you." Helping 10,000 is also helping, helping 50,000 is also helping, you will always owe favors... You, oops!"

I was silent, afraid to speak. I thought to myself: 4,000 can help, but if it is tens of thousands or even tens of thousands, it will become very difficult.

"Alas... ”

My old friend sighed one last time, and then his tone softened. He told me on the phone to go home early, don't think about it so much, anyway, the soldiers will come to block it, and the water will come to cover it. Now that's it, it's only one step to see and one step to go.

"I know. ”

I answered and hung up. This problem is now solved, but I know that there are still many problems that are all about money, and there will be countless storms and waves in the future. Either way, my family and I have to deal with them. Our income is not enough to cover our expenses, even if we are busy day and night, and we are seriously overdrawn from our physical strength and energy every day. But this situation will not be resolved in the short term. I get calls every day to collect my debts. I also try to answer every phone call, and I don't want to accidentally trigger irreversible results, so I deal with it carefully. Now and in the distant future, I can only do my best to balance this vicious circle. This kind of integrity collapses, and the days of public judgment and divorce will take at least three years, or even five or ten years. I am in my forties, and the failure and pessimism of my whole life have been irreversibly planted. I have no second path to go but to accept.