Chapter 41: Talking
When Hehua returned to school, it was almost seven o'clock. There are almost no pedestrians on the school's paths, and Hehua is not in a mood to walk on such a lonely path. She didn't pay much attention to whether the person who was following her was still there, she felt that there were some things that she had to think about and understand.
In fact, as early as noon, when he had dinner with Abin, He Hua felt a little inexplicably sad. For Abin, she doesn't know what kind of emotion she has.
He was his savior, and he thanked him, but his appearance had another purpose, and he often teased himself, and logically speaking, he should have been extremely disgusted with him, but he gaged and laughed in front of him, and he couldn't hate it at all.
And he is clearly a person with a story, and he and Abin are actually people from two worlds.
"Xiaozi, is it really you?" A familiar voice came from behind him, and it turned out to be Peng Peng.
All along, Peng Peng has always called himself Hehua, and he didn't call himself Xiaozi coldly, and Hehua was a little unaccustomed: "Peng Peng, it's so late, why are you still outside?"
"I ...... I'll come out to breathe......" Hehua's voice trembled a little, I don't know if it's because the wind is too cool at night.
As Peng Peng approached, He Hua smelled a faint smell of wine: "Have you drunk?" According to her own understanding of Peng Peng, she is not the kind of person who will touch wine easily.
"Well, I've drunk a little bit, I'm a little unhappy, do you want to drink it? I bought several bottles, and I can't finish them alone. Peng Peng raised the bag in her hand, and He Hua found that there were several bottles of canned beer in it, as well as some lo-mei that she usually loved to eat.
"Hmm...... Okay...... "I haven't drunk alcohol since I came to modern times, and I say that getting drunk relieves a thousand sorrows, and I don't know if this beer has this effect."
"Huh?" Peng Peng was a little surprised: "Are you really drinking? Are you also in a bad mood?"
"Let's go, let's find a leeward place. Hehua took the lead in moving forward.
Peng Peng followed two steps behind: "Okay, I don't want to stay where there are people either." ”
Both of them had a clear goal, and after a while, they found the back door of a school building and slipped in. This is the building where they usually attend classes, and the uncle who guards the door has never been very loyal to his duties, which just gives the two of them an opportunity to take advantage of.
Sitting in the classroom on the first floor, the two did not dare to turn on the light, so they began to drink with the dim street lamp outside the window.
After drinking silently for a while, Peng Peng suddenly spoke: "Hehua, what does it feel like to like someone?"
I don't know why, Hehua's mind suddenly appeared like Abin, and she shook her head: "I don't know either." ”
"I used to like him, I felt that as long as I liked him, it was enough, whether he liked me or not, I was happy. Peng Peng's tears fell without warning: "But I am still very unhappy when I see him with other girls." ”
He Hua was a little dizzy by Peng Peng's likes and dislikes, but he understood strangely, so he silently spoke: "Probably liking someone is happy and painful!"
"Hehua, have you ever liked someone?"
"Probably not, the order of my parents, the words of the matchmaker, I will not and cannot easily like anyone. ”
Who knew that Peng Peng was a little scoffing: "Xiaozi, you must know that Hehua is not real." I'm asking Xiaozi, Xiaozi, have you ever had someone you like?"
He Hua was a little dizzy after drinking, and he didn't notice the abnormality in Peng Peng's words, and he was blindfolded, still shaking his head. Xiaozi patronized and studied, and her mind never let go of other places.
"Also, who made you a scholar!" Peng Peng lowered his head and muttered in a low voice: "Do you know, I think my liking is very humble." He smiled at me, I could be happy for a long time, the clothes he praised casually, I couldn't wait to wear them every day, and I could silently ponder every afternoon what he said casually. Hehua, I feel like I'm poisoned. ”
"You are poisoned, although a woman should take her husband as the sky, but she can't lower herself to the dust. Do you expect anyone to respect you? Hehua's cheeks were flushed, and although she had only a bottle of beer, she had never drunk a little unclear.
"But how can it be equal!" Peng Peng covered his face: "He is so good, I am so ordinary, I am destined to only look up to him." ”
"Where are you ordinary? You are innocent and lovely, kind and pure. How many people can't envy this!" He Hua pulled away Peng Peng's hand and looked into her eyes: "Peng Peng, how do you know that you are ordinary in his eyes?"
Peng Peng looked at Hehua, although she kept nodding her head, but her tears still fell uncontrollably: "But I don't know anything except eating, my studies are average, and my growth is average." I am destined to not get his attention, his love!"
"Actually, I have been telling myself not to fall in love with him, but I can't help it! I know that liking him will not lead to anything, but I still like him!" After speaking, Peng Peng covered her face and cried again.
"Women should be self-reliant, have all these years of study been in vain? Since you know that you are ordinary, wouldn't it be good to make yourself better!" He Hua said loudly, with unprecedented firmness in his tone.
"I ...... I ......, "Pengpeng I haven't said anything for a long time, and I still cry." Love that doesn't see hope, even if you make yourself good, has no motivation.
Such a fragile Peng Peng made Hehua a little sad, you must know that Peng Peng has always been a big grin in front of her, as if she has always been very happy, she never knew that one day her tears would flow out like she didn't want money.
Pale and weak comfort, or don't talk about it.
He Hua opened another bottle of wine and drank it silently, Peng Peng was tired of crying, and he also took the wine and drank it. At that time, the two naturally didn't know that this was the first and last time they sat together as friends and drank together.
"You say, since you know that two people are impossible, then say it, even if it is rejected fiercely, it is better than crying alone and being sad!" He Hua opened the window of the classroom, and the wind outside the window mixed with cold moisture blew in, and He Hua couldn't help but shiver.
Peng Peng seemed to be cleared up by the cold wind: "After all, there is still one last bit of fantasy in his mind, what if he also likes himself a little? Or, if he gets along for a while longer, will he have feelings for himself." ”
"Yes, so, I'm a sane person, and after knowing that the two of them were impossible, I immediately said it and withdrew in time. You are an emotional person, knowing that the two of you have no results, but you are still so persistent. Pengpeng, why are you doing this?" He Hua turned to look at Pengpeng.
Peng Peng smiled relievedly: "Yes, I am an emotional person, destined to be a moth to the fire." ”
He Hua didn't know why Peng Peng was laughing, but he couldn't help laughing, yes, he was a sane person. So, let's do it, cut off the only budding good feeling, the long pain is better than the short pain.
The laughter of the two of them was a little inexplicable, this ordinary beer really relieved their worries, at least, it wouldn't hurt so much.
"Let's go, let's go back. Peng Peng suggested first.
He Hua looked at Peng Peng's bright eyes, and didn't know if she had figured it out, so she asked, "You've figured it out, are you ready to let go?"
"No, I like him. In the past, as long as I liked him, it was enough, but now I have found that love is selfish, and I hope that he can like me too, at least, I hope that I am a special existence in his heart. ”
"So, you won't give up?" He Hua didn't know why he was a little envious of such a Pengpeng, he had never been able to dare to love and hate like her.
"I think you're right, since you know that you're ordinary, it's better to be better, and you always have to work hard to live up to your affection. The energetic Peng Peng is back: "I want to lose weight, I want to change my image, and I'll do my hair tomorrow." Didn't you suggest I dye this short hair and make it into a curl last time?
He Hua smiled: "Okay, I'll accompany you, I'll help you witness your transformation!"
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When the two of them returned to the dormitory, the alcohol had almost dissipated, after all, it was only beer and they hadn't drunk much.
However, Zhang Li was not in the dormitory, and He Hua was a little surprised. But it's clear that she has been living out a lot lately, and she should have a new boyfriend.
It's just that they didn't expect that the two of them were already lying down, seeing that the door of the dormitory was about to close, but Zhang Li came back.
She didn't seem to be in good spirits, so she went into the bathroom without saying hello when she entered the door, and after a while she came out and got an ointment or something like that. It took a long time to come out.
He Hua wanted to care about Zhang Li, after all, it was a dormitory, and she didn't look very good during this time. But when I opened my mouth, I still forgot it, I didn't understand my own affairs, and how could I care about others.
It's just that when he inadvertently saw a shocking scar on Zhang Li's chest and neck, He Hua felt that something was wrong. Originally, the wound was relatively secret, and it was generally invisible, but at this time, Zhang Li had just finished taking a bath, her pajamas were relatively loose, and she only saw it when she lowered her head.
She observed Zhang Li without a trace, and sure enough, she found that Zhang Li's walking posture was a little abnormal. It's like, walking for the sake of normal walking, but in fact there is an indescribable weirdness.
I glanced at Zhang Li's handbag on the table again, it was a bag of a famous luxury brand, and there was a bag faintly in it. If it was usual, Zhang Li would have taken it out to show off a long time ago, why is she so silent today?
You know, Zhang Li has to talk for a long time when she buys a bag at the stall, even if it's fake, she won't say anything. But if it is true, with the conditions of Zhang Li's family, it is unlikely.
I don't know why, He Hua thought of that man again, Zhang Li and Chen Jingwei had seen her get into that man's car on the day they fought.
Does all this have something to do with this man?