"From the first day of my senior year of high school, I had a hunch that this year would be extraordinary. I've also doubted myself, and I've told you who I really am. ”

"I'd love to know how you transformed that year!"

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This year's summer vacation is very short, because it is about to be the third year of high school, and in order to get into college, you have to race against time, and the school shortened the summer vacation by one month and started early.

On the first day of school, everyone gathered around the honor roll in front of the teaching building, three floors inside and three floors outside. It turned out that a major news, in the final exam of the second year of high school, Yang Lingfeng won the second place in the whole school! In the past, it was just an article and a flute, but now it is a title of excellent character and learning, and the scenery is infinite.

Lin Xiao's grades have improved, but they are still not outstanding, think about next year's college entrance examination, in such a backward school, such ordinary results, how can he do well in the exam, and walk out of this poor ravine? I remembered that Yang Lingfeng copied his own mathematics, and now he is a figure of attention in the whole school. He is annoyed, he is not convinced, he wants to fight for himself!

The seats in the class were rearranged, and Lin Xiao chose the first row in the middle, which was the first time he sat in the first row since he was studying. Obviously, when the head teacher saw it, he was very unhappy and thought: You deserve to sit here like that, and the scenery is ruined!

"You don't know you're tall, the students in the back are all blocked by you, change seats!" said the head teacher impatiently.

He had no choice but to choose the first row on the left side by the door, the place where students must pass to enter and exit the classroom, few people are willing to sit here, people come and go, affecting attention, and it is very cold to open the door in and out in winter. He just wanted to sit in front, he didn't dare to slack off any longer, he thought that fate might be decided in this year.

From the first class of his senior year of high school, he listened attentively, took notes, memorized, practiced, corrected mistakes, and made up for what he was behind.

Half a month after the start of school, Yang Lingfeng suddenly found him.

"I was going to make a strong alliance, but I couldn't get together with Ye Wenwen (the first in the school), Jia Yaohui and Liu Guobao, and I felt a lot of pressure, seeing that your seat is good, I want to change seats with you, how about it?" Yang Lingfeng said to him in a condescending manner.

"No, I don't change. Lin Xiao said coldly, with a hint of disbelief in her eyes.

"I'm really inferior to you, don't get me wrong!" Yang Lingfeng blushed and said.

The two looked at each other. Lin Xiao's cold air was pressing, and Yang Lingfeng's expression was fierce.

Yang Lingfeng saw that Lin Xiao had no intention, so he walked away.

Not only did Lin Xiao disobey him, but some people in the class also disagreed with him. The first is that he is now a little fluttering, too flamboyant, and condescending; the second is that he feels that he looks like a decent man and a gentleman, but in fact he is hypocritical and sleek, and is good at taking advantage of people. Chen Jun and Yang Lingfeng got closer, this person prefers flattery, wooing relationships, thick-skinned, and eloquent, usually the two of them have loud voices in the class.

But after all, the foundation is poor, except for mathematics, other subjects are usually very difficult to do, and even have a lot of mistakes.

When he gave up on himself, he thought of his family again, sadness, despair, and came to his heart, and Lin Xiao began to doubt life again.

He remembered the last time he spoke to his mother. In the autumn of the first semester of his sophomore year of high school, that afternoon, he had just walked out of the village and was on his way to school.

"Three babies, three babies!" his mother suddenly called his name from behind.

Lin Xiao turned around and saw her mother holding her schoolbag, staggering, and walking towards him. The sunset shone warmly on the mother's face, kind and gentle.

Lin Xiao hurriedly ran over.

"Your school bag. Baby, study hard, Mom is waiting to enjoy the blessings......" Mother said with a smile.

"Mom, I will, go back quickly!"

Lin Xiao took the schoolbag and burst into tears after speaking.

This is a rare sobriety of the mother, and she even knows that her son forgot to take his schoolbag. After the mother delivered the school bag, she turned around and went back.

Looking at his mother's fading back, he couldn't cry. He didn't expect that this would be a farewell to his mother.

That year, my father went out to work, and my mother had a severe cold, and she couldn't afford to get sick, no one took care of her, she had a high fever that didn't go away, and finally she went insane. Seeing people beating and scolding, crying, laughing and laughing, when the disease occurred, it was very terrifying, and no one dared to approach. When my father returned, he burst into tears. The family was already poor, and in order to send their two children to school, they were reluctant to spend money, so they casually found a doctor, but they were not cured, and finally gave up treatment. Every time Lin Xiao goes home, it is difficult to face the reality in front of her, and her mother, who was once amiable, has now become like this. Withdrawn, fearful and sorrowful, washing his face with tears. I was so sad that I forgot to take my schoolbag when I went back to school. Unexpectedly, his mother suddenly sobered up, chased him out of the village, and personally sent him a schoolbag......

One night that winter, he was reviewing his homework, and suddenly the uncle in the school communication room called him out and sent him a message, and his family asked him to go back, there was something going on at home. Lin Xiao asked what was the matter, and the uncle said that he didn't know, just go home and take a look. That night, Lin Xiao stayed awake all night, and she was very anxious.

Early the next morning, I got in the car home and went along the mountain road, zigzag. When he arrived at the entrance of the village and saw a cousin, Lin Xiao anxiously asked what was going on at home, and the cousin also said that he would know when he went home.

When he returned home, he saw his mother's cold body......

He summoned up his courage and wrote to Han Bing to tell him that he had lost his mother.

This letter was suddenly so serious, and it was difficult for Han Bing to calm down for a while. I'm not a hard-hearted person, and I understand your pain. People have joys and sorrows, and the moon is cloudy and sunny. If you can't change the reality, you can only face it strongly. Your mother used to say that she was waiting for you to get into college. Although she is no longer there, she will look forward to you in another world to get out of the mountain village and realize your dreams...... You have to fulfill her last wish, when things don't go well, talk to Han Bing more, and I believe I will help you untie the knot......" Han Bing replied.

"I bought you a tape, and when you're in a bad mood, you can listen to it. ”

Lin Xiao received the cassette sent to him by Han Bing, which was piano music.

Lin Xiao borrowed a tape recorder and hid under the covers every night to listen quietly. "Autumn Whispers", which must be listened to every day, comes to mind such a picture: in the fields in the evening, the autumn leaves are scattered, and everything is contemplative, lonely, and desolate. The nostalgia for the vitality of spring, the nostalgia for the lush foliage of summer, and the continuous desire for life...... There is strength in the lowness, energy is accumulated in the sadness, and the accumulation is thick, waiting, looking forward to the next spring......

One weekend, there were few people in the class, Yang Lingfeng, Chen Jun, Wang Haiquan, and a few of them were fighting in the class.

Lin Xiao's study was affected, so she simply stopped studying, walked between them, and sat down.

"Lin Xiao, this hair is very energetic, I'm making up for you a few times!" Chen Jun noticed that something was wrong, looked at his messy hair, and said.

After saying that, he took the comb and went up to comb his hair.

Lin Xiao sat on the chair, her eyes closed, her face expressionless, and let Chen Jun play with it at will. Chen Jun deliberately combed his hair more messy and funny, but at this time, everyone was silent and stared blankly.

Chen Jun saw the cold scene, so he smiled and said:

"Look, two people are happy!"

Lin Xiao opened her eyes, clasped her hands into fists, made a "thank you" gesture, got up and went out with her head held high. A few of them were stunned: looking at this posture, it seemed that they had declared war on them! There was a bit of disdain in their eyes.

Two months later, in the midterm exam, Lin Xiao was a sensation and took the first place in the class.

However, the letter sent to Han Bing was not answered for a long time, and they lost contact.

……

"I'm really happy for you, you got into the university as you wished!"

"No, a twist and turn is yet to come. What about you? I want to know what happened and why we lost contact?"