In San Francisco in winter, the temperature is still quite low at night, and Natalie walks briskly in front, biting her lip and feeling numb.

The secret that had been hidden in her heart for a long time was suddenly revealed, and Natalie's first feeling was shame.

After playing this killer is not too cold, some film critics and fans also wonder whether she and Jean Renault really have feelings.

But Natalie is so precocious that she knows very well at a young age how scandalous it will be if she brings the emotions of the character into her life, and even ruin her own life.

Therefore, she tried her best to suppress this feeling in her heart, and at the same time pushed out all similar roles, such as "Lolita". And deceived everyone with her superb acting skills, including herself.

Once she felt the urge to feel this emotion in her heart, Natalie devoted all her energy to acting and studying, forcing herself to be busy and not having time to think about these issues.

And outside the play, she tried her best to make friends of the same age as herself. Even last year, I dated a fifteen-year-old boy. But a boy of the same age is too naïve, so naïve that she can't bear it.

Until that day, I met Zhang Chen at Stanford.

Although Zhang Chen is slightly older than her, he is basically the same age, but his behavior makes her feel similar to an adult.

And Zhang Chen's achievements also make most adults look up to them. Although Natalie didn't have any special affection for Zhang Chen, after thinking about it, she felt that she could try to date.

Maybe you can untie the knots in your heart?

But I didn't expect that the secret that I tried to hide in my heart was revealed by Zhang Chen, and he said it so firmly.

The Castro Theater was very close to Lombard Street, with Natalie walking in front and Zhang Chen following behind, and it didn't take long to reach a hillside on Lombard Street.

Zhang Chen panted and said, "Nat, you're walking too fast." ”

Natalie panicked and quickened her pace, San Francisco is a bit like Chongqing in some places, and there are many undeveloped open spaces in the city, and the vegetation is very dense.

Natalie's feet slipped, stepping on a slippery rock, losing her balance, and she was about to roll down the hillside.

Zhang Chen hurriedly stretched out his hand and pulled Natalie, who was about to fall, and said to the frightened Natalie: "Nat, don't be nervous, I won't tell anyone!"

Natalie crouched against the trunk of a cherry tree and gasped, and Zhang Chen also walked over to her and sat on the ground.

Natalie suddenly whispered, "How did you guess?"

Zhang Chen blurted out: "Meng." ”

Natalie thought that Zhang Chen was perfunctory to her, so she turned her head sharply and looked directly at Zhang Chen with a straight face.

Zhang Chen smiled bitterly: "It's really blind, it's just that the relationship between you and me is too inexplicable." ”

What Zhang Chen didn't say to Natalie was that he suddenly thought that Natalie's husband in his later life also met during the filming of "Black Swan", and the two also fell in love because of the play.

With this clue, plus the clues found after knowing Natalie for so long, it is not difficult to guess the heart of this girl who has just turned sixteen.

Natalie also squatted on the ground, covering her face with her hands, and said in a voice like a mosquito, "Zack, I'm sorry. ”

Zhang Chen leaned on the grass, his elbows on the ground, and looked at the stars in the sky: "Nat, there's nothing to be sorry for, in fact, I want to thank you." ”

Natalie looked at Zhang Chen slowly, her eyes a little confused: "Thank you?"

Zhang Chen chuckled: "Yes, in fact, what I can't figure out is not only how you feel about me, but also how I feel about you." ”

Zhang Chen paused, put his hands under his head, and looked up at the stars in the sky, "I have someone I like, but I feel that I can't help but be attracted to you, this incident bothers me very much, and it also makes me wonder if my attitude towards love is too scumbag and irresponsible." ”

Natalie's look of surprise faded: "So I became your litmus test?"

Zhang Chen thought for a while: "Not really, it's just that when I found out that you didn't like me, I was quietly relieved." Then, I realized that my feelings for you may be more attracted by the aura on you. ”

Natalie made a sad face: "Aren't you afraid that I'll be sad when you say that?"

"Haha, how could it be, Nat, you probably don't know how attractive you are. I can now recall the flutter I felt when I felt like you had feelings for me. ”

Natalie also followed Zhang Chen's example and lay on the hillside, "I was really shocked when you said those words to me in the movie theater just now. ”

Natalie tilted her head to Zhang Chen's side, "When I was acting in that movie, I was just a little girl and didn't understand anything. But I'm now a professional actor, and I'm starting to understand that empathy in this kind of role is very common. But I just can't forget this relationship completely, it's like a scar in my heart. Every time it was about to heal, it would itch, and I couldn't help but scratch it, until the flesh and blood of the scar were blurred, but it never healed. ”

Zhang Chen smiled: "Let me tell you a story, in Huaxia, there is a director who made a gay film." But the two actors he chose were both straight men, and the two actors were not suitable from the beginning to adapt, from twisting and pinching to dry firewood. After filming this film, the director called the room that played No. 0 to himself. asked him not to see the No. 1 again for a few years, because the director found that the straight man who played No. 0 showed signs of turning when he made this film. ”

Natalie was intrigued and giggled, "And then, are 1 and 0 together?"

Zhang Chen shook his head, "I don't know, and I don't know the true mood of the two when they meet again later." Within a few years, the two got married, had children, and had their own families. From the perspective of a bystander, they should have come out of this twisted relationship. ”

Natalie smacked her lips, "It's a shame. ”

Zhang Chen turned his head to look at her: "If two straight men are bent by a movie, it will be a pity, right?"

Natalie argued, "It's also possible that true love knows no gender, race, or age. ”

Zhang Chen smiled: "There is a saying, although I don't completely agree with it, but I think there is some truth: whether it is a man or a woman, the shelf life of love is only 36 months at most, and generally two people are tired of being together every day, and when they reach 18 months, even if they are affectionate and sweet before, there is no love." If they continue to be together, it means that they are influenced by the combined effects of responsibility, habits, family affection, social opinion, etc., and there is no love. ”

Natalie took a piece of dead grass and swirled it between her fingers, and Zhang Chen looked at her: "If you feel that you can't get out of it, I have a solution, it will definitely work." ”

Natalie tilted her head, "What's the solution?"

Zhang Chen said slowly: "Go tell him, and then really be with him." ”

Natalie was taken aback: "This can't be!

Zhang Chen smiled: "The more you can't get something, the more people think, there is an old saying in China: a wife is not as good as a concubine, a concubine is not as good as stealing, and stealing is better than stealing." If you are obsessed with someone, then the best way to forget about him is to be with him again. Because when the time comes, you will find that what you will never forget may not be this person, what you like may not be this person, what you can't forget is the feeling that you like him. ”

"If you don't forget, there will be an echo. ”

Don't scold in a hurry, and keep looking.

These chapters are very important transitional chapters that cannot be left unwritten.

Whether it's a person's success or career, if it's just how many companies you open today, how much money you make tomorrow, and it becomes a pile of numbers, it won't be interesting.

(End of chapter)