Chapter 60: Life in Distress
Lin Xiao came from a poor and backward small mountain village, and after a lot of effort, he was finally admitted to university, but he encountered all kinds of unfair treatment, experienced setbacks, and was finally discovered by his teacher, and made up his mind to abandon science and art, so as to be "a graduate student".
This kind of experience is enough to make the world curious about Lin Xiao's ability to achieve these achievements that do not match his age and identity background. When one examines Lin Xiao's work, one is indeed amazed at his talent and amazing creativity in art......
At such a young age, many painters have taken the glory of their lives, is he really God's favorite?
Wutong Mountain Art Town is a gathering place for artists from Sanchuan. The streets and alleys are full of galleries, antique shops, studios, art institutions, academic exchange centers and so on.
Lin Xiao finally rented a house in an inconspicuous alley, simply decorated it, placed furniture, bought various items for painting, opened his own studio, and began his career as a professional painter.
Lin Xiao, who is just starting out, although she has made remarkable achievements in school, is a learning stage after all, and real work and life are cruel.
From school to society, there needs to be a transition stage in mentality, and at the beginning, Lin Xiao will often be lost, and even feel that she can't find her future and direction.
I don't adapt to life, and when I leave the campus, in addition to painting, I also need to deal with all kinds of people, from academic peers, industry elites, to local ruffians, charlatans, everything, mixed with fish and dragons.
Usual expenses, monthly rent, all kinds of personal contacts, and the pressure of life hit, Lin Xiao faced it for the first time, and she was a little panicked in her heart.
It is not enough to cut down on food and clothing, bear hardships and stand hard work, under the wave of commercialization, the customer acceptance of their works, the recognition of businesses, market positioning, etc., this is a complex and difficult topic. The academic standard is high, and it does not necessarily have a good market price. Vulgar and shallow cultural garbage, after speculation by merchants, may be sought after by the market, and the price will soar.
Embarking on the road of a professional painter, Lin Xiao had to face these obstacles and overcome these problems.
Artistically high and arrogant, Lin Xiao is unwilling to please the market, cater to the public, and lower his artistic standards.
There are few buyers, all kinds of expenses, no source of funds, and life is poor.
From an ambitious artistic genius to a helpless street painter, this gap, such a sadness, deeply tormented Lin Xiao.
Painting poems all day long, but life is not poetry, life is firewood, rice, oil and salt.
Lin Xiao remembered that Fang Xiaoqing had lived in the basement, Wang Haiquan had slept in the train station, and Chen Jun had slept in the park, this is the life dilemma faced by these college students who came out of the countryside without background and resources when they first entered the society.
The family's incomprehension, lack of support, and contempt made Lin Xiao even more heartbroken and cold. However, he is a stubborn man, and he must fight for himself!
Grit your teeth and persevere, only in this way can you see hope.
A month later, Wang Haiquan suddenly called Lin Xiao and cried that Ming Guiyan had broken up with him...... Ming Guiyan is nowhere to be found......
The two big men who were depressed met and Wang Haiquan bought a case of beer, and the two were drunk.
Wang Haiquan experienced being abandoned by his girlfriend for the second time, and he was haggard and had no desire to live. Lin Xiao couldn't do anything but comfort and encourage.
Both remembered their last dinner.
A month before graduation, Lin Xiao, Xue Bing, Ming Guiyan, Wang Haiquan, the four of them drank together, full of wine and food, all four of them were very excited, talking about future plans, Lin Xiao said:
"I plan to become a professional painter while studying for a Ph.D. and start my dream of being an artist. ”
Xue Bing lay sweetly on Lin Xiao's shoulder and said:
"I want to accompany the great artist and be his virtuous helper!" he smiled happily after speaking.
王海泉 says:
"Talented and beautiful people, you are really a perfect match! Cheers to your beautiful dreams!"
Four people raise a glass and drink together.
Lin Xiao looked at Ming Guiyan and asked:
"Guiyan, what about you, talented female designer, how are you going to raise our Haiquan brother?"
Lin Xiao amused everyone.
Ming Guiyan said with a smile:
"I'll stay in Sanchuan and work hard with Brother Haiquan! Find a stable job, make money, support a family, and then buy a small house, and then get married......"
王海泉 says:
"Okay, stay in Sanchuan, I'll support you! I'm responsible for making money to support my family, you just care about being beautiful like a flower! You must be absolutely loyal to my goddess and never let you suffer!"
Lin Xiao smiled:
"Okay, toast to your little happiness!"
……
The originally planned good life was wiped out in the blink of an eye.
Wang Haiquan refused to speak for a long time and kept drinking.
Lin Xiao finally stopped him and asked:
"Haiquan, what's wrong, why did Ming Guiyan suddenly break up with you?"
Wang Haiquan finally spoke:
"I was on a business trip a few days ago, and she took me to the airport and said that I would go to eat Western food together when I came back. But when I came back today, I found that there was no one in the house, so I called her and turned off the phone. In the end, I found a note left in the house, saying that she couldn't bear the current life and didn't need to contact her again......"
In advance, Ming Guiyan also complained a lot about Wang Haiquan's low salary, but in the face of this sudden blow, Wang Haiquan couldn't accept it and couldn't face it.
He cried:
"In Beizhou, I was dumped by my ex-girlfriend, she was admitted to the graduate school of the National Academy of Sciences, and I was thought I was incompetent...... I'm such an incompetent man!"
After saying that, he smirked like a madman.
Lin Xiao forgot her troubles for a while and comforted:
"Haiquan, don't be discouraged, she may have other reasons for not telling you. ”
Wang Haiquan shook his head.
Lin Xiao said:
"You are talented, start from scratch, you can use your spare time to review for graduate school entrance examinations, continue your studies, and find a better job in the future......"
Wang Haiquan still shook his head, his eyes were blank, and he couldn't stop crying. The two innocent and lovely girls have left him, but he takes them seriously and takes good care of them every time, why is it all ending like this? He can't see what hope there is in the future, and he doesn't know what to do.
Lin Xiao called Fang Xiaoqing and Chen Jun again to comfort him and encourage him, but the effect was not ideal, and Wang Haiquan was hit too hard.
Lin Xiao has experienced too many blows from high school, college to graduate school, and the once fragile heart has become strong and tenacious, and the current frustration and depression are only temporary.
Wang Haiquan has been smart since he was a child, simple and kind, and the more he invests in love, the deeper he is hurt.
Wang Haiquan had no intention of working, sat listless in the office, hung his head, and then simply stopped going, and was finally fired by his boss.
Lin Xiao, Fang Xiaoqing, and Chen Jun worked together to fund his living expenses, hoping that he could cheer up, and finally got better, changed jobs, worked during the day, and prepared for graduate school at night.
However, he started to play hard in college, and after working for a few years, he couldn't change his lazy habits, and he couldn't do it anymore without distractions, concentrated, and experienced two love blows, his brain was always distracted, and he couldn't control not playing games.
A few months later, Wang Haiquan failed the graduate school entrance examination, and his dream was shattered again. Think about how you used to excel and have excellent grades, but now you are in a mess in the graduate school entrance examination, love, career, and studies, all failed miserably, and you are useless, and you see other classmates' careers getting better and better day by day, self-blame, pain, despair, and finally mental abnormality, nowhere to be found......
The leader of Wang Haiquan's company saw that he had not come to work for many days and the phone could not be reached, so he called the police.
The police contacted Lin Xiao, Fang Xiaoqing, Chen Jun and several other classmates, saying that Wang Haiquan was missing, hoping to find clues, and also gave them feedback that Wang Haiquan was mentally abnormal when he went to the company the last time......
After many efforts, the search was still fruitless.
In the end, Wang Haiquan's family also came to Sanchuan, only such a college student came out of their village, so many years, so much effort, and so much hope, it turned out to be such a result, unable to face it, crying to death...... Wang Haiquan has been missing since then......
Lin Xiao often talked to Xue Bing on the phone, often reporting good news but not bad news, he didn't want Xue Bing to know that he was in an embarrassing situation now. Xue Bing was far away in the United States, lonely and helpless, remembering the good times he had with Lin Xiao before, and washed his face with tears.