Zheng Xiyi and Park Shin Hye just left Li Wan next to them and chatted enthusiastically.

Li Wan was depressed for a long time, and finally couldn't help leaning over and raising his hand to knock on Park Shin Hye's head, "Ah! Are you this girl coming out with me or here to accompany Xiyi, what does it mean to leave me aside!"

Zheng Xiyi and Park Shin Hye looked at Li Guan, glanced at each other again, clapped their hands and laughed together, and said in unison: "Ha, I finally can't help it." ”

"You two guys!"

Zheng Xiyi smiled and patted Li Guan's arm: "Brother Xiangzhu, that's right." It's true that we haven't seen each other for a long time, but it's not so far away that we want to say honorifics, and it's good to be like this now. ”

Li Wan finally understood completely, his face suddenly turned red, and he said to Zheng Xiyi embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I thought too much." ”

Zheng Xiyi shook his head and said, "No need to apologize, it's just that I haven't seen each other for too long, so there is a sense of estrangement, I can understand it." ”

Park Shin Hye pouted and said, "Xiang so OPPA always thinks too much when he doesn't need to think, but he never uses his head to think about it when he needs to think, you are still a year older than Hee-yi OPPA, I think it's better to ask Hee-yi OPPA for advice in the future." ”

Li Guan was so angry that he shouted: "Ah, whose sister are you, you will rebel into Xiyi's sister in a moment!"

Park Shin Hye grimaced, "I'm Tae Hee Oni's sister, because I always feel ashamed to introduce others that I'm the younger sister of Xiang so OPPA." ”

Li Wan was so angry that he screamed, but he couldn't say anything about Park Shin Hye, who shrank on the other side of the sofa and covered his mouth.

Zheng Xiyi watched the two of them laughing, and felt a warmth in his heart, this kind of warm brother and sister friendship was very familiar to him, but it had long since dispersed, Zheng Xiyi couldn't help but secretly wonder, when did he stop playing with STELLA without scruples?

"Xiyi OPPA?

I don't know how long I thought about it, Zheng Xiyi suddenly had a hand shaking in front of him, and he recovered from his daze, only to see Park Shin Hye stretching out a hand in front of him, calling his name in his mouth.

"Ah, I'm sorry, I suddenly remembered something else and got distracted. ”

Park Shin Hye looked at him with some concern, her mouth opened slightly but stopped a little hesitantly, Zheng Xiyi looked at her suspiciously: "What's wrong? You can say whatever you want, don't think too much, I won't be angry." ”

Park Shin Hye looked at Zheng Xiyi in embarrassment, but did not speak, and turned his head to look at Li Wan as if asking for help.

Li Guan hesitated for a moment, but his character was indeed straightforward and had fewer scruples, so he put down the coffee in his hand and said to Zheng Xiyi with a serious face: "Xiyi, are you not feeling well today? When we saw you outside just now, we felt that your face was not very good, and your mood did not seem to be very good, and I felt very melancholy." ”

"Hah, melancholy, me, how is this possible!"

Zheng Xiyi screamed a little exaggeratedly, but Li Wan and Park Shin Hye both looked at him worriedly, just nodded but did not speak.

Zheng Xiyi slowly put away his smile and frowned, "Uh, okay." Actually, I was sitting here alone just now, thinking about what happened to me today, and my mental state seemed to be wrong. ”

"Mental state?" Park Shin Hye's body suddenly tensed.

She is actually a fan of Zheng Xiyi, and she knows Zheng Xiyi's personal information very well, and when she heard Zheng Xiyi say that there was something wrong with her mental state, she immediately thought of something, leaned over and approached Zheng Xiyi to carefully check his face, and her round face was full of worry with baby fat.

"Hehe, don't worry, it's not that I'm sick, and I haven't been sick, it's just that today I'm not the same as usual. ”

Zheng Xiyi stretched out his hand and kneaded Park Shin Hye's drifting sea, "Usually, I plan to spend the day in strict accordance with the time I have already set, but when I came out of the company at noon today, I suddenly didn't want to do it as planned, but wanted to find someone to eat with me." I searched for half an hour and couldn't find anyone to accompany me, so I came to Myeongdong by myself, had a big meal, and then didn't know what to do. I just walked to the front of this coffee shop, so I came in and sat down to do a psychological analysis for myself, and suddenly changed my habits, I was bored and wanted others to eat with me, and I didn't make plans after eating, which is not me at all. ”

Li Wan and Park Shin Hye looked at each other, not knowing what to say, and the three of them all quieted down.

After a while, Park Shin Hye opened her mouth with difficulty and said, "Heeyi OPPA, although I don't know much about psychological analysis, I think the habits you are accustomed to are abnormal......"

Zheng Xiyi said, Park Shin Hye continued: "We are all artists, and the daily itinerary has been set up for a long time when we work, which is normal, but if a person plans and arranges his daily life every day like a work schedule, and strictly implements it according to this schedule, this is not life, do you see every day of your life as work?"

Zheng Xiyi's pupils contracted instantly, and he kept asking himself in his heart, do I really regard every day I live as work?

Park Shin Hye saw that he had a comprehension, and suddenly his mood was not so nervous, and he was able to say a lot of things that he didn't dare to say at first, "Tae Hee Oni once talked to me about OPPA, and I remember that Ernie said the most was that Hee Yi is a robot. I have seen all of OPPA's interviews, so I know that OPPA will make a plan of what he will do every hour for every day of the week and then spend the next week according to that schedule. Although OPPA's acting skills are definitely famous acting, in fact, OPPA is more like acting in daily life, and more like a person when acting. ”

Although Li Wan couldn't quite understand what Park Shin Hye was saying, he quickly reached out and pulled her sleeve when he heard the last sentence, "Ah, how can you talk to Xi Yi, how can you say that Xi Yi is more like a person when acting." ”

Park Shin Hye shook off Li Guan's hand unconvinced, and continued to say to Jung Hee-yi: "Hee-yi OPPA, you are very lonely today and want to have dinner with friends, and if you can't find a friend, you run to Myeongdong to eat a set meal to comfort yourself, but you never thought about what to do after eating, this is the way of life of normal people." If you don't believe it, if you ask Heung-so OPPA, when he's not working, he wakes up and knows what he's going to do every hour today? He doesn't decide what he's going to do next until after breakfast, and even more often he doesn't know what he's going to do. ”

Zheng Xiyi looked at Li Guan and couldn't help laughing, he was the oldest of the three, but he was the one who was shot the most.

Li Wan didn't know what Zheng Xiyi was laughing at, so he touched his face hesitantly, and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"

Zheng Xiyi laughed louder when he saw his cute look, and Park Shin Hye also laughed, Li Wan could only look at these two relatives who suddenly became nervous.

As the laughter subsided, Jung Hee-yi smiled and said to Park Shin Hye, "Thank you, Shin Hye." Although there are some things you said that I don't agree with, I must admit that you are right, I seem to really regard my life as a job, I have been playing myself, I have been making myself have to follow the path I have drawn by myself, and the slightest deviation cannot happen, this is really not like a person, Sister Tae-hee is right, I am a robot. ”

After speaking, Zheng Xiyi stood up and solemnly gave Park Shin Hye a 90-degree bow, which scared Park Shin Hye into jumping up, bowed 90 degrees in return, and said in a panic: "Ah, Hee-yi OPPA, I'm just talking nonsense, nonsense, don't take it too seriously." ”

Zheng Xiyi reached out and pulled her up, pressed her shoulders and let her sit back on the sofa, then sat down and said to Park Shin Hye: "Actually, I have found the reason why I am not in the right state today, just when I was chatting with you just now." But what you just said is also very important to me, I have restricted myself too much, and I have set too many rules for myself, which is not good, very bad, and I will change it. ”

Park Shin Hye's eyes lit up, "Really? Heeyi OPPA, can you build your official fan station first?"

"Uh......"

Zheng Xiyi's smiling face suddenly turned into a bitter gourd face......

Because Li Guan still had to buy Christmas gifts for his family, he said goodbye to Park Shin Hye after a few more chats, and watched Park Shin Hye, who got his mobile phone number, bouncing away, Zheng Xiyi couldn't help but shake his head slightly.

What Park Shin Hye said actually has nothing to do with Zheng Xiyi's wrong state today, but she did point out Zheng Xiyi's big psychological flaws.

Zheng Xiyi has always used strict methods to restrain himself and make it easier for him to survive in this world, because he has always felt that he may be erased by the world one day because he changed history, and he has no sense of belonging to this world.

Forty years of ordinary life in his previous life made him never believe that he was actually reborn and crossed over, which is completely a miracle. Although he didn't show his fear, in the deepest part of his subconscious, he was extremely afraid of the power that made him reborn and cross, because he didn't know what else this power would do to him, and he didn't know what he had to do to continue to live, so he carefully tried to play his role well, this character called Zheng Xiyi.

His purposeless behavior today is only because he has doubts about the way he handles STELLA, which in turn leads to doubts about the way of life and the principles he has always adhered to, just like the reaction of normal people when they doubt their lives, they are blind and do not know what to do, in summary, Zheng Xiyi is confused about his life......

After drinking the coffee that had completely cooled, Zheng Xiyi walked out of the coffee shop with a smile. He saw the shadow of himself and STELLA from Lee Wan and Park Shin Hye, and also found a way to get along with STELLA, and at the same time, he completely got rid of his subconscious fear.

Because he finally understood that the fear of the unknown is human nature, but fear has no meaning, is it not that fear will not die? Will he live like a train that never delays every day? Will he not die? Everyone does not know when and why he will die, and since they will all die the same, what is the difference between dying in the obliteration of the world or dying of natural old age.

Go to his sister's rebirth, go to his sister's crossing, go to his sister's miracles, I am Zheng Xiyi, Zheng Xiyi who belongs to this world!

(I've written this chapter myself, it's too philosophical, and it's very winding, if you don't understand it, please ignore it, I can really only express so much...... ）