After this incident, Weng Lao began to teach me how to socialize. He took me to buy luxury goods, took me to learn to ride horses, played golf, took me to wineries for wine tastings, saw art exhibitions, and he even took me to play sports cars.

These things are like Pandora's box to me, who has never only known how to learn. For the first time, I knew, wow, there is such a wonderful side to the world!

However, after the initial novelty had passed, I realized that I didn't like socializing. Talk to people who are complete strangers, pretend to be familiar with the weather, talk about the recent trend of the wind. Everyone expressed "their own" insights and ideas like endorsements, which made me feel extremely tired.

Over time, I feel like we are all like puppeteers printed in a mold. Weng Lao also found out about this, so he no longer accompanied me to those drinking parties, but let me go alone.

Without the protection of Weng Lao, a girl from a foreign country quickly attracted a lot of messy people.

They were polite at first, just constantly showing their gentlemanly demeanor and seeking my favor, but slowly they began to do everything.

They don't even use the low-level methods of drugged drugs and alcohol, they kidnap, intimidate, and even frame and splash dirty water.

There's nothing I haven't encountered, only what you haven't thought of.

Those days were a nightmare for me, if it weren't for Weng Lao appearing in time every time, maybe I would have become a slave of a certain second ancestor or a courtesan of that class by now.

In order to scare me, they once let me see with my own eyes their carefully trained xing slaves: they were tethered like dogs, licked their master's feet, and in front of everyone, they were all over their bodies, posing in various poses, and stuffing all kinds of foreign objects into their bodies at the request of their masters......

The man who captured me threatened me, intimidated me, and told me that if I didn't agree to his girlfriend, he would turn me into such a xing slave!

This is the country that claims to be just and fair, and in such a clean city, there is such a filth.

Then I escaped, and then Weng Lao helped me to catch him, turned the man into a eunuch in front of me, and let go of the poor women he had trained.

Weng Lao told me that this world is inherently unfair, so we must make ourselves strong as soon as possible, only when we are strong, can we enjoy the fairness of this world, and can we change this world.

I understood, I understood, so I tried my best to make myself stronger, I learned everything, I studied everything, I learned more skills, I knew more ways to hurt people, and I also knew more ways to hurt people.

I learned how to use guns, I learned how to make improvised weapons, and I learned how to use poison.

I managed to protect myself and my friends. But Weng Lao told me that these were not enough. He said that I was a kind child and that my abilities should not be used only to protect myself.

I should protect more people.

But you should know that no one can protect everyone. So when I found out about this fact, I was devastated.

Do you understand the feeling of being disillusioned? It's like something you've been doing for so many years, and at the end of the day, you find out that it's a joke.

I was led forward step by step by Weng Lao, and I became more and more powerful under his training. But I lost the meaning of life.

I'm no longer the Zhao Xiaozi who only knows how to learn. I learned about the wider world, I knew the dirt hidden in this world, and I didn't allow me to live like a blind man.

I want to change something, to change this unfair world, to change this unreasonable system.

Weng Lao said, then, you go and change! He began to tell me about China, his story in China, and his efforts to change.

It is a pity that China is more unfair, more unreasonable, and more indifferent than the United States. The efforts made by Weng Lao are meaningless, this country is like a rusty machine, under the tide of the times, it is working hard, but after all, it is only surviving.

If it really can't be changed, it's not my fault, it's because it's too old, and we should be the forerunners of the times and sweat, tears, and even blood for it.

I have always believed in Weng Lao's words, and until now, there are many things, and I still follow his teachings. However, I am deeply puzzled and repulsed by his destructive theory.

I can't destroy this rusty machine, it's a lot of unbearable, unfair and unreasonable, but this is the motherland that gave birth to me and raised me, even if he is not good, he still plays the role of a mother.

I'm annoyed, I'm bored, I'm confused.

Especially after the incident in Xizhou Province this time, it turned out that Weng Lao was not wrong. Those mountain people, ignorant and ignorant, who are dragging the country back, and those traffickers, who are selfish and indifferent, completely disregard the innocence and misfortune of those who have been abducted.

Those officials who collude with the underworld are attached to the interests of the country like maggots on the tarsal bones, and they suck the blood of the country and the people like leeches.

But why, are they not punished?"

Zhao Xiaozi incoherently recalled those unbearable pasts, thinking of the things she was forced to face and endure, and tears finally poured out like a broken embankment.

For three years, she was too tired. She pretended that nothing had happened, played the role of a good girl, took the highest scholarship, and followed Professor Peter to do research.

But in fact, she was forcibly put on a third eye by Weng Lao, and he forced her to see the darkness of this world, which was unfair, unjust, and unreasonable.

There's no way for her to go back to the way she used to be.

Gao Shan didn't expect that Zhao Xiaozi would change so much when she went to the United States, and was forced into this situation step by step by a person who trusted her as an elder, but she couldn't collapse in a foreign country, she didn't dare to collapse, she could only pretend to be like someone who was fine, how painful it should be!

"I really didn't expect it......" Gao Shan sighed a little dryly, she really couldn't think of the things that Zhao Xiaozi encountered, the spy is so far away, so far away...... It's like acting in a movie.

"I know there's something wrong with me, big problem, and my mind is too extreme right now. When I see something that isn't good, I want to destroy it. I always thought that maybe if it was destroyed, the world would be a better place.

But a voice in my heart told me that this is not the case, many things, if they are destroyed, they will be completely gone. I'm not God, and I'm not qualified to destroy those things...... My heart is struggling violently, high mountains, I'm so tired......"

Gao Shan hugged Zhao Xiaozi and stroked her back a little helplessly. She has never seen such a Zhao Xiaozi, in her mind, Zhao Xiaozi has always been confident, dazzling, and peaceful.

But she knew that Xiaozi needed herself so much, she had to say something.

"Xiaozi, listen to me, you're right. A lot of things, we destroyed, and they were completely gone. We are not God, we are not qualified for that.

If you look at the villagers who came to the meeting, they are indeed very ignorant and ignorant, and many of them are very excessive and shameless. But are you really going to destroy them?

Why don't you want to change? Think about it, didn't the things that Weng Lao taught you try to change at the beginning, and then destroy them if you can't change them?

We just need to be a little more patient, and as you said, change doesn't happen overnight. Which of those reforms did not take years or even decades?

Is it just because we spend more time that we are going to wipe them out completely, and if this continues, how many perfect people will there be in the world?

Some of what Weng Lao said is indeed very reasonable, but it is also too extreme. You were too innocent to recognize the sinister nature of this society. However, this society is not really only sinister, we still have a lot of positive energy.

You see, although we don't know the effect, isn't it just to bring hope to the ignorant villagers by going to the mountains and going to the countryside? Isn't this a kind of warmth?"

Zhao Xiaozi nodded, indeed, she followed Gao Shan and them to the mountains and countryside during this time, and at first she really felt that there was no doubt, and she wanted to destroy it all the time. That's why she came up with the idea of giving up those old stubbornness.

But when Takayama and the others immediately came up with a complete solution, she thought it was not bad. It's slower, but it's clear that the effect is predictable.

In addition to destroying it, it can indeed be changed, but it requires some patience.

"You see, you can do so many things, much more powerful than us ordinary people. With patience, you can do more and go farther than we do. Just be patient and don't be as greedy as we used to be. The more Takayama spoke, the smoother it became, and his eyes changed from helplessness to a confident glow.

Zhao Xiaozi was infected, and couldn't help asking, "Really?"

"Of course!" Gao Shan bowed, "We will see a lot of injustice, we can't take care of everything, but even if one out of ten things changes because of your appearance, it is a good thing." ”

"Change one out of ten?" Zhao Xiaozi smiled bitterly: "I have learned so many things, can I only change one?"

"Of course it does, it's just up to you how you use your skills. Gao Shan suddenly thought of something, and suddenly looked up: "By the way, I have thought of a task that is especially suitable for you!"

"What?"

"Didn't you learn to communicate? So you must know how to deal with those noble ladies?! Don't you want to change, look at the villagers, just give them a chance, they can change!

This time, you go with me to meet Luo Cheng's mother, and you are responsible for lobbying those noble ladies to get more donations, more jobs, and more educational resources!

In this way, you will not help one or two people, but over there-" Gao Shan pointed in the direction of the mountain, "all the people!"

Zhao Xiaozi's eyes lit up: So, can you change it directly without destroying it?