Chapter 65: I actually love you very much
The night grew darker and darker, and the whole city seemed to fall into silence all at once.
Mi Luo sent the slightly drunk Du Yan back home safely, and thoughtfully brewed a glass of honey water.
"I'm not drunk, I'm really not drunk, I'm just happy. Du Yan took the water and took a sip happily, looking at Mi Luo beside him with an attached gaze.
Subconsciously moved to the side, avoiding her gaze, "You rest! It's late, I'm going home." ”
Du Yan's cheeks became more and more red, and he bit his lip lightly, "Don't go back tonight!"
The facial muscles trembled slightly for a moment, and he resolutely stood up, "I'm leaving, you can rest!"
Got up quickly and stood on tiptoe to kiss Mi Luo shallowly, kissing him softly on the lips.
A trace of panic flashed between her eyes, Mi Luo didn't move, looked at Du Yan who had closed her eyes in a daze, and let her warm lips press tightly, until she obviously felt that her breathing was becoming more and more rapid, and then he reached out and hugged her into his arms, calming her eagerness, "You're drunk, rest early." ”
Du Yan's crimson cheeks revealed disappointment and sadness, and he pressed against Mi Luo's chest, "The reason why you agreed to be my boyfriend is because you feel that you owe me a lot." ”
Gently brushed her ear hair, "I never start any relationship easily, especially for you, so since we have become lovers, we will definitely be responsible for our relationship, and we all need time to get used to it." ”
"Okay, I'll give you time, you can go back! I have to go to work tomorrow, and I want to rest. Du Yan left his embrace, "I'm going to take a bath, I won't send you, you go home!" happily turned around and walked to the room, but the corners of his eyes gradually moistened.
Everything on the earth was shrouded in the bleak moonlight, Mi Luo skillfully parked the car in the parking space, quickly turned off the fire, closed his eyes and exhaled deeply, and got out of the car with a heavy heart.
"You don't seem to have given me a toast today to show your gratitude, did you?" Yan Mu appeared beside him with a large bag of beer.
"Have you drunk?" Milo sniffed her full body of wine, her eyes scattered in her sad pupils.
"For the sake of me trying my best to help you get the recording file, drink with me!" Youyou smiled, snatching back the tears that were about to burst into his eyes, and went straight forward and pulled the locked car door.
Mi Luo swallowed the saliva in his throat, pressed the car key, and hesitantly got into the car.
The sky was pitch black, as if it had just been dyed with ink, and the occasional few stars seemed to be a few bits of light as the mellow moon streaked across the sky.
The wind on the rooftop blew his clothes and shook wildly, and Yan Mu stretched out the open Wang Laoji to Miluo, "I'll drink, you drink!"
Mi Luo hesitated to take it, looking down on the whole city lonely.
"The first time I came, you had a high fever and I carried you to the hospital, the second time I came, you got drunk and I carried you to your door, this is the third time, I was drunk, can you carry me home?"
The corners of Mi Luo's mouth couldn't help but flash a hint of playful ridicule, "What? There is still a task, don't put me to death, swear not to give up, right?"
"But I really don't think I'm doing anything wrong, why can't you put yourself in my shoes and think about why. ”
"I said that because I think from your point of view, I will, I will destroy myself and the Xinyi Gang, I have long known that you are a policeman, but I am very firm in believing that our relationship can overcome everything, and I am very firm in thinking that you will remember even a little bit of love in us. ”
"Mi Luo, I'm also embarrassed, I'm also sad, but I'm a policeman, I have to be very sober to analyze the right and wrong, weigh the pros and cons, the Xinyi Gang has affected the entire society, how many innocent people have been hurt directly or indirectly, haven't the families of your brothers been persecuted, what kind of organization is the underworld, you should know very well, 7 years ago. ”
"So, do you want me to make a pennant to thank my great predecessor?" said Milo sarcastically.
"You have to be so yin and yang when you speak!" Yan Mu asked angrily
Mi Luo grinned, "Otherwise, what do you want me to say, from the beginning to the end, this relationship has been imagined by myself to be too beautiful, I am self-inflicted, I misunderstood you, I regard your indifference and neglect of this relationship as your way of loving me." "There are tears in my eyes" How can anyone love each other like this, the love that is put to death has always been my self-deception. ”
Tears couldn't help but slide down: "In this relationship, my compromises and sacrifices are both. ”
"Sacrifice, oh, your first time, right!" Milo's jaw shook violently, "Your first time was just a bait you used to trick me, if your target wasn't me, your first time would be given to someone else, you." "Swallowed the words in my throat" It doesn't make sense to say these things now, I will redouble my efforts to care for my love with Du Yan in the future, I hope I don't see each other again. He turned around indifferently, paused, clenched his fists, and his vision was filled with mist.
"I wish you all happiness. Yan Mu raised his voice.
The feeling of colic suddenly hit his whole body, and Mi Luo rubbed his trembling fingertips and walked straight to the corridor.
A long string of silent tears slipped down Yan Mu's face and dripped down his neck embedded with scars, which was so cold that he couldn't help but tremble.
A month later, in the early morning, the sun spread over the entire windowsill, Yan Mu stumbled out of bed, rubbed his sleepy eyes, looked at everything full of life outside the window, and couldn't help but be happy.
In this unspeakable month, Yan Mu was glad that she had defeated depression again, just like 7 years ago when she made up her mind to be with him and tried to defeat depression alone, she was not devoured, she desperately survived, and tried to come out.
The moment he walked out of the room with a smile, the eyes outside the door were full of joy and concern, Yan Mu walked straight to the dining table and gulped the food into his mouth.
Grandpa's tears flowed into the wrinkles, and he pushed the hot milk to Yan Mu with a smile, "Drink some milk, don't choke." ”
"You, what else do you want to eat, I'll do it. Mother Rock cried with joy.
Yan Mu licked the oil stains on his fingertips, "I'm full of blood and resurrected, don't worry, I'm a police officer, and I'm still an excellent undercover agent, and I'm very good at self-emotional regulation." ”
"Know that you are the best, the bravest, the best. Mother Rock preached softly.
Fang Zihao walked in from outside the door with a large bag of things, stared at Yan Mu sitting at the dining table in surprise, and couldn't help but walk over quickly.
"Zihao, you're here. Grandpa affectionately said.
"This month, Zihao has bothered a lot, carrying large bags of things early every morning, patiently explaining how we can help you adjust your mood from the diet, cooking according to the recipes and ingredients he prepared in advance, as well as the precautions for eating and living, playing music for you regularly, and sending you regularly. ”
"Auntie, it's all a trivial matter, and I have a special appetite today! Fang Zihao gently put the pocket on the counter.
Yan Mu raised his eyes and smiled brightly after a long time, "Yes, I'm very hungry, I want to fill my stomach, what delicious food did you bring!"
Fang Zihao grinned, "It's delicious, it's all delicious, but it's not suitable for breakfast, why do you want to go out for a walk after eating?"
"Okay, call Yang Hui, I want to buy a few clothes, I haven't bought clothes for a long time!" Yan Mu yawned.
"Okay, I'll call her. Fang Zihao happily took out his mobile phone and walked to the living room.
As twilight fell, the music in the café was long, and the lights were already on outside the window, savoring the fragrance in the glass.
"I'm going to Mauritius tomorrow to talk about a project, I want to invite you to travel together, I borrowed your passport to help you book a ticket, tomorrow morning at 10 o'clock flight, I want to go." Fang Zihao stretched out the booked ticket to Yan Mu.
Putting down the stirring spoon in his hand, "Are you asking for my opinion, you told me the result directly, what can I do, go!" Yan Mu took the ticket, and a trace of joy flashed in his eyes.
Yang Hui glanced at Fang Zihao with concern, and buried her head silently.
After seeing Yan Mu walk into the house, Fang Zihao retracted his gaze with confidence and exhaled heavily.
"You should know that if Sister Luo travels to Mauritius this time, there is a 90% chance that she will meet Miluo, and there is a 90% chance that all your efforts will be in vain, and Sister Luo's depression has improved, and you are not afraid of her being beaten. ”
"Her improvement is only temporary, I have consulted the doctor, if you don't completely drive away the negative emotions in her heart, the possibility of recurrent episodes of depression is very high, and the only person who can really drive away her depression fundamentally is Miluo, Du Yan told me, Miluo is drunk, After falling asleep, he would always call out to Yan Mu, and mention her intentionally or unintentionally in reality, just like Du Yan said, give each other another chance, and give us another chance to die, of course, it may also be a chance for me and Du Yan to make our dreams come true, so that we can get together and disperse, which is the best opportunity for the four of us. Fang Zihao explained earnestly.
Therefore, Du Yan also wanted to fulfill them. Yang Huihu doubted.
Fang Zihao nodded, "Taking Yan Mu to Mauritius is Du Yan's suggestion, because they agreed to get married after this trip, she doesn't want Mi Luo to have regrets in her heart, loving someone is not necessarily a constraint, and she will also feel happy when she is fulfilled." ”
Yang Hui sighed heavily, "Then if their old relationship is rekindled, are you happy?"
"If she's happy, I'm happy. Fang Zihao looked out of the car window gloomily.