In this eventful winter, the autumn cold can't help but think a little more, not to mention that I have to leave for Hangzhou tomorrow, but what can't happen at this juncture?

Qiu Han had some concerns in his heart, so he whispered a few words to Brother Lin Zheng, and then said hello to Yin Wuyan, and asked her to take the brothers and sisters to the hotel first, and then returned to the office with the courier.

Back in the office, Qiu Han looked at the A4-sized courier, opened it, and a beautiful letterhead came into view.

It's a letter, and when you open it, the familiar font is as familiar as your own body.

Autumn Chill:

This is the first time I've written to you, and probably the last time I've written to you, and no matter how busy you are, I'd like to imagine that you're going to read her through, and you will, right?

After the coffee hut separated, I went back to my quarters and locked myself in my room, thinking a lot, a lot......

From the beginning of the acquaintance to the current separation, we have experienced so much together. We were poor at that time, but I was happy, and you were my God, the hero of my heart. I trust you so much, engraved in my bones! But then something happened, my bones began to gradually become inflamed, I don't know if you had the intention to think about it? I followed you when you had nothing, all the way, never abandoned. How many hardships have you endured, how many tears have you shed, and how much heartache and pain have you received, have you ever thought about it?

You're always saying that this is happening, right, how to fix the problem. But do you know what? What do I want? I need your care and companionship, what I care about is whether you are good to me? I know that you work very hard, in order to make me have no worries about food and clothing, and live a better life, you are very hard, very busy, but is it really that busy?

So busy that you can't remember anything except a few important days?

Now, when I'm with you, I don't have any happiness at all except stress, and I don't have any sense of security at all. My fond memories of our relationship and marriage are only in the four years of love and marriage, and the rest is only sadness and pain, and I always ask myself, what do I want so much money for? I know that I am not a qualified wife, but are you a competent husband?

You never know what I want? I told you not to smoke, have you heard? If you don't drink, how have you ever been less? Yes, I know you have your problems, you have socials, you have a lot of friends, but I just don't like you now!

I know that no matter how much I say, it's powerless. Leaving you and seeing the beautiful women around you, I know that you will be doing well too, perhaps happier than being with me. At least in their eyes, you're excellent, not as picky as I am.

Yes, for social communication and work ability outside, I have to admit that you are excellent. You also give a lot for the family, I know you are tired, but I never say it, because in my heart, I think you will understand, right? However, I don't know what happened to me, if you are walking too fast, or if I can't keep up with you. I started to get anxious, impetuous, and became less and less trusting of you...... Although sometimes I know why you lied to me, I don't want to choose to believe you under your explanation......

In those four wonderful memories, you brought me a sweetness that I will never forget, and I am very grateful to you. After that, we had a small quarrel for three days, a big quarrel for five days, and I was physically and mentally weak after arguing, whenever I quieted down and thought about our present, I felt exhausted and scared, I think I lacked the courage to go down with you, you won't blame me, right?

I'm scared of tomorrow with you!

For your family, I have nothing to be nostalgic for, although every time you quarrel, your father and mother will always scold you, and even beat you, but I know that this is for me to see, to make an example of chickens and monkeys? I have read a book, this is naked possession and control? Of course, I don't care about these anymore, as long as I can leave you, even if I pay a heavy price, I am willing, you know the things I care about when I told you before, and I won't mention them one by one, because every time I mention it, my heart is full of pain......

Let's get divorced before the end of the year!

I've been thinking about this decision for a long, long time, and since we're not happy together, let's talk about it and break up! Don't quarrel, at least then we'll be decent. I have always mentioned the word divorce before, and after mentioning it for so many years, you have not agreed, you say that I am still young, this is responsible for me, and one day I will understand?

But now I understand that for me, it's still control and possessiveness. I also understand what I should do and what I shouldn't do, I am no longer the little girl in your heart, and you are no longer my hero. Of course, I can't compare to the girls now, just like the two beauties around you, I can see that they like you. It's my previous fearless age, I like it, nothing is a problem, I think it's time for me to congratulate you......

Well, let's not talk about that, it's about to become your personal affair, and it has nothing to do with me. It's just that I hope you will be more kind to our children, they are so good-looking, and they are sensible. I know you love them, but when I'm away, I think you'll be better to them, aren't you? You're a good father, I believe in you!

Finally, before the end of the year, let's get things done, and this time I want you to respect me once, even if it's just this time.

Say goodbye and live up to your ......

Qiuhan, thank you for all the ...... you gave me

I'll give it back to you slowly......

Purple swallow

After reading this letter, when the final signature was made, his eyes were deeply stinged, and Qiu Han's whole person was drained of all his strength, and he collapsed on the sofa in the office, his eyes were already soaked, and his blurred vision was still tears in addition to tears. His heart was like a knife, he never thought that there would be such a day, such a thing would directly press him like a dark cloud pressing down on the top, and he couldn't even breathe.

Why?

Why?

Why do you do this to me? I have been bearing your grievances and pains, but what about myself? I force my face to laugh every day, and I keep all the things in my heart, do you really understand? Who can I talk to?

Possession, control, a book, what book, reading a book, and still taking a seat? Qiu Han was roaring in his heart, how could there be such a book?

Yes, I haven't seen them for a long time, and I come back for a day or two every month, and I go to a boarding school that takes care of the whole process, and the time is always unfortunate to avoid. Every time I come back, I am clamoring to go to my grandparents, after all, the second elder is brought up single-handedly, and the child's feelings are the most sincere.

Thinking of this, Qiu Han threw the letterhead on the sofa, walked straight to the floor-to-ceiling window, wrapped his hands around his chest, and silently looked at the staggered houses outside in a daze.

Qiu Han suddenly felt that there was too little time for them, and every day was delayed by this and that, but he rarely took time to accompany them well, and guilt hit his heart again. The heart, which had been wounded and wounded, was now broken, and the powerlessness of the heartache made the man can't help but cry again.

Home - gone!

Who has ever seen a man so vulnerable? Who has ever seen a man so strong and ruthlessly crushed by a letter in an instant?

Qiu Han used to laugh at himself and said that he didn't seem to cry or be afraid of pain. From going to school, enlisting in the army, being discharged from the army, working, how many days have passed, and there have been things that have made him unable to raise his head, but he has never shed a single tear, he feels that it is a sign of cowardice, but now?

If anyone has seen it, there is no one except Ziyuyan. Only twice, the first time was the satisfaction of the world when he married Zi Yuyan, he cried! The second time was the excitement when the little baby came, and he cried again.

Mu Rongxiao has never seen it with her own eyes, but she has only heard of it. Xiaoxiao in the hospital eavesdropped curiously that night, Although she told Qiu Han at the time, but for men, as long as they didn't see it on the spot, they were naturally so thick-skinned that they didn't admit it.

Sometimes Qiu Han is very annoyed, and even says that he hates himself. He hated that his weakness would be in a woman, he hated himself for hating that iron could not become steel, he couldn't do it freely, and he was easily defeated by her every time.

Tears slipped involuntarily, and I don't know how long it took, Qiu Han felt a pair of gentle hands hugging him tightly from behind......