Chapter 4: Diary of the First Day
Sister-in-law Lin:
He and I have done a lot for this family, and it is not easy for us. The children's tuition, the money of the three old people, and the daily expenses are very much. The salary is not high, and there is no education, the baby has already gone to school, do we have to save money? The three old people in the family are all old, and they are a little negligent in taking care of the dolls, hey, I don't know how to write it.
In addition to his bad temper, he is okay, he works hard, does things seriously, opens a restaurant, does small profits but quick turnover, and the price is affordable, isn't he a bad person.
In-laws love to wander around, there are few people in the suburbs, people are very lonely, the old can't be at home, and they can't manage the small, and they don't educate the baby, we have a responsibility.
The baby was born in the summer, and when I gave birth, the nurse told me that it was difficult to give birth, but I still gave birth, which hurt my vitality and slowed down for three years. Later, I went with him to help wash clothes and cook, who would have thought of such a thing.
Ay.
The baby didn't study well, and Lao Tzu was a big temper, so he was not willing to fight, so he twisted his hair with an iron spoon. It's also our fault, he has a big hand, and he broke the baby, did he beat it evil?
The baby's hair fell out a lot, and she didn't dare to look in the mirror, the school doll laughed at her, and the baby came back to me and said, I gave me a lecture, I love beauty so much at a young age, but Leng is also wrong. The baby is my baby, he is my husband.
When I was a child, I brought it, and I may not have any memory, not that, I can't remember, I don't have an impression. A mouthful of milk and a mouthful of porridge were fed, and then they often did not go home, and they became alienated. However, I always feel that blood is thicker than water, and what can't be dissolved, and one family can't open two chapters, isn't that the truth?
It doesn't feel like that, she. No, that's the truth, but it's far away.
I have a credit card, and I know that I can't overdraw anything, and if I overdraft too much, I can't afford to pay it back. Maybe it's that the two of us have overdrawn face.
At that time, our parents came over like this, and he also broke Lao Tzu's calf, and now, it turned out to be lame. Walking is a little uneven, and sometimes others think that he deliberately hangs a shoulder and wants to hammer.
He has a good temper with outsiders, and when he meets small ones, he stinks.
I'm going to write 1,500 words, and it's the first time I've written an essay of so many words, so I'm going to think about it again.
My mom often pulls my hair, and I'm very timid and soft. I take care of my daughter, I give her whatever she wants, I can give as much money as she wants, I want to make up for it.
Spoiled too much, I thought about her dad educating him so much, oops, I dissipated her mood. Outside is reluctant to eat and wear, don't you save money for babies and the elderly?
The baby doesn't speak, there are no friends outside, no one chats, it's not good to study, and it doesn't look like me, 10-year-old baby, me.
I don't know what to write, how to educate Lasse, how to undergo transformation. He said that he would go back in three days, and that it would be nice to have a change in three days. This psychology teacher doesn't charge money, and the person is okay.
Fa Yin, I can't understand what he says, but I feel that he is educating me, and I must be educated well.
How to live in the future, I don't have a skill, what to do when the baby studies, the key is that the parents and children of the school do not let her enter the school, and the people at home see her and go, talking nonsense.
Let's not talk about studying, my mother doesn't know how to face her, the flesh on my body is still mine.
I can't fight, I can't scold, I'm too failed. But there is such a condition at home, I don't have the ability.
I don't ask for anything now, just let her live well, live a safe and secure life. If you don't ask for education or money, let her be mentally healthy, her heart will be sunny, and she won't be so dark.
The funeral was cooked. The law said that it would not be investigated, give the baby a chance, and listen to the law, but when I saw her, I couldn't help but think of those things, it was her father.
Baby, how can I face you? I'm too stupid to understand that.
In the past two days, many people have come to the family to help with the aftermath, and the school has asked the teacher to come and teach, and I am very grateful to them.
Is it that if I read more, I won't have these things? Is it that if I stay and take care of my children, I won't have these things?
I haven't slept in the past few days, I have a terrible headache, and I don't know how long I can last. I didn't really believe in the psychology teacher when he came, but Fa Yin believed in him, and I believed him, and I felt that he was indeed a good person. Let's relax, but I really don't want to draw, I can't draw, I don't want to, I just want to know how to solve this relationship.
I don't want to lose my husband, but he's gone, I don't want to lose my daughter, but she made a big mistake. I can't explain it to my parents, I can't face it to my neighbors, and I can't forgive my daughter. Do you know what that feels like? It's like an ant lying on a pot, hurting all over its body and not seeing any harm.
In the end, I hope that after a while, everyone can forget about us, we also have to live, this life is like this, I am the labor force in the family, and when my baby is better, I can support a family of 5 even if I beg.
On the first night, Lack was under the table, leaning on his chair and writing. Maybe she doesn't know the meaning of life and death, what the law is, and what she will encounter in the future.
Her diary was not read, and only she knew the contents:
He's not that, he's always beating me, I'd rather him slap me than twist me with an iron spoon, and I've lost more than 300 hairs on my head, not so much, more than 290. I hate him, hate. Hate. Hate. Very hateful.
You know, I've got a good piece of my head off my head. They said I'm going to be ugly from now on.
I'm not, he always pulls me up to write at night when no one is around, and always goes to the kitchen to twist me with an iron spoon. It didn't hurt, it was a scratch. My whole body convulsed, and at one point I went crazy.
He just bullied me, not my father, I brought it to him, my mother is my mother, but she also scolded me, my grandmother and my grandfather wandered around, sometimes there was no food, I once ate raw noodles, and I had a stomach for several days.
I sat at the end of the classroom, they didn't play with me, and I vomited sour water several times in the morning after school. I don't want to eat eggs in the morning.
I love models, and I've seen my classmate have a toy, a Zhu Bajie. He said it was me, and I strangled his pig to death.
He cried for a long time, and the teacher punished me for standing, and I had money and paid him compensation.
The two-section Zhu Bajie was in the innermost part of my school bag, no one knew, I tied a sandbag and hid it inside.
I seem to have killed someone and sinned, but I was small enough to hide. I know what death is, but I can't see it again, but I didn't expect that he was making money.
After writing this, Lasse locked the notebook, carried the key to his chest, and grabbed the key, his eyes widened, for fear that someone else would snatch it.