121 What is wrong with us?
When Lin Yunchu returned to Jingqin Garden, it was already sunset.
He still had the little note in his pocket, an eight-digit note, and he had no idea what the number meant.
"Fourth Young Master, you came back so early today. Yuanyuan came out to greet her, "The ingredients have just begun to be prepared, and I'm afraid dinner won't be ready so soon." ”
Lin Yunchu said "It's okay" and went up to the second floor.
He thought that Bai Xinger would be reading on the balcony, but when he walked up to the corridor, he heard bursts of music coming from the practice room.
Practicing at this time is not Bai Xinger's habit.
Except for the prime time in the morning, she usually doesn't choose to practice the rest of the time.
Unless, she's in a bad mood.
Thinking of this, Lin Yunchu frowned slightly, and pushed the practice room open a small crack in the door.
In front of him, Bai Xinger was spinning continuously and rapidly.
Her fair skin is like an angel coming out of an oil painting under the rays of the setting sun, holy and elegant. Plus her delicate figure, and that stunning face...... There is no man who is not captivated by the soul.
Lin Yun looked at her fixedly, and her heart was rippling.
But the only fly in the ointment is that Bai Xinger has been frowning throughout the dance.
After finishing the song, she slowly stopped spinning, and she was so tired that she sat directly on the ground.
Seeing this, Lin Yunchu walked in, handed her the towel prepared on the sofa, and then walked to the stereo and turned off the music.
"You're back. Bai Xinger said quite naturally.
Lin Yunchu didn't respond, just silently walked back to her side and stretched out his hand to her.
Bai Xinger was slightly stunned, and then put his hand on his hand, let him pull himself up, and replied, "Thank you for the towel." ”
There was a moment of trance in Lin Yunchu's eyes, and he immediately said, "Between you and me, do you still need to thank you?"
Bai Xinger wiped the sweat from his forehead with a towel, smiled, and replied, "I'll go take a bath first." We'll eat together in a moment. ”
It's not the first time that Bai Xinger has shown such an alienated attitude.
Lin Yunchu didn't let go of her hand, but stared at her eyes for a while, and then said, "His cultivation is over, just today." ”
Bai Xing'er's heart tightened and he was silent.
She felt that she was very useless, and she couldn't hide a little thing in her heart, every time she was under Lin Yunchu's gaze, she would have nothing to hide.
"Xiaoer. Lin Yunchu called her.
This voice seemed to be a call, but at this moment, it was actually a deterrent, a kind of persecution, indicating that he wanted to know Bai Xing'er's true thoughts.
Bai Xing'er broke away from his hand, turned his back to smooth his breathing, and then muffled, "He won't see me." I only let Ah Shu confess that Yuanyuan is my person in the future. ”
Lin Yunchu's guess was good, it was really because of Luo Yunzhe.
The confirmation of the idea suddenly made the atmosphere between the two more oppressive and dreary, as if a long-hidden problem finally came to the fore.
"We said last time that we wanted to thank him together. Lin Yunchu took the initiative to say.
Bai Xinger smiled bitterly, but he didn't expect him to be as innocent as himself.
Before, Bai Xinger deceived herself and thought that the difference between her and Luo Yunzhen was a heartfelt "thank you". But just after Ah Shu said to herself, "Start a new life", she realized that she and Luo Yunzhe, how could they be clearly distinguished with a "thank you"?
"I went too far. Bai Xinger said, "In this world, no one can be unconditionally good to another person without asking for anything in return." And I'm interested in ......"
"I can. Lin Yunchu immediately blocked her back words, "I can be good to you without asking for anything in return." ”
Bai Xing'er turned his head to look at him, smiled faintly, and responded: "Ah Luo is afraid that he is the same as you." ”
Lin Yunchu was stunned, and his brain went blank for a moment.
After a second, he finally realized that the year experienced between Bai Xinger and Luo Yunzhe may not be as simple as getting along day and night.
Lin Yunchu's previous self-confidence began to shake because of Bai Xinger's words just now.
"I'll go take a shower first. She said this and left the practice room.
……
Lin Yunchu went downstairs about ten minutes after Bai Xinger left.
The smell of rice has already wafted out from the kitchen, and it must be Yuanyuan who has begun to show her strength.
In fact, Lin Yunchu had already discovered that although Yuanyuan was young, she had superb cooking skills and knew some nursing knowledge, so she was not an ordinary maid at all.
She was carefully selected by Luo Yunzhe for Bai Xing'er.
Lin Yunchu glanced at the clock and estimated that Bai Xing'er's bath would not end so soon, so he walked towards the kitchen and wanted to chat with Yuanyuan.
"Fourth Young Master, are you here to check the nutritional matching?" Yuan Yuan asked with a smile, "Don't worry, I came strictly according to the recipe." ”
Lin Yunchu didn't answer this, but walked to a slightly quiet place in the kitchen, and asked in a deep voice, "How was the year of Miss and the young hall master in Jinhua?"
Yuanyuan was stir-frying, smiled a little stiffly, and asked, "Why did you remember to ask this?"
Lin Yunchu looked at her and didn't speak.
Yuanyuan has a fatal weakness in the face of people with too strong aura: she can't parry.
Earlier, Ah Shu called and specially told her to take good care of Bai Xinger in the future, and Luo Jiatang would give her double salary, which would definitely not treat her badly.
Yuan Yuan was not very happy after hearing this, but she knew that their young hall master had finished practicing.
And this is the end of his practice at the temple, which means that his practice in life has officially begun.
Yuanyuan asked Ah Shu, does the young hall master still care about Miss Bai? She can be his internal response and help him chase Miss Bai back.
Although, the task is daunting.
Ah Shu didn't joke with her, but told her very seriously: Don't think about useless things, take good care of Miss Bai. Moreover, if the fourth young master asks about the past of Miss Bai and the young hall master, don't say much.
Yuan Yuan recalled the previous phone call, but she didn't expect Ah Shu to be like a god, and the four young masters have now come to the door.
"Ahem!" Yuan Yuan responded, shoveling the vegetables into the plate, "Isn't it just a life of three meals a day?" Miss Bai didn't react all day long, and her life was quite dull. ”
After speaking, she observed Lin Yunchu with her peripheral vision, and saw that he still had the same expression as just now, as if he was telling her: Tell the truth.
Yuanyuan's legs were a little weak, and she said softly: "Fourth young master, there is so much smoke in this kitchen, if you really want to ask something, wait for me to ......."
"It doesn't matter. Lin Yunchu said indifferently, "You just have to say." ”
Yuanyuan really obeyed this man.
Turning off the fire on the stove, she simply thought about those things and let him know and know, otherwise he would sit back and occupy Miss Bai with peace of mind, and he was completely at ease with the young hall master's previous efforts.
"When Miss Bai first arrived in Jinhua, the situation was particularly bad. Yuanyuan said, "She hardly eats, and she knows to cry all day long." Seeing her like this, the young hall master and Mrs. Shen were very worried. Later, I discussed with a doctor and decided to erect a tombstone for the child, which can be regarded as a sustenance for Miss Bai. ”
"Tombstone?" Lin Yunchu frowned.
Yuan Yuan nodded and said, "It's a tombstone without a name." Mrs. Shen greeted the people in the cemetery, and they agreed to sell it. Otherwise, the kind of cemetery with a good environment is hard to find, and in their eyes, it is a good place to occupy other people's places in vain. After all, the child left, leaving nothing. ”
The child left, leaving nothing.
These words made Lin Yunchu's heart pinch together.
Yuanyuan glanced at Lin Yunchu's expression, but saw that he was not shocked, thinking that he was really a person who was used to being cold, and he was not sad to hear that his child was gone like this.
"When the matter of the tombstone is done," she continued, "the young hall master and Mr. Shen and Mrs. Shen will take Miss Bai to the cemetery. Results ......"
"The result?"
Yuanyuan suddenly felt that her eyes were sour, and she couldn't help but sniff and replied, "As a result, Miss Bai didn't cry, but just knelt next to the tombstone for a day." In the end, he fainted, so he let the young hall master carry him back. ”
Yuanyuan can't forget the picture of that day.
Bai Xinger knelt on the cold stone slab with his back straight, looked at the word "Aiko" fixedly, did not shed a single tear, did not shout, just knelt like that.
But isn't there a saying? Silence is better than sound here.
Although Bai Xinger didn't show any performance, the kind of sadness that went deep into the bone marrow moved everyone present.
Every time Yuanyuan thinks of this, she will sympathize with Bai Xing'er's experience.
"Fourth Young Master, do you still want to ask?" she turned her head and wiped her tears, pretending to ask as usual, "If you don't ask, just go out." I continued to cook. ”
Lin Yunchu hadn't been able to get out of what he had just said, because his mind was full of Bai Xing'er's appearance and expression kneeling in front of the tombstone.
Why don't you give your child a name? Are you waiting for him to pick it up?
Lin Yunchu felt like a knife.
"Fourth Young Master, you ......"
You continue. He said coldly.
Yuan Yuan frowned, and her mood was very bad because of the memories just now, so she said to him in a bad tone: "What else do you say?" Since Miss Bai went to the cemetery, she has become the way you were when you saw her. She shut herself off. ”
Lin Yunchu clenched his fists and was speechless for a long time.
"Fourth Young Master, it's actually quite redundant for you to ask these questions now. Yuanyuan couldn't help but say, "The matter has passed, you can live a good life with Miss Bai." ”
Live a good life?
There is an extremely sensitive estrangement between him and her.
"You haven't answered my question yet. Lin Yunchu said, "What I'm asking is how Miss Bai and the Young Hall Master are doing when they arrive in Jinhua? ”
When Yuanyuan heard this, she laughed twice and asked him, "Then what do you want to hear? How about I give you an example?"
Lin Yunchu nodded.
After the incident at the cemetery, Bai Xing'er's condition deteriorated, and she did not sleep except for skipping meals.
For three days in a row, she sat on the bed like that, never closing her eyes.
Luo Yunzhe was in a hurry, and after discussing with Jing Xin, he decided to give her an infusion to save her life regardless of whether Bai Xinger wanted to do it or not, and then carry out follow-up psychological treatment.
I don't know why, Bai Xinger, who has always been as quiet as a puppet, will yell uncontrollably when he sees a pinhole, and he will have a tendency to violence.
Luo Yunzhe thought that she was afraid that others would hurt her, so she explained to her over and over again, saying that it was all for her good.
But Bai Xinger didn't believe it.
So, Luo Yunzhe thought of a way, that is, to prick himself with a needle to prove to Bai Xinger that he would not hurt her, he just wanted her to be well.
Just after the back of Luo Yunzhe's hand was pricked and swollen into a small bulge, Bai Xinger finally agreed to the infusion......
"Fourth Young Master, do you still want to listen?" Yuan Yuan asked with tears in her eyes, "Our young hall master did not take care of patients this year, but also became patients. The pain that Miss Bai has experienced, he has also experienced. ”
Lin Yunchu's self-confidence was shattered.
……
Half an hour later, dinner begins.
Bai Xinger took a shower and changed into fresh clothes, and then came to the restaurant.
Lin Yunchu was already sitting in his position, motionless, as if he was waiting for her to come over, and as if he was sitting like that.
"The clothes haven't been packed yet. Bai Xinger pulled out a chair and sat down and said, "The person in charge of helping us move, is he here early tomorrow morning? ”
After speaking, Bai Xinger picked up his chopsticks and prepared to start.
She first put a piece of beef in Lin Yunchu's bowl, but she didn't see any reaction from him, and her eyes were out of focus.
"What's wrong?" Bai Xing'er asked softly.
Lin Yunchu stared at the piece of beef she caught, and only felt that his heart was blocked, and it was also like a big stone was pressed, which made him breathless at all.
He thinks he's the stupidest fool in the world!
Bai Xinger was separated from him for a year and lived with a man who was as affectionate as the sea...... He is still confident that his relationship with her is intact, and he has no sense of crisis!
"Yun Chu, are you uncomfortable?" Bai Xing'er asked again, reaching out to touch his forehead.
Lin Yunchu dodged for a moment, and raised his eyes to look at Bai Xing'er.
That cold gaze made her head tremble.
"Are you afraid of needles?" asked Lin Yunchu without a second step.
Bai Xing'er was puzzled and wanted to ask him what was wrong, but Lin Yunchu had already stood up and strode away from the dinner table.
"Yun Chu, you ......"
Lin Yunchu didn't look back, didn't speak, and went to the study.
Closing the door, he felt that the uneasiness and depression in his heart could not be dissipated, so he kept pacing back and forth by the window.
Suddenly, he really wanted to call Luo Yunzhe.
As soon as the idea came to him, he didn't waste time, quickly took out his mobile phone, and dialed the number. The busy speaker blew twice, and then it was connected.
"Fourth Young Master Lin, hello. The person on the other end of the phone was very polite, "I'm the assistant of the young hall master, Ah Shu." Is there anything you can do?"
Lin Yunchu was stunned for two seconds, and then said, "I want to see the young hall master." ”
"I'm sorry, Fourth Young Master. Ah Shu calmly responded, "The young hall master has just finished his cultivation in the temple, and his body needs to recuperate for a while. Therefore, during this time, there are no visitors. ”
Lin Yunchu's hand holding the mobile phone tightened, thinking to himself Is Luo Yunzhe preparing to completely cut off contact with him and Bai Xing'er? In this case, is it good or bad?
"Fourth young master, Ah Shu has a sentence that I don't know if to say or not?"
Lin Yunchu let out an "um" and motioned for him to continue.
Ah Shu continued: "You and Miss Bai have been through so much, and it is not easy for you to be together. In that case, why bother with the past? As long as you treat Miss Bai well, it is enough. ”
After saying this, Ah Shu didn't say anything more and hung up the phone.
He looked at Luo Yunzhe, who was sitting next to him, and his mood was heavy, "Young hall master, everything is according to your orders." ”
Luo Yunzhe nodded, looking at the rabbit that Bai Xinger handed over to him at the gate of Wangyuan that day.
He thought, he didn't get nothing, he still had this rabbit. And there was that year of tribulation...... With these memories, he won't be alone.
……
Just after ten o'clock in the evening, Lin Yunchu returned to the bedroom.
Bai Xing'er was packing up his clothes there, and he couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief when he finally stopped locking himself in his room.
However, for some reason, the two of them looked at each other like this, which made the atmosphere even more gloomy.
They looked at each other like this for a long time, no one spoke, no one had superfluous expressions, as if the air and time had been pointed, and there would be no more movements.
But Bai Xing'er couldn't stand such silence, she looked down at Lin Yunchu's clothes that were half folded in her hand, and searched her stomach to find a problem.
She asked, "What happened to He Yancheng over there? And the man who died that day, he ......?"
"The police are investigating, and I asked Baker to investigate. Lin Yunchu said lightly, "You don't have to worry. ”
Such a simple answer wiped out the topic that Bai Xinger had finally found, making her at a loss for a while, "Why don't you clean it up too, after all, it's your thing, I ......"
Before the words were finished, Lin Yunchu rushed over and hugged her tightly behind Bai Xing'er, wrapping the person firmly with his body.
"Don't leave me. He said.
Bai Xing'er frowned, and when he heard the slightest pleading in his tone, he couldn't help but feel that the tip of his heart was stabbed, and then the pain spread all over his body.
"I won't leave you. She replied.
Such words obviously couldn't soothe Lin Yunchu at this time, and he continued: "From the first time I saw you, you walked into my heart. In my life, you are my only light and heat. I don't know what the rest of my life would be like without you?"
Bai Xinger wanted to turn around and rush at him, but he hugged him so tightly that she couldn't turn around at all.
"Are you because of Arlo?" she asked, "and between me and Arlo, it's not what you feared. I ...... him"
"I want you. Lin Yunchu said in her ear.
Immediately after, his hand came to Bai Xing'er's shoulder, and the silky nightdress slid down her body to her feet.
"Xiaoer, from beginning to end, you are all mine alone. Lin Yunchu said, pushing the person down on the bed, "And I'm just yours." ”
Bai Xinger looked at the forbearance in his eyes, and he was actually resistant and hesitant about what was going to happen next.
However, Lin Yunchu didn't give her time to think, he leaned over directly, locked the person under him, and the scorching breath was all spewed on her face.
"Xiaoer, don't leave me. He repeated again.
Lin Yunchu's kiss was overwhelming.
He was very anxious, as if he was venting his inner uneasiness, and it seemed that he was using this to express his endless tenderness and love for the person in front of him.
Bai Xinger understood his feelings, but he couldn't cooperate and respond 100%.
In the face of his fiery kiss, her kiss was like a dragonfly in water, and it was also like a perfunctory last resort.
Lin Yunchu had been putting up with her response, but when she turned away his tentative hand again, he wanted to explode.
Letting go of her lips, Lin Yunchu stared at her a little fiercely, gritted his teeth and said, "Why?"
Bai Xing'er grabbed the sheets under him, looked into his eyes, and couldn't say a word.
Lin Yunchu's heart seemed to be on fire, he raised his fist and landed heavily on the pillow, so that he couldn't feel pain or relief.
"What the hell is wrong with us?" he asked with a wry smile.
Bai Xing'er's tears slipped from the corners of his eyes.
She wanted to tell him, but she didn't know what was wrong.
Maybe it's just this year of separation, after all, something has changed, not to mention that their child died, isn't it a big deal?
Lin Yunchu looked at Bai Xinger's tears, and his heart became even more dull.
But this time, instead of comforting her, he got up and put on his clothes and left Jingqin Garden.
……
In the bar, the lazy and decadent singing voice of the female singer slowly whispered.
Lin Yunchu had large and small cups in front of him, all of which were spirits that he had drunk.
Chen Fang sat across from him, sighing for a while, laughing for a while, and spent it with him until two o'clock in the morning.
"If you don't go home, aren't you afraid that Bai Xing'er will worry?" Chen Fang yawned and couldn't help but ask.
As soon as Lin Yunchu heard her name, he raised his head and took another sip of wine, but did not answer.
"What the hell are you crazy about here?" Chen Fang asked again, "Since Bai Xing'er came back, haven't you become a twenty-four filial husband? How to ......"
"There was a problem between us. He stared at the empty glass and said, "I don't know how to fix it." ”
Chen Fang was stunned for a moment, then asked with a smile: "There are still things you don't know how to solve?" ”
Lin Yunchu didn't think this was humorous, and picked up the wine glass and drank it again.
"Don't drink it. Chen Fang pressed his hand, "You drank too much, and when you finished drinking, you still have to worry about these things." Instead of that, go back and have a good talk with her. ”
"Talk?" Lin Yunchu asked rhetorically, "We don't even know what the problem is, how can we talk about it?"
Chen Fang had never seen him so irritable, and he was speechless for a while.
The two of them were silent for a while, and Lin Yunchu said again: "At He Yancheng's dinner the day before yesterday, someone wanted to harm her. ”
"What did you say?" Chen Fang said in surprise.
This is another reason why Lin Yunchu is bored.
He couldn't figure out why there was a resurgence of turmoil now that he had eliminated all the people and things that were in the way of them being together, and how could he protect Bai Xing'er?
"If you want me to say, could it be that you are worrying about the sky?" Chen Fang asked.
Lin Yunchu was silent, his face was dull.
Chen Fang pursed his lips, thought for a moment, and then said to him: "Perhaps, you should pay attention to the He family." ”
"How?"
"I'm studying journalism, and the He family is a legend in the eyes of media people. Chen Fang said, "But I heard that the He family is not as decent as it seems on the surface, nor is it as self-made as everyone thinks." ”
Then, Chen Fang said one thing, which has a lot to do with what He Yan will marry.
……
Bai Xinger almost didn't sleep all night, and Lin Yunchu didn't come back.
With her red and swollen eyes, she was carrying the remaining things of Jingqin Garden, and she kept thinking in her heart if Lin Yunchu was still angry, and would she come back?
"This young lady, is there only anything left in this room?"
Bai Xinger was stunned for a moment, turned his head and saw a man standing in front of the bedroom door.
How did he get up? Yuanyuan didn't allow these workers to go upstairs, so why did he end up here? Moreover, why was the house suddenly quiet?