115 Burning candles
"There is no penny left in the family, and in the blink of an eye the dolls are about to start school, how should they pay for their tuition?" said a middle-aged woman to her husband.
Under the scorching sun, a couple is busy with farm work in the yard.
It was Zhang Zhaoxia's mother who spoke just now, her face looked wrinkled, and her dark skin was a testament to her hard work. As the hostess of the family, she has suffered a lot over the years in order to pull her four children. Other parents expect their children to grow up, but she doesn't want them to grow up as soon as possible, and growing up means facing a cruel reality.
Zhang Zhaoxia's father looked gloomy and sat in the sun and lit a dry cigarette. For a long time after his wife finished speaking, he was silent.
"I can't help it. He said softly.
Zhang Zhaoxia's mother suddenly became angry, and she scolded: "You only said to borrow, where can you borrow it? In the past few years, everything you can borrow has been exhausted, who is willing to lend you a penny?"
Her husband on the other side was silent, letting his wife scold.
His heart was very painful, and he clearly knew that the reason why his family was so poor was because he couldn't earn money. It's not that he doesn't want to work to earn money, it's just that his weak body makes him powerless. What kind of cold eyes has he not experienced over the years? It can be said that he has experienced everything that should have been experienced.
"You are always so incompetent, look at other people's men, and spend a year shaved your time for the family! Look at you again, when this time comes, you will look like you are dead! I am a woman's family, why should I bear so much!" Zhang Zhaoxia's mother continued to scold.
Zhang Zhaoxia is the second eldest in the family, and her eldest sister gave up her studies a few years ago because her family was too poor, and went to the provincial capital to work to subsidize the family's expenses. The three of them still insist on going to school in the sewing and mending of the eldest sister and her parents, her academic performance is very good, and she wants to change the fate of the family through knowledge.
When she inadvertently heard her parents' plight like this, her heart bleed. This powerless scene has become a nightmare for her, and every year this time, her parents have to fight over their tuition fees. Seeing the loss of her mother when she borrowed money, she didn't know how many times she cried in her heart.
Zhang Zhaoxia came to her parents, she sat on the ground, and said to them in front of her parents: "Dad, Mom, don't quarrel! I won't go to school this year, and I'm going to go to work with my eldest sister." This way my brother and sister can continue to go to school!"
Her father said: "That's not good, even if I go out, it's better than you go out, do you study hard, I'll go out to work this year to earn money!"
Zhang Zhaoxia cried, she said sadly: "Dad, with your body, you should still recuperate at home!
After speaking, Zhang Zhaoxia ran out of the room and continued to cry.
For as long as she can remember, her family has always been so poor. Even some very cheap snacks, they just see the way people have eaten them, and they never know what they taste. An ice cream, three sisters and brothers eat together, just because they are too poor.
After wearing a pair of pants for five or six years, she has become the focus of ridicule in the class, sometimes without clothes, and even wears her mother's clothes to school, and when she steps through the classroom door, her face seems to be full of words. Therefore, she rarely went out of the classroom door during these years, and she was afraid that others would see her for what she really was.
"Xia, you study hard, your mother can't let you drop out of school even if you're tired to death," her mother said to her when she came to the room.
Zhang Zhaoxia could no longer control the grievances and depression in her heart, she hugged her mother and cried: "Mom, you have worked hard enough! I am already very satisfied to be able to study in high school, you can rest assured, I will earn money well, let my younger brothers and sisters go out of school!"
Two lines of hot tears flowed down the mother's face.
"It's all to blame for our incompetence as parents, so that you also suffer! God, why is life so difficult!" Chaoxia's mother cried.
In order to reduce some of the burden on the family, Zhang Zhaoxia dropped out of school that year and went to a strange provincial capital. I worked as a cashier in a supermarket, sold clothes in a shopping mall, washed dishes in a restaurant, and cleaned in a hotel. Although she was tired, she felt very grounded. She was reluctant to spend a penny on her monthly salary, so she saved as much as she could, and regularly called her younger siblings who were going to school.
Several years have passed, and Zhang Zhaoxia's efforts have not been in vain. My younger brother was admitted to a major university with excellent grades, and my younger sister also got her wish to go to the university of her choice. When she saw the joy of her younger siblings' success, she felt that everything was worth it.
However, in the dead of night, she cried more than once. Why can't she be as lucky as her younger siblings and enter the university of her dreams! Looking at the beautiful life of her younger siblings in college, she is envious and jealous.
After a few more years, the younger siblings graduated, and they each found a job. At a family reunion, everyone was happy. But her brother's words made Zhang Zhaoxia very sad.
The younger brother said proudly: "Second sister, look, who made you not study hard at the beginning! Now we are so good, save you from marrying this useless brother-in-law!"
When she heard this, Zhang Zhaoxia couldn't smile bitterly, she smiled at her younger brother.
Who can see her efforts? Is it really because she doesn't study hard? Sharp questions are torturing her conscience.
"If it weren't for your second sister's dedication and sacrifice, how could you be today! These unconscionable guys!" Zhang Zhaoxia's mother suddenly became angry. After saying this, she left the table angrily.
At this time, Zhang Zhaoxia's younger brother realized that he had stabbed his dear sister with what he had just said.
Maybe in a few more years, Zhang Zhaoxia and her eldest sister's dedication and efforts will come to naught and be forgotten by that family. However, they have exchanged their noble labor for a better tomorrow, which is worthy of respect!