In the moonlight, I stared blankly into Cai Jingyi's eyes. What a beautiful pair of eyes, as if they could speak, the starlight in the sky showed in her pupils, the breeze blowing, her hair trembled slightly, like a beautiful painting.

"I ......"

I lowered my head and finally sighed and said, "I refuse." ”

"Huh?"

Cai Jingyi looked at me with some surprise, and she asked, "Why refuse?"

"It's a little embarrassing to say it, I hope you don't think I'm self-righteous......" I said honestly, "I don't want to be the person in your youthful memories, I hope that there will be a little shadow of me in your future." ”

Cai Jingyi listened to my words, she was stunned for a moment, then smiled slightly, she took my arm, and said softly: "Zhang Xiang, it may be a little strange to ask this, what is your ideal?"

Ideal?

I thought about it seriously, then shook my head and said, "I don't know, I've never thought about it." If I really have any dreams, it is to return the money of my relatives so that my parents can raise their heads and be human beings when they come out. ”

"Everyone has their own life and their own freedom of thought......," Cai Jingyi said gently, "but everyone is supported by pressure." On your shoulders, there are also a few people standing, and you know that you can't fall down, because once you fall, the people who are standing on your shoulders will also get hurt. You are like that, and so am I. In this society, as long as you are not wolf-hearted and don't recognize your relatives, you will endure humiliation for the sake of the person on your shoulder. ”

For the first time, I felt that Cai Jingyi was probably a person with a story.

"You...... Can you tell me?" I couldn't help but ask.

She looked up at the starry sky, took a deep breath, and muttered, "My family is wealthy, and my parents are both in business. Originally, the family was from the countryside, but after making money, my mother lost the original purpose of life. I watched her become a stranger, a person I hated. ”

I wondered, "Gambling?"

Cai Jingyi shook her head and said with a wry smile: "Take drugs." ”

I gasped, but her face was full of light: "It's dead, it's painful to die." Don't think she's under pressure or for some helpless reasons, she just wants to show off that she has money, wants to prove that she is not afraid of anything, and wants to look like she is very good, so she got infected with this kind of thing. My family has a lot of money, enough for her to suck, but do you think we might be able to let her continue? My dad wanted to send her to a drug rehab center, and she fell to her knees and cried and begged us not to do it. Originally, he begged us, and then threatened with suicide. Later, I guess I was afraid of us, so I took a sum of money from the family and went out, and when I saw her for the second time, it was in the hospital. He died a terrible death, with several holes rotten on his body, and the stench of a dead pig, the holes were caused by AIDS, and the cause of death was a drug overdose......"

"We found out that after she ran away from home, she lived with a few drug friends. Every day in addition to taking drugs is fun, from a pure mother to a wife of the bus. I don't know if she contracted AIDS because she was infected on a bus or because she shared drug use with others. The most ridiculous thing is that the doctor said that she still had a dead baby in her belly. My dad's face was green, and he wanted to find the man, but how to find it? The man she slept with was not a hundred but eighty, looking for a fart. ”

I don't know how to answer Cai Jingyi's words, because I never imagined that there would be such a mother behind the mature and beautiful Cai Jingyi.

I whispered, "Is that why you're not coming home?" I mean...... Is it because of some changes in your family?"

"Don't worry, my family is still very healthy, my dad quickly came out of the blow and married a beautiful and gentle new wife...... Cai Jingyi shook her head and said, "My stepmother is also very gentle, whenever I go back, she will cook a lot of food for me, which is better than my own mother." But I just don't want to go back, I don't want to remember the place I lived with that woman. To put it mildly, I wanted to be a cop and arrest all those drug scumbags and drug bastards, isn't it funny?"

I shook my head and said honestly, "I can't think of anything funny about your story." ”

"I think it's funny, all ideals that have not been put into action are worthy of ridicule by others or myself......" Cai Jingyi stretched and said slowly, "This is the first time I've told others so much, maybe because we are a little bit the same." Your parents are squatting in the big jail, and my mother is lying in some small grave. I don't know where she was buried, because on the day of her funeral, I felt nauseous and wanted to vomit, so I didn't go with her. ”

I subconsciously said, "My parents are poor people who paid the price, and your mother is just a bastard who paid the price, a little different, right?"

"Poof. ”

Cai Jingyi was suddenly amused by me, she made a gesture to choke my neck, causing me to fall backwards, at this time she sat on top of me, smiled and said, "It's not polite to talk about other people's mothers like this." ”

I looked at Cai Jingyi who was smiling, but I couldn't think of anything to say to her.

On her shoulders...... What kind of person is standing that makes her live with a smile?

Is it the father who has survived the blow, or is it for the sake of what he once expected of his mother?

Cai Jingyi and I just looked at each other, and she suddenly covered my eyes, so that I couldn't see anything. A moment later, I felt her kiss.

It was soft and warm.

I subconsciously hugged Cai Jingyi and responded to her gently. I could feel the wet tears falling down my cheeks, but all I could do now was hold her.

I slowly left Cai Jingyi's lips, her eyes were moist, looking pitiful and moving. There was a trace of saliva on the pink and delicate lips.

I closed my eyes again and kissed it, and this time Cai Jingyi's response was much more intense. She suddenly unbuttoned her clothes, hugged my neck firmly, bit her lip and said, "Zhang Xiang, I don't like you, but you don't hate me." It's not because of Freemasonry, to be honest I used to hate you a little bit and thought you were a coward. But then it slowly became distressed for you, what about you? Will you feel sorry for me? Tell me that you feel sorry for me, tell me that you want to sleep with me. ”

I shook my head and said, "I don't feel sorry because I want to be like you, and I want to be someone you like." ”

"I hate that answer. ”

Cai Jingyi's expression immediately became a little cold, she bit my lip hard, then put on her clothes and stood up, then she patted the dust, and suddenly smiled at me, "But I like you a little, walk back by yourself, you refused a girl's most shameful invitation, so you have to be punished." ”

After that, Cai Jingyi got on the motorcycle directly, while I sat in place and said seriously: "It's better to let you like me a little than let you sleep with someone you don't like." ”

Cai Jingyi didn't speak again, and directly started the motorcycle and left. I stood up slowly, still nostalgic for the temperature in my hands.

Is...... It's a pity.

I smiled self-deprecatingly and walked down the mountain, my mind full of the warmth I had with Cai Jingyi just now.

I have to say, that kiss was really fascinating.

The mountain was quite high, and I walked down the road for more than ten minutes.

When I arrived at the bottom of the mountain, I saw Cai Jingyi sitting on a motorcycle, quietly playing with her mobile phone at the bottom of the mountain. I walked up to her, laughed and said, "You said I was going down the mountain alone, but it was really just going down?"

"I'm what I say...... Cai Jingyi said flatly, "Get in the car." ”

"Okay. ”

I got on the motorcycle, hugged Cai Jingyi's waist from behind, and said with a smile, "Are you going back?"

Cai Jingyi turned her head and said softly: "No, there is something I want you to help me do, so I should let you repay my personal favor." ”

I wondered, "What's the matter?"

"The middle-aged man who lives next door to me just added me to WeChat...... Cai Jingyi's voice became very cold, gritting her teeth, "and sent me a nude photo of his lower body, asking me if I was lonely." ”

"Fuck me!"

My eyes widened in shock, and I said angrily, "Go, go and kill him." ”