8. I will be good to you for the rest of your life
I hummed and he said thank you.
When I got off work, I went to the vegetable market to buy a lot of vegetables, ready to wash the dust for the second elder, Lin Anhang was also a rare time to arrive home early, when I carried the vegetables in my hand into the house, I saw Lin Anhang sitting in the living room teasing the second elder.
As soon as I reached the threshold with my front foot, Lin Anhang's mother immediately walked over with a smile on his face to help me carry the vegetables, and said, "Wen Jing, you're back, what are you doing with so many vegetables." β
She smiled and talked as she carried the food in my hand into the kitchen, and I said, "Isn't this your second elder coming? β
Mother Lin smiled with relief, and praised Lin Anhang for finding him a good daughter-in-law, when she said this, Lin Anhang's eyes flashed, and she seemed to have a little uneasy conscience.
I smiled, made a pot of tea for the second elder, and went to the kitchen to start washing, chopping, and cooking.
About two hours, the dishes are into the bowl, I have been particularly accomplished in cooking since I was a child, all of which were forced by my mother, at that time she felt that my sister was a failure in her life education, and predicted that she would marry her husband's family in the future must be abused, lazy to do, and not motivated.
In order to prevent me from becoming such a defective product, when I was not thinking of making progress, he insisted on formulating an education plan for me to be a good wife and mother.
As long as it is in line with the specific skills of the well-behaved daughter-in-law in the eyes of the elderly, she has forced me to learn a little fur, needlework, and cooking.
It's just that she never thought that a girl like my sister who is not motivated seems to have no intention of getting married after a love injury.
And although I learned all the standards of a good wife and mother, my mother-in-law liked it, my husband didn't like it, and my mother didn't teach me how to please my husband.
It's a pity to think about it now, if I had a little awakening before, my current situation would not be so sad, I have a child, but I don't dare to say that my husband loves Xiaosan more than himself.
But what can I do.
After the meal was ready, the second elder looked at the rich dishes on the table with satisfaction, and they all nodded with satisfaction, I glanced at Lin Anhang, he looked at me a little distractedly, probably I gave him face like this, which made him feel a little unaccustomed.
But I don't see his face, but his parents' face, after all, when we got married, the red envelopes his parents stuffed into me were all up to my salary for a year, Lin Anhang let me save it in my own account, and now I don't touch them much with that money.
Thinking that the second old man has a small problem and urgently needs to return the money to them, after all, this is also their hard-earned money, and I can't take it.
Thinking about it this way, it seems that since I got married, many things have been planned for this family, but I have never told Lin Anhang that the crux between us is the lack of communication.
During the meal, the two elders were still some usual topics, saying that the son of a certain family begged for a wife, and the two husbands and wives had a small quarrel every day, a big quarrel for three days, and smashed a TV.
In fact, the basis of feelings is just a decoration, if you don't love you, those feelings are just some fragments, if people change their minds, no matter if you used to be his goddess or a male god, if you don't love it, you won't love it, there is no reason to talk about it.
I listened quietly, Mother Lin put a shrimp in my bowl, and said with a smile, "Wen Jing, our family owes you a good temper, if you follow An Hang's stinky temper, whoever you find is probably similar to them." β
I said, "Mom, don't say that, Anhang is also very good to me, and the husband and wife should be considerate of each other." β
When the mother-in-law heard this, she nodded with satisfaction and said, "It's really reasonable, and my mother-in-law taught me so well." β
After eating, I went to the kitchen to cut fruit for the two elders to eat, Lin Anhang walked in, he stood behind me, I was busy cutting papaya peel in my hand, he wanted to come over to help me, I absolutely refused.
He said, "Wen Jing, thank you. β
Lin Anhang and I have been married for so long, except for saying to me on the wedding night, I will be good to you for a lifetime, and then the married life is respectful, even when they have sex, they complete their tasks and are satisfied, they are tired and sleep directly with their eyes closed, they don't hug each other, and there is no late-night love talk after the clouds.
I said, "You don't have to thank me, it should be the last bit of filial piety for your parents, daughter-in-law, and children for so many years." β
He didn't speak for a long time, he took an unpeeled papaya in his hand and washed it in the sink and handed it to me, I reached out and took it, and he said, "Actually, there is no need for a divorce between us." β
I suddenly looked at him coldly, and I said, "If Susie and I let you choose, who will you choose?"
Lin Anhang said, "There is no choice, I love it all." β
I said, "You've seen too many red and white roses in Zhang Ailing." β
Touching my nose and turning around to go out, I said, "Lin Anhang, I know I can't give you the love and passion you want, but I've worked hard to be a good daughter-in-law, a good wife, Susie used to be my friend, please treat her well, don't treat me like me, I feel that I have no passion, just throw it away, you have to pay attention to your age, there are few little girls who can let you deceive." β
When he heard this, he didn't say anything, and went to the living room to watch TV with the second elder, I walked out with the fruit in my hand, and the second elder laughed when he watched Peking Opera.
A few people talked about it and didn't know why they talked about the topic of children, I heard that Lin Anhang's sister-in-law's son, the daughter-in-law gave birth to a pair of dragon and phoenix fetuses a month ago, and he was happy to die of the second elder of his family.
It's just that one of the children died before the full moon, leaving a male baby.
It was a good happy event but it became a funeral, the child's full moon wine was cold and went through the motions, the child's mother couldn't stand the loss of her beloved son, plus postpartum depression, and her spirit was a little abnormal.
The mother-in-law said, "Whether the child is male or female, our Lao Lin family has no requirements, but An Hang is quiet, when are you going to get pregnant, An Hang is forty years old, you are not in a hurry, age does not wait for anyone." β
I listened carefully on the side, and when I heard that a child had died in Lin Anhang's second aunt's family, I couldn't help but reach out and touch my stomach, and I didn't know why I was a little scared.
Lin Anhang said, "It's still early for this matter, Wen Jing is still young." β
The mother-in-law listened to Lin Anhang's lack of urgency, and her tone was a little unhappy, "Wen Jing is still young, but you see that you are busy with work every day, and you have aged so much over the years, let's settle the child's affairs first." β
Lin Anhang was a little annoyed by the second elder's chatter, absent-mindedly perfunctory a few words, I accompanied the second elder to watch the Peking Opera, the old man usually slept very early, and after they went to sleep, I returned to the room.
Since Lin Anhang and I divorced, he has always slept in the guest room and I slept on the sofa.
But today is a little difficult, his parents are here, I obviously can't drive him to the guest room, I take a dish, I habitually lie on the bed and read magazines for a while, Lin Anhang came in from the bathroom outside, wearing pajamas, and there was no expression on his face.
He was standing under my bed and just wanted to go to bed, but I immediately threw a pillow over and said, "You make a bunk tonight, since we have signed the divorce agreement, we naturally have no obligation to share the bed with you." β
He caught the pillow I threw with one hand, and said with an uncertain face, "Wen Jing, let's not make trouble, okay?"
I said, "Lin Anhang, did you always think that I was making trouble with all this? You are too naΓ―ve, right?!"
I've never been joking with him, although I, Song Wenjing, am reckless in doing things, I have always been the same when I speak, and he doesn't care about my resistance, the whole person climbs up and wants to hug me, he said, "As long as we have not pulled the divorce certificate, we are still husband and wife." β
I gave him a kick directly, he didn't expect me to be so ruthless, and rolled straight off the bed, I got up from a carp on the bed, and looked at him who was stunned under the bed, "Lin Anhang! I, Song Wenjing, have never messed with you, you can find any woman, I can forgive me, why did you run to find Susie for me, you ruined not only our marriage, but also the friendship I believed in since childhood, you understand? I didn't play with you at all!"
He looked at me with some surprise under the bed, as if he didn't expect me to be so excited, I put on a dress directly from the bed, and walked down from the bed with crawling and rolling, he dragged me from behind, suppressed his voice for fear that the second elder next door would hear, and asked, "It's so late, where are you?!"
I struggled to break him around my waist, but he clasped me tightly and threw me on the bed, and although my whole body fell on the bed, although it didn't hurt, my head was blank at that moment.
He lost his patience and began to be a little angry, "Song Wenjing sometimes I think you are unreasonable in many places!"
I lay on the bed, my hair was messy and blindfolded, but I could still dimly see from the light that his face was not very good, and the two of us were arguing with each other.
And I'm the kind of person who will still be coquettish next to my parents after crying, and Lin Anhang has been married for so many years, and we have only surpassed a handful of times.
But now he thinks that my forbearance for so many years is unreasonable? If you are too good to a person and don't ask too much, will it become a scumbag?
Lin Anhang said, "Song Wenjing, since the matter has been committed, I also told you that I am sorry, why do you just refuse to let me go." β
I lay on the bed, the two of them took off and lay on the ground in a gossip shape, I said in a muffled voice, "It's you who won't let me go, as long as you cut off the relationship with Susie, why is there this between us." β
Lin Anhang suddenly quieted down, he stood in front of me very calmly, making me feel that he was a big mountain at the moment, a mountain pressing on me, he said, "Wen Jing is not that I refuse to divorce, but Susie already has my child." β
His words seemed to knock me back to my original form, and I didn't know what to do, but just looked at him with my eyes open, and he looked at me half painfully, half faintly happy.
I didn't know how I was going to face such a bolt from the blue next, so I just lay limp on the bed and looked at him, not speaking.