When I got out of the car, I was in a trance, and when I arrived at the hospital gate, the car behind me turned a corner and disappeared at the hospital gate.

I took the elevator to the fourth floor, stood at the door of the ward and repeatedly struggled with whether to go in, and just happened to bump into Song Lian, who stood in front of me with a tired face, staring at me with a somewhat sluggish gaze.

She saw that my face was a little strange, and asked me strangely, since you came, why don't you go in?

I stood at the door and looked at Song Lian, she looked frowning, I said, sister, I don't remember anything.

Song Lian's face was stunned, he stretched out his hand and touched my forehead, and then patted my head with a serious face and said, What nonsense are you talking about, did you drink last night and break the story.

I shook my head and said, no, do you remember when I was pushed downstairs by Susie five years ago?

Song Lian said, I know, hasn't it been a long time? Why did you suddenly ask again now.

I pointed to my head and said, have I forgotten something, and did I know anyone you didn't know when I was a child?

Song Lian was inexplicably asked by my words, and gave me a blank look and said, "Neurotic, what do you want to ask me."

I found that I didn't know what to ask, and after thinking about it, I felt that I was really sick, when Susie pushed me downstairs, I did break my head, but Song Lian had seen Xu Shenlin, if there was any entanglement between me and Xu Shenlin, Song Lian, who grew up with me since childhood, would not know him.

It must be that he is playing tricks, I thought like this, and immediately pretended that nothing had happened, smiled at Song Lian, and said, Mom is a little better.

Song Lian yawned and said lazily, I was lying on the hospital bed, I had just been kicked out by her, and I was going to go home and sleep.

Song Lian probably didn't sleep well all night last night, his face was a little yellow, his hair was messy, he said a few words to me after yawning, and walked back listlessly, and the hospital was handed over to me.

When I entered the ward, my father was sitting at the head of the bed cutting my mother's toenails, and since my sister and I were no longer studying, he didn't have a job, and he spent the whole day hanging around at home, smoking, and playing chess with others.

When I walked in, I put down the clipping nails in my hand and made a shushing gesture at me, and I smiled at him.

He shouted out and said, where did you go some time ago, you haven't seen your mother for so long.

The second elder didn't know that Lin Anhang and I were divorced, so I disguised myself and said that I was looking for a job, and I haven't had time to come to see my mother.

My dad patted me on the shoulder and said, you have time to spend more time with her, she can live one day at a time.

After he finished speaking, his back was a little rickety, I looked at my dad for a long time, he said he went out for a walk, and then let me look at my mom here, I nodded and took the nail clippers in his hand, and watched him leave, and immediately went into the ward and still sat at the head of my mom's bed to help her cut her toenails.

She was asleep, and the first time I helped her cut her nails was not as skilled as my dad, and her movements were a little clumsy, which woke her up, and when she opened her eyes, I was smiling at her with my nails.

She smiled back at me and said, "You're here."

I nodded and said, I haven't come to see you in a while.

My mom has had a heart attack again and again, and now she can talk to us while lying in bed, but often when it hurts, she just tosses and turns in bed, and a few times she even can't stand the pain, and I don't know where I found a bottle of pesticide when I opened my mouth to drink.

If I hadn't hugged her and cried, she would have left us early because of a bottle of pesticide.

Now she is lying on the bed and smiling at me, that smile really makes me feel calm, and I don't think much about Xu Shenlin's words, just talk to her and talk about homely things.

However, she often asks me strange questions, such as whether the pine tree in front of my house has grown larger again, and whether the little yellow dog is also old.

I don't remember that there was a pine tree in front of my house, but there was a birch tree, and I thought she was mistaken, so I smiled and helped her correct it and said that it was a birch tree, which had just been transplanted for three years, and was almost as thick as a thigh.

My mother smiled and didn't speak, she stretched out her hand and touched my face, and called me, Jingjing, do you hate your mother for letting you get married so early.

I said, why hate.

My mother stretched out her hand and touched my face repeatedly for a long time, and her cloudy eyes couldn't see what she was thinking, she just said, if it weren't for my mother urging you to get married, you wouldn't be married to a man like Lin Anhang now, you deserve better.

I thought she blamed herself because of Lin Anhang's derailment, when I just turned twenty years old, she urged me to get married on a blind date, Lin Anhang was also planted by her at a glance, originally the two of us planned to get engaged first, but the parents were very anxious for two days, so they said directly, anyway, they are going to get married in the future, what else is engaged, it is better to get married early, and settle down early.

Lin Anhang and I didn't refuse, this marriage ended in such a mess, even if the relationship between me and Lin Anhang has become like this now, I have never blamed my mother much.

She withdrew her hand from my face, and couldn't stop muttering, it's good not to hold grudges, and it's okay not to hold grudges against my mother.

After she finished speaking, she waved her hand to me and said, you go and get busy with you, Mom is a little tired and wants to sleep.

I said, I'm here with you.

But she insisted on letting me go, and I had no choice but to get up, and when my dad came, he was holding a cigarette in his hand, and when he saw me standing in the doorway, he immediately snuffed it off.

She came over and asked me, "What's wrong?" Your mom hasn't woken up yet.

I said that when I went in just now, she woke up, but fell asleep again.

My dad nodded and said, "Then you can go back first."

I was a little worried and said, my mom is fine.

My dad said that the illness was very serious a few days ago, and the doctor said that he would not live this year.

I was taken aback and said in disbelief, how could this be!

He patted me on the shoulder, there's nothing wrong here, you can go back.

When I went back, I asked Song Lian to tell me about my mother's illness, she was lying on the sofa reading a magazine after taking a shower, she put down the magazine and sighed and said to me, Song Wenjing, now my mother's body can support a day is a day, let's try not to trouble her in the future, if we can do a day of filial piety, let's do a day.

After we said this, we didn't say anything more, and went back to our rooms.

In the middle of the night, I lay on the bed and recalled Xu Shenlin's words during the day, the more I felt that something was wrong, and I rummaged in my room for a long time in the middle of the night, and found that all the things I had used before had been thrown away by me.

I immediately ran downstairs to the trash can to look for it, but it was long gone.

When I came back from a lost soul, the living room was dark and the lights were not on, I was going to just walk in, the lights came on in that moment, Song Lian leaned against the threshold of her bedroom with a gloomy face, and her room was separated from me by a wall.

She stood there in a cloaked hair and startled me.

She stared at me until she said in the middle of the night, what are you doing in the middle of the night?

I suddenly said with a little weakness, I couldn't sleep a little, and got up and walked around.

Song Lian looked at me for a long time, did you want to find the broken things you used to have, since the things were lost, what else are you looking for.

I said, sister, do you know Xu Shenlin?

She frowned and subconsciously asked, who is Xu Shenlin.

After she asked, she was suddenly stunned, her eyes shrank instantly, and her expression was a little unnatural, why did you suddenly ask me this.

The last time Song Lian was looking for Jiangnan City to make a big noise, Song Lian had met once, when she asked me who Xu Shenlin was, but he interrupted it, and then I quarreled with Song Lian, and she left angrily.

I also kept forgetting to tell him that the man she saw that day was Xu Shenlin.

Now she seems to react when she hears her name, but she doesn't know people when she sees them, what the hell is going on.

I felt more and more that this matter was a little unusual, I grabbed Song Lian and didn't allow her to dodge and asked, sister, are you hiding anything from me, who is Xu Shenlin, why is he so familiar with me, has I forgotten something, you tell me.

Song Lian grabbed my hand and immediately pulled it away in a panic and said, Song Wenjing, you are sick!

After saying that, he pushed me, quickly got into his room, slammed the door shut, shut me out, and stood outside the door by myself.