I silently counted from one to ten in my heart, the big man on my body didn't move, I felt that I couldn't bear it anymore, the two hands that he pressed on his chest moved, and found a proper place to push the big mountain on my body with the strength of my life's milk, and he turned over from me, lying directly on the ground, and I heard a clear impact.

I felt that the impact sound sounded painful, Xu Shenlin was turned on the ground by me and didn't move, I got up from the ground, ripped off my clothes, walked two steps and squatted beside him, he was drunk, I pushed him away with so much force just now, and I didn't see him have a reaction now.

I squatted there and thought for half a minute, then got up and went outside to take a look, and when I came out, I was stupid, where the boat had floated.

All around is full of lotus flowers, and from my point of view, it is a little far from the shore, and if my guess is correct, we are now in the middle of the lake.

The lights in the pavilion where I had eaten last time were going out, and now it's ten o'clock in the evening, and I've dismissed the possibility of swimming from here to the shore with my bare hands.

I could only stand there and sigh and continue walking into the cabin.

Squatted back to Xu Shenlin's side, and I said in a leisurely voice, Director, there is a fire.

There was no movement, and I said again, Director, it's really on fire.

He still slept peacefully, I felt that if I slept in the boat for a night tonight, I would be a little broken, and I didn't know how to row this broken boat, so I stretched out my hand and touched it in Xu Shenlin's pocket.

I figured out a lighter, then looked around for something, and found that there were several textbooks on the small coffee table on the small stage that taught Guzheng techniques.

Glancing at the leftovers on the table, he felt a little bored, and it was impossible to really sleep here with him, so he got up and took a few purple potato-like things from the table, took a basin and lit a fire on the side, took a pair of iron pieces and skewered a few purple sweet potato-like things, and sat there to roast sweet potatoes and play.

After 20 minutes of roasting, the purple sweet potatoes were fully ripe, so I spent another 10 minutes swallowing the things, and after swallowing, I played with my phone for a while, and the phone showed that it was out of battery.

Still a little bored, I touched Xu Shenlin's pocket, took out his mobile phone, and excitedly took it in my hand to find a small game to play, and found that in addition to communication software, there was also a mailbox, a few English software and other things, and there was almost nothing in his mobile phone.

Finally, a little bored, he stuffed it back into his pocket, looking out at the black light.

I found a place next to Xu Shenlin and fell asleep next to him, but when I closed my eyes, I was probably so tired, I didn't think about anything, I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

In the dream, there was nothing, but I always dreamed of a vague shadow, took a knife and cut it on my wrist, and the blood spread quickly on her wrist and dripped on the white floor, as if she was going to open a blade at any time like asking for her own life, her voice was very hoarse, she knelt in front of me and said, you promise me, promise mother, don't say, don't say.

I covered my head, and I was startled and screamed when I saw that the blood in that place was like a blood-red poisonous tongue that was infinitely extended, and its teeth and claws were following me.

Keep crying and saying, don't follow me, don't follow me!

But the blood seemed to be spreading into a sea, and it always flowed out in a large area, and I fled left and right, but I couldn't escape the voice, and she asked me not to say anything, I didn't know anything, why should I not say it.

There was blood all over the dream, and I was drowning in that sea of blood, and my eyes were all stained with bright red blood, and I screamed.

The moment I opened my eyes, the red turned white, I screamed in fright, I felt that someone had been shouting me in my ear, and when I opened my eyes, I found Xu Shenlin's slightly frowning face, I looked around me with palpitations, and found that it was a dream.

I calmed down for about two minutes, came out of the nightmare, and was about to get out of his arms when a hand reached over my forehead and pressed it on my forehead for two seconds.

He said briefly, you have a fever.

I moved twice, and found that I was indeed weak, lying in his arms and not moving at all, but looked left and right, and found that I was still on the boat.

Lazily said, I had a nightmare just now, but fortunately it was just a dream.

As soon as I said a word, I found that my voice was hoarse, and my nose was almost on fire, because I had slept all night on the boat after it had been raining yesterday.

I wanted to sit up from his arms, Xu Shenlin held me down, and he said, don't move, now we are going back.

I said, someone rowing?

He nodded, and then hugged me in his arms, I felt a little cold, a little hot, I couldn't tell what it was, just drowsy leaning on him.

When he hugged me, he asked, Yuanyuan, is it cold.

I laughed and said, you shouted wrong, my name is Song Wenjing, and you also called me the same last night.

He asked casually, didn't he?

I nodded and said, yes, that's what I shouted, but don't worry, I'm not going to be angry.

After I finished speaking, I began to fall asleep in a daze, but I felt a pair of cool hands repeatedly probing my forehead, and I fell into a groggy sleep, and then I was woken up by the sound of conversation.

I glanced at it groggily, and there were two people standing in the light of the window, one was a doctor in a white coat and the other was Xu Shenlin, who was standing there looking at the documents in his hand, and asked in an emotionless voice, can't he recover?

The two hands were in their pockets, and they muttered for a long time, saying that the patient seemed to have been greatly stimulated in childhood, and with the impact on the head five years ago, there is little chance of recovery, selective amnesia is a person who is affected by external stimulation or brain collision, forgets some things or people or things that he does not want to remember or escape, and some memories that are automatically selected by the brain will disappear, resulting in the person concerned not knowing whether this memory really exists

Xu Shenlin in the light and shadow glanced at the document, then handed it back to the doctor, and said for a long time, I know.

But the volume of his speech was a little cold, I looked at it a few times, and after a while, I fell asleep again, and when I woke up again, it was five o'clock in the afternoon, and I was awakened by a tempting smell of porridge after I was fully awake.

When I opened my eyes, I was already in the hospital, and the doctor told me that I had just given birth and my body was very susceptible to wind and cold, and the ship was heavily rheumatized, so the fever was very serious.

I listened carefully for a while, the doctor changed the infusion bottle for me, and then walked out, Xu Shenlin was sitting there with a bowl of porridge in his hand, stirring.

I looked at him while lying on the hospital bed and said something troublesome.

He ignored me, just took the bowl of porridge in his hand and waited until it was cold before slowly scooping a spoonful and handed it over, I was very hungry, he fed me half a bowl, I still wanted to eat, he had put down the bowl in his hand and handed it to the special guard standing aside.

Then brought me a glass of water, you just woke up and can't eat too much.

I stared at his face for a long time, remembering what he said to me that day, and thinking of how good he was to me during this time, it was inevitable that people would have some doubts in my heart about the truth of what he said, I didn't dare to ask my mother, and when I went to ask Song Lian that day, her expression was also very weird, did I really forget something.

I thought hard in my mind, and found that there was a blank space, there was everything that should be there, there was nothing that should not be, and there seemed to be nothing incomplete.

Xu Shenlin saw me looking at him in a daze for a long time, took the towel handed over by the special nurse and wiped his hands, and asked me what was wrong, I looked at him for a long time, and asked with some hesitation, when did we meet

Behind him is a big window, it is a little late outside, the lights in the room have not been turned on, and the light is hazy outside the window, Xu Shenlin is sitting in a fog of light, his figure is blurred, and the expression on his face is not very clear, he said, why did he suddenly ask this.

I said, you are inexplicably so good to me, make me and very curious.

He looked at me with deep meaning for a long time, and then he said, if I told you that I knew you when you were very young, would you believe me?

I immediately thought about it, subconsciously felt impossible, and just denied it.

He would not allow me to speak, and said, I have been looking for you eighteen years.