When I was reborn, I wanted to make up for the biggest regret in my life: studying hard and going to school.

I stir-fried potato chips and stewed cabbage, then added water and stood on the side of the table to do my homework. In my previous life, I had been taking my son to study and re-learning the primary school curriculum, so this homework was quite simple, and I did the questions quickly, and gradually forgot everything around me.

Suddenly, I saw a hand in front of me and stretched out his hand and waved it in front of me: "Sister, what's the matter?"

I was stunned, then I smelled the pungent smell of burning, I entered and forgot to cook and opened the lid to see, the heat inside was hot and I kept waving my hand, the dishes inside were black, and the smoke choked people's tears!

I quickly took the pot down and opened the door.

My brother looked out curiously, and I pulled him aside: "Be careful of burning you!"

"The food is noisy, our mother should beat you. He said.

I grabbed the lunch box, poured all the pasted vegetables into it, and the rest of the dishes should be edible, so I found another cornmeal steamed bun and put it in.

"Don't tell our mother, you just have to eat this. ”

My brother nodded earnestly, and then smirked at me, his cotton pants were not properly on, and the buttons of his padded jacket were wrongly buttoned.

I walked up to him and straightened his clothes: "Are you hungry?

"Don't eat. Mom said wait for her to come back and boil eggs for me. After he finished speaking, he looked at me with a very apologetic look and covered his mouth: "Sister, don't be angry, I'll keep the eggs for you, otherwise you will fry one now?"

I smiled, if I used an extra egg, my mother would find out, and I would check it every time I got home.

I said, "It's okay, I'm not angry." At that moment, my sister is going to go out for a while, are you scared to stay at home?"

"I'm not afraid. I'm not a child anymore, I'll take good care of the house, sister, don't worry. He said seriously.

I touched his head, a little sad, he is not the kind of child who bullies people according to his mother's preference, on the contrary, he is a very kind child, he is so good until he is thirty years old, innocent and lovely. It's not bad to look good, but it's a person with a bad brain.

My mother has been facing her beloved son for decades, and seeing him like this, the torment in her heart can be imagined, no wonder she is getting more and more mentally broken.

I finished my homework, ate some pickles and drank a little porridge, and it was seven o'clock, and I would be late if I didn't go out again.

I took out my bag and prepared to go, so that my brother would only have to stay alone at home for ten minutes before my mother would be back.

I walked out, told my brother to close the door, take good care of the house, and ran down as fast as I could.

Then I saw a person standing in front of me waiting for me, it was Liao Gang. When I saw him, I wanted to hide back and slip away from another road, but I was still a step too late after all, and I was seen by Liao Gang.

He was still the same as yesterday, and waved his hand at me with a smile: "Why did you just come out?

I walked over, Liao Gang used to be my neighbor, at that time my parents always quarreled, I was scared and ran out quietly, Liao Gang often accompanied me, and he has always been very good to me.

I was grateful for his company, and when his dad was promoted, they moved to live in a building.

But Liao Gang and I have never broken the contact, he confessed to me when he was admitted to high school, at that time I got a lot of pain every day, he was my only hope for happiness, I once dreamed, he was admitted to college and had a good job, we can get married, I can get out of the sea of suffering, life is too hard, I began to dream.

But it is impossible for his family to accept me, my family conditions are like this, and there is a younger brother who will be a drag all his life, and he has been trying his best to prevent us from being together. In addition, my mother said that my cousin bullied me and said that I had seduced men, and my reputation was very bad, and his parents found me to work, scolded me for being shameless, and pestered their son.

Liao Gang was admitted to university, and I had less and less common topics.

He was not as accommodating and comforting to me as he had been when I was a child, and when I met him, I hoped that he would convince his parents to marry me. He never responded, and my second aunt's daughter fell in love with him at this time, and my mother wanted me to marry my ex-husband's family in exchange for a bride price.

I tried my best to explain, but Liao Gang still got rid of me. My pleas were met with nothing but his indifference.

The last time we met, he said: "You and I are not suitable in the first place, have you ever seen a schoolboy and a college student go together? I have also paid for you for so many years, I don't owe you." Don't beg me, give yourself a little dignity. He said that he was done and left.

I was seriously ill, and after infinite pain, I resigned myself to marrying my ex-husband Liu Wei, whom my mother valued. exchanged for a bride price of 80,000 yuan. Since then, I have lived in a pan of oil every day.

But he married my cousin, who worked in a bank, and lived happily ever after.

I am now back to my teenage years when I was emotionally ignorant with him, but my state of mind is completely different.

Anyway, in the end, it will be a tragedy, it is better to give up and deal with him, I really don't want to face the things of my previous life.

I smiled at Liao Gang and said, "You don't have to wait for me in the future, you also know what my brother's situation is, I can't leave home too early." You went to school earlier than me, don't be late. ”

"What's the matter, you and my school are next to each other. Didn't I say it, I'll always wait for you. Liao Gang looked at me seriously.

I looked at Liao Gang, he was really a very good teenager, he didn't understand anything, he relied on a sincere heart, and when he grew up, he knew that that sincerity was really nothing compared to the cruelty of reality.

I smiled and said, "I'm really touched by you like this, but don't let your parents worry, besides, you've been waiting, I'm anxious, and I'm always making typos in my homework, so I don't have to wait." ”

Liao Gang looked at me suspiciously, his eyes a little sad.

I turned my head and continued walking, not looking at him: "We are not children anymore, so let's not get too close in the future." Didn't your mother scold you angrily the last time she saw us walking together?"

Liao Gang frowned, "I won't stop associating with you because of this!"

"But you're a filial son, and you don't want your parents to be embarrassed, right? I don't want you to be embarrassed by me. Now that you are a student, the most important task is to study, as for other things, or will you talk about it later, do you say okay?"

"Song Xuan, why did you become so indifferent? What did your mother say?" he asked.

I smiled, "Don't you want to be admitted to university? It's useless to keep thinking about this, let's study." ”

He didn't speak, he lowered his head and walked forward, I could only hear the sound of snow under his feet, I looked at his back, he seemed to be a little injured, very unhappy, but I think it's right to do this, anyway, it will still be sad in the future, let him leave me completely.

It wasn't until I got to the school gate that I was about to go in that he stopped me: "You tell me the truth, did your mother beat you?"

I thought about it and nodded: "Yes, my mother said that we have both grown up, we have been in contact with each other, and we will be talked about, she won't let me contact you, and you know what kind of temper my mother has, if she knows about our meeting, it will be even worse if she goes to your school to make trouble." Besides, your parents won't allow us to have a relationship. ”

"Why do you keep saying this? Why don't we just get along with each other?" he interrupted, looking at him earnestly.

I don't know why, but I feel a sense of loss, and I can continue to communicate without being known?

What he wants is a momentary happiness, as for the attitude of his parents, his future life, he doesn't have any plans, and he doesn't think about having a future in his subconscious, right? How many of the boys' first loves come to the end? Pity me in my last life, and still dream that you can take me out of that abyss. He was the only straw in my dark life, the only bright color in my life.

And I'm just a not-so-pleasant first love of his, that's all.

In the past, I didn't understand anything, but what I understand now is all exchanged for blood and tears, and I didn't understand anything in my previous life, it's really too desolate.