What I said was the truth, because seeing Li Xinran like this, I really felt sad, from the bottom of my heart, from many aspects.

Li Xinran was still very emotional at this time, she looked at me, her face was covered with tears.

Li Xinran is so beautiful, so good-looking, she should have a better life, but she didn't expect that in the end, she became like this, it can be said that Lu Mao and Goatee are both murderers, a murderer who hurt her and ruined her life, and what about me? is a selfish person who can't be saved, I always think too much about myself, so I didn't stand up when Li Xinran was bullied by Lu Mao, and finally let things become like this, so I still blame myself.

Thinking of this, my heart became even more sad, my nose was sour, and I was a little choked up when I looked at Li Xinran.

It is estimated that my words and my reaction surprised Li Xinran, and her emotions finally calmed down a lot, and she looked at me and didn't speak anymore.

Her quietness made me feel bitter in my heart, I still looked at her, and continued to speak: "I'm sorry, I should have helped you, if I was willing to come out to help you earlier, I wouldn't have let you become like this, I know that there is a big responsibility on me, so I will definitely find a way to take care of you, and I will definitely help you get justice from Lu Mao."

This is completely from my heart, I really think like this at this moment, Li Xinran still didn't react after hearing what I said, she suddenly looked at me after a while and said, "Okay, let me be alone? I want to stay alone for a while."

Li Xinran's words made me stunned, I looked at her, I didn't know if I should agree to her words, she is like this, can she be alone? But Li Xinran really needs someone to calm down at this time, so I thought about it for a while, but nodded and said: "Okay, I'm at the door, you can call me if you have something."

Li Xinran stopped talking at this time, she closed her eyes, as if she was very tired.

I stared at her for a while, and then I walked out of the door of the ward, and when I walked to the door, I turned my head to look, and the sunlight outside the window was shining in on Li Xinran's hospital bed, her upper body was shrouded in sunlight, and the lower body was in the dark, like a sad metaphor.

I looked at it for a while, then sighed and sat down in a seat next to me.

After sitting down, my mind was still a mess, and I sat alone like this, and I don't know what Li Xinran thinks now.

Will she be able to accept it? Or is she in the same state of chaos as I am now, and she can't tell what is in her heart?

I don't know how long it took like this, but suddenly someone stood in front of me, I was stunned for a moment, and then I realized that the person standing in front of me was none other than Zheng Jiayue.

The moment I saw Zheng Jiayue, I thought I was dazzled or something, and when I reacted, I stood up in surprise, looked at Zheng Jiayue and asked in surprise: "You.. Why are you here?"

Zheng Jiayue pursed her lips at this time, she didn't seem to be in a good mood, she hesitated for a moment, but still said: "Mr. Chen told me everything, I called Ziyun, he told me the address, and I came."

After saying this, Zheng Jiayue paused for a moment, and then said: "I have already asked him to go back to rest, he... He doesn't look very good, although he usually looks like that, but when he first came, he had contact with Li Xinran for a while, so the two of them are still friends~"

Zheng Jiayue's expression was a little lost when she said this, and she lowered her head slightly, as if she was thinking about something.

I heard Zheng Jiayue say this and paused, it is true that there must be a story between Li Xinran and Jiang Ziyun, but it should be a very simple story, so Jiang Ziyun has not said it.

And Jiang Ziyun must have encountered such a thing for the first time, so now it will be like this, I nodded, looked at Zheng Jiayue and asked, "Well, the matter of the exhibition, is it okay?"

Zheng Jiayue nodded and said, "It's okay, it's all going well, it's just..."

Zheng Jiayue's words didn't come out, but she immediately looked at me again, and then asked, "Where is she? Why aren't you watching her from outside?"

I thought about it, and told Zheng Jiayue truthfully: "She said that she wanted to be alone and quiet, so she asked me to wait outside, she... She can't accept it right now. So.. I don't know what to do."

Zheng Jiayue was a little concerned when she heard me say this, she turned her head to look, and soon looked at me again and said, "Shall I go in and talk to her?

I definitely wouldn't say anything if Xiaoxue's sister came or something, but if it was Zheng Jiayue, I don't know if it would be good or not, because I don't think Zheng Jiayue is very good at comforting, and the other party is still Li Xinran, at this time, she won't say anything wrong to stimulate Li Xinran?

But immediately I thought of one more thing, that is, Li Xinran seems to have always had a very good impression of Zheng Jiayue, of course, it is that kind of envy or very subtle, she has always felt that Zheng Jiayue is a positive side in life, and seeing her is like seeing hope, so at this time, Zheng Jiayue's appearance may still be a good thing for Li Xinran?

Thinking of this, I looked at Zheng Jiayue, pondered for a while, and said, "Do you think it's okay?"

Zheng Jiayue knew that I was asking her, she nodded, looked at me again and said, "Let me try, and... She's not very convenient at this time, she needs a girl to take care of it, Xiao Xiaoming, you don't seem to be very convenient, I'll ask.."

Zheng Jiayue really thought about it very thoroughly, Li Xinran is like this now, she needs someone to help her go to the toilet or something, I must be inconvenient, if it is Zheng Jiayue, it will be much better.

Thinking of this, I nodded, and said Zheng Jiayue, let's go, it would be better if I could comfort Li Xinran, but it's not very realistic to think about it, because this kind of thing is not something that can be accepted by one person's comfort, and it will definitely take a lot of time.

Zheng Jiayue nodded very calmly after hearing this, she quickly took a deep breath, and then walked into the ward on the side.

I originally wanted to go in with me, but after thinking about it, I still stood at the door, Zheng Jiayue went straight to Li Xinran's bed after entering, from me I should have been able to hear what Zheng Jiayue would say to Li Xinran, but I don't know why I didn't want to listen, but sat down very calmly.

I can't guess how Zheng Jiayue will comfort Li Xinran, and I don't know how she wants to comfort her, but I think there will be some effect, how to think, Li Xinran is not such a cowardly person, if she was really so weak, she would not have persevered until now, she has been tortured by Lu Mao and goatee for so long and survived, why can't these things?

Thinking of this, I was relieved a lot, and I heard a faint voice from inside the ward.

Although she couldn't hear it clearly, she could feel that it was Zheng Jiayue's voice, and she could also hear Li Xinran's voice, although the voice was very small, she still communicated with Zheng Jiayue.

In this way, the two of them didn't know how long they talked inside, and I was hungry later, and Zheng Jiayue finally came out.

When I saw Zheng Jiayue coming out, I hurriedly looked at her and asked a little concernedly, "How is it?"

Zheng Jiayue paused, but still said: "It's not good, but... It's better, Xiao Xiaoming, can you go find a wheelchair? and help her get her into the wheelchair."

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, I nodded, and was just about to turn around, when I suddenly heard Zheng Jiayue stop me again and say, "That, remember to.. The kind that can urinate and defecate.."

Her words made my heart sink, and I thought about it, but I sighed and turned around and left.

I went to find the doctor, paid a deposit from the doctor to get the wheelchair, when I came back, Li Xinran was still on the hospital bed, Zheng Jiayue was guarding her, the two did not communicate, but I could feel that Li Xinran's mood had stabilized a lot, which was also a good thing, seeing that I pushed the wheelchair back, Zheng Jiayue immediately came to Li Xinran's side again, whispering something in her ear.

Li Xinran didn't react much, but nodded anyway.

Seeing Li Xinran nodding, Zheng Jiayue looked at me again and glanced at me, as if hinting that I was picking up Li Xinran or something.

I hesitated, but I stepped forward and hugged Li Xinran.

I actually felt very strange when I hugged her, her lower body was soft, I could feel her hands tightly hooked around my neck, her eyes were red, obviously trying to control her emotions.

This made my heart tingle, I carried her into a wheelchair, and soon Zheng Jiayue pushed her into the bathroom on the side.

This made me suddenly think about how Li Xinran would live in the future? I could only look at her for a while, and I needed someone to take care of her for the rest of my life? Who is such a person?

As soon as I thought of this, I felt irritable, I finally understood how much pressure Li Xinran was under in her heart now, she could behave so calmly, she already had a strong enough heart.

After waiting like this for a while, Zheng Jiayue still pushed Li Xinran out, and after coming out, I carried Li Xinran back to the bed, and Zheng Jiayue looked at me again and called me outside.

After going outside, Zheng Jiayue looked at me and said a little embarrassed: "There is something, I don't know how to tell you~"

Zheng Jiayue rarely had this time, I looked at her and asked, "What do you say?"

Zheng Jiayue looked at me and said again: "She.. I was about to ask her if she wanted to tell her family, but I didn't, but..."

"She needs someone to take care of her, I can take care of her for a while, but I can't take care of her all the time, so... Xiao Xiaoming, shouldn't we tell her family about the situation?"

———— heard Yu Qian say something like this... I was stunned...

I looked at her in front of me and felt as if something in my heart was beginning to decay.

yes, that's how it feels...

Is that how it feels?

When I expressed my affection for Qian, wasn't it just like she is now, in this situation?

When I expressed my affection for Yu Qian, I knew that she was with Lu Mao, not even me, but the whole company, so I didn't take into account her mood at all, I just felt that Lu Mao was not worthy of her, and she shouldn't be with Lu Mao.. But now that I think about it, isn't my situation the same now?

It can be said that it is the other way around... I am with Zheng Jiayue, and I also feel Yu Qian's good feelings, although I am very eager to enjoy this indescribable feeling, but I will not give up Zheng Jiayue at all...

Presumably Yu Qian was under the same pressure as me at that time.

She has also been secretly entangled in countless nights.

Thinking of this, my heart seemed to be missing a corner all of a sudden, and countless sorrows kept surging out from that gap...

I looked at Yu Qian like this, and it took a long time before I spoke

"Hmm.."

"I see... Now, there it is.."

My answer made Yu Qian raise her head and look at me again, she stared at me for a long time, and finally moved again.

I saw her break free of my hand and stumble out the door a little.

I stood in the bathroom for a while before walking out again...

After going out, Yu Qian was already lying on the bed, she was lying on her back, her eyes were tightly closed, and she seemed to be resting.

I feel that Yu Qian really drank too much today, even if she didn't drink too much, at least she was not in a good mood...

So after looking at her for a while, I still spoke

"If you want to sleep, put on the covers, I..."

"I'll go back first."

I didn't mention what happened just now, I just think that it is a good choice to leave by myself now...

As a result, I didn't expect that as soon as I finished speaking, Yu Qian's voice came...

"Don't go.. Stay with me.."

"Stay with me... One night.."

Although the sound was small, I could hear it clearly.

I was stunned, I never thought that Yu Qian would say this...

Do you want to stay with her all night?

Although I wanted to crook for a second, I quickly understood what she meant...

After all, it's not safe to leave her alone to stay here at night... And it's so foggy outside, it's not convenient for me to go home, and I can't hang up on the way and become a ghost or something...

So at this time, I looked at Yu Qian again, and then asked tentatively

"Is it convenient? There's only one bed."

Yu Qian immediately opened her eyes again when she heard me say this, and she seemed to be really much more awake after she vomited. She struggled to sit up again, then looked at me and said

: "Previous... Didn't you do the same?"

"So, there's nothing inconvenient about it.."

Yu Qian's words reminded me of the fact that I went to Yangtian Mountain with her, and that night, we did spend the night in the hotel bed.

Thinking of this, I didn't say anything, and finally nodded at Yu Qian...

Seeing me nodding, Yu Qian rubbed her eyes, and soon she looked at me again, and then spoke

"Let's just sleep in bed, I'm a little uncomfortable, so I'll sleep first, one and a half.."

After saying this, Yu Qian walked to the other side of the bed again, she took off her shoes, took off my coat and her own coat, put it aside, and then the whole person got into the bed...

I saw Yu Qian's move, so I thought about it again, and then walked into the bathroom on the side...

After I went in, I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror, I actually felt that I was not like myself anymore.

Which self am I?

In the end, in my heart, what kind of thoughts do I have about Qian, and what do I think about Zheng Jiayue?

I took a deep breath at this thought, then turned off the light and walked out of the bathroom.

When I went out, the lights were still on in the house.

The rooms in this hotel are very good, at least worth the price.

I turned off the lights and soon it was pitch black...

I fumbled in the dark for a long time, and finally crawled to the side of the bed.

I don't know when it started, sleeping in the same bed with Yu Qian has become so easy...

Perhaps, this is a feeling that Lu Mao has never experienced, right?

At this time, I suddenly had such an impulse, an impulse to ask Yu Qian clearly, what was going on between her and Lu Mao, to ask her if she knew Li Laogou, and to know what she had always disliked Lu Mao and being with him again.

But this thought only swirled around in my head a few times, and then I rejected it again...

Because even if I ask, Yu Qian may not tell me, and she is estimated to be in a state of half-drinking now, so it is very likely that she will not say anything I ask, but it will make her more nervous and concerned, and there will be less chance of knowing in the future.

Thinking of this, I still sighed lightly, and then opened the corner of the quilt and gently got in...

After lying down, Yu Qian next to me was facing away from me, she didn't know if she was asleep, but it was quiet and motionless.

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her, and after a while, that feeling in my heart returned.

Obviously, she was always so close to her, but she couldn't shorten the distance by a little bit.

Obviously, many times as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch her, but because of various reasons, you can't do so...

Perhaps, this is the so-called fate without separation... Perhaps, it is destined that Yu Qian and I can only stay in this distance.

Thinking of this, I was sad again, and finally closed my eyes, thinking that it would be better to sleep.

When I wake up from sleep, I guess everything will be fine, Yu Qian will return to normal, and her trembling heart will calm down again.

However, such a thought did not stay in his mind for long, and suddenly he felt that Yu Qian turned around again.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that she was looking at me too.

Although it was pitch black, my eyes and her eyes seemed to be intertwined in the darkness.

It was a very subtle feeling, it was a feeling, there are no good words to describe it.

Lying in bed and looking at each other with the girl you liked, or rather, the girl you once liked...

Obviously, I can't see each other's faces clearly, but I don't want to look away at all.

At this time, I couldn't help but start to guess in my heart.

What kind of thoughts does she have now?

What was she thinking at this time?

Is it the same thing as what you think? Or is it that you are not looking at yourself at all, and you are just thinking too much about it?

Such thoughts were racing in my mind, and suddenly Yu Qian moved...

Her face became clear in her field of vision.

As soon as my back stiffened, I felt it.

There was a temperature in front of him, and the face slowly leaned towards him.

Before I could come back to my senses, I felt a hand gently placed on my waist.

And in his arms, a petite body, leaned over...

My head buzzed, and my eyes turned into a white expanse...

My heart sank rapidly at this moment, I lowered my head, Yu Qian's face was hidden in the darkness, but her eyes were clearly shining brightly.

After a brief pause, her thin voice came from her arms

"Just one night.."

"Just give it to me. Such an evening ...

Her voice sounded so small, but it seemed to explode in my body, and the sound resounded in every corner of my body. This voice, down my veins, slowly rushed towards my heart...

I don't know why, I can't speak anymore.

Zheng Jiayue's smiling face flashed in front of him, but it was only a short second, and it disappeared.

What reappeared was Yu Qian's lonely figure, Yu Qian... That heartbreaking figure...

That's how I started it, and I don't know where the strength came from.

hugged her tightly in his arms...

The moment he hugged Yu Qian in his arms, a feeling that he had never felt before poured into his heart.

It seems to be the first time, the first time to hold her tight like this...

For the first time I felt her mood, and then, with her consent, hugged her tightly...

I can't describe my mood now, and I can't find a good word to describe this excited and insecure mood now...

Yes, it is very exciting to be able to lie on the bed and hug Yu Qian tightly.

At the same time, I am a little uneasy, I don't know where this uneasiness comes from, but it should be because it has something to do with Zheng Jiayue...

Because I was still thinking about Zheng Jiayue in my heart, I felt a little guilty, and I felt that I was very sorry for Zheng Jiayue for a while

..

But he couldn't control it, and hugged the person in his arms tightly.

I hugged Yu Qian tightly, completely from the bottom of my heart, and hugged Yu Qian tightly.

Maybe it's because of the kind of liking I used to like her.,Or, because all along, how much unwilling...

In short, he hugged her tightly, as if he was going to use all his strength.

And Yu Qian leaned on my arms like this, her head was tightly pressed against my chest, and there was no sound in her mouth.

The two of us just lay on the same bed, hugging each other tightly.

The two of us, like a couple, leaned on each other tightly.

Seriously, in a way, I kind of enjoy it.

Because this gave me an illusion, an illusion that I was already with Yu Qian...

A long time ago, being able to be with Yu Qian was almost one of the things I looked forward to the most... But nowadays, that feeling isn't so good...

I know that I can't be with her, even if I know that she doesn't like Lu Mao at all, even if I know that she has a good impression of me, but I still can't be with her.