When I said these words to Zheng Jiayue, my heart hurt inexplicably, although I know that this is what I said, but in fact, I still have a selfish side, I selfishly want Zheng Jiayue to stay by my side, I selfishly want her to not care about her parents' affairs, I think this is human nature, because I know that if I let Zheng Jiayue go abroad with her mother, then what awaits me, what awaits me and Zheng Jiayue is only the ending that everyone does not want to think of, I don't have the courage to talk about a foreign relationship, and I know that if Zheng Jiayue goes out, it is very likely that she will not come back,

At this moment, Zheng Jiayue looked at me, her eyes were a little red, as if she was being said by my words to her heart, she knew why I told her like this, she must know,

How could she not know my thoughts, she knew that I said such things because I watched her have been so entangled for the past few days, and she knew that I said this to make her no longer struggle with me and her parents.

Seriously, looking at Zheng Jiayue's appearance, my heart is very uncomfortable, I don't want to say this to her at all, or I can say that I have too many other things to say to her, but now I still said such things, when I threw that coin, I made a choice in my heart, when the coin has not fallen, I plan to say such things to Zheng Jiayue, I know that I said such things to Zheng Jiayue, I will regret it later, but I still said this,

Because I know that if I want to selfishly let Zheng Jiayue stay here, Zheng Jiayue's parents and him may really stay here and not go abroad, but in the future, Zheng Jiayue's father really has something, and Zheng Jiayue will blame me, even if she doesn't blame me, I will feel very uncomfortable in my own heart, so I feel that I am not wrong to make such a choice,

I don't think I'm a great person, but under certain conditions, I still give priority to my family, I want Zheng Jiayue to be happy, but because I and Zheng Jiayue are not selfish people, so I'm not happy,

If we are all very selfish people, then it may not be difficult to feel now, maybe everything has already been answered, so,,

So even though I don't know what will happen in the future, I still said something like this to Zheng Jiayue, I still hope that she can, think about it for his parents,

Just when I was thinking about this in my heart, Zheng Jiayue looked at me and finally spoke, her voice was very low, as if she was squeezing out her voice hard, she looked at me, and said in a low voice: "Xiao Xiaoming, do you really think like this,,, Xiao Xiaoming, why do you think like this?"

Zheng Jiayue's words made me speechless, I was speechless, I didn't know how to answer her, yes, why did I think like this, just because I didn't want to continue to see Zheng Jiayue sad, or was it because I was really moved by what his parents said, maybe there were, but I may really have such thoughts in my heart, I just don't want Zheng Jiayue and me to regret it in the future, regret it for my selfishness,

Thinking of this, I shook my head, I looked at the street in front of me again, and said slowly: "Ah,,I,I don't know,,, but this is my true thought,I really have such a thought in my heart,,"

Zheng Jiayue's eyes turned even redder when she heard me say this, she thought for a while, and then said slowly: "Why, Xiao Xiaoming, do you really think this is right, do you really think that if I choose my parents and leave you from now on, will you feel good?"

Zheng Jiayue's words made me shake my head, I sighed, and said: "Of course not, how can you leave me, but,, but one party must make a sacrifice in this matter, your parents can decide to stay here regardless of their own health for you, how can I be selfish to let you stay by my side at this time, so I think you should go abroad with your parents, no matter what the future looks like, you should accompany your parents first, this is very important,"

Zheng Jiayue was stunned for a moment when she heard me say this, and after a while, she stretched out her hand and gently put it on my lap, looked at me seriously and said: "Then if I go abroad, I don't know how long I will go, and I don't know if I can come back in the future, what about you, what about you and me, what will happen to the two of us,"

In fact, this is the most important question, I didn't say anything, at this time I hesitated in my heart for a while, but I slowly shook my head, looked at Zheng Jiayue and said: " I don't know, I really don't know, in fact, you and I both understand, understand what the two of us face if you go abroad, but, to be honest, I don't think I have any chance to go abroad, although I really want to tell you that you go abroad, I will also accompany you, but, my parents are also in China, I will not go, many reasons cause me not to go abroad, so I can only hope that you can come back in the future, if you come back, we will still be together, if you will not come back in the future, we ,,,

When I said this, I suddenly couldn't say any more, because I really didn't want to say the saddest words to Zheng Jiayue, and I believe that Zheng Jiayue definitely didn't want to hear the latter words.

The two of us just looked at each other, neither of us continued to talk, but knowing what she was thinking, she knew what I was thinking,

The two of us were silent for a long time, and every minute and second of time passed as long as a century.

There was no sound, it seemed that there was no sound of each other's breathing, Zheng Jiayue's hand was still on my lap, but she didn't say anything,

All words are superfluous at this moment, and all words seem so pale and powerless,

Zheng Jiayue stared at me like this for a long time, and after a while, she spoke again: "Xiao Xiaoming, didn't you say that we will never be separated, didn't you say, we will be together forever,"

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, I nodded, I looked at her, and said: "Yes, but, do you want to be separated from your parents, are you willing, is your father dragging such a body here because of you, I know you, you are my girlfriend, of course I know, you don't want to, so,,"

"Maybe,,It's not a separation,You can go abroad with your parents first,Go for a while,See the situation,,In case,,In case everything is fine,,,When the time comes,,"

"You can come back, this doesn't mean that I want to be separated from you forever, it's just,,I'll be separated temporarily,,"

Although he said this to Zheng Jiayue, in fact, it doesn't seem to be the case in the final analysis, it seems that if Zheng Jiayue goes abroad with his family, I don't know if I can come back, even if the two of us will not be separated in a short time, if it is really a long time, no one can really say,

Zheng Jiayue's expression was a little better when she heard me say this, but she still looked at me again quickly and didn't say a word.

She wasn't stupid, of course she knew that there were a lot of comforting ingredients in my words, so she just stared at me and didn't say anything for a long time.

At this time, a cold wind blew, neither of us moved, but looked at each other, no matter how cold the night was, it couldn't compare to the cold in the hearts of the two of us.

After a long time, Zheng Jiayue opened her mouth, she looked at me, and said slowly: "Xiao Xiaoming, do you really think that this is okay, do you really think that this is good, in your heart,"

"That's really what I thought,"

Zheng Jiayue didn't seem to believe it, I looked at her, thought about it and nodded and said, "Yes, I really, I think it's okay, of course,"

"It's just my own thoughts, everything, it depends on your final decision, I just want you to know what I think, I think you should know what I really think,,"

Zheng Jiayue nodded when she heard me say this, she looked at me, and after a while, she stood up and said, "I know Xiao Xiaoming, I have been,"

"Knowing Xiao Xiaoming,,I,,I'll think about it.,When I have the answer,,I'll tell you,,"

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, my heart was inexplicably a little sad, although I said so, but in fact, in essence, I didn't want Zheng Jiayue to leave me at all, I didn't want Zheng Jiayue to tell me anything like she really wanted to leave,

However, when it came to this, I could only look at Zheng Jiayue, and after a long time, I said again: "Okay, then, then, go back, I'll send you back,,"

Zheng Jiayue shook her head when she heard my words, she looked at me, and said again: "No need, Xiao Xiaoming, all of a sudden, I want to go around alone, I want to go back alone, Xiao Xiaoming, why don't you take a taxi back, I'm alone,,"

"I'll be back soon,"

I didn't expect Zheng Jiayue to say this, I was a little surprised, and looked at her nervously.

As a result, Zheng Jiayue seemed to know what I was thinking, she smiled at me again, and said: "Don't worry, Xiao Xiaoming, nothing will happen to me, that is, suddenly I want to walk around by myself, I want to think about these things alone, don't worry, I will go home soon, so,,"

"Xiao Xiaoming, you can take a taxi back~ Okay,"

Zheng Jiayue's words are discussed with me, she seems to really have such thoughts, maybe what I just told her, what I said to her made her care very much, so she wanted to be alone or something,

I didn't say anything, I just looked at Zheng Jiayue for a while before I spoke: "Are you really, just walking around?"

Zheng Jiayue nodded and said seriously: "Really, I, I just want to be quiet,"

She said so, I didn't say anything more, I hesitated for a while, and finally compromised and said: "Okay, then, then you take a taxi first, you go back, if you want to be quiet, just be alone near your home quietly, don't be in this place, you don't know here, it's too late and it's not safe, go downstairs to your house, you are willing to stay longer, and you can stay more alone,,"

Hearing me say this, Zheng Jiayue thought about it, and finally nodded and said, "Okay, then, I'll take a taxi first,, Xiao Xiaoming, you can go back early,"

After saying this, Zheng Jiayue really walked to the side of the road, saw her stretch out her hand, and quickly stopped a taxi.

I looked at Zheng Jiayue, she walked to the taxi and paused, quickly turned her head again, smiled at me and said, "Goodbye, Xiao Xiaoming~"

I nodded, and saw Zheng Jiayue get into the car, and then closed the door.

After seeing the taxi in front of me start, I vaguely felt that Zheng Jiayue seemed to be deliberate.

She seems to be deliberately trying to avoid me, she doesn't actually want to be alone at all, but wants to escape from my side as soon as possible.

Is she, is it because she is sad, or does she want to cry, so she left in such a hurry?

I froze in place, looking at the taxi that was driving away, and my heart became sad little by little.

At this time, I finally realized how bad what I said to Zheng Jiayue, and how sad my words would make her.

I also knew that Zheng Jiayue's departure at this time must have been to avoid me, she must not have wanted me to see her sad, so she hurriedly walked away alone, I was stunned like this, and after a while, I sighed again and stood on the side of the road to take a taxi,

At this time, I didn't notice at all, not far behind me, Yu Qian was standing there, she looked at me from a distance, looking at me and Zheng Jiayue just now, and didn't say anything,

After waiting on the side of the road for a while, I finally stopped a taxi, I got in the car and gave the address of my home, and the taxi driver quickly took me in the direction of my house, and it was very late when I got home.

I didn't feel like I drank too much, just a little dizzy, I walked around the community alone, and then went upstairs, I think Zheng Jiayue may be the same as me, will she also walk under her own community, will she also want to go upstairs like me, just want to walk, I don't have an answer,

I think Zheng Jiayue must be very contradictory, after all, I said such things to her, if it was someone else, she might still think about it, but I said so, she must be very concerned, in fact, her heart has been hesitating, hesitating what to do, now my words give her a direction, my words make her more biased towards her parents,

Although I regret it a little, I don't think I'm wrong, I don't want her family to be torn apart again, and I don't want Zheng Jiayue's father to be the one who made the sacrifice when her body is like this.

I'm not that kind of person, Zheng Jiayue is not that kind of person, we shouldn't be entangled in this kind of thing, so things must be good, even if Zheng Jiayue goes abroad with her parents, in case her father's situation improves, in case everything gets better by then,

I don't know if it's self-consolation, but anyway I thought about it downstairs for a while, and finally came up,

The upstairs room was still empty, I sat on the sofa and looked at the dark room, and suddenly realized that I had never moved out of here to live with Zheng Jiayue, it turned out that I had not left this place, why, why did I stay here, why I never went to live with Zheng Jiayue, I don't know,

In fact, I have such a feeling in my heart, that is, I am not really together with Zheng Jiayue, or it can be said that I have not completely felt that Zheng Jiayue belongs to me, which is why I have not moved to Zheng Jiayue's house, it may be that from the beginning I felt that there was still a gap between myself and Zheng Jiayue.

Although a lot has happened between me and Zheng Jiayue, and the relationship between me and Zheng Jiayue has become much closer after falling in love, I have a feeling from the beginning that I am actually not worthy of her.

When Zheng Jiayue told me that she liked me, I was more shocked, and my heart was more uneasy.

But when I got together with Zheng Jiayue later, I found that she was really much better than me, and it could even be said that she was not in the same world as myself, I don't know why she chose me, but I always felt that I couldn't give her a better life, at least the gap between myself and her was still very big,

There are too many things that happened between me and Zheng Jiayue, and many things led to the relationship between the two of us going further, I began to feel that I was very happy with Zheng Jiayue, and I felt that I had the ability to give Zheng Jiayue happiness, but at this time, her parents reappeared,

I know that my liking for Zheng Jiayue will seem so small compared to her family's affection, not to mention that Zheng Jiayue's father still has such a thing now, I can't be selfish to keep Zheng Jiayue by my side.

Thinking about this, I lay on my bed,

Although I lay down, I couldn't sleep, I stayed quietly for a long time, I don't know when I finally fell asleep,

When I woke up, it was already dawn, and the sky was still gloomy outside, and it seemed that the weather had been bad since the day before yesterday.

I stood in front of the window and looked at the sky outside, and after a while, I thought that I don't know how Zheng Jiayue is feeling today, I don't know, did she go back to sleep yesterday, I don't know if her parents told her something again, will Zheng Jiayue tell her parents what I told her, Zheng Jiayue shouldn't tell her parents what I said so quickly, she should think about it herself, she should also think about it herself,

Thinking of this, I took a deep breath and quickly walked out of my house again, and after going out, I walked to the front of the bus, thought about it, and got on the bus,

I didn't feel like I was in the mood to go to work in the past two days, but I couldn't help but go, so I could only hold the idea of relaxing.

I arrived at the door of the company like this, and after a while I went straight upstairs.

There are quite a lot of people in the company, and I didn't come very early, but after the people in the company saw me, they all said hello.

After all, now everyone knows that I have a very high position in the company, and many people are willing to get close to me or something.

Frankly speaking, this feeling is pretty good, if Zheng Jiayue hadn't had such a thing, I would really feel very happy now, at least I earn a lot of money, I can buy some things for Zheng Jiayue or something,

So I sat in my seat until I went to work.

Zheng Jiayue really hasn't come yet, she should still be at home, this is not to blame her, if it were me, I would definitely not come, something like this happened at home, who is still in the mood to come,

With such a thing at home, no one would want to continue to come to the company.

I was like this for a while, and suddenly Chen Jiao came to look for me, I was a little surprised to see Chen Jiao, Chen Jiao looked at me, and said with a little concern: "Is something wrong with Xiaoyue, she hasn't come to the company in the past two days, if I call her, she also said it's okay, but,,"

"I think there should be something, Xiaoyue won't tell me, you tell me,"

Chen Jiao is also a good friend of Zheng Jiayue, so she can naturally feel that something is wrong with Zheng Jiayue.

I didn't have time to think about others in the past two days, and I didn't expect Chen Jiao to call Zheng Jiayue, that's right, Chen Jiao has such a good relationship with Zheng Jiayue, seeing that Zheng Jiayue didn't come to work in the company, she will naturally ask, and Zheng Jiayue definitely doesn't want to tell Chen Jiao about these things, so Chen Jiao will come to ask me,

But it's also very strange, Zheng Jiayue and Chen Jiao have a very close relationship, if Zheng Jiayue can't make up her mind about this matter, she should discuss it with Chen Jiao or something, but Zheng Jiayue doesn't seem to tell Chen Jiao, is it?

I really don't want Chen Jiao to know, or does Zheng Jiayue just want to decide this matter alone,

I couldn't think of an answer, and I didn't have an answer, I just looked at Chen Jiao in front of me, and after a while, I said softly: "She,,How can I say it,,Since she didn't tell you,,I just don't want you to know,,"

Hearing me say this, Chen Jiao frowned, she looked at me, and said seriously: "In this way, Zheng Jiayue really has something, what happened, you tell me, otherwise,"

Speaking of this, Chen Jiao suddenly fell silent, it seemed that she didn't think of what would happen otherwise.

Anyway, she looked at me like this, and after a while, she said, "I'm worried about her, so,,You tell me,,She's never hidden anything from me before,,This time,,I don't feel good,,"

Chen Jiao really has a good relationship with Zheng Jiayue, and I can feel something at this time, I was a little soft-hearted when asked by Chen Jiao, but I was still ruthless and didn't tell her, because I was afraid that she would say something to affect Zheng Jiayue's thoughts, but, looking at Chen Jiao like this, if I don't say something, she doesn't seem to want to give up.