To this day, I can vividly remember the pain in my heart when I was in the midst of a spasm. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

It was a few years ago, and the Municipal Public Relations Association held an etiquette training course. I also signed up for the Mid-Autumn Festival in August. At the end of the day, the association held a temporary party for us. A young man who had been a host on a city TV station for a few days was invited out to be the host of the show. He asked, "Which lady here would like to partner with me to host today's evening?"

There was silence in the room. After a while, a girl raised her hand slightly. We just felt that the atmosphere in the venue was revitalized. At the invitation of the young man, the girl walked to the center of the room, she was of medium height and very well-proportioned. Hair was cut short, which was a popular style at the time. He wears a waist-length jacket and tight-fitting jeans. The eyes are not big, but they shine. The whole body is filled with a youthful vitality. This is Meng Tong.

It was all improvisation, and I can't remember what I did. The only thing I remember is that Meng Tong stood up boldly without any preparation in advance and became the host of the show that night, every move, smile and smile is vivid in my mind now, as if it happened yesterday.

That was the first time I noticed Meng Tong, and I was immediately overwhelmed by her temperament and intelligence. I wish I could have a chance to get close to her and have a few words with her! But I'm an introvert. He is not good at talking, and he is not good at taking the initiative to contact people, and will only wait passively. Until the end of the training class, I didn't wait for the opportunity to contact Meng Tong. I think it's over now, and I won't have a chance to see Meng Tong again. Unexpectedly, when I went to the public relations association to hand in the final exam papers, I met her unexpectedly.

That day, I rode my bicycle to the office building where the PR Association was located. Just as I was lowering my head to lock the car, Meng Tong pushed the car and walked from behind me. She parked the car not far in front of me, turned her back to me, and lowered her head to lock the car. Her gaze was over her shoulder and over me. Turns out he's noticed me too. My heart was overjoyed, and the ghost stopped and waited for her.

When she turned around, we looked at each other and smiled. As if she had run into an old acquaintance, she asked me, "What are you doing here?" and I said, "I'll give you the answer." She said, "What a coincidence, so do I." With that, we walked together towards the building.

After the training class, I was annoyed that I couldn't get to know Meng Tong. I often complained to myself: "It's better to leave one of her addresses!" At this moment, I met her unexpectedly, and I couldn't miss this opportunity again. Hurriedly took out a notebook from his bosom, handed it over, and said, "Please sign it." She stopped for a moment, and said with a slightly disappointed face, "You don't know me?" and I hurriedly said, "Yes, yes, but I don't have your contact address." Then she turned her sorrow into joy, took the notebook, and wrote her address on it. Then he said, "You write me one too." So I wrote one for her.

She closed my notebook, and when she saw the words "pen will remember" on it, she asked me, "Are you still engaged in writing?" and I said, "Yes." She asked, "What to write?" and I said, "Novel." She tilted her head, unable to see anything, and nodded thoughtfully.

We went to the office of the PR Association, and there were already a lot of students sitting in it. The Secretary General of the PR Association was in charge of receiving us. Meng Tong and I handed in the test papers. Meng Tong went over to greet a few female students. I leaned over to listen to the conversation.

By accident, I saw a draft organization for the establishment of a student association on the table, so I took it and sat aside to look through it. After a while, Meng Tong came over and sat next to me. I showed her the plan, and she shook her head and said, "I've seen it last time." Then she asked me, "If the sorority is organized, do you want to attend the Faculty of Letters?" I said, "Yes." I asked her what novels she usually reads, and she said that she likes to read love ethics. I asked her again if she read poetry, and she said she read some occasionally.

We sat for a while and saw that the Secretary-General and everyone were just aimless small talk. Meng Tong said to me softly, "Are you leaving?" I hurriedly said, "I'm fine, I'll go too." She smiled, stood up, and walked out briskly. By the time I came out, I couldn't see her. Walk to the top of the stairs. But he saw her standing on the stairs.

We left the office building and each pushed our bicycles out into the street. Meng Tong asked me, "Which way are you going, this side or that way?" I pointed to the west and said, "This way." She said, "Then let's drop by." "Let's ride side by side.

Meng Tong asked, "Do you just go home to read?" I said, "Generally speaking, I don't like to run." Meng Tong asked again, "What about playing?" I asked, "What are you playing?" and she said, "For example, playing billiards, dancing or surfing the Internet." I said, "I can't play billiards or dance." As for the Internet bar, I've never been there. Meng Tong smiled happily: "You are full of orthodoxy!" I said, "It's not orthodox, I just don't like that." Meng Tong asked again: "Then how do you spend Sunday?" I said, "Sometimes I read books, sometimes I write articles." Meng Tong said, "Don't you go out?" I said, "Of course you have something to do." For example, helping the family do things, or our literary club assembly. Meng Tong said: "You are really sitting, no wonder you write novels!" Every day, no matter if I have something to do, if I don't come out and go around twice, I will be bored and panicked. For a while, I was waiting at home for distribution, and I had nothing to do all day, and I was about to get sick. “

I suddenly remembered that when she introduced herself, she said that she was a student at a secondary school who had just graduated this summer. She asked, "Why, you haven't been allotted yet?" and she said, "How easy is it!" I didn't dare to ask any more questions.

After a pause, Meng Tong asked me again: "Are you from the Morning Star Literature Society?" I said, "No, I am from the Northern Xinjiang Society." She said: "I've heard that the Northern Xinjiang Society is very famous. With Xiao Rong, you can know everything. I asked, "Who is Xiao Rong?" and she said, "One of my classmates is from the Morning Star Society." ”

Then, there was another silence. Meng Tong suddenly asked me, "How old are you?" I asked her, "How old do you think I am?" and she said, "You are twenty years old at most." I said, "I was born old, and others say I'm twenty-eight." She smiled and said, "I don't think you're that big." ”

As he spoke, he came to a crossroads. Meng Tong deftly stretched out his hand and pointed to both sides, asking, "This way, or this way?" I pointed to the south and said, "I'll go this way." She said, "Then it's time for us to break up." I was still excited, but I couldn't think of a reason to continue walking with her, so I had to say sadly: "Goodbye!" Meng Tong also waved at me and drove to the street next to me.

When I got home, I was still immersed in the atmosphere of talking to Meng Tong, reminiscing about the time I had just passed, and I couldn't help but laugh several times.

I spent the next three days in a state of anxiety. I was anxious to see Meng Tong again, but I didn't know how to find her. I can only scold myself secretly: "Stupid, why didn't you find a reason to see her again when you broke up that day?"

By the afternoon of the third day, I couldn't sit still and went back to the PR Society. But I didn't see Meng Tong. I'm too embarrassed to ask if she's been here. I came out dejected, and I didn't want to go home, so I looked for the address she left for me, and rode in that direction. At this time, I realized that the direction I was walking today was exactly the opposite of the direction that Meng Tong walked with me that day.

I walked past an intersection, looked up, and saw Meng Tong riding from the corner on my right. I was stunned, I couldn't believe my eyes, there was such a coincidence in the world? At that moment, I really believed that people can "make their wishes come true"!

I stomped on my feet and rushed up, stopped in front of Meng Tong's car, and shouted excitedly: "Hey, Meng Tong!" She was stunned at first, and when she saw that it was me, she asked with a smile: "It's you, where are you going?" I didn't know what to say for a while, so I made it up: "Go find someone." As he spoke, he followed her forward.

She asked me, "Have you been busy lately? I haven't seen you for the past two days." I said, "Not busy." She asked, "Have you been to the PR club for the past two days?" and I said, "I've been there once today." He said. I've gone far with her. She asked, "Well, where does the man you are looking for?" and I said, "You don't have to go to him!" and she said, "Then go to my house." ”

At this point, she suddenly exclaimed, "Oh, what about my mother?" and I thought that when I was crossing the intersection, her mother got out of her car, and she was so concerned with talking to me that she forgot to let her get in the car again. She said, "No, my mother is riding a car." As he spoke, he looked behind him and said, "Let's go, my mother is behind." ”

Then she asked, "What class do you have?" and I said, "Rest today." She smiled and said, "I don't want to read at home anymore?" I said, "How can you always read, and you have to let your brain rest and rest." With that, we had entered the dormitory of the textile mill and came to a row of rather old bungalows. Her mother also caught up from behind. She told me, "This is my mother!" and then she told her mother, "This is our classmates from the PR Association." Her mother laughed and said, "What a coincidence!"

Then, I followed Meng Tong into her house. As soon as I entered, she said to me, "Our family is quite small. "I saw that there was only one bedroom and one living room, and the kitchen was still in the yard, which was indeed quite cramped. Meng Tong asked me to sit on the sofa, lifted the thermos bottle in a cup to get half a cup of hot water, and then picked up a large water bottle on the table and mixed it with some cool water. Reached out and shook it at a moderate temperature before handing it to me. After doing this, she sat down in the chair next to me and said, "The heating in our house is quite hot. Mom, open the door and cool off. "I just sat there and felt very warm and comfortable. He said, "Isn't that good, it's not too hot." And she stopped gnawing. Thinking about it now, she must have been very excited, her blood was churning, and her face was hot.

After we entered the house, her mother was busy in the kitchen for a while, and recently opened the refrigerator to take a look, and then said to Meng Tong, "Xiaotong, mom is gone." With that, he went out.

Meng Tong explained to me, "My mother is still at work." This afternoon, I took two hours off to accompany me out to find someone. I asked, "What for?" and she said, "For what I have assigned." I asked, "How?" and she deliberately made a nonchalant look, saying, "Let's go for nothing!" and I heard that she was disappointed, and I digressed from the subject.

Next, we talked a lot, a lot, but always around the topic of literary writing. I told her about my writing history, how I felt while writing, and the people and things I encountered while learning to write. She told me about some of the novels she had read, about her classmate Xiao Rong, who loved to write poetry. He also took out a poem written by Xiao Rong and showed it to me.

We kept talking about it getting dark before I took my leave. I didn't feel that happy or satisfied. When Meng Tong was sent out of the door, I looked at her flower-like smile, as if I saw happiness beckoning to me!

After work the next day, I involuntarily drove to the street where Meng Tong's family lived. When I came to the door of the textile mill dormitory, I stopped. I really can't think of any reason for me to take the liberty of disturbing Meng Tong. However, I couldn't bear to leave, and rode around that street several times.

The winter days are short, and I don't realize that the lights are already on. I don't know how many times I walked past the door of the dormitory area of the textile factory, and I saw Meng Tong walking over with a food bag. I hurriedly drove up to meet me and called, "Hey, went shopping?" Meng Tong looked up and saw that it was me, and asked with a smile, "What are you doing again?" I haven't thought of a word to deal with. When she asked, she said incoherently, "I, I, didn't go anywhere, I got off work and went home." Meng Tong asked again, "How did you get here?" I said, "I don't know how I came here." It seems that if you don't come and go, your heart will not be steady!" Meng Tong raised his head suddenly, and a pair of shining eyes stared straight at me, "Why?" I was stunned for a moment, and my heart was nervous. I chattered for a long time, but I never dared to say what I was hiding in my heart. In the end, I had to say, "Maybe it's to comfort yourself." I hurriedly said, "No, I have to go home quickly." With that, he walked away. I should have told Meng Tong at the time, "Because I like you!" It's a pity that I didn't say it, and I'll never have a chance to say it.

Since then, I haven't been looking for Meng Tong for more than a week. Because I couldn't find a reason to see her. It wasn't until one day that I came up with another reason to find her, so I knocked on the door of Meng Tong's house again.

When I saw Meng Tong, I couldn't help but be taken aback. After not seeing her for more than ten days, she suddenly became very haggard. His face has lost its former luster, and his body is no longer full of vitality.

Seeing me, Meng Tong smiled reluctantly, and said listlessly: "It's you, come in." With that, he still let me sit on the sofa. Picked up the thermos and poured a glass of water and handed it to me, but this time I forgot to add it to cool and boil.

Then, Meng Tong sat on the chair next to him in a daze. I looked at her with red eyes and seemed to cry. She asked, "What's wrong?" and she said, "It's fine." I hesitated. Say, "You must be in trouble, can you tell me and see if I can help you." Meng Tong lowered his head as if he was muttering to himself: "There is no hope for my distribution." Everyone who could find them was searched, but they just didn't accept it. I asked, "Why?" Meng Tong said, "The receiving unit said that they were overcrowded and could not afford to arrange for us. ”

When I heard this, I had no choice but to be silent, because my graduation assignment had made my parents feel terrible and difficult, and in the end, I just entered a collective enterprise and became a worker. If you are like this, how can you help others?

Seeing that I didn't follow, Meng Tong said again: "My mother said that she went to the factory leader today, hoping that our factory would accept me." You can do anything, even if you go down to the workshop. As a car stopper, I have read all the books for so many years. ”

I was still speechless, thinking that I should comfort and comfort Meng Tong, but I couldn't find the appropriate words. After a moment of silence, I remembered why I had come this time. said to Meng Tong: "Don't think about this, you can't solve the problem if you worry about it like this, so let's go out and relax." Our literary club is going to hold a New Year's Day party, and friends from all walks of life are welcome to participate. Are you interested in playing?" Meng Tong shook his head: "I found that I was not in any mood. "I had planned to convince Meng Tong to attend our gala. But I heard her tone resolute, although it was impossible. I said a few more words of comfort, but I felt that I was not pale enough to be moved, so I had to take my leave.

After more than ten days, I went to visit Meng Tong again. This time it was her mother who received me. When I explained my intentions, her mother smiled and said, "Look for our little Tong." She's not at home, come in and sit. I hurriedly laughed and said, "No, Auntie, has Xiaotong's assignment been settled?" and her mother said, "Not yet." But there didn't seem to be much worry in his tone. I said goodbye and turned to leave. Her mother suddenly stopped me and said, "Hey, who are you?" There are so many boys who come to our family Xiaotong, and I can't tell which of you is who!" I reported my name, but I felt that her mother's words had another purpose, and a sense of foreboding crept came over me, and I became uneasy.

Two days later, I went to find Meng Tong again, but there was no one at her house. Again, it was her mother who received me. only said: "Xiaotong is not here." "This time, I didn't let in the house. And so it has been. Either there was no one at home, or her mother received me. I never saw Meng Tong again.

I felt that something was wrong, and my heart was as anxious as if it was fried. I must meet Meng Tong and ask why? I no longer go to her house, but wait for her at the door of their dormitory. I thought, "I don't believe you won't come out." At that time, I was like crazy, and I ran to the door of the textile factory dormitory whenever I was free. I asked myself again and again, "Why is this?"

One day, I stood at the door of the dormitory of the textile factory and waited for Meng Tong. Suddenly, I heard a crisp voice behind me ask, "Are you waiting for Meng Tong?" I hurriedly turned around and saw a very fair-skinned and neat girl standing behind me. The girl had short ear-length hair and was dressed in plain clothes. gives a pure and elegant feeling,

I hurriedly turned around and nodded at the girl. The girl introduced herself: "My name is Chen Rong, and I am Meng Tong's classmate. I hurriedly said, "Ah! Meng Tong and I talked about you. She asked again, "Are you waiting for Meng Tong?" I lowered my head and was silent. Chen Rong said: "You don't have to wait, Xiaotong won't see you." I asked, "Why?" Chen Rong said, "She already has a boyfriend." ”

My heart chuckled, and my whole body went numb as if I had been electrocuted. When the sensation returned, he found that he was surrounded by spasms. The heart is noosed by an invisible force, and the pain is unbearable.

Chen Rong said: "Meng Tong met a boy who was very handsome. Work in the Audit Bureau. "My mind was white, and Chen Rong's voice seemed to come from the sky. I asked nonchalantly, "Am I being amorous?" Chen Rong didn't answer me, but just said: "You know that this is a major event related to a person's life, and different choices will bring people different destinies, do you understand?" I said, "I...... I see. Tears blurred my vision, and I fled as if I had been chased......

I rode aimlessly through the streets. In the end, he swung out of the city and came to the Xiao River. I dropped my bike and lay on my back on the icy sand......

Straight now, I can still vividly remember the pain in my heart when I was in the midst of a spasm.