fourteen

The next day, Chen Yuxin went back to work in Hougou, and Xiao Zihua also happened to come back to work after helping Huang Sumei finish the process that day. Seeing Xiao Zihua at the ticket gate, Chen Yuxin calmly greeted him and asked, "Are you at work?" This incident hit Sister Huang very hard, and I'm afraid she will have to rest for a while before she can come back to work. Chen Yuxin let out a soft "oh". Seeing that there was no one around him, Chen Yuxin plucked up his courage and said softly: "After handing over the shift in the evening, would you better wait for me in front of the Guanyin Hall?" Xiao Zihua hesitated for a moment before saying, "Okay." ”

Next, Chen Yuxin survived the longest day of her life. Although it was late autumn and the days were getting shorter, Chen Yuxin still thought that the day was too long. finally stayed up until dark, and estimated that Xiao Zihua had handed over the shift, but Chen Yuxin hesitated again. She sat in her dorm room and asked herself repeatedly, "Is it really possible, can you really do this?" and the more she asked herself, the more confused her heart became. In the end, she simply said to herself, "I don't care if he does, I'm going to do it anyway!"

Chen Yuxin walked out of the dormitory, followed the ancient village path that had been walked countless times, and quietly walked towards the Guanyin Hall. When he arrived at the Guanyin Hall, Chen Yuxin vaguely saw a figure at the door of the Guanyin Hall shaking for a moment. She looked closely, it was Xiao Zihua. At this moment, Chen Yuxin's chest seemed to be slammed into by something, and his heart beat wildly. Chen Yuxin covered his heart with his hands, trying to calm himself down. But it was all in vain, and she couldn't calm down anymore. After only a while, Chen Yuxin felt that his blood was boiling all over his body, and his face was hot. Helpless, she had no choice but to lower her head and slowly walk towards Xiao Zihua.

Xiao Zihua heard the footsteps, and hurriedly turned around and greeted, "Yuxin, you're here." Chen Yuxin didn't dare to look up at Xiao Zihua, but just lowered his head and nodded vigorously. Xiao Zihua asked again: "Yuxin, what are you looking for me?" This question, Chen Yuxin's heart beat even more violently. She only felt a thousand words, but she didn't know where to start. Her plump red lips closed one by one, but she couldn't make any sound. After being stunned like this for a moment, Chen Yuxin turned his heart sideways and plunged into Xiao Zihua's arms with a "buzz".

At this moment, Chen Yuxin heard Xiao Zihua's voice trembling and shouted: "Yuxin!" Chen Yuxin hugged Xiao Zihua tightly, and said in a trembling voice: "Brother Tianya, take me away...... Don't you want to go to the South? I'll go with you...... I'll be with you all the way there. Let's buy a computer, and I'll help you type. I promised you that I would write for you for the rest of my life. …… I mean what I say, and I will always be with you until you succeed...... Brother Tianya, you can take me away!". Xiao Zihua listened to Chen Yuxin silently, and his body trembled for a while. However, after Chen Yuxin finished speaking, it only took a moment for Xiao Zihua to push Chen Yuxin away from him, and said resolutely: "No, Yuxin, we can't only care about ourselves like this! You should think that your parents raised you so big, and it is when you should honor them and repay them, how can you bear to leave them and leave? There are other relatives of yours, they also care for you, how can you take care of yourself?"

Every sentence of Xiao Zihua's words was a bolt from the blue, and Chen Yuxin, who hit him directly, was heartbroken. She was ready to sacrifice everything she had to follow the man in front of her. Instead of accepting it, the man denounced himself for not doing so. Chen Yuxin only really realized what it meant to be self-conscious at this moment. She raised her hand and slapped Xiao Zihua hard, and then ran forward blankly.

Tears had already blurred her vision, and even if it wasn't in the dark, Chen Yuxin couldn't see where she was running at all. She didn't know where she was going, she just felt that there was no place for herself in this world. That's all she can do ...... running dazedly. Suddenly, Chen Yuxin's feet were empty. Hearing only a "plop" sound, she fell into the Longmen River in front of Hougou Ancient Village, and she didn't know anything......

When Chen Yuxin woke up, he felt that there was a white expanse in front of him, and his eyes were blurry and he couldn't see anything clearly. She blinked vigorously, trying to get her eyes clear. This time, I saw Qin Lei's innocent and cute baby face at a glance.

I only heard Qin Lei shouting happily: "Ah, you finally woke up, but you made us anxious!" Chen Yuxin asked indifferently: "Where am I?" Qin Lei said: "In the hospital! You are burning and talking nonsense, where else can you be sent if you are not sent to the hospital? How could you fall into the Longmen River again? Fortunately, the water is not deep this time." It was Xiao Zihua who rescued you. He carried you back to the dorm, and you were burning. Scared the hell out of us, we quickly called 120 and got you to the hospital. You've been in a coma for two days and two nights! What's going on? How did you get this way?"

Chen Yuxin asked Qin Lei unexpectedly: "Aren't you going to work?"

Qin Lei said: "I'm going to work, but Xiao Zihua asked me to stay with you." You didn't see him in a hurry, so you almost knelt down and begged me. Actually, I'm quite worried about you, so I asked for leave to accompany you. Xiao Zihua really cares about you!"

But Chen Yuxin didn't fight when he heard the three words "Xiao Zihua", and said fiercely: "Don't mention him to me!"

Qin Lei was taken aback and asked, "What's the matter?"

Chen Yuxin silently refused.

Qin Lei leaned down and said softly, "Hey, let me tell you, I saw Xiao Zihua and your father talking for a long time." I don't know what was said. ”

Chen Yuxin was taken aback and hurriedly asked, "When?"

Qin Lei said: "It's right here." As soon as I brought you in, your mom and dad came. It was the call I made in the ambulance. Your mother and I are guarding you inside, and Xiao Zihua and your father are talking outside. After talking about it for a long time, I saw that your father's face was very bad!"

Chen Yuxin really hates Xiao Zihua at the moment. I thought he must have told his father that he wanted to run away with him. How will she face her parents and relatives in the future? Chen Yuxin had a hunch that it would be better to fall into the Longmen River and drown. But now......

Chen Yuxin suddenly stretched out his hand to hold Qin Lei, and said, "Don't go, just stay here with me, okay?" Qin Lei was taken aback by Chen Yuxin's sudden move, and hurriedly said, "Okay, okay, I won't go." Isn't that what I'm here to keep you company?"

However, things could not develop as Chen Yuxin had planned. Soon the door of the ward was gently pushed open, and Yuxin's father slowly walked in. Qin Lei hurriedly stood up and reported, "Uncle, Yu Xin has woken up. Yuxin's father smiled kindly at Qin Lei as usual and said, "Thank you, Qin Lei, I've been guarding Yuxin here for the past two days." Are you tired? Go home and rest. Now that Yuxin has woken up, you can rest assured. ”

Qin Lei glanced back at Chen Yuxin, and Chen Yuxin had a pleading look in his eyes. Qin Lei hurriedly said, "Uncle, I'm not tired. I'm still here with Yu Xin, she just woke up and needs someone to take care of her. Yu Xin's father said: "Your aunt and I just talked on the phone, and she is rushing here, and she will be there in a while." Don't worry, Yuxin won't be left unattended. Qin Lei was speechless, she looked back at Chen Yuxin and didn't know what to do. Yu Xin's father said: "You can rest assured to go back, I will talk to Yu Xin for a while." Qin Lei had no choice but to nod and say, "Okay." ”

Qin Lei picked up her bag from the chair, leaned over and whispered to Chen Yuxin, "I'll come to see you tomorrow." He straightened up again and said to Yuxin's father, "Uncle, goodbye!" and walked out of the ward.

Seeing Qin Lei gently close the door, Chen Yuxin's heart suddenly hung up. She thought to herself that this was the end of it, and that her father was going to start reprimanding herself. Although Dad loved her since she was a child, he never hit her or scolded her. But this time she did something too out of line. Last time, I ran to another city with my boyfriend, and it can be said that I was young and ignorant for a while. This time, I made it clear that I was going to run away with someone, and my father would definitely not forgive me.

Chen Yuxin tensed every nerve in his body, gritted his teeth, and waited for his father's merciless reprimand to smash his head and face. But Dad stood in front of the window, looking down at the pedestrians and vehicles coming and going on the street, and was silent for a long time. The silence in the hospital room was oppressive. I don't know how long it took, Chen Yuxin finally couldn't hold his breath and exhaled a long breath.

At this time, Dad finally spoke slowly, "When you were five years old, your mother was ready to divorce Dad! If your mother had left us at that time, her life would be better than it is now." Chen Yuxin was stunned when he heard it. She thought that her father would scold her when she opened her mouth, but she didn't expect her father to say this as soon as she opened her mouth, which surprised her. Unexpectedly, not only did her father not reprimand her, but also her father would say that he and his mother had planned to divorce. This is simply an incredible thing in Chen Yuxin's opinion. Mom is so gentle and kind, Dad is so kind and accessible, and the family they form is harmonious and warm. But now Dad said that the family was almost broken, which was a joke! This must be a story that Dad made up to convince her. Thinking of this, Chen Yuxin immediately retorted: "You lie, my mother won't divorce you!"

Unexpectedly, Dad was not in a hurry, and still said unhurriedly: "Have you forgotten? Didn't you live with your grandparents all summer when you were five years old?"

Chen Yuxin was startled, and she vaguely remembered it. She wasn't sure if it was when she was five years old, but she remembered it. That year, her father sent her back to the village, and he didn't come to pick her up for a long time. At first, she didn't care, she just played happily every day. But after a long time, she began to miss her mother. She asked her grandmother, "Why haven't my parents come to pick me up?" and she always said, "It's coming, it's coming." But I never saw my parents come. There was a faint sense of foreboding in her young mind. Once, when she asked her grandmother again, "Why haven't Mom and Dad come to pick me up?" When she realized that something was wrong, she cried and cried for her mother. Grandma picked her up and tried her best to coax her, but in the end she started crying. Seeing her grandmother crying, she was too scared to cry. Since then, she has sat on the stone pier at the entrance of the street every day after dinner, looking out at the entrance of the alley. Hopefully, one day a miracle will happen and Mom and Dad will suddenly come to her.

I don't know how many days she waited, but a miracle really happened, and her mother came to see her! But she couldn't believe it was real. She sat on the stone pier and watched her mother approach, but she didn't know how to stand up and meet her. It wasn't until her mother called "Yu Xin" that she timidly called "Mom". For some reason, my mother cried as soon as she hugged her. But after her mother cried, she took her home. Everything has since returned to normal.

She was too young at the time, although she was scared when danger came. But once the danger passed, she quickly put it behind her, and did not explore the reason. Later, the family never mentioned it, and Chen Yuxin slowly forgot about it. If Dad hadn't mentioned it today, she wouldn't have remembered anything like this. "Mom and Dad left me at my grandmother's house for so long, it turns out that they are ......" Chen Yuxin didn't dare to think about it.

I heard my father continue: "I tried a lot to make your mother change her mind, and finally had to agree to the divorce. Originally, we had agreed on everything, but your mother only said that she would go to the village to see you, and she would go through the formalities when she came back. But when your mother saw you, she changed her mind......"

Chen Yuxin covered her ears with her hands and shouted: "I don't listen, I don't listen, this is not true......" She really couldn't accept this fact. In her consciousness, her home is the strongest and most impregnable fortress, so much so that in Chen Yuxin's feelings, it seems as if she has had this home since she had this world. No matter what hardships and dangers she has encountered over the years, she has never been afraid, because she has a reliable home behind her. However, her father is now telling her that none of this is true, which makes her how can she accept it.

Dad called out solemnly: "Yuxin!" and stopped her crying. Then Dad continued: "Your mother and I have stopped mentioning this matter all these years, and it has indeed passed. Second, you are still young, and there are some things that you still can't understand. I am telling you this today to tell you that due to the conditions that do not allow, people's wishes may not always be fulfilled. No one has ever promised that every wish of man should be fulfilled. However, people's wishes can not be realized, and everyone's responsibilities cannot be ignored. Your mother thinks of her responsibility to you and gives up the life she longs for. I admire your mom at this point. This is the reason why our relationship has endured ups and downs but has been able to reconcile as before. Poor couples mourn everything, and there are very few people who can face poverty calmly, and they will be a little anxious and complaining, but because of this, they should not give up family affection and responsibility. A person must not shirk his responsibilities to himself, and it is even more immoral to ask others to abdicate their responsibilities. ”

Dad's last words made Chen Yuxin tremble. She looked down at the hospital bed, but her eyes were wide open, and her teeth kept biting her lip before she calmed down.

Dad continued: "Of course, I'm not saying that people can't have pursuits and dreams. If your ideas are not accepted by the people around you, you should work hard to prove them them. Instead of standing on the opposite side of the crowd. Life is a long-distance run, not a 100-meter sprint. It's not just a matter of taking one or two chances. Opportunities are important, and it is even more important to improve their abilities, and those who simply chase opportunities are stealing opportunities. A person who can not forget to reflect on his own abilities in the face of opportunities is an honest person. Because you know such a person, you are not wrong further. I'm glad you met someone like that. At this point, Dad was silent.

After a while, Dad continued, "Looking back, we are also responsible. I'm usually too spoiled by you. Whatever you want, Mom and Dad try to satisfy you, so that you get into the habit of getting what you want. This may be because my parents had a hard life when they were young. At that time, unless it was the New Year's holiday, we couldn't even eat a piece of candy. Because I have too many wishes that I can't fulfill, I try to satisfy you as a kind of compensation. ”

Hearing this, Chen Yuxin raised his head and looked at his father in surprise. She really couldn't imagine that eating sugar, which seemed so common to her, was such a difficult wish to fulfill when her father was a child. In comparison, are you a little greedy?

I just heard my father continue: "But people's hearts are difficult to satisfy. When old wishes come true, new ones will be born. It seems to us that you should be satisfied if you can live the life you have today, but you still have your troubles. But there's nothing wrong with yearning for a better life. Just pay attention to the way and the way, once the way is wrong, the result will be counterproductive. However, what makes Dad feel relieved is that once we Yuxin find out that we are wrong, we can turn back immediately, instead of insisting on going our own way. It's the same this time, isn't it, Yuxin?"

Chen Yuxin lowered his head in shame. She knew that her father said that she could turn back, referring to the time when she and her boyfriend ran to another city, and then ran back alone. Dad always encouraged others to correct their mistakes in this way, and never blamed them. In fact, she felt that she couldn't go on anymore, and she didn't realize that she was wrong. At that time, because of her stubbornness, things were in a uproar. Not only did she shame her, but she also embarrassed her parents. However, her parents silently forgave her, and now they are so tactful when they mention it, without blaming her at all. This made Chen Yuxin fall into deep self-blame.

Thinking about the past, she always took her parents' love for granted, and never thought that her parents would have to pay a lot or even sacrifice a lot to care for her. And not only is he not satisfied with his parents' dedication, but he also has to be willful. Chen Yuxin thought about it, and finally raised his head and said softly to his father: "Dad, I'm sorry......"

A week later, Chen Yuxin went back to work in Hougou.

Xiao Zihua saw Chen Yuxin and immediately took the initiative to greet him, and asked with concern, "Are you okay?" Chen Yuxin nodded, "um". Xiao Zihua said: "I want to talk to you, is it convenient?" Unexpectedly, Chen Yuxin said briskly: "Okay! After her father talked to him, Chen Yuxin thought a lot, and she also wanted to talk to Xiao Zihua. Xiao Zihua was quite surprised, and asked hesitantly: "What about ...... When do you think it's appropriate?" Chen Yuxin said, "Let's see you in front of Guanyin Hall tonight." ”

At night, there is silence beside the Guanyin Hall. It was the end of autumn, and it was still early, but it was already dark. Darkness covered everything, and the chirping of insects could no longer be heard. This time, Chen Yuxin came to the Guanyin Hall first, and the darkness and silence did not bring her the slightest fear and uneasiness. Because she knew that Xiao Zihua would not let her wait for a long time. Sure enough, a familiar sound of footsteps came from far and near, and Xiao Zihua came.

Xiao Zihua saw that Chen Yuxin was already standing there, and said embarrassedly: "Ah! You are here early." Chen Yuxin said calmly: "I also just arrived." Xiao Zihua still paused a little embarrassed, and then handed a thing to Chen Yuxin and said, "This is for you, let's keep a souvenir!" Chen Yuxin took a look, but it was the manuscript she helped Xiao Zihua type. She glanced at Xiao Zihua strangely, and Xiao Zihua smiled and nodded at her. She gently flipped open the cover and vaguely saw handwriting on the title page. She took out her phone and pressed it, and a light shone on the title page. It turned out that Xiao Zihua wrote a poem on it, entitled "To Angels".

Chen Yuxin's heart was hot, she knew that this was written to her by Xiao Zihua. She read it silently:

You came with the spring breeze,

When I was weary,

When you can't support it.

Holding it in your hand

It's just in the mountains

A bowl of clear spring,

But I know,

Heaven sent you.

Come and soothe me with this

An ascetic trekking through the wilderness.

?

I'm going to leave after drinking the clear spring,

The road ahead remains desolate.

Because of your comfort,

My heart is no longer sorrowful.

But what can I give you in return?

In my hands

only

One

Plucked from the side of the road

Flowers that have withered.

?

At the end of reading, Chen Yuxin's heart was filled with a bitter taste. She took a deep breath and forced the bitterness down.

I only heard Xiao Zihua say slowly: "Yuxin, I'm sorry, I said the wrong thing last time." In fact, I can't do without my home and my relatives. Although in some ways they don't understand me. But when I was naïve and immature, they supported my life and accompanied me to this day. I can't hurt them. Take my father, for example, who worked hard all his life as a worker, because he had no skills, and his income was not high. He has endured a lot of hardships to maintain our family, but he has never relaxed his responsibilities because of this. When I was in school, my father would get up every morning and make breakfast for me. You may not believe it, but I have been in school for more than ten years, and I have never eaten the leftover old meal of the previous day in the morning. When I was younger, we didn't have gas here, and we used coal for cooking and heating. You have to go to the coal yard to pull the coal yourself. Every once in a while, my father would borrow a small flat car to go to the coal yard to haul coal. The coal yard is far from our home, and there is still some uphill on the way back. One time my father went to haul coal again, and he wrote a message on the door, asking me to come back from school and go to the slope to help him push the cart. But when I came back from school, I just played, and I didn't see the message at all. Later, my father came back from pulling coal and asked about me, and I found out that there was a message on the door. My father didn't say anything, and I didn't care. One day I happened to pass by that section of the slope and saw a man pulling a flat cart of coal uphill. The man's face flushed, and he gasped for air. At that moment, it occurred to me that my father must have had such a hard time pulling the cart uphill. That day, he probably couldn't pull it anymore, so he asked me to help him push the cart, but I didn't see it, and I felt really uncomfortable at that time! At that time, I told myself that I must help my father share more in the future, and let him worry less about my snacks......

Xiao Zihua was about to continue, but Chen Yuxin interrupted him and said, "You don't have to say it, I understand everything." I just want to ask you one thing now, when I get married, can you carry me in the car?"

Xiao Zihua said with some puzzlement: "I'll carry you to the car?" Chen Yuxin looked up at a crescent moon in the sky and replied: "Yes! According to our custom here, when a girl gets married, her brother will carry her into the car. But I am the only child in our family, and I have no brother. I once asked my mother, "Who will carry me in the car when I get married?" But now I don't need my mom to find it for me, because I've found a brother for myself!

Xiao Zihua silently did not agree. He paused for a moment before he said, "I really don't know that I have a sister like you in my life, I really don't know that it is a blessing that I have cultivated in several lifetimes." I'm so happy. But let's keep it in our hearts. I'm leaving, I've already made a resignation report to the scenic spot, and I won't do it for this month. You are my sister, I can't hurt you, I can't make your life unpeaceful, and I can't affect your future. You have such good parents, such a warm home, and so many relatives who love you, you will live well without me. In the future, wherever I go, I will remember you and I will bless you. I'm so satisfied that I can meet you in this life! You too, aren't you?"

Chen Yuxin seemed to be stupid, listening to Xiao Zihua in a daze, and there was no response for a long time. Xiao Zihua screamed softly worriedly: "Yu Xin!" Chen Yuxin seemed to be suddenly awakened, she hugged Xiao Zihua tightly, and shouted hoarsely: "Brother!

There was silence beside the Guanyin Hall, and darkness shrouded everything. Only a crescent moon hung in the deep blue sky, like a boat carved from crystal round gemstones, rippling above the blue waves......