The lonely shadow of Qinghai outside

An Cheng sat on the gilded Feifeng throne, listening carefully to the various expenses reported by the female officials in the palace at the end of the month, there were few concubines in the Qinghai Palace, except for her, the Qinghai princess, there were only two side concubines and a beauty, so there were not many things, but it had been taken care of in an hour.

The six- or seven-year-old girl with pink makeup and jade makeup, wearing a pink layered gauze dress embroidered with butterflies, jumped in, and stretched out her white and tender little hand towards Ancheng as she ran, "Mother, mother, hug."

Seeing that the little emperor was coming, the matter had been discussed clearly, and the female officials of all the divisions were retiring with interest, and Ancheng took the little girl who came in his arms, took out a silk handkerchief and wiped her sweat lovingly, "Where did you go to play?

The little emperor looked up and smiled innocently, "Mother, I was hiding with my brother in my father's study just now, my brother is so stupid, I hid under my father's bed, and my brother has been looking for a long time but can't find it." “

More than ten years have passed, Ancheng is no longer an ignorant and simple princess, and she also gave birth to the only emperor Ji Hongying for Ji Shuju, and the younger brother of Hongying, who is nicknamed Yu'er, is the prince born to the side concubine Zhao, and is also Ji Shuju's only son.

An Cheng nodded her small crystal nose in disgust, "Nonsense, what about your father?

Yu'er proudly climbed onto An Cheng's lap and leaned into her ear and said, "Father is so stupid, we are playing in the study, and he just cares about reading a letter, like he is stupid." The younger brother was dragged back to take a bath by his grandmother, and he would come over after dinner. ”

An Cheng's eyes flashed, and more than ten years of time also left a mottled light and shadow on her body, the former youth was gentle and demure, and it was precipitated by the years to become today's calm, and the still beautiful facial features had more mature charm, and only some slight wrinkles at the corners of her eyes seemed to indicate that she, the princess of Qinghai, was not comfortable.

Seeing that the mother concubine hadn't spoken for a long time, Yu'er pursed her lips and said dissatisfiedly: "Mother, what are you thinking, mother? Yu'er wants to eat lotus leaf chicken at night." ”

An Cheng came back to his senses and smiled faintly, "Okay, the mother concubine asked the kitchen to make Yu'er's favorite lotus leaf chicken." Saying that, he asked the nurse to take Yu'er to take a bath, "I've been playing for so long, I'm covered in sweat, go wash quickly, and eat lotus leaf chicken at night." ”

Yu'er cheered, and then pulled the nurse away. An Cheng straightened his clothes, took the girl's hand and slowly walked towards Ji Shuyu's imperial study.

The door was not closed, and Ancheng did not report it, so he walked straight in, and sent all the palace maids down with a wave of his hand. Ji Shuyu stood under the south window, looking at a water lily pond outside the window in a daze with his hands behind his back.

An Cheng stopped a foot away from him, her eyes fell on the page of the letter he was holding in his hand behind his back, her gaze darkened imperceptibly, and then she smiled self-deprecatingly, haven't she always understood it all these years?

She stepped forward and took out the letter paper and stuffed it into her sleeve, and said softly: "They have a second child, this is a happy event, and the king should be happy for them." ”

Ji Shuyu was shocked, only then came back to his senses, and when he saw that it was Ancheng, his imperceptible eyes flashed with guilt and embarrassment, "Why are you here?"

An Cheng didn't answer him, and walked to the window to stand side by side with him: "This water lily blooms so beautifully, Le Yu likes water lilies the most, she said that water lilies are quiet and elegant, lonely and self-appreciative, but with the world, both born and entered the world, the most rare, she also always takes water lilies to wake herself." But now that she is doing well, King Cheng treats her as a baby, and the child is also smart and well-behaved, and she gradually begins to like the rich flowers of peonies, I am really happy for her. ”

Ji Shuyu was silent for a moment before he said, "What you said is," he turned his head and sat behind the bookcase as if he was evading, sorting out the folds, "Hongtu couldn't find Yu'er just now, and he was still crying, are the two of them okay?"

Anjo lowered his head in frustration and bit his lower lip in the corner where no one could see him, embarrassment echoed in her heart, yes, that's it, for more than ten years, whenever she told him about the person in Kyoto, he deliberately avoided it, but he missed her again and again in his own world, and refused to give her even the slightest chance.

She is his wife, the princess he is marrying, but she has never entered his heart, not once! She heard her own voice, "Little child, it's okay, I asked people to make lotus leaf chicken, and it's fine after eating it at night." ”

Ji Shuyu fell silent, only a light breath was left between the two, and sadness swelled in Ancheng's heart, yes, in the eyes of outsiders, she has nothing to be dissatisfied with, everyone says that the king of Qinghai loves Princess Chongancheng, there are only two or three concubines in the harem, and even the only prince from the side concubine has passed to her name, and she always rests in her palace for most of the month, what is she not satisfied with?

But who knows, every night he has been in the palace over the years, how she has opened her eyes and counted the leaks until dawn? Obviously, they are husband and wife, and the government affairs harem also cooperates tacitly, and they see each other almost every day, but who knows that every night when he rests in her palace, they all sleep with their quilts on their backs? Except for the birth of Hongying, where are they like husband and wife? Even Hongying is the only comfort and support he gives her, which is more like a kind of charity and mercy! Does she have to live like this for the rest of her life?!

An Cheng made up his mind and raised his voice: "The Queen Mother's eightieth birthday, I want to go back to Kyoto to celebrate her birthday, Your Majesty, arrange it, let's go together." ”

Ji Shuyu looked at her in surprise, a little incredulous, she hadn't been back once all these years, and even such a major event as Xinhuang's accession to the throne was pushed by her with excuses, how can she now...

Since Ancheng had decided, he was instantly relaxed, and said with a smile: "I have been married to you for sixteen years, and I haven't gone back, and the queen mother has also wanted me and Hongying to be close all these years, even the emperor, you should also go and take a look." ”

Ji Shuyu's heart was pounding, both sour and excited, going to Kyoto? Wouldn't that be able to see her? If the lovesickness for many years can take a look at her, even if she is now Princess Cheng, even if she has never been tempted by herself, then it is worth being happy, right?

An Cheng looked at him entangled, but he completely thought about it, if seeing him again could make him let go of the obsession in his heart, then what did she dare not bet on? She still wanted his heart, even if there was only one corner.

Isn't it always true that feelings are always the case? Whoever is moved by emotions can only compromise step by step, even if they are scarred, they are willing to do so.