(Cat flutter Chinese) Hanging up the phone, Ye Jingjia, who was sitting in the living room of Gu Bai's house, did not look excited, and even a little indifferent and bored.

Of course, she took the initiative to join Zhou Lin's charitable foundation, but behind this voluntary initiative, there are many indescribable complex emotions.

That kind of emotion made her sway and not understand, and she was panicked. She wasn't sure if she was doing this right or not, she didn't know what the future would become, and she didn't even know if she was really sane now......

Life in the orphanage was black, pitch black, full of despair and death.

Living and being able to eat enough are obviously the basic requirements of being a human being, but for Pei Yizhen at that time, it was the highest requirement for life, and it was also the only requirement.

Is the orphanage so poor because there is no money, no donations, no well-wishers to sponsor it?

No, it's not.

The orphanage where Pei grew up is a private orphanage, but it is quite famous in the local area.

Although it is located in the suburbs, the environment is good, at least it looks like the walls are snow-white, the rooms are tidy, and there is even a small yard full of all kinds of playground equipment for children to play.

Swings, wooden horses, seesaws and even small slides......

However, these things were never touched. There is only one exception, that is, when enthusiastic citizens, groups, enterprises and even big people come to the orphanage in a small car and with gifts, those toys belong to them for a short time.

Whenever that day comes, the night before, everyone can go and take a hot bath and be taught how to answer questions that may arise tomorrow.

The caretaker said that if the answer was correct, there would be a reward.

Early the next morning, put on new clothes, comb their hair, and they came to the yard early.

Not only can they play with all kinds of toys, but the teachers and nurses will treat them very gently and play all kinds of interesting games with them.

Soon, the convoy arrived.

Then they can get nice toys with sweet sweets.

Lunch is even more hearty, and meat and fruit will appear on the table.

However, when the men left, their clothes were rudely stripped off, and all candy and toys were confiscated.

Not only that, but over the next three days, their three meals will be reduced to one. There is only one meal in the morning, no more thin millet porridge, no lunch, no dinner.

When she was a child, Pei Yizhen didn't understand why this happened, so she could only passively accept it and starve. Joy again and again, crying again and again.

When she grew up, she realized that because they had eaten meat and fruit before, they had to starve and save back the money they had paid for their meals.

The only thing Pei Yizhen can do to resist is to be like everyone else, eat desperately after getting the candy, stuff it all into her mouth, and eat like crazy when she eats at noon, cramming and cramming.

Especially when those well-wishers, philanthropists, came to her and asked her if she liked it.

She will not only honestly follow the nurse's teaching, saying that she likes it very much, but also scheming and saying that today's ×× is delicious.

If nothing else, she will get another one smoothly, even if she will be scolded to death afterwards, or even take a few kicks, but she will eat precious and delicious food.

This kind of thing is not done by Pei Yizhen alone, but a wordless rule among orphans.

Who can eat more is a matter of luck.

Of course, Pei Yizhen's luck is often not good, because she is not good-looking, and few people will come to her.

There are always two or three times a month.

Approaching the Spring Festival, it will increase to once every three to five days.

Once, during the Spring Festival, for three days in a row, four groups of people came over, and they fell into ecstasy.

One day, because of the reception of two groups of almost overlapping well-wishers, the overcrowded staff did not have time to take care of all the children, and the young Pei Yizhen was playing in the small yard, and ran to the back at some point.

Unexpectedly, she overheard the conversation between the dean and the well-wisher.

In her eyes, the devilish dean was crying pitifully to the well-wishers about the poverty and helplessness of the orphanage, implying that in order to take care of such a large number of orphans, in order to make the orphans worry-free and happy, he took on huge pressure and bitterness.

After listening, the well-wishers nodded and praised the dean as a good person, saying that they would increase the amount of donations, and hoped that the orphanage would continue to help more poor children.

At that time, Pei Yizhen was about to rush up to tell those people that they were all fake, all fake, and the dean was the devil!!

However, she was caught......

She was caught by the caretaker who was disciplining her!

Then there is the confinement of the little black house.

Before being thrown into the little dark room, Pei still remembers the caretaker saying this.

"Do you think those rich people really care about the life or death of you bedbugs? They are just putting on a show! Prove that they are philanthropists and kind and kind-hearted people! If they care, they still can't see whether you are doing well or not? Put on a show, do you understand how to put on a show? Heh, I don't think a rabbit like you who has never gone to school will understand! Stay here honestly, and if you dare to make trouble, you will be thrown out of the orphanage and let you go to ask for food!"

At that moment, Pei Yizhen's pure eyes were infected by darkness.

is the young Pei Yizhen's understanding of charity.

In order not to be thrown out, Pei Yizhen began to study, studied hard, and she soon became the best person in the orphanage, and then, became a tool for show.

She is a successful case and model of the orphanage.

All she needed to do was recite the rules when the philanthropists came, praising the orphanage, thanking the director, and the well-wishers would leave a lot of money behind.

Although that kind of life violated her conscience, she was able to stay in the orphanage smoothly, at least she could go to school all the time. This life continued until she was 18 years old, and she was too old to stay in the orphanage, so she had to leave.

Even if she relied on the orphanage to live until she was 18 years old, in her heart, she always hated there, there was purgatory.

The resistance to the orphanage gradually evolved into the resistance to public welfare, and in Pei Yizhen's eyes, public welfare = show.

What's even more terrifying is that the childhood experience made Pei Yizhen's heart extremely cold, her heart was put on thick armor, and she rarely helped others, to be precise, rarely selflessly.

In her life, Pei Yizhen has only selflessly helped three people.

One is Lu Yuezhi and the other is Lan Mei.

In the end, she was betrayed and killed by the two of them.

When she found out that Lu Yuezhi and Lan Mei had betrayed her, Pei Yizhen asked the third person for help, but the other party did not reply...... Cat flutter Chinese