On the way home, I kept calling Zheng Jiayue, but her mobile phone was not turned on, I was really a little scared, although I think Zheng Jiayue may not do stupid things, but this situation still makes people very worried, after all, Zheng Jiayue is not good at doing anything impulsively for a while, she does not have such a good attitude as Li Xinran, and when it comes to such a thing, people are very fragile, not to mention that Zheng Jiayue is still a girl, for so long, I have long known how important her parents are in her heart, I originally thought that the family could finally live together or something, but something like this happened, how could she accept it so easily,

At this time, my heart was blocked, and I couldn't help but urge the driver to drive faster, I was in a hurry, and the driver immediately turned on the crazy mode as soon as he heard me say this, and the taxi drove into an airplane, which made me almost doubt that I could find Zheng Jiayue alive.

When I got to the place, I paid and quickly ran to my house.

But I know that Zheng Jiayue doesn't have the key to my house, so I especially look forward to Zheng Jiayue sitting on the steps outside my house when I go upstairs.

However, the corridor was empty, and there was no one on the steps.

I stood a little frustrated, and slowly went downstairs alone, and after I came out, I looked around in the community, but I didn't find Zheng Jiayue.

It's ridiculous to say, once I don't have a mobile phone, I can't even find my girlfriend, is this the sadness of this era,

Is this the saddest thing in the era of communication?

I don't know, anyway, I suddenly feel like I have no choice, I don't know where to find Zheng Jiayue,

At this time, Zheng Jiayue, where will she go, where can she be alone?

Beijing is so big, Zheng Jiayue doesn't know where she will go, will she find a random place to stay, and then adjust her mood?

Although I can't think of it, I feel that at this time, Zheng Jiayue will find a place where she has been before, a familiar place,

Because people are like this, when they are in a bad mood, an environment related to themselves can make them better relaxed, but there are so many places in Beijing, and Zheng Jiayue and I have gone to a lot of places, where will she go, where will she find a place,

In this way, I stood stupidly in my own community, guessing Zheng Jiayue's thoughts and her mood.

I'm worried about her, I'm worried about her for the first time ever, I kind of regret that I didn't comfort her yesterday and just left, I should have made it clear to her, I should have comforted her well, so that she was in a better mood,

But who would have thought that Zheng Jiayue would be like this alone, this is the first time she has done this, after all, she must be at a loss for such a thing, so she will want to be alone quietly.

Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, raised my head in confusion, and looked at the gloomy sky,

It's as if God is also sad, such weather makes people have no way to lift their spirits,

I looked up like this for a while, and suddenly I thought of something, and then my eyes widened, and I vaguely felt that this place was really possible.

It is very likely that Zheng Jiayue will go to this place, and it is very likely that she will go here,

The thought made me feel like I saw a glimmer of hope, and I immediately stopped the car again, and then rushed to the place I had in mind.

Hearing Yu Qian say such words, my whole body was stunned,,

I looked at her in front of me, and I felt that something in my heart seemed to be beginning to decay.

yes, it turns out that this is how it feels,

Is that how it feels?

When I expressed my affection for Qian, wasn't it just like she is now, in this situation?

When I expressed my affection for Yu Qian, I knew that she was with Lu Mao, not only me, but the whole company, so I didn't take into account her mood at all, I just felt that Lu Mao was not worthy of her, and she shouldn't be with Lu Mao, but now that I think about it, isn't my situation the same now,

It can be said that it's the other way around, I am with Zheng Jiayue, and I also feel Yu Qian's good feelings, although I am very eager to enjoy this indescribable feeling, but I will not give up Zheng Jiayue at all,

Presumably Yu Qian had the same pressure as me at that time.

She has also been secretly entangled in countless nights,

Thinking of this, my heart seems to be missing a corner all of a sudden, and countless sorrows keep surging out from that gap.

I looked at Yu Qian like this, and it took a long time before I spoke

"Hmm,"

"I know, now, I know,"

My answer made Yu Qian raise her head and look at me again, she stared at me for a long time, and finally moved again.

I saw her break free of my hand, and then stumbled out the door a little.

I stood in the bathroom for a while before I walked out again.

After going out, Yu Qian was already lying on the bed, she was lying on her back, her eyes were tightly closed, as if she was resting.

I feel that Yu Qian really drank too much today, even if she didn't drink too much, at least she was not in a good mood.

So after looking at her for a while, I still spoke

"If you want to sleep, put on the quilt, I,"

"I'll go back first,"

I didn't mention what happened just now, I just think that it's a good choice to leave by myself now.

As a result, I didn't expect that as soon as I finished speaking, Yu Qian's voice came,

"Don't go,,,stay with me,,"

"Stay with me,,One night,,"

Although the sound was small, I could hear it clearly.

I was stunned, I never thought that Yu Qian would say this,,

Do you accompany her all night, how to accompany her,

Although I wanted to crook for a second, I quickly understood what she meant,,

After all, it's not safe to leave her alone to live here at night, and it's so foggy outside, it's not convenient for me to go home, and I can't hang up on the road and become a ghost or something,,

So at this time, I looked at Yu Qian again, and then asked tentatively

"Convenient, here, there's only one bed,,"

Yu Qian opened her eyes again immediately when she heard me say this, and she seemed to be really much more awake after she vomited, only to see her struggling to sit up again, and then looked at me and said

"Before,Wasn't it like this,"

"So, there's nothing inconvenient about it,"

Yu Qian's words reminded me of the fact that I went to Yangtian Mountain with her, and that night, indeed we spent the night in the hotel bed.

Thinking of this, I didn't say anything, and finally nodded at Yu Qian,

Seeing me nodding, Yu Qian rubbed her eyes, and soon she looked at me again, and then spoke

"Let's sleep in bed, I'm a little uncomfortable, so I'll sleep first, half of one person,,"

After saying this, Yu Qian walked to the other side of the bed again, she took off her shoes, took off my coat and her own coat, put it aside, and then the whole person got into the bed.

I saw Yu Qian's move, so I thought about it again, and then walked into the bathroom on the side.

After I went in, I washed my face, looked at myself in the mirror, I actually felt that I was not like myself.

In the end, which of them am I?

In the end, in my heart, what kind of thoughts do I have about Qian, and what do I think about Zheng Jiayue?

Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, then turned off the light and walked out of the bathroom.

When I went out, the lights were still on in the house.

The rooms in this hotel are very good, at least worth the price,,

I turned off the lights, and soon my eyes were pitch up.

I fumbled in the dark for a long time, and finally crawled to the edge of the bed.

I don't know when it started, sleeping in the same bed with Yu Qian has become so easy,,

Perhaps, this is a feeling that Lu Mao has never experienced,

At this time, I suddenly had such an impulse, an impulse to ask Yu Qian clearly, what was going on between her and Lu Mao, to ask her if she knew Li Laogou, and to know what she had always disliked Lu Mao and being with him again.

But this thought only swirled around in my mind a few times, and then I rejected it.

Because even if I ask, Yu Qian may not tell me, and she is estimated to be in a state of half-drinking now, so it is very likely that she will not say anything I ask, but it will make her more nervous and concerned, and there will be fewer chances of knowing in the future.

Thinking of this, I still sighed lightly, and then opened the corner of the quilt and gently drilled in.

After lying down, Yu Qian next to me was facing away from me, she didn't know if she was asleep, but she was very quiet and motionless.

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her for a while, and after a while, the feeling in my heart came back,

Obviously, she is always so close to her, but she can't shorten the distance by this point.

Obviously, many times as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch her, but because of various reasons, you can't do this.

Maybe, this is the so-called fate without separation, maybe, it is destined that Yu Qian and I can only stay in this distance,

Thinking of this, I was sad again, and finally closed my eyes, thinking that it was better to sleep.

When I wake up, I guess everything will be fine, Yu Qian will return to normal, and her trembling heart will calm down again.

However, such a thought didn't stay in my mind for long, and suddenly I felt that Yu Qian turned around again,

When I opened my eyes, I saw that she was looking at me, too.

Although it was pitched, my eyes and her eyes seemed to be intertwined in the dark.

It's a very subtle feeling, it's a feeling, there's no good word to describe it.

Lying in bed and looking at each other with the girls you liked, or rather, the girls you once liked,

Obviously, I can't see the other party's face clearly, but I don't want to move my eyes away at all.

At this time, I couldn't help but start to guess in my heart,

What kind of thoughts does she have now?

At this time, what was she thinking?

Will it be the same thing as what you think, or is it that you are not looking at yourself at all, and it is completely wishful thinking on your own?

Such thoughts were racing in my mind, and suddenly Yu Qian moved her body,,

Her face became clear in the field of vision,

As soon as my back stiffened, I felt,

There was a temperature in front of him, and the face slowly leaned towards him.

Before I came back to my senses, I felt a hand gently placed on my waist,,

And in his arms, a petite body, leaned over,

There was a buzz in my head, and my eyes turned into a white expanse.

My heart sank rapidly at this moment, I lowered my head, Yu Qian's face was hidden in the darkness, but her eyes were clearly shining brightly.

After a brief pause, her thin voice came from her arms

"Just one night,"

"Just give it to me,,,

Her voice sounded so small, but it seemed to explode in my body, and the sound resounded in every corner of my body, and this voice slowly surged towards my heart along my veins.

I don't know why, I can't speak anymore,

Zheng Jiayue's smiling face flashed in front of him, but it was only a short second, and it disappeared.

What reappeared was Yu Qian's lonely figure, it was Yu Qian, that heartbreaking figure,

That's how I moved, I don't know where the strength came from,,

hugged her tightly in his arms,,

The moment he hugged Yu Qian in his arms, a feeling that he had never felt before poured into his heart,

It seems to be the first time, the first time to hug her like this,,

For the first time, I felt her mood, and then, with her consent, hugged her tightly,,,

I can't describe my mood now, I can't find a good word to describe this excited and insecure mood now,,

Yes, being able to lie on the bed and hug Yu Qian tightly is very exciting.

At the same time, I am a little uneasy, I don't know where this uneasiness comes from, but it should be, because it has something to do with Zheng Jiayue.

Because I was still thinking about Zheng Jiayue in my heart, I felt a little guilty, and I felt that I was very sorry for Zheng Jiayue for a while

，，

But I couldn't control it, and hugged the person in my arms tightly,

I hugged Yu Qian tightly, completely out of the bottom of my heart, hugged Yu Qian tightly,,

Maybe it's because of the kind of liking I used to like her, or maybe it's because, all the time, how much unwilling,

In short, he hugged her tightly, as if he was going to exhaust all his strength,

And Yu Qian leaned on my arms like this, her head was tightly pressed against my chest, and her mouth didn't make a single sound.

The two of us were like this, lying on the same bed, hugging each other tightly.

The two of us, like a couple, leaned on each other tightly,

Seriously, in a sense, I kind of enjoy it.

Because this gave me an illusion, an illusion that I was already with Yu Qian,,

A long time ago, being able to be with Yu Qian was almost one of the things I looked forward to the most, but now, this feeling is not so good,,

I know that I can't be with her, even if I know that she doesn't like Lu Mao at all, even if I know that she has a good impression of me, but I still can't be with her.

Because, I already have Zheng Jiayue, I already have Zheng Jiayue, by my side,,

This is an important thing and there is no way not to think about it, I have no way to betray Zheng Jiayue's liking for me, and it can also be said that for so long, my liking for Zheng Jiayue is not such an easy thing to give up,,

However, my current actions are completely sorry for Zheng Jiayue, but I have no way to control myself, maybe just like Yu Qian said, only tonight, it is special, only tonight, it belongs to her, between me,

So at this time, I could only hug her tightly, there was no thought in my brain, a blank piece, and my body kept holding Yu Qian.

Yu Qian was motionless in my arms, she also hugged me tightly, I could still feel the temperature of her hand in my waist, her hand was gently on my waist, her head was leaning on my arms, tightly pressed against my chest,

I can't think of how I can describe my feelings at this time.

In short, there is a warm feeling in my heart, I don't know if this warmth comes from Yu Qian's body, or, from the feeling in my heart,

In short, at this moment, I snuggled up to each other like Yu Qian, and neither of us said anything more, as if the voices of this world had all disappeared.

Later, I don't know how long it took, and Yu Qian in her arms heard a thick breathing sound,

It seems that Yu Qian is asleep, she leans on my arms, breathing steadily,

This made me can't help but look at her in my arms, only to see Yu Qian's eyes tightly closed, she seems to be asleep, as if she doesn't know what kind of situation she is now,

I just looked at Yu Qian's sleeping face quietly, looking at her, with a quiet face,

For the first time, looking at her like this,,

For the first time, with such a mood, such a form, looking at her,

Yu Qian slept very soundly, as if no sound could wake her up,

I looked at her quietly, and after a while, my eyes couldn't help but fall on her lips.

Although it is a piece of lacquer, you can still see Yu Qian's red lips,

That color is hard to describe, but in my mind, I still have the gentle kiss of Yu Qian some time ago,,

At this time, an idea suddenly popped up in my mind,

That is, if I go and kiss her,

What will it be like?

At this time, Yu Qian shouldn't refuse herself,

At this time, she just expressed her affection to herself, so she shouldn't refuse.

But if he really kissed her, what would that count?

What is the kiss between me and Yu Qian?

Between friends, or,,Betraying Zheng Jiayue,A kiss only for his own selfish desires,

Thinking of this, I felt a bad feeling in my heart, because Zheng Jiayue's face appeared in front of my eyes again,

I suddenly came back to my senses and realized that everything I was doing now, as long as Zheng Jiayue knew about it, it would hurt her heart very much.

This made me pass for a while, and finally sighed, holding Yu Qian motionlessly, and slowly closed my eyes,

I can't let go of her now, so I can only follow what Yu Qian said,

Just give her a night,,

Such a night can be regarded as for her, and it can be regarded as for herself.

Thinking of this, the guilt in my heart finally decreased a lot, I took a deep breath, and hugged Yu Qian in my arms a little.

At this time, the brain finally became calm, and all thoughts disappeared.

I began to enjoy it, to enjoy the illusion of this moment, of bliss,,

It turns out that people are like this,

People are, unable to be satisfied,

Those people you think you have forgotten, those things that you think you don't care about at all,,

When it reappears in front of your eyes, it will still remember, it will still be, so unforgettable,,

We live in such a world that no one can escape the constraints of this world.

Those so-called insistence on their own consciousness, in reality, are worthless,

Later, like this, I don't know when I fell asleep,,

One night, I slept very soundly,

I had a dream at night, in which Zheng Jiayue turned her back to me, no matter how I called her name, she was still unwilling to turn her head.

When I was about to step forward and grab her, suddenly someone behind me tugged on my arm, I turned my head and found that the person standing behind me turned out to be Yu Qian,,

She looked at me and told me with the shape of her mouth

"You still have me,"

"You're still there,,,,

When I dreamed of this, I woke up,

When I woke up, there was no one in my arms.

I sat up, and then I realized that I was in a cold sweat.

After a while, I lowered my head and looked at my side, and Yu Qian's figure was long gone.

This made me rub my head uncontrollably, everything that happened last night was like a dream, a, a dream without a trace at all,,

And my whole body was covered in cold sweat, maybe it was because I drank some wine last night, or it could be because of the dream I had at night,,

Anyway, when I was stunned, I suddenly heard the sound of running water in the bathroom on the side.

I pricked up my ears and listened for a long time, making sure that there was indeed the sound of running water.

Just when I was about to get up and get out of bed to take a look, the sound of running water disappeared, and soon I saw the corner place, Yu Qian walked back again,

Yu Qian, who walked back, saw that I had woken up, and her expression froze.

At this time, her hands were combing her hair, and she looked at me, and after a while, she looked at me and whispered while arranging her hair

"Wang Ming,,You're awake,,"

I came back to my senses and looked at Yu Qian for a while before nodding slightly,

I still remember everything that happened last night clearly, especially on her chest, her body temperature doesn't seem to have dissipated,,

I saw that Yu Qian combed herself in a ponytail at this time, and then she walked to the edge of the bed, looked at me and said softly

"It's still early, it's a little early,"

Obviously, there was no mention of last night's incident, maybe I didn't want to mention it, or maybe I deliberately didn't mention it.

I didn't know what to say, I could only look at Yu Qian quietly, looking at her in front of me,

Last night, she looked no different from her today, but obviously, she has returned to normal, because the feeling and demeanor are completely different.