Xiao Zihua stood in a daze for a long time. Seeing that Chen Yuxin still refused to look back www.biquge.info he slowly walked to the window and looked out of the window.

For a moment, I only heard Xiao Zihua let out a long breath, and then chanted: "Drunk and pick up the lamp to watch the sword ......" Chen Yuxin was stunned when he heard it, and hurriedly pricked up his ears to listen to what Xiao Zihua was reading.

I only heard Xiao Zihua continue to chant:

“…… Dream back to blow the horn company camp,

Eight hundred miles under the command,

Fifty strings flipped outside the plug,

Autumn soldiers on the battlefield.

The horse's Lu Kuai,

The bow is like a thunderbolt.

But the king's affairs are in the world,

Win the name before and after,

Pathetic_"

At this point, Xiao Zihua's voice was already choked. He tried to calm himself down for a moment before he continued, "Poor white happens!"

At this time, Chen Yuxin had already turned his head and looked straight at Xiao Zihua. She was nurtured by her father, a Chinese teacher, since she was a child, and she knew that this was Xin Qiji's "Breaking the Array". But only when she listened to Xiao Zihua chant today, she realized the grief and indignation in the heart of the lyricist.

She turned her head and looked straight at Xiao Zihua. At the moment when Xiao Zihua turned his head from the window, Chen Yuxin saw a crystal tear fall from Xiao Zihua's eyes. The tears were especially shining as they fell into the sunlight shining through the window.

Xiao Zihua obviously didn't want Chen Yuxin to see the tears in his eyes. He quickly twisted his head to the door, and said hoarsely: "I still have something to do, let's go first!" When Xiao Zihua disappeared outside the door, Chen Yuxin's tears couldn't stop falling down. Looking at the lost Xiao Zihua, Chen Yuxin felt even more uncomfortable than him.

Chen Yuxin strongly felt that he had a responsibility to help Xiao Zihua realize his dream. I heard Qin Lei say yesterday that if there was a man who was willing to guard her like Xiao Zihua when she was in danger, she would follow him with all her heart in this life. Chen Yuxin realized that his life and Xiao Zihua were connected and inseparable. Xiao Zihua's joy is her joy, and Xiao Zihua's pain is her pain. Since Xiao Zihua is so eager to engage in writing, then she has to help her realize this wish.

Now the best way to realize Xiao Zihua's wish is to let him go to the south. However, Chen Yuxin understood in his heart the reason why Xiao Zihua couldn't make the trip, not only because of his family's obstruction, but also because Xiao Zihua couldn't make up his mind to leave his family. How can Xiao Zihua make up his mind to leave his family and go to the south? . Chen Yuxin thought about it, and suddenly remembered that when Xiao Zihua invited her to dinner with Qin Lei, Qin Lei's evaluation of Xiao Zihua: "You haven't seen him yet, if you don't push him, how can he act!" Chen Yuxin's heart lit up, and he said secretly: "Since he needs to push to act, then I'll push him!" A bold plan was born in Chen Yuxin's heart. She decided that she was going to offer Xiao Zihua to accompany him to the south. Chen Yuxin thought to himself: "If he knew that I would accompany him to the south and be with him." Then he will definitely go to the south! Then his wish will be granted. Thinking that she would live with Xiao Zihua soon, Chen Yuxin's heart couldn't help beating wildly.

After a period of time, Chen Yuxin was finally discharged from the hospital. After two more days of rest at home, she decided to go back to work.

The morning before going to work, Chen Yuxin said to his parents at breakfast: "Mom and Dad, I want to go back to the village to see my grandmother today." I haven't been back to see my grandmother in a long time. Since she decided to leave the south with Xiao Zihua, she always wanted to see all her relatives before leaving. Yuxin's mother didn't say anything when she heard it, but said, "Come back early." It's a short day now, and it's too late to get back before dark. Yuxin's father said, "You want to go back?" Your brother is getting married, and your uncle asked us to borrow some money. I didn't bother to send it back. We'll go together later, and I'll go to the bank and get the money, and you can take it back. When Yuxin's mother heard this, she couldn't help but interject: "The eldest brother and sister-in-law have smashed all the family resources in order to do things for their son. I think you'd better advise Ming Ming to spend less. The eldest brother and sister-in-law are old, and their income is not high, how can they live after carrying so many debts?" Yu Xin's father sighed and said, "What is the way to give birth to such a son, who will make them other people's parents!" Yu Xin's mother said: "Then let it be tossed by Mingming?" Yu Xin's father said: "Let's help a little if we can." When I was in school, my family was supported by my eldest brother. Big brother hasn't asked us to do anything for so many years, and it's time for us to help him this time. Yuxin's mother heard her husband say this, so she didn't say anything more.

Chen Yuxin's cousin is obviously preparing to get married. The woman's lion opened her mouth to ask for a high financial gift, which made Uncle Chen Yuxin in debt. And the cousin's requirements for his fiancée's family are 100 obedient. Whatever the female family wants, he will come back and force his parents to give him, making the two old men at a loss. But in order to satisfy his son, he still borrowed money from everywhere. Chen Yuxin's family didn't think so, but they were helpless.

Chen Yuxin went out to the bank with his father. After her father took the money and handed it to her, she went to the supermarket to buy a lot of food for her grandmother, and then set out on the way back to the village. It was almost noon when he returned to the village, so Chen Yuxin drove straight to his grandmother's house.

Chen Yuxin pushed open the door of her grandmother's house, only to see her grandmother sitting on the kang in a daze. In recent years, every time Chen Yuxin comes back to see her grandmother, the first thing she sees is always this scene. She even wondered if Grandma had been sitting like this all the time when no one was coming. She called softly, "Grandma!" Grandma was stunned for a moment when she heard the call, and then slowly came back to her senses. Seeing that it was Chen Yuxin, the grandmother immediately said happily: "My baby is back, come on, come and sit." Chen Yuxin said "hey", put the two big bags of things he was carrying on the cabinet by the kang, and then sat down next to his grandmother. Grandma saw that Yu Xin had bought so many things, so she said, "Why does my baby buy so many things? Chen Yuxin said: "Grandma, I bought you these things, so you don't have to cook." Just soak a bag and eat a piece of this snack at the time of eating. Grandma hurriedly said, "Grandma has something to eat, how much can grandma eat?" Chen Yuxin knew that her grandmother was reluctant to let them spend money, so she vaguely agreed.

Grandma suddenly remembered something, jumped off the kang and said, "My baby, you sit, grandma will keep delicious food for you." So saying, Grandma walked over to the cupboard and bowed down, and fumbled in it for a while before she found something. Chen Yuxin took a look, and it turned out to be a few large red dates that had dried up. The dates have been left for a long time, and the skin has turned black and red. Grandma held the red dates in the palm of her hand, handed them to Chen Yuxin and said, "My baby, eat quickly!" Although the dates are dry, they are all full of flesh, and they are obviously carefully selected by grandma. Chen Yuxin looked at the heart of the hot heart, and took the red dates handed by his grandmother with both hands. It doesn't matter whether the jujube is clean or not, pick one up and stuff it in your mouth.

Grandma happily watched Yu Xin eating, and asked softly, "Is it delicious?" Chen Yuxin nodded vigorously and said, "It's delicious!" Grandma happily sat down next to Chen Yuxin and began to inquire about Yu Xin and her parents. In order not to worry her grandmother, Yu Xin was injured and hospitalized in a fire, and the family has always kept it a secret from her grandmother. Grandma, who didn't know anything, was still asking Yuxin how many days off she would take and when she would go to work. Grandma and Yu Xin were talking, and from time to time they groped around with love on Yu Xin.

Chen Yuxin answered her grandmother's question while staring at her grandmother attentively. She's leaving, and she always wants to keep her grandmother's memory deeper. In Chen Yuxin's impression, grandma seems to have always been like this. Looking back, Chen Yuxin can think of his own growth process, but he can't see the changes that have happened in his grandmother. In Chen Yuxin's memory, grandma is constantly busy for this big family. Now the children have all married one by one, and the grandfather has also left, leaving the grandmother alone in the family. It can be said that grandma has been dedicated to her husband and children for decades, and has never had a life of her own. But grandma always seemed very satisfied, and never complained at all. Thinking of this, Chen Yuxin suddenly felt that the idea of running away with Xiao Zihua in order to satisfy his wishes was too selfish. She felt a pang of guilt in the face of her grandmother.

At this time, grandma stood up and said to Chen Yuxin: "My baby, you sit, grandma will cook for you." "When she came back as usual, Chen Yuxin always waited for her grandmother to cook and ask her to eat. But that guilt made her suddenly remember: "Grandma is eighty years old, I should cook for grandma, how can I still let grandma cook for me?" Thinking of this, Chen Yuxin jumped up from the edge of the kang and said: "Grandma, you sit, I'll do it!" Grandma hurriedly said: "Don't move, don't move, grandma is still cooking with my baby." Chen Yuxin saw that her grandmother was anxious, so she had to say, "Then I'll help you do it." With that, she helped her grandmother to the kitchen. Grandma said as she walked: "Oh, grandma can't cook for you a few times, and when grandma closes her eyes, my babies won't be able to eat grandma's cooking." Chen Yuxin felt a sour feeling in his heart when he heard this, and hurriedly shouted: "Grandma!" interrupted grandma's words.

Chen Yuxin felt very regretful: "I'm so old, why don't I think of helping my grandma do some work every time I come back?" So after eating, Chen Yuxin packed up his grandmother's bed sheets, pillow towels and other ancient brains and washed them. Chen Yuxin also asked her grandmother to change the clothes on her body. Grandma said repeatedly: "Your aunt just washed it a while ago, so my baby doesn't need to wash it." ”

Chen Yuxin helped her grandmother wash her clothes. Seeing that it was not early, she said goodbye to her grandmother. Grandma reluctantly sent Yuxin to the door. Chen Yuxin suddenly remembered that her father asked her to give the money to her uncle. So she said to her grandmother, "Grandma, go back, I'll go to my uncle's house." Grandma replied, "My baby, you can go." ”

The yard of Uncle Yu Xin's house and the yard where grandma lives are only separated by a few doors. Chen Yuxin walked a few steps into the courtyard of his uncle's house. The uncle and the aunt were both at home, and Chen Yuxin took out the money from the bag and handed it to the uncle. The uncle and the aunt were silent for a while, and the aunt sighed and said, "You obviously have seen a lot of people." It's either that he doesn't look down on others, or they don't look down on him. This time, the two finally saw each other, but they met a money fan who desperately asked for money. At first, your uncle and I persuaded you to forget it, let's find another one. But you obviously don't want to live or die, so you have to marry this. Later, I worked with your uncle, and your brother was not too young. In case this is yellow, he will not be able to find a suitable one for a while, so he will be delayed. It's up to him, it's a big deal that we'll be over in a few years. ”

Only then did Chen Yuxin really realize the helplessness of his father when he talked about it in the morning. Parents who do not do their best for their children, but their children may not realize it. Chen Yuxin felt that he had nothing to say, so he changed the topic and said: "My brother Mingming's new house has been cleaned up, right? The eldest lady listened and hurriedly said: "Go, the eldest lady will take you there!" There are five main houses in the uncle's yard. The three most spacious and bright rooms, the uncle vacated for his son to make a new house. Chen Yuxin walked into the new house and felt that his eyes lit up. Compared with the layout of the new house and the house where the uncle and aunt live, there is really a world of difference. Even Chen Yuxin, a girl from the city, felt that it was too extravagant and luxurious. From the walls to the floor, from the curtains to the chandeliers, the best materials are used, and the most exquisite workmanship is used. Even the switches on the wall are beautifully mated. The furnishings in the house are all high-end products, sofas, copper beds, LCD TVs, computers......

Seeing the computer, Chen Yuxin couldn't help but feel a little bitter in his heart. secretly thought: "A person like Xiao Zihua who is obsessed with creation still doesn't even have a computer of his own. And people who only know pleasure have everything......" She couldn't help but sigh: "This house can be arranged so magnanimously!" The eldest lady was a little embarrassed when she heard this, and hurriedly said: "We Yuxin will definitely find a good family in the future, and the new house will definitely be more generous than this!" Chen Yuxin listened to it and thought to himself: "I'm going to run away with Xiao Zihua, I don't know if I have the opportunity to wear a wedding dress in this life, when will I live in such a new house?" Thinking of this, Chen Yuxin felt sad in his heart. But in just a moment, Chen Yuxin suppressed this sadness. said secretly: "No, no, no, as long as you can be with your beloved, what is this!" However, Chen Yuxin still felt uncomfortable staying in that new house. So she soon left her uncle's house.

Out of the courtyard gate of the uncle's house, Chen Yuxin saw that her grandmother was still standing by the wall. Grandma and Auntie don't get along, but in order to watch Yuxin go back safely, she has been standing outside the uncle's courtyard gate and waiting. I saw my grandmother standing alone in the autumn wind with her hands in her sleeves, and her body looked more and more thin and thin. Chen Yuxin only then realized that her grandmother was so concerned about herself. But I'm going to run away with Xiao Zihua, and I really don't know how much worry I have to add to my grandmother. Moreover, he and Xiao Zihua will not come back for at least three and five years, and grandma is already eighty years old, can he wait another three or five years? At that time, what will he use to repay grandma's kindness? Thinking of this, Chen Yuxin ran forward and hugged grandma, and said, "Grandma, why don't you go back? How cold it is outside!" As she spoke, Chen Yuxin's tears had already flowed, and she simply cried "woo". Seeing this, the grandmother hurriedly persuaded her: "My baby, don't cry, be careful of the wind blowing your face!"

Grandma kept accompanying Chen Yuxin out of the alley to the street, and then she stopped and watched Chen Yuxin ride away. Chen Yuxin walked a long way, looked back, and saw her grandmother still standing on the side of the street. Chen Yuxin couldn't help but burst into tears again,?? She bit her lip hard, trying not to let the tears flow, and rode forward as fast as she could, .......

The next day, Chen Yuxin went back to work at the manor. Everyone who saw her came over to say a few words. People looked at her with admiration, a girl who had performed miracles, a girl who had escaped from the fire.

Of all the people, only one person is an exception, and that is Xiao Zihua. Seeing Chen Yuxin coming over, he calmly greeted him and asked, "Are you all right?" Chen Yuxin also replied in a very calm tone: "Oh, it's all right." However, seeing that there was no one around him, Chen Yuxin said softly: "I handed over the shift in the evening, can you come to the Qinxin Pavilion for a while?" Xiao Zihua hesitated for a moment before saying, "Okay." ”

Next, Chen Yuxin survived the longest day of her life. Although it was late autumn and the days were getting shorter, Chen Yuxin still thought that the day was too long. finally stayed up until dark, and estimated that Xiao Zihua had handed over the shift, but Chen Yuxin hesitated again. She sat in her dorm room and asked herself repeatedly, "Is it really possible, can you really do this?" and the more she asked herself, the more confused her heart became. In the end, she simply said to herself, "I don't care if he does, I'm going to do it anyway!"

Chen Yuxin walked out of the dormitory, followed the manor path that he had already walked many times, and quietly walked towards the Qinxin Pavilion. When he arrived at the Qinxin Pavilion, Chen Yuxin vaguely saw a figure in the pavilion shaking for a moment. She looked closely, it was Xiao Zihua. At this moment, Chen Yuxin's chest seemed to be slammed into by something, and his heart beat wildly. Chen Yuxin covered his heart with his hands, trying to calm himself down. But it was all in vain, and she couldn't calm down anymore. After only a while, Chen Yuxin felt that his blood was boiling all over his body, and his face was hot. Helpless, she had no choice but to lower her head and slowly walk towards Xiao Zihua.

Xiao Zihua heard the footsteps, and hurriedly turned around and greeted, "Yuxin, you're here." Chen Yuxin didn't dare to look up at Xiao Zihua, but just lowered his head and nodded vigorously. Xiao Zihua asked again: "Yuxin, what are you looking for me?" This question, Chen Yuxin's heart beat even more violently. She only felt a thousand words, but she didn't know where to start. Her plump red lips closed one by one, but she couldn't make any sound. After being stunned like this for a moment, Chen Yuxin turned his heart sideways and plunged into Xiao Zihua's arms with a "buzz".

At this moment, Chen Yuxin heard Xiao Zihua's voice trembling and shouted: "Yuxin!" Chen Yuxin hugged Xiao Zihua tightly, and said in a trembling voice: "Brother Tianya, take me away...... Don't you want to go to the South? I'll go with you...... I'll be with you all the way there. Let's buy a computer, and I'll help you type. I promised you that I would write for you for the rest of my life. …… I mean what I say, and I will always be with you until you succeed...... Brother Tianya, you can take me away!". Xiao Zihua listened to Chen Yuxin silently, and his body trembled for a while. However, after Chen Yuxin finished speaking, it only took a moment for Xiao Zihua to push Chen Yuxin away from him, and said resolutely: "No, Yuxin, we can't only care about ourselves like this! You should think that your parents raised you so big, and it is when you should honor them and repay them, how can you bear to leave them and leave? There are other relatives of yours, they also care for you, how can you take care of yourself?"

Every sentence of Xiao Zihua's words was a bolt from the blue, and Chen Yuxin, who hit him directly, was heartbroken. She was ready to sacrifice everything she had to follow the man in front of her. Instead of accepting it, the man denounced himself for not doing so. Chen Yuxin only really realized what it meant to be self-conscious at this moment. She raised her hand and slapped Xiao Zihua hard, and then ran forward blankly.

Tears had already blurred her vision, and even if it wasn't in the dark, Chen Yuxin couldn't see where she was running at all. She didn't know where she was going, she just felt that there was no place for herself in this world. That's all she can do ...... running dazedly. Suddenly, Chen Yuxin's feet were empty. With a "plop" sound, she fell into the swampy lake in the manor, and she knew nothing......