"When I first met you, we hid in the tube building, secretly cooking hot pot to eat, at that time I was reluctant to buy meat, all the shabu was cabbage, but you said to me that it was the best meal, because I was by your side; when we got married, we didn't have a house, no car, no diamond ring, only spent seven yuan and five to pull a certificate, you said sorry for me, I said love and water full, as long as you are happy, those are not important, but now, the days are still poor, what about our love? When you were in a meeting, I threw up so much that I was reluctant to buy fruit, and when you were in a meeting, you gave out cherry bananas and stuffed them into my computer bag to bring them back, and I happily looked at you and giggled at you; when Nuan Nuan could speak, you teased her every day that her mother was a big stupid bear, have you forgotten all this? You say we don't have love, what are these?" I cried silently.

"Yangyang, don't say it, don't say it. I'm a bastard. Gu Jun sat on the edge of the bed, pulled his hair with both hands, hung his head and didn't speak again, for a while, wiped his face fiercely, and looked at me with a little red in his eyes: "I'm sorry, Yangyang, I was wrong, I didn't control myself." ”

"Gu Jun, I don't know what I did wrong, I held your hand back then, I wanted to hold it for the rest of my life, but you still let it go. "I buried my head in my knees and bit the quilt so that the crying would not startle my mother-in-law and daughter.

"No, Yangyang, I won't let go. Gu Jun grabbed my hand tightly and threw it in his own face, "Hit me, I'm not human." Just don't break up with me, forgive me one more time, I promise, never do anything sorry for you again. Gu Jun, who had always been tall, knelt down.

At that moment, in Gu Jun's eyes, what I saw was sadness. In the face of such a gaze, my hatred and resentment could not find an outlet to vent.

I chatted with Gu Jun for a long time that night. For the first time, I talked to him seriously about Jiang Di. He admits that Jiang Di's youth, enthusiasm, and obsession attracted him, and that he was the polar opposite of my sanity and coldness.

I was always very independent and didn't need him to interfere in anything, so much so that he felt useless as a man. Especially when his career was at a low point, he felt that he was not needed outside the home, and the man's self-esteem was very frustrated.

And Jiang Di's Chu Chu is pitiful, and he finds some trivial things to help him with again and again, but it greatly encourages his sensitive and fragile heart, and he has the feeling of regaining his majesty. And Jiang Di's obsession with not eating the fireworks of the world, and being born for love and dying for love also shocked him. The night before leaving Beijing, Gu Jun went to the workers' stadium to find Jiang Di and Xu Ying, and sent them back to the dormitory, Xu Ying went in, and Jiang Di was in front of Gu Jun's car, with tears in his eyes, saying that if he wanted to leave, he would press over her body.

Gu Jun fell into such a crazy relationship. And this kind of moth to fire feelings, I am indifferent and calm, I can't give him.

Listening to Gu Jun tell the story with Jiang Di little by little, my heart was also torn a little bit. Compared with such a fiery emotion, my laundry, cooking, and taking care of children seem so inferior. This kind of emotion makes me more incomplete than messing around. My heart was like ashes, and I only said weakly: "Divorce, I will fulfill you, Nuan Nuan and me." ”

"No!" Gu Jun shook me like crazy, "Yangyang, I never thought about divorce." I'll confess to you, I didn't control my feelings. But between us, there are also feelings, whether it is family affection or love, if we break up, my heart hurts even more. Daughter, family, how can I give up?" Gu Jun didn't know when he became so sentimental, maybe it was the black who was close to ink.

People, why should they have feelings, but they can't focus, so that there will be such joys and sorrows, clouds and sunny days together?

Gu Jun and I didn't sleep all night that night, Gu Jun resolutely refused to agree to the divorce, and repeatedly promised that he would never go to Jiang Di again, I looked at him numbly, did he not remember how many times he had promised? If I had known what was going to happen later, I would have insisted on getting divorced that day, even though I was heartbroken.

What is love? From that day on, I stopped believing in love. Once my youth, smiling and long hair, those beauty, those good, I thought I gave love, but in the end I lost to the years.