I was shocked to see that the old woman was still sitting there.

Not to mention that this place is very cold, and secondly, it has been almost two hours since I saw her turn around, and now it has been at least two hours, why is she still here? Could it be that she has been sitting here looking at the lake since just now?

Lake Akan in front of me is already frozen, and the surface of the lake is full of snow, and it seems that there is less snow near the center of the lake, but most of it has frozen very solidly.

Although I admit that the scenery here is fascinating, it is not enough for this old lady to watch here for a long time, right?

And.. Take a closer look at the old woman who seems to be motionless now, just sitting there, meow can't be frozen and fainted, right?

Zheng Jiayue, who was thinking about me, seemed to have noticed something, she looked in the direction I was looking at, and soon said a soft "ah~".

She also noticed the old woman, and when she saw her, she looked at me again and asked in a low voice

"Xiao Xiaoming, is that person.. That old grandmother~?"

I let out an "um", thought for a moment and said

"Let's go and have a look.."

Although I am not familiar with this grandmother at all, or I was scared half to death by her when I just took the plane, and I was a little unhappy... But at this time, you have to pay attention to it, after all, this mobile phone grandmother seems to be a person, what if something happens..

Thinking of this, I was a little worried, so I took Zheng Jiayue and walked towards this old grandmother.

As a result, when I approached this grandmother with Zheng Jiayue, my whole person was compared...

He meowed, because at this time I was surprised to find that this old woman actually had a cigarette in her mouth, and her eyes were a little empty looking into the distance.

Fuck I'm afraid she'll faint or something, but I didn't expect her to be hilarious here?

At this time, Zheng Jiayue also noticed that the old grandmother was fine, she seemed to be relieved, but she also stood still.

At this time, the old grandmother slowly turned her head, and after seeing that it was me and Zheng Jiayue, she took the cigarette from her mouth again, looked at the two of us and said

"It's the two of you."

I didn't say anything, but Zheng Jiayue leaned over and looked at the old grandmother and said

"Grandma, why are you sitting here alone... It's windy and cold here~"

The old grandmother actually smiled when she heard Zheng Jiayue say this, she waved her hand, and motioned for Zheng Jiayue to sit down beside her.

Zheng Jiayue listened to this grandmother very much, and really sat down next to her...

I had a bit of a pain in the egg, but I could only walk over and stand behind the two of them.

Seeing Zheng Jiayue sit down, the old woman spoke again

"Little girl, is this your first time here?"

Zheng Jiayue nodded and asked

"Grandma, aren't you?" I think.."

"Have you been here before~?"

The old grandmother on the mobile phone suddenly changed a little when she heard Zheng Jiayue say this, she looked into the distance again, and then said in a fluttering voice

"Well, I've been here, but too. It was many years ago.."

I don't know why, at this moment, I suddenly felt that the tone of what this grandmother said was very sad...

I didn't know what to say, so I could only stand silently and say nothing.

But I feel that this grandmother must be a person with a story.

It is estimated that Zheng Jiayue also felt this, she looked at the old woman beside her and blinked, hesitated for a while, and then tilted her head and asked

"Did you come alone? or. With family.. ~？”

I found out that Zheng Jiayue does have a self-familiar personality, I found out this before, but now I didn't expect her to be able to talk to an old man with such an age difference..

The strange thing is that this old grandmother has no disgust at all, she seems to like Zheng Jiayue quite a lot, she squinted at her, and the wrinkles on her face are full of traces of time.

After a while, the old woman opened her mouth again and said slowly

"I've been... I was just like you back then... I also came with my lover. It's just.."

"It's not as young as the two of you... And.."

Speaking of this, the old woman paused, twisted her head again, looked into the distance and said

"Moreover, the water of Lake Akan had not frozen at that time, and it was summer.."

"At that time, my lover and I were sitting here, and he was going to smoke, and I didn't smoke him, and he snatched his cigarette... Now think about it.."

"It's been many years.."

At this point, the old woman's words stopped... And all of a sudden, as if I realized something, my heart quickly screwed together...

A not-so-good feeling overflowed from the bottom of my heart, and I immediately understood why this old grandmother could sit here alone for so long, why, she was smoking a cigarette, and why, just now I could feel the sadness in her words...

However, Zheng Jiayue didn't seem to feel anything, she tilted her head, looked at the old woman and asked curiously

"Is it~ Grandma, did you really come before? Why does it seem like you're alone this time?"

At this point, Zheng Jiayue seemed to realize something, the expression on her face was embarrassed, and the words that followed were suddenly speechless.

———— tomorrow

Hearing Yu Qian say something like this... I was stunned...

I looked at her in front of me and felt as if something in my heart was beginning to decay.

yes, that's how it feels...

Is that how it feels?

When I expressed my affection for Qian, wasn't it just like she is now, in this situation?

When I expressed my affection for Yu Qian, I knew that she was with Lu Mao, not even me, but the whole company, so I didn't take into account her mood at all, I just felt that Lu Mao was not worthy of her, and she shouldn't be with Lu Mao.. But now that I think about it, isn't my situation the same now?

It can be said that it is the other way around... I am with Zheng Jiayue, and I also feel Yu Qian's good feelings, although I am very eager to enjoy this indescribable feeling, but I will not give up Zheng Jiayue at all...

Presumably Yu Qian was under the same pressure as me at that time.

She has also been secretly entangled in countless nights.

Thinking of this, my heart seemed to be missing a corner all of a sudden, and countless sorrows kept surging out from that gap...

I looked at Yu Qian like this, and it took a long time before I spoke

"Hmm.."

"I see... Now, there it is.."

My answer made Yu Qian raise her head and look at me again, she stared at me for a long time, and finally moved again.

I saw her break free of my hand and stumble out the door a little.

I stood in the bathroom for a while before walking out again...

After going out, Yu Qian was already lying on the bed, she was lying on her back, her eyes were tightly closed, and she seemed to be resting.

I feel that Yu Qian really drank too much today, even if she didn't drink too much, at least she was not in a good mood...

So after looking at her for a while, I still spoke

"If you want to sleep, put on the covers, I..."

"I'll go back first."

I didn't mention what happened just now, I just think that it is a good choice to leave by myself now...

As a result, I didn't expect that as soon as I finished speaking, Yu Qian's voice came...

"Don't go.. Stay with me.."

"Stay with me... One night.."

Although the sound was small, I could hear it clearly.

I was stunned, I never thought that Yu Qian would say this...

Do you want to stay with her all night?

Although I wanted to crook for a second, I quickly understood what she meant...

After all, it's not safe to leave her alone to stay here at night... And it's so foggy outside, it's not convenient for me to go home, and I can't hang up on the way and become a ghost or something...

So at this time, I looked at Yu Qian again, and then asked tentatively

"Is it convenient? There's only one bed."

Yu Qian immediately opened her eyes again when she heard me say this, and she seemed to be really much more awake after she vomited. She struggled to sit up again, then looked at me and said

: "Previous... Didn't you do the same?"

"So, there's nothing inconvenient about it.."

Yu Qian's words reminded me of the fact that I went to Yangtian Mountain with her, and that night, we did spend the night in the hotel bed.

Thinking of this, I didn't say anything, and finally nodded at Yu Qian...

Seeing me nodding, Yu Qian rubbed her eyes, and soon she looked at me again, and then spoke

"Let's just sleep in bed, I'm a little uncomfortable, so I'll sleep first, one and a half.."

After saying this, Yu Qian walked to the other side of the bed again, she took off her shoes, took off my coat and her own coat, put it aside, and then the whole person got into the bed...

I saw Yu Qian's move, so I thought about it again, and then walked into the bathroom on the side...

After I went in, I washed my face and looked at myself in the mirror, I actually felt that I was not like myself anymore.

Which self am I?

In the end, in my heart, what kind of thoughts do I have about Qian, and what do I think about Zheng Jiayue?

I took a deep breath at this thought, then turned off the light and walked out of the bathroom.

When I went out, the lights were still on in the house.

The rooms in this hotel are very good, at least worth the price.

I turned off the lights and soon it was pitch black...

I fumbled in the dark for a long time, and finally crawled to the side of the bed.

I don't know when it started, sleeping in the same bed with Yu Qian has become so easy...

Perhaps, this is a feeling that Lu Mao has never experienced, right?

At this time, I suddenly had such an impulse, an impulse to ask Yu Qian clearly, what was going on between her and Lu Mao, to ask her if she knew Li Laogou, and to know what she had always disliked Lu Mao and being with him again.

But this thought only swirled around in my head a few times, and then I rejected it again...

Because even if I ask, Yu Qian may not tell me, and she is estimated to be in a state of half-drinking now, so it is very likely that she will not say anything I ask, but it will make her more nervous and concerned, and there will be less chance of knowing in the future.

Thinking of this, I still sighed lightly, and then opened the corner of the quilt and gently got in...

After lying down, Yu Qian next to me was facing away from me, she didn't know if she was asleep, but it was quiet and motionless.

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her, and after a while, that feeling in my heart returned.

Obviously, she was always so close to her, but she couldn't shorten the distance by a little bit.

Obviously, many times as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch her, but because of various reasons, you can't do so...

Perhaps, this is the so-called fate without separation... Perhaps, it is destined that Yu Qian and I can only stay in this distance.

Thinking of this, I was sad again, and finally closed my eyes, thinking that it would be better to sleep.

When I wake up from sleep, I guess everything will be fine, Yu Qian will return to normal, and her trembling heart will calm down again.

However, such a thought did not stay in his mind for long, and suddenly he felt that Yu Qian turned around again.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that she was looking at me too.

Although it was pitch black, my eyes and her eyes seemed to be intertwined in the darkness.

It was a very subtle feeling, it was a feeling, there are no good words to describe it.

Lying in bed and looking at each other with the girl you liked, or rather, the girl you once liked...

Obviously, I can't see each other's faces clearly, but I don't want to look away at all.

At this time, I couldn't help but start to guess in my heart.

What kind of thoughts does she have now?

What was she thinking at this time?

Is it the same thing as what you think? Or is it that you are not looking at yourself at all, and you are just thinking too much about it?

Such thoughts were racing in my mind, and suddenly Yu Qian moved...

Her face became clear in her field of vision.

As soon as my back stiffened, I felt it.

There was a temperature in front of him, and the face slowly leaned towards him.

Before I could come back to my senses, I felt a hand gently placed on my waist.

And in his arms, a petite body, leaned over...

My head buzzed, and my eyes turned into a white expanse...

My heart sank rapidly at this moment, I lowered my head, Yu Qian's face was hidden in the darkness, but her eyes were clearly shining brightly.

After a brief pause, her thin voice came from her arms

"Just one night.."

"Just give it to me. Such an evening ...

Her voice sounded so small, but it seemed to explode in my body, and the sound resounded in every corner of my body. This voice, down my veins, slowly rushed towards my heart...

I don't know why, I can't speak anymore.

Zheng Jiayue's smiling face flashed in front of him, but it was only a short second, and it disappeared.

What reappeared was Yu Qian's lonely figure, Yu Qian... That heartbreaking figure...

That's how I started it, and I don't know where the strength came from.

hugged her tightly in his arms...

The moment he hugged Yu Qian in his arms, a feeling that he had never felt before poured into his heart.

It seems to be the first time, the first time to hold her tight like this...

For the first time I felt her mood, and then, with her consent, hugged her tightly...

I can't describe my mood now, and I can't find a good word to describe this excited and insecure mood now...

Yes, it is very exciting to be able to lie on the bed and hug Yu Qian tightly.

At the same time, I am a little uneasy, I don't know where this uneasiness comes from, but it should be because it has something to do with Zheng Jiayue...

Because I was still thinking about Zheng Jiayue in my heart, I felt a little guilty, and I felt that I was very sorry for Zheng Jiayue for a while

..

But he couldn't control it, and hugged the person in his arms tightly.

I hugged Yu Qian tightly, completely from the bottom of my heart, and hugged Yu Qian tightly.

Maybe it's because of the kind of liking I used to like her.,Or, because all along, how much unwilling...

In short, he hugged her tightly, as if he was going to use all his strength.

And Yu Qian leaned on my arms like this, her head was tightly pressed against my chest, and there was no sound in her mouth.

The two of us just lay on the same bed, hugging each other tightly.

The two of us, like a couple, leaned on each other tightly.

Seriously, in a way, I kind of enjoy it.

Because this gave me an illusion, an illusion that I was already with Yu Qian...

A long time ago, being able to be with Yu Qian was almost one of the things I looked forward to the most... But nowadays, that feeling isn't so good...

I know that I can't be with her, even if I know that she doesn't like Lu Mao at all, even if I know that she has a good impression of me, but I still can't be with her.

Because, I already have Zheng Jiayue, I already have Zheng Jiayue, by my side...

This is an important thing and there is no way not to think about it, I have no way to betray Zheng Jiayue's liking for me, and it can also be said that for so long, my liking for Zheng Jiayue is not such an easy thing to give up...

However, my current actions are completely sorry for Zheng Jiayue, but I have no way to control myself, maybe just like Yu Qian said, only tonight, it is special, only tonight, it belongs to her, between me...

So at this time, I could only hold her tightly, there was no thought in my brain, a blank piece, and my body kept holding Yu Qian...

Yu Qian was motionless in my arms, she also hugged me tightly, I could still feel the temperature of her hand around my waist, her hand was gently on my waist, her head rested on my arms, tightly pressed against my chest.

I can't think of how I can describe my feelings at this time.

In short, there is a warm feeling in my heart, I don't know if this warmth comes from Yu Qian's body, or from the feeling in my heart.

In short, at this moment, I am snuggling up to each other like Yu Qian... Neither of us said anything more, as if the voices of the world had all disappeared...

Later, I don't know how long it took, and Yu Qian in her arms heard a thick breathing sound.

It seems that Yu Qian is asleep, she leans on my arms, breathing steadily...

This made me can't help but look at her in my arms, only to see Yu Qian's eyes tightly closed, she seems to be asleep, as if she doesn't know what the situation is now.

I just looked at Yu Qian's sleeping face quietly, looking at her, with a quiet face.

For the first time, look at her like this.

For the first time, with such a mood, such a form, looking at her.

Yu Qian slept soundly, as if no sound could wake her up.

I just watched her quietly, and after a while, my eyes couldn't help but fall on her lips.

Although it was pitch black, Yu Qian's red lips could still be seen.

That color is hard to describe, but in my mind, I still have the gentle kiss of Yu Qian some time ago...

At this time, an idea suddenly popped into my mind...

That is, if I go to kiss her.

What would it look like?

At this time, Yu Qian shouldn't reject herself, right?

At this time, she just expressed her affection to herself, she shouldn't refuse, right?

However, if he did kiss her, what would that count?

What is the kiss between me and Yu Qian?

Between friends? or. betrayed Zheng Jiayue, a kiss only for his own selfish desires?

Thinking of this, I felt a bad feeling in my heart, because Zheng Jiayue's face appeared in front of my eyes again...

I suddenly came back to my senses and realized that everything I was doing now, as long as Zheng Jiayue knew about it, it would hurt her heart very much...

This made me pass for a while, and finally sighed, hugged Yu Qian motionlessly, and slowly closed my eyes.

I can't let go of her now, so I can only do what Yu Qian said.

Just give her a night out...

Such a night can be regarded as for her, and it can be regarded as for herself..

Thinking of this, the guilt in my heart finally decreased a lot, I took a deep breath, and hugged Yu Qian in my arms a little...

At this time, the brain finally became calm, and all thoughts disappeared.

I began to enjoy it, to enjoy the illusion of this moment, of bliss.

It turns out that people are like this.

People are all and cannot be satisfied.

Those people you think you have forgotten, things that you think, have completely discarded...

When it reappears in front of your eyes, it will still be remembered, it will still be, so unforgettable...

We live in such a world that no one can escape the constraints of this world...

Those so-called insistence on self-consciousness are worthless in reality.

Later, I don't know when I fell asleep...

All in all, I slept very soundly.

I had a dream at night, in which Zheng Jiayue turned her back to me, no matter how I called her name, she was still unwilling to turn her head.

When I was about to step forward and grab her, suddenly someone behind me grabbed my arm, I turned my head and found that the person standing behind me was Yu Qian...

She looked at me and told me with the shape of her mouth

"You still have me.."

"You're still.. There I have .."

When I dreamed of this, I woke up.

When I woke up, there was no one in my arms...

I sat up, and then I realized that I was in a cold sweat...

After a while, I lowered my head and looked at my side, and Yu Qian was no longer there.

I couldn't help but rub my head, everything that happened last night was like a dream, a dream without a trace...