With my daughter, two boxes of clothes, and a broken heart, I moved out of Gu Jun's house and rented a small one-bedroom apartment nearby. Rent of 3000 per month. Coupled with the cost of 2,500 yuan for the kindergarten and daily expenses, I suddenly felt a lot of pressure. In particular, the house is still a mortgage of one and pays three, and you have to pay enough 1 00 at a time. Fortunately, the card that Zhao Yijing gave me before has not been returned to him, which has relieved me of a great dilemma and will not be overstretched.

The mother-in-law's health is recovering well, Gu Yuan returned to her hometown, and originally wanted to take her mother-in-law back to her hometown to take care of her, but her mother-in-law was reluctant to bring her up with her. When Gu Yuan was leaving, I invited her to have a meal at the small restaurant at the door, and she sighed and said, "Sister-in-law, my brother is blind, and when he knows his mistake, you can remarry, at least for warmth." After that, looking at Nuan Nuan who was immersed in playing with cans, his eyes were red. I can't tell the sourness in my heart, how can I live a good life to this point. The husband cheats and the daughter is speechless.

I ordered two cans of beer that night, but Gu Yuan didn't drink it, so I drank it with tears in my eyes. After eating, I returned to the rented one-bedroom apartment with Nuan Nuan, which was cold and miserable. I looked at my daughter and said helplessly: "Nuan Nuan, you are left with your mother." "My daughter looked at me, got into the bed without any expression, and looked at the ceiling with a wooden face.

"Do you want to hear a story? "I never give up on inducing my daughter to speak. The daughter nodded. "What's the story?" I continued. The daughter was silent again, "Scarecrow, Piggy Adventure, Rainbow Bridge?" The daughter lost her reaction and closed her eyes. I turned off the overhead light, leaving only the small dim lamp at the head of the bed.

Looking at her daughter's depressed appearance, the despair that she had never felt before hit her heart. I don't know if it's the effect of alcohol, or the moonlight is too miserable, all the loneliness and sadness come out of every pore, wrapping me completely, I don't know what hope there is in life, only the boundless ups and downs can't see the end.

I took the sleeping pills out of the cupboard, and since the divorce, insomnia has been with me almost every night. I poured half a bottle of sleeping pills into the palm of my hand, whether I fell asleep or not, I could not be so painful. My hands trembled, my mind was spinning, relieved, and decided at this moment.

My daughter moved slightly, rolled in my direction outside the bed, her little belly exposed, and I couldn't help but pull her up with my other hand. Touching his daughter's warm little body, the thoughts just now suddenly receded like a tide. I died, what about my daughter, who can take care of her and cherish her like I did? I put the sleeping pills back in the bottle, sat on the floor with my knees crossed, and bit the back of my hand out blood, tears, blood, all of which I couldn't tell the difference.

That night, I didn't take any more sleeping pills, just sat on the floor all night and cried all night.

But when the sun rose in the morning, I still had to fight hard, opened the curtains, and smiled sweetly at my little princess: "Girl, get up and go to kindergarten." "I don't know how I did it.

Qinglian finally learned the news of my divorce and was a little surprised: "It's too hasty. I thought you'd think about it. "She probably didn't expect that I would go to a lawyer by looking for a classmate. In the past, the first person I discussed with such a thing must have been Qinglian, but recently, I can't say why, I'm afraid to talk to her, afraid that she will think too much. I deliberately drew a circle and put her and Zhao Yijing outside the circle.

I didn't want anyone in the company to know about my divorce, but there are no impermeable walls. The colleagues in the company's technical department, who are responsible for contacting Professor Zhu and Luo Cheng of Gu Jun's school, still gossiped about the fact that I divorced Gu Jun. In this society, this kind of gossip is the fastest spreading. Soon, the look in the company's eyes up and down was wrong. I can only pretend to be confused and cover up the past in the face of everyone's interrogation.

Unknowingly, it has been almost two months since Zhao Yijing returned to Nanjing, and there has been no news. Vice President Chen is in charge of the overall work. There are rumors in the company that Zhao Yijing may not come to Beijing again.

Si Zhiheng is a family business, and the chairman of the company is Zhao Yijing's uncle Zhao Xinru, who is over 60 years old. In the early nineties of the last century, Zhao Xinru took over the first cocoon silk factory that went bankrupt at that time and set up Silk Heng. But the development of Silk Zhiheng has not been smooth until Zhao Yijing joined.

Zhao Yijing was not engaged in the silk industry before, in his 30s when he suddenly entered the family business, his start is fast, accurate, ruthless, it is said that the first leap of silk is a cocoon silk harvest in the barren year, Zhao Yijing in the first year according to the weather and rain expected the harvest of silkworm cocoons, stockpiled goods. It was sold at a high price in the autumn and made a beautiful comeback.

This time Si Zhiheng's institutional adjustment, it is said that Zhao Xinru claimed that he was old and wanted to take a back seat. Maybe Zhao Yijing will take over Si Zhiheng in its entirety. Then the Beijing branch was naturally transferred to someone else's director.

Listening to these rumors, my heart is sometimes calm, sometimes barren. But Qinglian couldn't sit still. Since the second month after Zhao Yijing left, he began to frequently look for opportunities to go to Nanjing. Sometimes I can see Zhao Yijing, and sometimes I return in vain.

However, opportunities are always given to those who are prepared, not to mention that a woman like Yao Qinglian pursues a man like Zhao Yijing who doesn't take women too seriously. When Yao Qinglian went to Nanjing in mid-November, Zhao Yijing happened to be talking about a Hong Kong client. Qinglian's fall is generous, exquisite, and accompanied by the delicious and fun of the Jiangnan water town, it won customers. The day before the customer returned to Hong Kong, Qinglian and Zhao Yijing drank a lot.

When Qinglian was in my small room, while taking out the osmanthus cake, and talking to me about this, I thought that I didn't care about the heart, but there was a slight pain, and I asked a little nervously: "You guys, what are you doing after drinking too much?"

"I confessed. Qinglian raised her eyebrows, "If such a man doesn't grasp it, he will really have no store in this village in the future." In the past, I still thought that I wanted to use tactics such as watching the fire from the shore first, but now that I am so far away, I will confess my heart first regardless of whether he succeeds or not. So I said to him, "Do you know I like you?"

"What did he say?" my heart lifted.

He didn't speak, nodded, old fritter. Qinglian pouted, "I asked him again, would you mind giving it a try with me? Don't be afraid to be responsible for me or get married, I just want to try." ”

"Try?" I remembered what I had said to Zhao Yijing, and my heart was even higher.

He looked at me for a moment and smiled. Qinglian twitched the corners of her mouth, "Acquiesced." Anyway, when I saw the customer the next day, he introduced me not to Yao Qinglian of our company's sales department, but to my friend Yao Qinglian. That's the beginning. ”

My head banged, and that began. They really started, and I should be happy, but why can't I be happy.

Looking at Yao Qinglian, who was full of energy, it was already autumn and winter, she had a professional long skirt inside, a beige coat, long wavy waist, and she was indescribably graceful. I glanced at myself again in the dressing mirror, my face was yellow, my expression was haggard, my fat short coat, and my loose pants, although I was a few months older than Qinglian, I looked like I was a few years older. If I were Zhao Yijing, I would also like Yao Qinglian, they are a good match.

I was scared by myself, how old is this, I have become like this, if I continue like this, not to mention that I am not as good as Qinglian, even the customers will be scared away by me sooner or later.

After being stimulated by Qinglian, I also began to properly clean up myself, and every day at work, I would lightly apply some fat powder, change my pants into a thicker skirt, and match them with heels. Xiao Bin said that he was in a lot of energy when he saw me. He was going to Nanjing to meet a very important client and asked me if I could accompany him.

Thinking of going to Nanjing, I hesitated for a moment, remembered Yao Qinglian's sentence "This is the beginning", and my heart trembled, "I still don't go, and there is no one to take care of the child." ”

Xiao Bin looked at me and hesitated, and asked: "I take the liberty of asking, I hope you don't mind, I heard that something has happened to your family?" I don't mean anything else, but I heard a rumor a few days ago, whether it is a subordinate or a friend, I want to ask if there is anything I can help." ”

I smiled faintly: "Yes, the rumors are true, I'm divorced." But thank you, I don't need anything to help with. Xiao Bin sighed and didn't mention it again.

Xiao Bin later took Xiao Li from the technical department and went to Nanjing lightly. After coming back, one day they gathered in the pantry to chat, and everyone asked Xiao Li if he had seen Mr. Zhao, and he said that he did, and he also accompanied the customer to eat together and activities.

Everyone laughed meaningfully: "Say, where did you go to wake up your spleen? massage or back rubbing or pinching feet or direct-"

Xiao Li touched his head: "It would be nice if it were good." The dinner that day was very good, and Mr. Zhao asked his former colleagues how they were, and they were all okay. Later, I didn't know what Director Xiao said to him, and Mr. Zhao's face was not good-looking. Then I poured and drank vigorously, and in less than two hours, I drank too much. Mr. Zhao is to blame, he didn't take a shower and massage after drinking too much, and actually took us on a night tour of the Qinhuai River. ”

"Qinhuai River? Xu Yun smiled, "I didn't go last time." "What < the hell. On the contrary, Mr. Zhao, who took us there, didn't say a word, didn't look at the scene, sat there with a black face, and didn't know what to think. Xiao Li said with a smile.

My heart ached slightly for no reason, the scenery was vaguely at that time, just the people who traveled together, and I didn't know where it was.

"Zhao always likes to go to these, didn't we take a bunch of people to visit Zhongshan last time we went to Nanjing? Zhong Ping said, pointing at Xu Yun: "Aren't you going too, and Yao Qinglian." ”

Xiao Li scratched his head: "Fortunately, I came back early, God, who is going to play that." Everyone laughed. I couldn't laugh anymore. It turned out that when he went to visit Zhongshan, he brought more than just Qinglian.

I shook my head and smiled bitterly, this Yao Qinglian is too amazing for my "trick". But when I think about it, I already knew, what can I do. She and him, after all, were the beginning, and me and him missed out after all.