Ning Hua stumbled downstairs, and there was not a trace of light in the narrow and dim corridor.

At two o'clock in the morning in Changxi City, a couple who had just eaten a late-night snack and got drunk walked up, and the two stumbled and supported each other, and two hundred meters away, they could already smell the smell of alcohol on their bodies. When he approached, Ning Hua saw the girl's fair skin and the boy's immature face in the dark light, but he was only seventeen or eighteen years old, but he was so drunk, Ning Hua passed by them and felt sorry for this girl...

When they turned around, they stumbled away, Ning Hua took out a pack of cigarettes from her pocket, took out the last one and put it in her mouth, threw the cigarette box on the ground casually, groped for the lighter all over her body, the faint light of the lighter lit the cigarette in her mouth, Ning Hua took a deep breath and slowly spit out the clouds in her mouth, as if all the troubles and sorrows disappeared with the smoke, she took a few more puffs, and then slammed the cigarette butt on the ground, squatted down and cried with a headache.

"Ning Hua, Ning Hua. She heard someone calling herself from afar, but she ignored it, because she knew that it was her best friend Li Xiao calling herself. 'Who else but her will call me?' Li Xiao walked in and pulled up the crying Ning Hua.

"Let's go, follow me home," Li Xiao said.

Then he helped Ning Hua to walk to the rental house not far away, Ning Hua did not resist, did not struggle, stopped crying, and walked with Li Xiao's steps. For such a Ning Hua and such a scene, Li Xiao is used to it. For such a Li Xiao, Ning Hua is also used to it.

There was no light in the corridor, Li Xiao held Ning Hua with one hand, took out his mobile phone with the other hand, and turned on the flashlight to illuminate the corridor.

"You go ahead," Li Xiao pushed Ning Hua and said.

Ning Hua wiped the tears on his face and quickly went upstairs in the direction of the light, and Li Xiao also quickly followed. Ning Hua stopped in front of the door, she didn't bring the key, walked to the door and waited for Li Xiao to take the key to open the door. Li Xiao opened the door of the house, and there was a strong smell of heat and wine, the room in the rental house without air conditioning was hotter than outside the house in the early morning, Li Xiao quickly turned on the electric fan in the house, and an old-fashioned electric fan shook weakly. As far as the eye can see, the house is in shambles, with cigarette butts, wine bottles and all kinds of garbage on the floor. Cramped rooms look even more cramped and dirty.

"You go take a shower and I'll clean it up. Li Xiao said as he stuffed two pajamas into Ning Hua's hands. Ning Hua took his clothes and walked towards the bathroom. Putting down his clothes, Ning Hua opened the bathroom shower and washed his head and body fiercely, the water droplets on his forehead and the tears in his eyes mixed down his cheeks and continued to slide down...... It's been 10 minutes, no, it's been 20 minutes, and it seems like half an hour. She slowly picked up a towel and wiped her cheeks, body, and hair.

The garbage and messy room on the floor have been cleaned up by Li Xiao. A bed, a table, two chairs and a small wardrobe make up the room, but it still looks cramped at less than 30 square meters. Happily, this room has a separate kitchen and bathroom, so you can take a shower freely as before, and you don't have to share the bathroom with the tenants outside. At the beginning, Ning Hua wanted to save 200 yuan a month and wanted to rent a house that shared the bathroom and kitchen with others, but Li Xiao stopped her, but fortunately she listened to Li Xiao's words. Ning Hua now thinks about it countless times and feels that Li Xiao's decision at that time was right, and the two hundred yuan should indeed be spent.

"Hua, don't think about it, what's the use of thinking too much, what's the use of torturing yourself like this every day, it's okay, everything will pass, don't think about those messy things, think more about the people who love you in this world, think about your father, your mother, think about how easy it is for them to raise you so much, are you worthy of them if you fall like this? And there is me, and I have always been with you"

Ning Hua felt a sour tip of his nose, thinking of his parents and his best friend who had been by his side. "Yes, it's not easy for my parents to raise me so hard, and it's not easy for Xiaoxiao to accompany me all the time" Ning Hua's heart flashed in his heart for a moment, his parents and Li Xiao in front of him, but soon the sadness in front of him overflowed the thoughts of his parents and the guilt of his best friend, and his thoughts returned to the room and returned to his eyes.

"It's past three o'clock, go to bed quickly, you have to go to work tomorrow!" Ning Hua glanced at his mobile phone and said to Li Xiao.

"How can I sleep like this, hey," Li Xiao said with a sigh.

"You sleep, I don't want to, I don't want to do anything, thank you Xiaoxiao, you have always been with me, always by my side, if it weren't for you, I don't think I would be able to persevere, thank you for taking care of me for so long, Xiaoxiao. Ning Hua said a few thanks in one breath, she said these words sincerely, and she was full of gratitude to Li Xiao at this time.

"Hua, don't say that, I am also responsible for you becoming what you are today, if it weren't for me, you probably wouldn't be like this. ”

"How can I blame you, it's my own reason, everything is fate, it's my own fault, it has nothing to do with you. On the contrary, you have been with me and have always taken care of me. ”

"Okay, you go to bed too, I'll turn off the lights. Li Xiao said and turned off the light.

It was so dark, there was no light outside the window in the house, neither of them spoke anymore, Li Xiao fell asleep, and Ning Hua couldn't sleep when he listened to the sound of the electric fan turning in the house. She regrets, she suffers, she is afraid, she is helpless......

"Why do people want to live? What is the meaning of life? Why did my parents give birth to me in the first place? I don't want to come into this world, but I can't choose, I can't choose my own birth, and I can't control my own destiny. Why is this world so terrible? Why do people in this world want to hurt others? Why are there so many bad people? Why are good people always not rewarded? Why are some people born to be princes and princesses, but I can't find someone to rely on? Who can help me, who can tell me what to do?..." With a series of question marks, this female college student who had just graduated also shed tears and gradually fell asleep.

Yes, she went to sleep, but she didn't go into a good dream, but a nightmare......

Early in the morning, Li Xiao went out at half past seven, and her place of work needed to take a bus and then transfer to the subway from where she lived, and it would take an hour and a half to clean up at home, so she got up before 7 o'clock every day. In the past, Ning Hua also worked with her in the same company, and went out at the same time and place as her. But since something happened to Ning Hua, he quit his job.

Ning Hua didn't have to go to work, but she also woke up. She watched Li Xiao go out and smiled and said to her, "Come on, dear, you will definitely find a big customer today." ”

Li Xiao said: "Well, I also believe that I will succeed." You are fine at home, you are not allowed to smoke, you are not allowed to drink, you are not allowed to do stupid things, and when I come back, I will bring you something to eat. ”

Ning Hua looked at the scars on his arm, lowered his head and said Li Xiao's good, and then watched Li Xiao go out.

Li Xiaolai has not made a deal with this company for more than two months, and the company has a last-place elimination system, and if there is no performance in three months, it will be automatically eliminated. This is already the third month, and if Li Xiao has no performance in the last ten days, it means that Li Xiao will leave automatically. Li Xiao and Ning Hua knew this very well in their hearts.

Li Xiao likes this job very much--- financial sales, she always said that she can meet different people here, she can contact many rich people, she can broaden her horizons, increase her knowledge, and make a lot of money if she does well. When Li Xiao was in college, he studied human resources, and after graduation, he interviewed for several jobs in human resources, and his salary was only more than 2,000 or 3,000. For a recent college graduate in a second-tier city, graduation means that there will be no more financial support at home, and they will have to rent a house and eat when they come out to find a job. After leaving the school, I don't know how expensive the prices and housing prices outside are, and how much pressure there is, but doing sales is different, if you do a good job, you can get thousands or even tens of thousands of dollars every month. So Li Xiao chose to do sales, as for why he chose to do financial sales: because people who do finance have money. Li Xiao said.

Ninghua University studied accounting. When she first filled in the college volunteer, Ning Hua actually wanted to apply for the School of Aeronautics and Astronautics as a flight attendant. But the father of the family disagreed. Father said: "It's not safe to fly in the sky all day long, and Dad is worried about you." You are not in good health, you can't bear to be a flight attendant, day and night are reversed, and your job is also unstable, and you can't do it when you're old. But it's good to learn accounting, all walks of life in the accounting society need and can work for a lifetime, stable and safe, your mother and I are relieved. ”

So Ning Hua finally listened to his father's words, gave up his dream of becoming a flight attendant, and enrolled in the accounting major. From childhood to adulthood, Ninghua has been a good student in the eyes of teachers, a good child in the eyes of others, and the pride of his parents. The rules are honest from elementary school to university, and I haven't let my parents and teachers worry about it. Although the family's economic conditions are not good, their parents still insist on letting Ning Hua go to college. Children in rural areas are always much backward in terms of education and resources compared with the towns, coupled with the backwardness of the older generation's ideas and concepts, many children drop out of school after nine years of compulsory study and go out to work, and those with better family conditions may let their children go to high school, but college students are even more mentioned, and there are only a handful of them in Ninghua Village, and there are very few. Besides, Ning Hua is a girl again, when Ning Hua just graduated from junior high school at the age of sixteen or seventeen, the matchmaker in the village came to match.

"Girl, sooner or later, you have to get married, what's the use of reading more books, in the end it's not the same to find someone to marry and have a baby, you look at your family is so poor that you don't even have a decent chair, what books do you read, what do you toss around. Taking advantage of the fact that her daughter is young and handsome, she just hurried to find a good family. The Chen family in the next village happens to have a son who is twenty-five or sixteen, and he saw Ning Hua when he was in the market last time, and he was busy asking who this little girl was, so he knew that it was originally from our village, so he specially asked me to come over and talk to the matchmaker. You see, these things are all gifts that people asked me to bring over, the conditions of the Chen family are good, Ning Hua is waiting to enjoy the happiness when she gets married, find a family to help, and your old couple will have a better life in the future..."What the matchmaker said to Ning Hua's parents, Ning Hua, who was standing outside the house, heard it clearly.

"Don't marry, resolutely don't marry. No matter how poor the family is, I will let my daughter go to college if I smash the pot and sell iron, and I won't come to the matchmaker in the future. Ning Hua's father said resolutely. It was useless for my mother to dissuade her.

The matchmaker scolded and left, and no one in the village came to the matchmaker in the future.

Ning Hua knew the situation at home, his father's family was very poor earlier, and he couldn't marry a daughter-in-law, when his father was in his 30s, his grandparents were so anxious that they borrowed money everywhere to raise two cows, and only after selling the cattle did they marry Ning Hua's mother in the next village. When Ning Hua was born, Ning Hua's mother was born for a few days and nights. The lives of the mother and son were saved, but Ning Hua's physical condition was very bad since he was a child, he was often sick, and he often ran to the hospital for injections and medicine in the middle of the night with a fever. Ning Hua's mother did not sit well in confinement, and she also fell ill, and the family spent a lot of money to treat the mother and son. Later, Ning Hua's parents did not have any more children, one is the impact of the family planning policy, and the other is that the family conditions are really not good, and they are no longer able to raise another child. Fortunately, the old father was open-minded and knew that the child had to study to have a way out. No matter how poor the family is, the parents have never said that they don't want their children to study. On the contrary, his father has always encouraged Ning Hua to study hard and work hard....

The children of the poor are in charge of the family early, and the young Ning Hua is sensible earlier than ordinary children, she is sensible, obedient and independent, never causes trouble to her parents, and never spends a penny of the family's money. She knew that she had to be responsible, knew that she was the hope in the eyes of her parents, and fought for her parents in her studies, and after graduating from junior high school, she was sent to the best high school in the county with the second grade in the school, and she also reduced her tuition for one year.

It was also here that Ning Hua met Li Xiao......