Although Qinghui is still young and not proficient in learning, he clearly knows the meaning of Master's words, and he also knows that Master has no boundaries to return to heaven and will definitely die, even if he doesn't do it, Master won't live for a few minutes, no matter how he weighs it, it is the best choice for him to do it.

But......

No matter how Master and reason told Qinghui what to do, he couldn't do it anyway!

Qinghui has been by his master's side since he was a child, respecting him as his father, how could he go down to kill him, especially when he saw the master's gaze looking at him, Qinghui was even more ruthless, because there was no nostalgia for his life in that gaze, and some were only reluctant and worried about Qinghui.

At that moment, Qinghui had never hated himself so much, hated that he was not good at learning, hated that he didn't listen to Master's words, and hated that being unable to do anything would only affect Master's self...... Even hated their own existence.

Qinghui, who was overly frightened, was stunned, if the master could move, he didn't want Qinghui to experience such pain, but there was really no other way for him to save his apprentice.

The master used all his strength to kick Qinghui's ankle, Qinghui was already too frightened and had no self-control, and he fell on the master's body at once, and the peachwood sword in his hand stabbed into the master's chest.

When Qinghui was so frightened that he couldn't move, he only heard the master's weak voice in his ears, and he said to Qinghui intermittently: "Hui'er, don't ...... I'm afraid, right...... from, right...... Not ......"

As Master's words fell, Qinghui's heart-rending cry sounded by the river in the middle of the night.

After telling his story, Qinghui let out a long breath, as if he wanted to exhale all the pain together, and then he said to Chang Sheng: "After that, it took me five years to get out of this pain, and during that time, I was not as good as you now, even seeing a drop of blood could make me unable to move for half a minute." ”

Qinghui told Chang Sheng that the weight of life is too heavy, and not everyone has the ability to carry it, especially those who do their business, they have seen too much life and death, and they have handled too much.

Everyone must experience the ...... of knowing life, treating life, cherishing life, and taking away life. If you don't face up to these experiences and just blindly suppress them, sooner or later you will be crushed by the unbearable weight that has accumulated unconsciously.

Chang Sheng sighed: "I understand the truth, but this seems to be a problem that the truth can't solve, what should I do?"

"Go with the flow. Qinghui said: "There is no solution to this kind of thing, you can only leave everything to time, and let it help you digest everything in your heart, but you can't digest your emotions." ”

Chang Sheng suddenly said urgently: "I can't wait five years, I have a competition soon, I can't drag the cold ......" Qinghui immediately used gestures to stop Chang Sheng from continuing, and Chang Sheng closed up obediently.

Qinghui said to Chang Sheng warmly: "Maybe you think this is a drag, but I think this is a necessary experience for your growth, a life experience that is more important than the qualifier." There is a chance to qualify, if you miss this time, there will be a next time, do you think Li Han, who has given up so many times, will still care about this time?"

"But......" Chang Sheng said with a depressed face, "I really don't want to give up." ”

"The creator god is not a fat man you can eat in one bite. Qinghui said: "I think you also know how many years our alliance has been fighting with the Creation God, do you think your joining can end it immediately? Fifty years is just a flick of a finger for this grudge, not to mention ...... I don't think it matters if you and Li Han ascend to the S rank or not, the S-rank quest will automatically find you!"

Chang Sheng didn't want to make a decision alone, so he changed the topic and asked Qinghui: "Do you think that in order to change my situation, apart from time, there is anything I can work on?"

Qinghui thought for a while and said, "Your will is not strong enough, but I don't think you can change it, so forget it." Let it be, maybe one of the opportunities will make you see it. ”

"Isn't you determined?" Chang Sheng asked inexplicably, "Am I not firm?" I have always felt that I am a person with a clear position. ”

"You have your own standards for good and evil, but I will say that you are not strong enough in your will to deal with your enemies. Qinghui said: "For example, in the last battle, we were obviously enemies, but you were always hesitant to attack. You yourself should know that even if your opponent is a creator god, you will always make this mistake. ”

Chang Sheng really couldn't refute this, but he still said: "Even if it is the person who created the world, I don't want to kill them unless it is a last resort, this is my principle of life." It's my job to arrest them, and I really hope that they will be governed by the law, and not die at my hands, because I don't have this power, and I don't want to have it. Although my principles and position are clear, I also admit that I do have a soft heart when dealing with individual people in the creation God, but ......"

Qinghui answered: "But when it's time to do it, you won't be vague even if you are entangled in the pain, right?"

Chang Sheng nodded.

Qinghui said: "When your willpower is not strong enough, you will use reason to force your emotions. You don't want to hurt but insist on hurting, and then accumulate a lot of pressure on yourself, and in the end it is you who suffers. ”

"Life is inherently a matter of choices, and there is no way to do it. Chang Sheng said: "If you want to protect some things, you must give up other things, and you can't have both fish and bear's paws." ”

"That's why I said you can't change it!" Qinghui said: "Your reason and your emotions and personality are irreconcilably contradictory, and you are still the kind of person who does not repent, and it is natural to be tortured by yourself." You just give up and leave everything to time to figure it out. ”

"But......" Chang said worriedly, "what if I get twisted?"

Qinghui smiled "poof", stuffed the rice bowl and chopsticks into his hand, and said, "Do you think unrepentant people will be distorted?"

"But don't people also say that a big husband can bend and stretch!" Chang Sheng said: "I'm a man inside and out, okay!"

"People say that they can bend and stretch, but they can't twist and stretch, and it doesn't mean the same thing. Qinghui urged: "Okay, okay, hurry up and eat." I'm telling you, your mood may affect your appetite, but you must not skip eating, that will lose you, remember?"

“…… Well. ”

Chang Sheng looked at the food on the table, which was his usual favorite food, but he really let Qinghui say it, he didn't have any appetite at all, but in order not to worry Qinghui, Chang Sheng still forced himself to stuff it into his mouth, forcing himself to eat all the food before returning home.