The distressing Luo Shaoqian ...... Lately I've been sighing like this, and this has made me even more conflicted and hesitant about whether Ireland should go or not.

"If I go to Ireland......" I looked at him sideways, the tip of his nose, the corners of his mouth, and his eyes were just a stone's throw away, and the air was so quiet that his breath was clear.

"You have your ideals, I understand. Luo Shaoqian didn't show an expression, but just answered me lightly.

My Ideal ...... I had searched for light in the long dark night, but I found that this light led to another darkness. China's medical system is not perfect, under which is the weaker and increasingly tense doctor-patient relationship, the relationship between doctors, nurses, patients, and public opinion is increasingly noisy, and the violence I encountered with Dr. Fan has completely lost confidence in such an environment, and I have gradually come to believe that no one will stand up to defend our rights and interests, so there is no belated justice, and it is undoubtedly a hopeless wait to continue to stay.

My ideals used to be full and complex, traveling around the world, harvesting love, tasting delicious food, starting a business, and being full of sincerity. However, after Li Jun's death, everything changed, life lost almost all meaning, and the full expectation of the future turned into a torment of barely surviving, taking care of Tu Tu and pursuing a career became the whole of my life. My Ideal ...... Ten years ago, I was ashamed of myself, and after the accident, I could only humbly hope that the only remaining motivation would not give up on me easily.

Be a dignified caregiver. After the medical incident, I kept telling myself that Li Jun died in vain, the medical profession was unscrupulous, no matter how young I was, don't expect the beauty and kindness of others, I will never make peace with this evil world at any time, only a strong self can protect and defend everything I cherish and have. So, get out of here and go to another world to find and see, that's what the trip to Ireland was all about.

Luo Shaoqian said that I am for the ideal, no, I am for the sake of living......

Zhang Xiuran said, if I want to go to Ireland, I will be a delay for you, I know what she said, I know ...... "Now I understand that Luo Shaoqian will struggle and suffer in his heart if he all seems to be an understatement, Luo Shaoqian tried to interrupt me, "You listen to me, compared to what you have done to me over the years, I am not qualified to let you do anything for me, everything is silent, only one sentence You listen to me, are you willing to wait for me to come back?" That's what I did most of the night without sleeping, crossing the city.

Luo Shaoqian, maybe staying is the easiest way to solve the current situation, but you know, that's not Wen Tong's way.

I'm also thinking, if you left me once, and now you change me, is it all your own providence. At that time, all your complaints and incomprehension, until now you are going to leave is your own experience, maybe you were not free and easy at that time, if you were the same as me now, there is full of nostalgia and reluctance, and there is a reason to have to go.

Suddenly I understand all the difficulties, and I also understand all the responsibilities and hopes, so can I get your understanding and wait for the steps I have to take? I look forward to it, but I don't force it.

"You should go after and find those things you care about, this is Wen Tong. Luo Shaoqian didn't seem to need me too many words, just a few words, he understood everything, "Those very different things in Wen Tong, let us still not abandon each other, so that I am willing to jump out of all the confines and start my life again like you." ”

The two of them leaned close together, strong emotions spread in the corners and corners, and neither of us looked at each other's expressions, but all the answers and firmness were already self-evident, "May we be hearty on our respective battlefields and fight together!"

I looked at him, and we looked at each other and smiled, and then presumptuously.

The warmest thing in winter is the quilt, the hands and feet are curled up close to the chest, and when the quilt accidentally covers the nose when turning over, I don't bother to reach out, but shake my face and continue to curl together. Maybe I drank a little too much water when chatting in the first half of the night, and I was awakened by urine, and I touched my phone casually and looked at it, half past two in the morning. I'm a guy who knows the bed, but I slept fairly well tonight, I turned over carefully, and I was very entangled in my heart whether to get up and go to the toilet, the floor heating was turned off, the air conditioning was turned off, and I tentatively stretched out a toe and quickly retracted it, "It's really frozen......" I muttered quietly.

I looked at Luo Shaoqian, who was lying flat next door, sleeping soundly, with the faint floor lamp, and everything suddenly sounded like a dream. Tu Tu slept with me most of the time before the first grade, and in the winter nights, the air conditioner was turned on almost all night, so that I didn't have to worry about him catching a cold because of kicking the quilt, but I would still wake up because of Tu Tu's turning over activity, and I was used to taking care of the little guy sleeping next door for many years, and practiced a skill and conditioned reflex, but tonight there was a different person next to me.

I held my urine and looked at him quietly, I had to sigh again, although he was in his thirties, he was still so good-looking, the warm yellow light of the floor lamp was not dazzling, but the environment could be seen with the naked eye, his breathing was evenly accompanied by the rise and fall of his chest, Wen Hongwei was snoring when he snored, and Luo Shaoqian was also a little heavy. Thinking about it this way, this is the first time in 30 years that I have shared a bed with a boy, compared to the flirting and scolding when I was in love before, this is a milestone thing I have done as an adult, right?

Why, don't you feel shy at all? Aren't the characters in the idol drama script all shyly into the hero's arms at this time? I laughed at myself, 30 years old, really not like a young girl?Forehead~~ I can't think about it, and I can't appreciate any more beauty, I feel that if I don't go to the toilet, I will be incontinent in this bed. took care of Tu Tu all year round, and he could already walk like a feline with a meat pad silent, but he still woke up Luo Shaoqian.

"The effect of this floor lamp seems to be okay. Luo Shaoqian leaned out half of his body from the bed, the collar of his pajamas spread out a few crookedly, his sleepy eyes were sleepy, and his eyes were misty.

"Huh?" I was wearing Luo Shaoqian's cropped pajama pants in summer, the trouser legs were thick enough to be worn as a skirt for me, and I stood by the bed with two big trouser legs that were drilled in the wind, what did I understand?

"When I was decorating, I remembered that you said that your night vision is not good, so I specially designed the floor lamp. It seems that today came in handy. Luo Shaoqian looked at me with his shaggy and messy hair.

I was still laughing at myself at the age of 30 just now, standing barefoot on the carpet beside the bed, wearing a pair of ill-fitting pajamas, surprised that he actually remembered my tiny habit, and for a moment I felt that I was also taken care of so deeply and meticulously, and my cold body and face were inexplicably hot.

"Why are you standing there? Luo Shaoqian got up and stuffed me back into the quilt and hugged me in his arms, "Is it cold, what did you think about staring at me for so long?"

What?! He knows it all?!