Originally, I should be very happy to hear Zheng Jiayue say this, and I should be very happy to hear her say this, but now I don't feel happy at all in my heart, but feel a little sad.

Because I couldn't be happy to see Zheng Jiayue like this, because I knew that maybe the two of us didn't have a long time together.

This is very uncomfortable, Zheng Jiayue's stunned appearance just now must be thinking about this question, she must also be thinking about what will happen after leaving me, so she said such a thing,

I can't imagine that one day, the time left between the two of us will be counted, and I can't imagine that one day, the two of us will need to plan where to go in this way.

After a while, I reluctantly squeezed out a smile at Zheng Jiayue and said, "Okay, okay, I know, anyway, let's eat first,"

Zheng Jiayue nodded, and soon followed me out with the washed dishes.

After going out, I sat down with Zheng Jiayue and waited quietly for the hot pot to boil.

At this time, a burst of heat rose in front of the two of us, I looked at Zheng Jiayue, thought about it and said, "It seems that it's the first time to make a hot pot at home, it feels quite chic,"

Zheng Jiayue looked at me, finally smiled and nodded, "Yes, it's really good to eat hot pot in winter, yes,"

"Xiao Xiaoming, have you ever heard of one thing, that is, if two people break up, they have to eat a hot pot,"

I was a little stunned when I heard Zheng Jiayue say this, and after thinking about it, I couldn't help but ask, "Why, what are you doing with hot pot?"

Zheng Jiayue smiled and said again: "Because, some hot pots are very spicy, and it is normal to eat with tears and snot on your face when you eat it, so even if you are sad in your heart, you can hide it when you cry,"

Although Zheng Jiayue was very relaxed when she said this, looking at her expression, it was like a sad metaphor,

I don't know why Zheng Jiayue said this suddenly, I looked at her for a while, then nodded and said: "Yes, where did I hear the fallacy and heresy,,I haven't heard of this kind of method,,Haha,And,,"

"Isn't it going to be like you're going to cry for a while, and then, I want to hide it,"

Zheng Jiayue shook her head immediately when she heard me ask, she looked at me, and after a while she still said: "No, I won't cry, I'll definitely not cry in front of you these days, and,"

"Why should I cry, we're not breaking up, we're just separated, separating isn't breaking up, I'm not wrong about Xiao Xiaoming,"

Hearing Zheng Jiayue say this, I nodded, and quickly said again: "Yes, it's really not wrong, we're just going to separate, not break up, so it doesn't seem like we should be sad,, what you said is not wrong,,"

It seems that Zheng Jiayue is still like me, and she didn't think about how bad this matter was, so she looked at me for a while, and then said: "Well, it seems to have been opened, Xiao Xiaoming hurry up and eat,"

I heard Zheng Jiayue say this and nodded, and started to put things in the pot.

Speaking of which, this is the first time I and Zheng Jiayue, the first time to eat hot pot at home, although this is just a house rented by Zheng Jiayue, although this is not the real home of the two of us, but, to eat hot pot with Zheng Jiayue, I still feel very warm, I feel very comfortable in my heart,

Zheng Jiayue can say that she hasn't eaten anything well in the past few days, so this time she was very hungry, I put a lot of things for her in her bowl, Zheng Jiayue didn't refuse, and kept eating,

The two of us didn't say much, because it seemed that at this time, there was no need to say anything,

Zheng Jiayue and I seem to be enjoying this moment, and the two of us seem to be enjoying the time with each other.

I finally understand why people often say that when they lose something, they value something.

I have done everything with Zheng Jiayue before, eating or something is a common thing, I have never felt that the moment of eating with her is particularly precious like this, never, I think Zheng Jiayue must be the same as me, she also wants time to slow down a little at this time, she must also hope that time can be slower,

Thinking of this, my heart suddenly felt a little sour, I don't know if I will have a chance to eat with Zheng Jiayue in the future, I don't know if I will sit with Zheng Jiayue and eat hot pot in the future,

And Zheng Jiayue saw that I was suddenly silent, she looked at me, and after a while, she said: "Why are you Xiao Xiaoming, what are you thinking, why don't you eat it,"

I came back to my senses when I heard Zheng Jiayue say this, I nodded, looked at her and said, "No, eating, eating,"

Zheng Jiayue didn't say anything more, she just smiled, and her smile was the same as before,

I looked at her smile a little crazy, and after a while, I still secretly took a deep breath, thinking to myself, what am I sad about, Zheng Jiayue said that she wants to be with me all the time in the past few days, what am I sad about?

Thinking of this, I began to eat again, because my heart was much more comfortable, and the hot pot became a lot more delicious.

After eating, the two of us did not clean up, but sat on the sofa next to us.

Zheng Jiayue gently rested her head on my shoulder, she didn't speak, and I didn't say anything,

The two of us stayed quietly, quietly, enjoying the moment of the two of us,

After a long time, Zheng Jiayue finally whispered in my ear: "Xiao Xiaoming, you say, why do people like each other, why do two people like each other and be together?"

Zheng Jiayue's words made me speechless, I was silent for a while, and I still said: "Your question really stopped me, I was speechless and too lazy to answer many questions you asked me before, but this time this question is too connotative, I really don't know how to answer,"

Zheng Jiayue laughed lightly when she heard me say this, and then said: "That's it~ Hehe, in fact, I think,"

"People come to this world to find another person, and that person will bring him happiness, pain, and bring him, a lot,,, so that's what it means for two people to be together,"

"In order to find joy and happiness, in order to find sadness and pain, we will be together,"

Zheng Jiayue suddenly said so literary and artistic that I looked at her a little confused, and after a while, I smiled again and said: "Yes, I didn't expect it, what you said is quite romantic, is this considered a chicken soup for the soul?"

Zheng Jiayue took her head off my shoulder at this time, she looked at me, and suddenly said very seriously: "It's not chicken soup, I'm just ,,,"

"I just want to say, Xiao Xiaoming, you are such a person, I, I must have come to this world to find you, it must be like this,"

I looked at Zheng Jiayue's affectionate appearance in front of me, and the whole person was stunned, I didn't expect her to say this at all, I didn't expect her to say such a thing at all, I was a little speechless, but I still took a deep breath, looked at her and said: "Yes, I thought you came to this world for food,,Haha,,,But,,,"

"I'm still very happy to hear you say that, I'm probably here to take care of you, right?,I came to this company to meet you,,"

Obviously they are all very good words, obviously they are very moving words, but for some reason when I say this, my heart tingles faintly,

Zheng Jiayue's eyes seemed to change a little, she also looked a little sad, looked at me for a while, and then said again: "Xiao Xiaoming, I like you,"

"I really like you,,"

20 minutes when I heard Yu Qian say something like this, I was stunned.

I looked at her in front of me, and I felt that something in my heart seemed to be beginning to decay.

yes, it turns out that this is how it feels,

Is that how it feels?

When I expressed my affection for Qian, wasn't it just like she is now, in this situation?

When I expressed my affection for Yu Qian, I knew that she was with Lu Mao, not only me, but the whole company, so I didn't take into account her mood at all, I just felt that Lu Mao was not worthy of her, and she shouldn't be with Lu Mao, but now that I think about it, isn't my situation the same now,

It can be said that it's the other way around, I am with Zheng Jiayue, and I also feel Yu Qian's good feelings, although I am very eager to enjoy this indescribable feeling, but I will not give up Zheng Jiayue at all,

Presumably Yu Qian had the same pressure as me at that time.

She has also been secretly entangled in countless nights,

Thinking of this, my heart seems to be missing a corner all of a sudden, and countless sorrows keep surging out from that gap.

I looked at Yu Qian like this, and it took a long time before I spoke

"Hmm,"

"I know, now, I know,"

My answer made Yu Qian raise her head and look at me again, she stared at me for a long time, and finally moved again.

I saw her break free of my hand, and then stumbled out the door a little.

I stood in the bathroom for a while before I walked out again.

After going out, Yu Qian was already lying on the bed, she was lying on her back, her eyes were tightly closed, as if she was resting.

I feel that Yu Qian really drank too much today, even if she didn't drink too much, at least she was not in a good mood.

So after looking at her for a while, I still spoke

"If you want to sleep, put on the quilt, I,"

"I'll go back first,"

I didn't mention what happened just now, I just think that it's a good choice to leave by myself now.

As a result, I didn't expect that as soon as I finished speaking, Yu Qian's voice came,

"Don't go,,,stay with me,,"

"Stay with me,,One night,,"

Although the sound was small, I could hear it clearly.

I was stunned, I never thought that Yu Qian would say this,,

Do you accompany her all night, how to accompany her,

Although I wanted to crook for a second, I quickly understood what she meant,,

After all, it's not safe to leave her alone to live here at night, and it's so foggy outside, it's not convenient for me to go home, and I can't hang up on the road and become a ghost or something,,

So at this time, I looked at Yu Qian again, and then asked tentatively

"Convenient, here, there's only one bed,,"

Yu Qian opened her eyes again immediately when she heard me say this, and she seemed to be really much more awake after she vomited, only to see her struggling to sit up again, and then looked at me and said

"Before,Wasn't it like this,"

"So, there's nothing inconvenient about it,"

Yu Qian's words reminded me of the fact that I went to Yangtian Mountain with her, and that night, indeed we spent the night in the hotel bed.

Thinking of this, I didn't say anything, and finally nodded at Yu Qian,

Seeing me nodding, Yu Qian rubbed her eyes, and soon she looked at me again, and then spoke

"Let's sleep in bed, I'm a little uncomfortable, so I'll sleep first, half of one person,,"

After saying this, Yu Qian walked to the other side of the bed again, she took off her shoes, took off my coat and her own coat, put it aside, and then the whole person got into the bed.

I saw Yu Qian's move, so I thought about it again, and then walked into the bathroom on the side.

After I went in, I washed my face, looked at myself in the mirror, I actually felt that I was not like myself.

In the end, which of them am I?

In the end, in my heart, what kind of thoughts do I have about Qian, and what do I think about Zheng Jiayue?

Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, then turned off the light and walked out of the bathroom.

When I went out, the lights were still on in the house.

The rooms in this hotel are very good, at least worth the price,,

I turned off the lights, and soon my eyes were pitch up.

I fumbled in the dark for a long time, and finally crawled to the edge of the bed.

I don't know when it started, sleeping in the same bed with Yu Qian has become so easy,,

Perhaps, this is a feeling that Lu Mao has never experienced,

At this time, I suddenly had such an impulse, an impulse to ask Yu Qian clearly, what was going on between her and Lu Mao, to ask her if she knew Li Laogou, and to know what she had always disliked Lu Mao and being with him again.

But this thought only swirled around in my mind a few times, and then I rejected it.

Because even if I ask, Yu Qian may not tell me, and she is estimated to be in a state of half-drinking now, so it is very likely that she will not say anything I ask, but it will make her more nervous and concerned, and there will be fewer chances of knowing in the future.

Thinking of this, I still sighed lightly, and then opened the corner of the quilt and gently drilled in.

After lying down, Yu Qian next to me was facing away from me, she didn't know if she was asleep, but she was very quiet and motionless.

I couldn't help but turn my head to look at her for a while, and after a while, the feeling in my heart came back,

Obviously, she is always so close to her, but she can't shorten the distance by this point.

Obviously, many times as long as you stretch out your hand, you can touch her, but because of various reasons, you can't do this.

Maybe, this is the so-called fate without separation, maybe, it is destined that Yu Qian and I can only stay in this distance,

Thinking of this, I was sad again, and finally closed my eyes, thinking that it was better to sleep.

When I wake up, I guess everything will be fine, Yu Qian will return to normal, and her trembling heart will calm down again.

However, such a thought didn't stay in my mind for long, and suddenly I felt that Yu Qian turned around again,

When I opened my eyes, I saw that she was looking at me, too.

Although it was pitched, my eyes and her eyes seemed to be intertwined in the dark.

It's a very subtle feeling, it's a feeling, there's no good word to describe it.

Lying in bed and looking at each other with the girls you liked, or rather, the girls you once liked,

Obviously, I can't see the other party's face clearly, but I don't want to move my eyes away at all.

At this time, I couldn't help but start to guess in my heart,

What kind of thoughts does she have now?

At this time, what was she thinking?

Will it be the same thing as what you think, or is it that you are not looking at yourself at all, and it is completely wishful thinking on your own?

Such thoughts were racing in my mind, and suddenly Yu Qian moved her body,,

Her face became clear in the field of vision,

As soon as my back stiffened, I felt,

There was a temperature in front of him, and the face slowly leaned towards him.

Before I came back to my senses, I felt a hand gently placed on my waist,,

And in his arms, a petite body, leaned over,

There was a buzz in my head, and my eyes turned into a white expanse.

My heart sank rapidly at this moment, I lowered my head, Yu Qian's face was hidden in the darkness, but her eyes were clearly shining brightly.

After a brief pause, her thin voice came from her arms

"Just one night,"

"Just give it to me,,,

Her voice sounded so small, but it seemed to explode in my body, and the sound resounded in every corner of my body, and this voice slowly surged towards my heart along my veins.

I don't know why, I can't speak anymore,

Zheng Jiayue's smiling face flashed in front of him, but it was only a short second, and it disappeared.

What reappeared was Yu Qian's lonely figure, it was Yu Qian, that heartbreaking figure,

That's how I moved, I don't know where the strength came from,,

hugged her tightly in his arms,,

The moment he hugged Yu Qian in his arms, a feeling that he had never felt before poured into his heart,

It seems to be the first time, the first time to hug her like this,,

For the first time, I felt her mood, and then, with her consent, hugged her tightly,,,

I can't describe my mood now, I can't find a good word to describe this excited and insecure mood now,,

Yes, being able to lie on the bed and hug Yu Qian tightly is very exciting.

At the same time, I am a little uneasy, I don't know where this uneasiness comes from, but it should be, because it has something to do with Zheng Jiayue.

Because I was still thinking about Zheng Jiayue in my heart, I felt a little guilty, and I felt that I was very sorry for Zheng Jiayue for a while

，，

But I couldn't control it, and hugged the person in my arms tightly,

I hugged Yu Qian tightly, completely out of the bottom of my heart, hugged Yu Qian tightly,,

Maybe it's because of the kind of liking I used to like her, or maybe it's because, all the time, how much unwilling,

In short, he hugged her tightly, as if he was going to exhaust all his strength,

And Yu Qian leaned on my arms like this, her head was tightly pressed against my chest, and her mouth didn't make a single sound.

The two of us were like this, lying on the same bed, hugging each other tightly.

The two of us, like a couple, leaned on each other tightly,

Seriously, in a sense, I kind of enjoy it.

Because this gave me an illusion, an illusion that I was already with Yu Qian,,

A long time ago, being able to be with Yu Qian was almost one of the things I looked forward to the most, but now, this feeling is not so good,,

I know that I can't be with her, even if I know that she doesn't like Lu Mao at all, even if I know that she has a good impression of me, but I still can't be with her.

Because, I already have Zheng Jiayue, I already have Zheng Jiayue, by my side,,

This is an important thing and there is no way not to think about it, I have no way to betray Zheng Jiayue's liking for me, and it can also be said that for so long, my liking for Zheng Jiayue is not such an easy thing to give up,,

However, my current actions are completely sorry for Zheng Jiayue, but I have no way to control myself, maybe just like Yu Qian said, only tonight, it is special, only tonight, it belongs to her, between me,

So at this time, I could only hug her tightly, there was no thought in my brain, a blank piece, and my body kept holding Yu Qian.

Yu Qian was motionless in my arms, she also hugged me tightly, I could still feel the temperature of her hand in my waist, her hand was gently on my waist, her head was leaning on my arms, tightly pressed against my chest,

I can't think of how I can describe my feelings at this time.

In short, there is a warm feeling in my heart, I don't know if this warmth comes from Yu Qian's body, or, from the feeling in my heart,

In short, at this moment, I snuggled up to each other like Yu Qian, and neither of us said anything more, as if the voices of this world had all disappeared.

Later, I don't know how long it took, and Yu Qian in her arms heard a thick breathing sound,

It seems that Yu Qian is asleep, she leans on my arms, breathing steadily,

This made me can't help but look at her in my arms, only to see Yu Qian's eyes tightly closed, she seems to be asleep, as if she doesn't know what kind of situation she is now,