Chapter 31 The whole world has abandoned me, but you are the only one
This is the end of a nonsensical farce, Ma Dingguo went out of the gate to find someone to play mahjong, and the landlady also watered her flowers, as if nothing had happened. The people here live too monotonously, and today's events are even new, at least it can make the dull air flow and make people feel a hint of joy in life.
After watching the lively people returned to their rooms, Wang Wei was not in a hurry to enter, he supported the railing in the corridor with both hands, looking at this familiar and extremely strange sky, he didn't know where he was, there was not a single cloud in the clear sky, but the clearer the sky, the more empty his heart became. He felt like a cloud, and this city was the clear and bright sky in front of him, and he knew that he was so small, so insignificant, and the sky would not change because there were no clouds, but on the contrary, the sky without clouds would be bluer and more vast. Yes, in this city, he is a cloud, he has to change himself all the time to decorate the sky, one moment he wants to blow himself like a frog with a big belly, and the next he has to forge himself into a sword to defend the sky, and he will do whatever the sky needs him. In this city, he has no fixed job, no stable life, the wind together, he will be blown away, there will be no trace, when it is cloudy, it has to endure being swallowed by dark clouds, torn by thunder and lightning, this is his fate, he as a cloud can not escape such a catastrophe.
At first, Wang Wei also took out his mobile phone from time to time to look at it, he hoped that the phone would ring, and then told him that you can come for an interview, but he didn't receive any such calls, not only did he not receive a call to inform him of the interview, but even a few buddies who called him on weekdays and chatted randomly did not call him these days, it seems that they also know their current situation, for fear that he will ask them, so they deliberately did not call him。 This world is very realistic, people are also very hypocritical, when you are brilliant, there is always a group of people around you, and you call you brothers, when you are helpless, but you can't find a person who can help you, they are hiding far away, for fear that you will affect them.
At this time, Wang Wei really missed home, the warmth of home made his heart sour, although that place was poor, but in that place, he was happy, the people there were sincere, and he didn't have to worry about wind and rain there. Wang Wei's tears fell at the moment he thought of home, he thought that he had grown up, could fly freely, and could hold up a piece of the sky alone, but when he thought of home, he found that he would always be a child, never grow up, home is like a kite flyer, and he is the kite, no matter how high he flies, there is a line connecting him and home, and once the line is broken, he will fall, then he will no longer be a kite, and become a catkins fluttering with the wind, the wind blows that way, he has to go that way.
"You're my little apple......". Wang Wei's phone finally rang, he used to be most annoyed by someone calling him, especially when he was playing games, when he was playing games, the phone rang, no matter who it was, he didn't answer, he was busy with both hands, and he couldn't answer the phone. But in the past few days, he hoped that the phone would ring, but the phone was like a squib, silent, and now it finally rang, Wang Wei had waited too long for this ringtone.
"Hey......". The call was made by Li Juan, Wang Wei couldn't wait to answer the phone and knew that it was Li Juan calling, he was like a wave that had just swelled and hit the stone wall, like a boat that was just about to start and hit the reef, he didn't know whether he should be happy or lost, the call he was waiting for didn't come, he was a little disappointed, Li Juan called him, but he was very warm, at least Li Juan remembered him as a down-and-out person, and she had been encouraging him.
"What's wrong with you, isn't it going well to find a job?" Li Juan didn't lose growing up with Wang Wei, how Wang Wei was feeling, she could hear it, she also knew Wang Wei's current situation, she could understand Wang Wei's mood, he was different from others, he had too much halo on his body, and the greater the responsibility on his shoulders, now he must be very distressed and in a bad mood.
"When I was in school, I thought about the society too simply, and now when I got to the society, I found that the poor could not move an inch in this materialistic society, and when they walked out of school, they were no longer the pride of the sky, and when they walked out of the house, they were no longer children, and the hardships in life had to be borne by ourselves, no one would help you and teach you like parents and teachers, and now I know that my good times are gone, and now and for a long time in the future, I will be accompanied by suffering. Wang Wei didn't know why, when facing Li Juan, the unspeakable line of defense in his heart collapsed in an instant, he could tell her the most sincere thoughts in his heart, and show his most vulnerable side to Li Juan unabashedly, he knew that Li Juan would not laugh at his incompetence, nor would he leave him because he had nothing.
"Do you know? In the past few years, I have seen too many people die for various reasons, sick, car accidents, and medicine, too many people are very young, but they ended their lives prematurely, I don't know what they did when they were alive, but I know that once their lives are over, no matter how lofty their ideals are, they will not be able to achieve them. We all say as doctors: 'To be alive is more important than anything else, and to be alive is that anything is possible'. You have also heard these two sentences, but as doctors, we have a deeper understanding of life, and we know how to cherish life and cherish every day now, because we always believe that all storms will pass and everything will be fine. You are so young, your time has just begun, your future is as beautiful as you imagined, don't think that there is a pit in front of you, there will be an abyss in front of you, even if it is an abyss, it is not necessarily that we will be crushed. It is said that the birth rate of the eagle is very low, its survival rate is also very low, every eagle that can fly into the blue sky is brave, it is said that when the young eagles grow wings, the eagles will take them to the edge of the cliff and push them off the cliff, and the young eagles want to not be killed by falling and have to wave their wings vigorously, so that they learn to fly and become the overlord of the sky. Don't forget, you are an eagle, you belong to the sky, you have wings, the sky is your limit, bravely cross this cliff in front of you, you will be completely transformed, you will become your satisfied self. Li Juan knew what Wang Wei was afraid of, and she was the same as Wang Wei at the beginning, but she overcame this nameless fear in her heart, and he believed that Wang Wei could also overcome this fear, because Wang Wei had never been a cowardly and evasive person.
"I see, don't worry! I'll cheer up, I'll be the eagle that flies, not the one that was thrown to death. Li Juan's words made Wang Wei regain his self-confidence, he understands that any beautiful thing has to go through some pain to be extraordinarily beautiful, like the plum blossom in the cold winter, like the metamorphosis of the butterfly, if there is no cold bone, there will be no plum blossom blooming, if the butterfly can not bear the pain of transformation, it will not have the perseverance of beauty and praise.
"I believe in you, and I believe you're going to do well. Li Juan was very pleased that she could help Wang Wei, which made her happier than his own success.
Li Juan called this time to have a happy event to tell Wang Wei, but after the phone was called, he learned that Wang Wei's job search had not been smooth these days, and she couldn't say that she was happy, and it was an insult to him to say that she had succeeded in front of a loser. Li Juan can only find another opportunity to talk to Wang Wei about her, she wants Wang Wei to share her happiness, but it is not appropriate to talk about it today.
"Thank you for the money you gave me, it has helped me a lot, and without the money you gave me, I'm afraid I wouldn't have been able to survive a day. This city scared me, made me feel cold like never before, I have never been so tired as I am now, but you have given me warmth, given me encouragement, and given me a reason to persevere in this strange place, making me believe that the future is still beautiful and worth looking forward to. Wang Wei has always regarded Li Juan as a relative in his heart, and he has never said a word of "thank you" to her when he is so old. She could have been so good to him, but she has been doing what she can to him without complaint, when he was most difficult and helpless, and most in need of personal comfort, only Li Juan was by his side, helping him, comforting him, encouraging him, all said that hardship can see the truth, and now he sees Li Juan's true feelings for him, and he is afraid that it will take him a lifetime to repay this love.
"Don't you see anything but money? Do you only have money in your eyes?" Li Juan gave Wang Wei money in the envelope in addition to money, there was also a letter in the envelope, he believed that Wang Wei must have seen the letter, but he mentioned money but did not mention the letter, for her, the letter is more important than money, she wanted to know what Wang Wei thought, but Wang Wei didn't even mention the letter, she was a little disappointed, and a little angry.
"I'm not blind, of course I saw it, but I don't know how to say it, that's why I didn't mention it to you, you should be able to understand me. Wang Wei will give Li Juan an answer, but not now, there are too many uncertain factors now, and he can't make a decision casually, because this decision will have a great impact on him and Li Juan's future.
When a person can't make a decision about something, or doesn't know whether it's right or wrong, the best thing to do is to leave it to time, and time will give you the most reasonable answer.
After talking to Li Juan on the phone, Wang Wei felt a lot more relaxed, and his body was full of strength. Yes, she has just begun to raise the sails, how can she anchor in her own port, he is like a ship, with the dream of traveling around the world, but he does not have the conditions to travel around the world now, he has nothing but sails on this ship, so he can't go far, and if he wants to go far, he can still land safely, he must constantly improve himself, equip himself with good equipment, experienced sailors, and have enough food, so that he can go further. And now he doesn't have any of these, he can only take his time, as long as he doesn't give up the dream of sailing, one day he will break through the huge waves and sail away with the wind.
Wang Wei rents a house without broadband, can't get on the Internet, the resumes he sent on the Internet before were sent in the nearby Internet café, he is too familiar with the Internet café, he used to soak in the Internet café can soak all day, he doesn't know tired at all, now he doesn't play games in the Internet café, he sees others playing games in the Internet café, his heart beats fast, he also wants to have a good time, but when he thinks of his current situation, he has to suppress the desire in his heart. After sending his resume, he came out quickly, and he was afraid that if he walked slowly, he would be attracted by the game and make him unable to move his steps.
Today he is going to walk into the Internet café again, and now he has a feeling that the Internet café is not clear, every time he walks on the street, when he sees the Internet café, he will remember the scene of his own game, but he will also think of everything he lost because of the game, the Internet café for him, love and hate.
There was no news at all from the resume he submitted a few days ago, and what he saw was waiting for feedback, and he knew that it was basically no fun. Last time, he chose to deliver to a large company, he wanted to try his luck, maybe there will be a company that doesn't care if you have a graduation certificate or not, and is willing to give you a chance, but many days have passed, he has not received a call for an interview, he can only die. This time he thought about it, and the standard of delivery was also lower, as long as the general company was fine, he had to have a job anyway, and he couldn't sit on it.
Wang Wei submitted his resume with infinite expectations, he believed that someone would definitely call him this time, and he would also strive for the opportunity to communicate face-to-face with the interviewer, so that the chance of success would be greater.
Sitting next to him is a young man who looks like a high school student, he is playing which game Wang Wei is keen on, Wang Wei looks at him and should have just started playing this game, his level in the game is very low, the equipment is also very poor, the combat effectiveness is too poor, he has fought several times, he was hacked to death as soon as he ran out, and the young man who got up slapped the table. Wang Wei looked at him, angry and funny, it turned out that he used to be like this!
"Brother, fight like this, and you will win. Wang Wei saw that the kid was playing so badly, he really couldn't stand it, so he gave him a trick, he was too familiar with this game, he knew how to win more often.
"That's right! This fight quickly settles the battle. The year old man looked at Wang Wei gratefully, he did what Wang Wei said just now, and soon he won, but today he won for the first time.
"Games are fun, but don't get addicted to them, or you'll regret them. Wang Wei said to the young man that when he first played the game, he was just playing casually, and then he became addicted, and as for today's tragedy.
Coming out of the Internet café, the sun was very good outside, Wang Wei was in a good mood now, he saw that Ma Dingguo and his young wife at the corner of the street had already started to be busy setting the table and holding parasols, and their children were circling around the table. The day is coming to an end again, some people's lives are over, some people's lives are just beginning.