A cigarette was about to burn out, I couldn't help but put it to my lips and took a puff, it turned out that the cigarettes that men like smelled very good, and the taste of smoking was not good, spicy flushing, I coughed out two lines of tears, but like an addiction, I couldn't help but take another puff.

I remember reading a sentence "The highest level of loving someone is to want to become him." "That will feel like I have you, you have me, embedded together, and will never be separated again. I can't keep his shadow, I can only find his breath in self-anesthesia, and I will get drunk when I love deeply!

I don't know how I drove home, stumbling and staggering, losing not only my memory, but my soul.

When I got home, Dr. Xia had already coaxed Nuan Nuan to sleep, and I was a little surprised when I looked depressed: "Qingyang, what's wrong?"

I walked up to him, he frowned slightly, and I smiled, "It's not much, it's raining on the road." It's not easy to open. ”

Dr. Xia stared at me for a moment and said, "Qingyang, you're not in a good mood. Then he asked, "Did you smoke?"

I twitched the corner of my mouth, I couldn't refute it, I was very una** with the psychiatrist, and he could see everything he was thinking clearly. I bit my lip in embarrassment and couldn't speak. I simply sat on the sofa, tired, and only now did I hit like a rolling wave. Dr. Xia turned around and went into the kitchen to bring me a glass of water and handed it to me: "Qingyang, if you are unhappy, you can talk to me." ”

I took the water and casually asked, "Then do you believe in the past and this life?"

"Letter. Dr. Xia did not hesitate and answered very firmly. I was stunned, and the one I asked was the least likely to believe him, a doctor of psychology in modern medicine, and the most atheist.

I asked curiously, "Why?"

Doctor Xia smiled faintly: "Because there are still many areas in this world that we have not yet explored. And since you asked me this question, if I don't believe it, of course you won't be interested in talking to me any longer. ”

I took a big sip of water, leaned back on the sofa, except for him, I really couldn't find anyone to say, I opened my mouth in confusion: "My grandmother told me the story of a certain family decades ago, when I listen to the story, I always feel that I have experienced it, the details of those stories, even without my grandmother to say, I can restore in my mind." And," I paused, saw that Dr. Xia listened very seriously, and continued: "I strongly feel that someone in reality is the person in the story, and the appearance, life experience, and sense of déjà vu are all right. ”

After saying this, I rubbed my eyebrows in some pain, I really had a headache. Dr. Xia was silent for a moment and said, "This kind of clinical practice in psychiatry is somewhat like mental automatism syndrome, where patients are prone to hallucinations and unconsciously substitute themselves. I even thought that this illusion was real. For example, there is a delusion of being loved, in which the person falls into the delusion that she is in a relationship with another person, but in fact, the two people may not have met. ”

At that moment, I suddenly had the urge to smash the cup in my hand on Dr. Xia's face, talking to a doctor about the past and present life is the result, it is not as good as Fan Ling and Zhao Yijing, at least they will talk and laugh and laugh, and the person in front of me will directly diagnose you: This is a disease, it must be cured!

The cup in my hand was rubbed around, and the green tendons on the back of my hand were about to be exposed, and Dr. Xia hooked his lips and chuckled: "Do you really want to smash it at me?"

My mind was seen through by him again, I couldn't cry or laugh, and the cup that I was about to smash slammed slammed on the coffee table. You don't believe it's okay, you don't need to treat me as a psychopath, and you're still paranoid? You're being paranoid! I don't want to look at him.

Dr. Xia took my hand and smiled brightly: "Don't be angry, I'm not saying that you are sick, but that your situation can be explained by science." But I don't want to talk to you about medicine, I just want to talk to you about this past and present life. ”

I didn't say anything, and he continued: "In Buddhism, there is reincarnation, the reincarnation of a living Buddha, and these are all common theories. There are also realistic examples, for example, the British "London Air News" reported that a pair of sisters had a car accident and were reincarnated together into their original mother's house and became a pair of twin sisters, but they still have memories of their previous lives, and can identify the garden where they played together in their previous lives, the school they went to, and the location of the car accident. ”

"Huh, so legendary?" I turned my head to look at Dr. Xia in surprise.

"There are always cases of this. That's why I say that there are still many mysteries in the world that human beings have not yet explored. Doctors can explain these things scientifically, but maybe these explanations are not the real causes, they are just self-defeating. "Dr. Xia's face is obviously not as hateful as just now, and I am interested in his words. Yes, the gods and ghosts, who can be sure of what there is or what it is not?

And the sense of déjà vu between people and people can't be explained, many people have a deep experience, some people are familiar at first sight, just like old friends who have been reunited for a long time, and some people can't remember each other's appearance when they see each other three times. Just like the first time I saw you, I also felt a familiar cordiality, like an old friend who had been absent for a long time, so I took the initiative to send you an album. You must know that my atlas is all internal reference materials, and if you can't buy them on the market, how can you give them away easily?" Dr. Xia smiled.

"So you're so stingy. I twitched the corners of my mouth. Several books are treasured.

"Therefore, whether it is déjà vu, past or present life, there may be any. Dr. Xia looked at me and said, I finally retracted my resistance, nodded thoughtfully, and Dr. Xia changed his words: "But so what? Is it meaningful? After all, we are living in the present." We also need to face up to reality. ”

Dr. Xia continued, "No matter what happened before, you have to live this life well. To use a reckless analogy, for example, if you and I were Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai in our previous life, but you don't like me in this life, don't you still have to follow reality? What has changed? No one has stipulated that the love of the previous life must be continued in this life. ”

These words of Dr. Xia completely spoke to my heart, yes, who stipulated that if you fell in love in your last life, you will love each other in this life? And Zhao Shinan and Du Heng, I'm afraid that they don't want to see each other again in this life. I didn't say anything, and my eyes were a little red.

"Still struggling?" Dr. Xia looked down at me and smiled slightly, "Why don't we do an experiment, and your grandmother's story is finished?"

I shook my head: "Not yet." ”

"That's more convenient, since you are obsessed with the past and present lives, then now there is no talk from your grandmother, and you can recall what happened later. Dr. Xia leaned back and looked at me.

"I don't think about it, I'm not psychic. I shook my head.

"Isn't this enough?" Dr. Xia smiled faintly, "If you have really experienced it, why can't you recall the parts that others haven't said?" ”

When he said this, my heart was really relieved. The knot in his mind just now was easily opened by him in a few words, and the original entanglement and unwillingness seemed to have faded a lot. I pursed my lips and smiled: "Your professional skills are really not covered. ”

"Haha. Dr. Xia smiled freely, "Now you know how good I am." As he spoke, his eyes lit up as he watched me.

I panicked, looked at him and said, "It's not early." Dr. Xia was stunned for a moment, looked at the rain outside, didn't say anything, put on his coat and drove downstairs and left. After he came to Nanjing to work, he bought his own car, and finally he didn't have to take "Dr. Xia's bus" back and forth. And the moment he closed the door and walked out, I realized what I had done. It turns out that when there is no one in my heart, I can't pay attention to his warmth and rain. In the end, I didn't keep him.

That night, I remembered Dr. Xia's words and lived this life well. Finally slept soundly.

When I revised the divestment agreement no less than 20 times, Lao Deng finally agreed to sign it. The company's cash flow is limited, and after discounting Lao Deng's shares to him, the company has been nervous and unable to move, and it is stretched to the extreme. It was a really difficult time, I put all my money in it, and in order to save some gas money, I changed to walking to work unless I went out to run errands.

"As for picking like this?" Fan Ling looked at me and was speechless, "It's not like a boss, and you've regained your true character as a housewife." ”

I raised my eyebrows: "Sister, you never care about the company's affairs, do you know where the deficit is now? If you don't save more, Zhang Fan and their salaries won't be paid." ”

"Is it so serious?" Fan Ling pondered for a moment and did not say anything more.

Two days later, Zhang Fan called me excitedly: "Sister Song, Si Zhiheng has settled the payment in advance." Vice President Xiao personally found me, more than one million, and the company can finally breathe a sigh of relief. ”

I finally breathed a sigh of relief, but my heart was not a taste, and the payment of Silk Zhiheng should be settled in 2 months according to the contract. Businessmen have always paid attention to the contract, and it is fortunate that there is no delay, and only Si Zhiheng can help me in such a thing as early settlement. And Xiao Bin didn't ask Zhao Yijing, and it would definitely be impossible to settle the money in advance.

My heart was fluctuating, and I sent a text message to Zhao Yijing and Xiao Bin at the same time: "Thank you for your help." Xiao Bin quickly replied to me: "Save up and invite me to a big meal." ”

Zhao Yijing never replied, and after a long time, it was not until before going to bed at night that he sent me a text message back: "And me, don't say thank you." After a while, he sent another message: "Qingyang, I miss you." Just a few words, but my heart suddenly thumped, and all my internal organs were tangled in one place. After reading the text message several times, I didn't reply and turned off the phone forcefully.