In the afternoon, my mother was taking a nap, and I was sleeping on a pile of dry grass outside. When I suddenly woke up, I was shocked to find another soldier crouching next to me, he patted me on the shoulder and made a "shhhhhh

"Tell me honestly, uncle, do you want to join the army?"

"Joining the army can protect my family and country, I really want to be a hero, I really want to wear a military uniform to kill the enemy, I hope to work with my brothers to break the Japanese ghost into pieces. ”

Seeing that my mother was asleep, I could also tell the truth, and I had been hiding this in my heart for a long time.

"Do you want to read?"

I nodded vigorously and said, "Of course!"

The soldier also nodded to me, smiled, and said, "That's good!"

The soldier stood up, walked a few steps, turned back to me, raised his hand and gave me a deep military salute, and said, "Welcome, little soldier." ”

Then, turned around and walked away.

I looked at him inexplicably, and behind him I raised my hand and gave a military salute.

In the evening, a few soldiers came, and they kindly said to my mother, "I hope you can come with us." ”

"Guoyang, this is a soldier of the Communist Army, my mother will be fine. ”

The mother put pressure and a warning on the soldiers, and then followed.

For the whole night, my mother didn't come back, and I didn't sleep, rolling around in bed, very worried. I wanted to join the army, but if they imprisoned my mother, I wouldn't be able to do it. I love my country, but I love my mother even more.

I fell asleep in a blur of my thoughts, until I woke up immediately when I heard my mother gently push the door open. I will never forget that moment! Mother stood in the crack of the slightly open door, covered in the gentle morning light behind her, her face so haggard, that she could clearly see the unwashed tears left on her face. Seeing me sitting on the bed looking at her, she smiled, smiling more gently than the early winter sun. This kind of laughter has accompanied me for fifteen years, and for fifteen years, my mother has always loved me so tenderly and protected me, and this kind of love has melted with father's love.

My father joined the army, and my mother kept saying that my father was a hero, and gradually there was no news, and my mother wanted to cry without tears, and gave me all her love, and I was his only love.

I always thought that joining the army was a hero, but I didn't know that for my mother, joining the army meant losing, she had already paid for her country with a husband and two children, and she didn't have the courage to lose again. Whether she is selfish, ignorant of righteousness, or anything, she really wants to keep this child and not lose it again.

My mother walked in, silently packing my clothes and other things.

It dawned on me that my mother had been taken by the military to do all night of ideological work. The mother was unwilling, she cried enough, and she was forced to figure it out.

Mother, an ordinary name, she has given everything for the country, but what the country has left her is a lonely and hopeless future, she is the greatest!

The thought of leaving my mother suddenly hurt my heart, and I suddenly felt that the road ahead was very difficult.

The night before I left, my mother and I wrapped our feet in the same quilt and talked to me in the old yellow mosquito net that I had sewn in many places.

My quilt has always been thick, while my mother's is thin. When I was a child, I often asked my mother why the quilt was not thicker when she grew cotton at home. My mother memorized a few poems with me, and I couldn't remember them at the time, but now I have memorized them all the time.

"Plant a grain of millet in the spring, harvest 10,000 seeds in the autumn, there is no idle field in the four seas, and the farmer is still starving to death. ”

"His face was full of dust and smoke, and his temples were pale and his fingers were black. What is the business of selling charcoal to make money? The poor shirt is single, and the heart is worried and wishes for the cold. At night, a foot of snow outside the city came, and Xiao drove a charcoal cart to roll the ice ruts. The cattle are trapped and the people are hungry, and they are resting in the mud outside the south gate of the city. Who are the two horsemen? The yellow-clothed messenger is white-shirted. The hand put the paperwork in his mouth, and returned to the car and led the ox to the north. A cart of charcoal, more than 1,000 catties, the palace envoy will not regret it. Half a horse of red silk and a zhang of silk, tied to the head of the cow to fill the charcoal straight. ”

My mother didn't explain it to me, but I knew that if you don't have to farm, you can have food, if you don't have charcoal sellers, you can have a warm winter, and if you don't grow cotton, you can have a warm quilt.

"Her heart was so heavy, so heavy that it almost overwhelmed her as a little woman," she said. She is just an ordinary person, why do you have to turn her into an extraordinary? What a glorious family member of a soldier, she is not rare at all, her love for decades has been exchanged for a cold iron card, for her or for any woman, this is meaningless. ”

She said: "The men in our family are very enthusiastic and willing to pay for the country, but there is no way, she also becomes hot-blooded." There are many things that she can't choose at all, she has to be strong. ”

She said, "Why do I have to be strong? Why do I have to be strong? Because I was born in troubled times, and I gave birth to all four children in troubled times." If, otherwise, our family would be happy. She's sorry for us, and she should say sorry. ”

She said, "Son, you have to be an officer, you have to come back to see your mother, you have to come back, your mother is waiting for you, waiting for you in peace." ”

She said: "My father thought he loved my mother very much, and when he left, he said that my mother was the most important and favorite woman in his life! But my mother didn't think it was love, because what he left for her was endless worry and cruel waiting." I want you to leave your wife with happiness and not the same path as your mother!"

……

Early in the morning, my mother took all the eggs out of the cellar, boiled them in the nest, kneaded the flour to make pancakes, and checked my packing again...... My mother had been busy waiting for the officer to pick me up, and I had been busy helping her break more wood and carry more water...... I know that my mother wants to do more for each other than I do, perhaps, this farewell will really be goodbye, this time is really short, my heart is sad, I know that my mother's heart hurts!

Someone knocked on the door and said politely, "Can I come in? I'm Captain Wang!"

Hearing this, my mother's hand that was wrapping the egg in a small square cloth stopped, and my hand that was pouring water into the large tank also stopped, and I saw my mother swallowing deeply, and then, not letting me see it for a moment, I knew that my mother was swallowing tears into her stomach.

I opened the door and saw the soldier named Captain Wang. He has very thick and calm hair, full cheeks, divine eyes, a kind smile, and a polite temperament.

"Hello, little comrade!"

Captain Wang greeted me in a very clear voice.

"Captain Wang, good!" I replied, smiling.

"Captain Wang," Mother said, turning to Captain Wang, "Hello!" her voice was slow and heavy.

"I'm here to pick up Xiao Wang," Captain Wang said with a long face: "You don't have to worry, we have the same surname, five hundred years ago we were the same family, from today on, he is my godson, I will treat him well." ”

"I know!" said the mother, so cold, as if she didn't trust it at all. In fact, in the relationship between life and death, the real father and son may not be able to sacrifice anything for it, let alone this verbal promise.

Mother looked at Captain Wang for a while, she wanted to talk to Captain Wang, and said a lot of entrusted words, but after a while, she stopped what she wanted to say, thinking that it was useless to say, he might not even protect himself well.

My mother turned to look at me and said gently, "Child, Mom hasn't hugged you for a long time, I remember when I was a child, you loved to stick to your mother, and you liked Mom very much, come on, let Mom hug it." So saying, he stretched out his hands and hugged me, leaned his head deeply on my shoulder, and rubbed my hair lovingly, and then, slowly, I heard my mother's snort and tears, which became more and more intense, and the more my mother cried, the more she wanted to cry. This hug also made me feel very heavy, how long has it been since I hugged my mother so kindly, but this hug made me feel pain like saying goodbye.

My mother's cries gradually became less and less, and she moved away from me, walked to the bedside, and brought over the things that had been packing for me for a long time. In fact, there was nothing left, just a few clothes and some dry food, but my mother checked and cleaned it up many times.

"Son, take good care of yourself! If you still have the opportunity to meet your father and two older brothers, take care of them for your mother. ”

"I'll try to take care of him!" said Captain Wang.

This was indeed the last time I saw my mother, and her tears seemed to be seared in my heart, and I couldn't wipe them away for a long, long time.

I followed Captain Wang into the dilapidated iron wagon, which was not used to carry goods and people, and there were three rows of long iron stools in the car, which was full of comrades.

As soon as I got in the car, my mother chased me out, and she ran after her and shouted: "Guoyang, Mom is waiting for you to come back! The sky is falling, Mom is waiting for you to come back in her hometown!"

The iron wagons were jolting and shaking together on the mountainous terrain of the countryside, the old iron sheets were "ping-pong" like a fight, and my mother appeared in my eyes one by one, and my tears slowly flowed down from the corners of my eyes, and the more they flowed, the more they flowed.

Captain Wang stretched out his hand and grabbed my shoulder, leaned gently to his side, and sighed deeply, why didn't he give up everything?

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Ling Wei listened attentively, her eyes were covered with a thick layer of tears early on, how could she not live in helplessness? Although her father used her, the purpose was the same, and it was just for the sake of the country and sacrificing his beloved daughter, so how could he not feel distressed? For 5,000 years, China has passed in a civil war, and who can tell the difference between right and wrong? Since ancient times, the victors have been spread to be good, and the losers have been said to be bad people.

She began to be a little unbearable to associate with Guo Yang, she didn't want to hurt a good person! She didn't know how to describe him except for this word, at least, he gave up his mother's love to protect the country, he was a person! His mother was also a good person, incomparably great!

Guo Yang pulled back the memories, collected all the pain and reluctance again, raised his head, looked at Ling Wei seriously, and felt that he was already the lover of her life.

Guo Yang gradually lowered his head and wanted to kiss her, Ling Wei turned her face away in a daze, and tears overflowing her eyes slid down from the corners of her eyes. Although she really didn't want to remember her purpose for approaching him, she had to be firm in her determination to not let her feelings destroy her will.

He continued to hold his face close to her, to kiss her, but she struggled and turned her face away.

He saw her tears, his heart was uneasy for a while, his thoughts were complicated for a while, and then he turned around and lay down next to her, quietly looking at the moon.

The two were silent and no longer spoke, each with their own thoughts.