Xia Eva had already absorbed into the atmosphere of the bonfire, but I felt very lonely when I looked at this carnival elsewhere.

Tsai Tsai didn't know what was going on at this time, did he fall asleep? And also...... What about that person?

With his usual work attitude, he should still be busy working overtime at this time, right?

The appearance of him wearing a dark suit and sitting straight in the conference room to guide the country suddenly flashed in my mind, the young and old face, the deep eyebrows, and the calm and skillful waving of his hand, all of which seemed to be like a picture scroll, deeply impressed in my mind.

Tai Ziqian and I left the bonfire party one after the other, and we walked up the hill next to us.

The mountain is not very high, it is lit up from the bottom of the mountain to the top of the mountain, and there is an observatory at the top of the mountain, from which you can see everything in the sky.

Because almost everyone was gathered at the campfire, almost no one went up the mountain at this time.

I called Aunt Liu first, Aunt Liu told me that Tsai Tsai was very well-behaved, I proposed to have a video with Tsai Tsai, Aunt Liu's tone flickered, and then told me on the phone that Tsai Tsai was asleep, and I was afraid that the sound of the video would wake him up.

I gave up, and after a few words, hung up the phone.

After that, Tai Ziqian and I walked silently to the mountain, and both of us were silent.

Tai Ziqian suddenly broke this tranquility and asked me: "In my heart, I still can't forget it, right?"

I was slightly stunned, then turned to look at him, and asked pretending not to know, "What do you mean?"

"You naturally know what I'm referring to," Tai Ziqian looked at me and said, then sighed softly and said, "Shubei, talk to me, tell me how you feel in your heart." ”

"At this moment?" I couldn't help but sigh, looking at the steps up the mountain, and sighed as well, "I feel as confused as climbing this mountain." Layers of steps, step by step offset printing up, dare not slack off and dare not be tired, but I don't know how long it will take to reach the end, and I don't know when I will suddenly slip and fall, my heart is full of too many unknowns, I want to give up but can't. ”

"You won't slip on your feet, I'll accompany you up the mountain. If you fall, I'll hold you. If I can't hold you, I'll fall first. Tai Ziqian said with a smile.

His eyes flashed with sincerity, and under the reflection of the colored lights on both sides of the road, his figure was exceptionally tall, and his face became more and more handsome.

"Ziqian, do you say that the perfection of the world is always contrary to the career ahead?" I looked at Tai Ziqian, and said with a solemn gaze, "It is too difficult for a woman to live in this society, and if she wants a career, she is destined to be unable to take care of the perfection of her family; A woman like me, who has been competing, may not be destined to have love. ”

"Who said that? How many successful women also have happy families. Why not compromise or sacrifice appropriately. You can have both fish and bear's paws, as long as you don't get too greedy. Tai Ziqian said as he walked up.

"The difficulty lies in greed!" I said with emotion, "If I am immersed in feelings, I will pay with my heart and lungs, constantly compromise, and keep lowering the bottom line again and again." But if that happens, then what about my pursuit? Isn't it far away? But if I blindly pursue my career, I will definitely have no time to care about my feelings, not to mention that I have a child. Too many things are destined to be taken into account, and it is always a matter of favoring one over the other. ”

"Shu Bei, if my guess is correct, what you are thinking about now should be more than just revenge, right?" Tai Ziqian said.

I was stunned, then smiled helplessly, and I said, "Do you know how I feel every time I drive past the Hsu Building?"

"Hate?" Tai Ziqian asked me.

I shook my head and I said, "At first it was hate, then ...... Not exactly. I admit that Xu Changsheng has some business talent, but it is too far behind my father. At that time, the Xu family under the leadership of my father was no less than the Sheng family's status in Hangzhou today. But after so many years, Xu is still standing still, not advancing, and even retreating. It was created by my father, and if my father was still here, the Xu family would definitely become a business empire now, and he would not be caught up by the Sheng family, and now he can only survive by relying on the Sheng family. ”

"So you always feel that you have a responsibility on your shoulders, you don't just want to take back the Xu clan, you also want to see how far the Xu clan can go under your leadership, am I right?" Tai Ziqian said.

I nodded, I looked at the top of the mountain, pointed to the white pavilion at the top of the mountain, and said, "Look, the top of the mountain is there, but if you don't put in the effort, you don't go up single-mindedly, if you look around, look left and right, and distract yourself, you can't climb to the top at all." And when you get to the top, there are higher and farther peaks above, and you don't just have to climb up, you have to prevent yourself from climbing high and falling heavier...... You say, when your eyes are on the top of that mountain, no matter how dazzling the lanterns are on the side of the road, will you stop here?"

"So in your eyes, love is like this lantern, and the white pavilion on the top of the mountain is your destination?" Tai Ziqian asked me rhetorically, and then said, "In that case, then why are you sad?"

An extremely depressed feeling suddenly rose in my heart, and a voice popped up from the bottom of my heart to my mouth, and I couldn't help but burst out: "Because I really love him." ”

Tai Ziqian was stunned suddenly, and he looked at me affectionately and sadly: "How I hope that you are saying this to me." ”

I looked at the dazzling lanterns and said sadly, "Even if love is hidden deep in my heart, it still doesn't come out of my mouth unconsciously." I can't avoid it, I can't escape it, it's something in my heart. Just like this lantern, it won't be your target, but it will stay on along your way. Since ancient times, people who can escape the word love have probably become saints, right?"

"Where did he make you so obsessed?" Tai Ziqian was obviously distracted, and he didn't listen to what I was saying.

But it doesn't matter, I don't expect him to understand, I just think it's good to have a place to speak.

"Everything about him, every expression of his, every movement, every look of his eyes, fascinates me and makes me unforgettable," I said as I walked, "Ziqian, I don't know when he has taken such a deep place in my heart." The more I pushed him away, the more I missed him in my heart. The more I pretended to be indifferent, the more painful I felt in my heart. From ancient times to the present, how many women do not crave the nourishment of love? It's not that I don't want to, I don't want to be bound by love. I don't think he or I can compromise for each other, and we can't be pure. He has his pursuits, and I have mine. ”

"Someone is willing to compromise for you, but ...... But you can't see it. Tai Ziqian suddenly said meaningfully, and then said, "How can I not experience the feeling of love? The feeling of being at a glance for ten thousand years, the feeling of wanting to protect her for the first time I saw her, the feeling of being willing to be a foil for her for the sake of her, I have experienced it too thoroughly." Shubei, you don't really love him, or at this stage you love your own ambitions and ambitions more. If you really love someone, you will compromise for him, and everything is willing to compromise. ”

I didn't have the heart to appreciate the deep meaning of Tai Ziqian's words, I hurriedly defended myself, I said: "I have compromised, I have also made up my mind to stay by his side, accompany him through difficulties, and stand at the top with him, but then I realized that I am just accompaniment, companionship means that I am just his vassal, I am gradually losing myself, gradually losing my control over life." I'm afraid, I'm really afraid, I'm afraid that everything about myself will be controlled, I'm afraid I'm going to lose myself, I'm afraid I'm going to get lost in love, and I'm going to forget where I started. ”

"Love, by its own, means sacrifice. Have you ever heard of a phrase in the Bible: Love is long-suffering and kind. Tai Ziqian said casually, "If I love someone, I am willing to turn into a candle and burn myself to light the way she wants to go." I want to see her happy, I want to see the most beautiful smile on her face. Because she's happy, I'm happy. ”

"Ziqian, you will always be greater than me. I patted him on the shoulder and said with a smile.

As we spoke, we had reached the top of the mountain, we had reached the white pavilion, and I leaned in to see the vast universe at a glance.

The book says that those with small hearts can only see the present, and those with big hearts can see the future at a glance.

When I looked through the telescope at the vast universe and the vast galaxy, I suddenly felt small, and suddenly found that the world was so big, so boundless, no matter how you walked, you could not go to the end, countless roads in the world, countless mountains and thousands of rivers, but I would rather choose the journey, would rather walk barefoot through thousands of mountains and thousands of rivers, with my sweat and tears to make my life broader and more far-reaching.

Staying in the arms of a man can certainly have stable happiness. However, if what I yearn for is mountains, lakes and seas, even if his embrace is as far-reaching as the sea and as vast as the mountains and rivers, I will still not be satisfied.

"I still have to go my own way, I still want to meet more people, I still want to break into a bigger world, I know that the challenge is difficult, and I still want to give it a try. Ziqian, that's all I'm thinking now. I miss him, I love him, but this love can't stop me from chasing a better world. I got down from the observatory, lay down on the green grass next to me, looked up at the vast starry sky, and said to Tai Ziqian.

But Tai Ziqian didn't know what he suddenly touched, he suddenly hugged me into his arms, I struggled desperately, but when I looked up, I saw him burst into tears......

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