Chapter 33: Love and Hate Belonging to Men
"Ah...... Li Lan, you are so bad, I can't spare you. On the fast-moving roller coaster, Zhou Fei shouted for help, but his voice was drowned out by the screams around him, Li Lan sat next to him, she heard Zhou Fei's shouting, but she ignored Zhou Fei's shouting, it's too late to say anything now, it's easy to get on the thief ship and get off the thief ship, but it's hard. Zhou Fei had never played such an exciting game, his nervous whole body muscles were very tight, his hand grabbed Li Lan's hand at some point, because he was too nervous, the force in his hand was a little too big, Li Lan's hand was pinched red by him, Li Lan should also feel pain, but she didn't say anything, Zhou Fei was fooled by her, she should have suffered a little sin.
"Haha...... Zhou Fei, you coward. Li Lan heard Zhou Fei's shouting, she also shouted loudly above, no one heard it anyway, there were screams all around, this scream never stopped from the beginning to the stop, she really admired the voices of these people, it was too powerful.
Zhou Fei vomited on the side of the nearby railing as soon as he came, his face was sallow, as if he had just fallen seriously ill. Li Lan acted as if nothing had happened, her head was not dizzy, she was not dazzled, she was not swaying when she walked, she stood behind Zhou Fei, patting Zhou Fei on the back, she wanted to laugh, but she was afraid that Zhou Fei would be angry and did not dare to laugh, Zhou Fei's appearance was too funny.
"How is it, are you okay?" Li Lan asked Zhou Fei while patting Zhou Fei on the back.
"It's really exciting, it's quite enjoyable. "Zhou Fei is really a cooked duck, only his mouth is hard, he would really rather lose his life than lose face, his stomach is about to vomit, but he just doesn't admit it.
"Drink some water! If you're afraid, you'll be afraid! If you don't admit it, your appearance will betray you a long time ago. Li Lan handed a bottle of mineral water to Zhou Fei, and Zhou Fei drank a little and his face was much better.
"What's next? I don't want to play any more exciting games, I don't believe I'm going to throw up this time." Zhou Fei has a little confidence, although he vomited, but the fear in his heart disappeared, it turned out that the way to overcome fear is very simple, you are strong, fear will be afraid of you, so that you can defeat them, on the contrary, if you keep retreating, fear will be pressing step by step, and you will become a slave of fear.
"Aren't you scared now?" Li Lan didn't expect Zhou Fei to take the initiative to ask for excitement, this is like the Zhou Fei just now! She dragged him to death just now, this time he took the initiative to ask for it, since he asked for it, she will satisfy him.
"I'm not afraid, but I'm a little longing, thanks to you, the fear in my heart has been resolved, and now, I am no longer afraid, and I will not be afraid in the future. Zhou Fei replied to Li Lan affirmatively, he now understands why Li Lan is dragging him on a roller coaster, she must have known that he was afraid of this, she was helping him overcome the fear in his heart, and the best way to overcome fear is to go up to the difficulty, and do what you are afraid of, so that the fear in your heart will disappear. I didn't expect Li Lan's trick to really work, now he is full of confidence and not afraid at all, Li Lan taught him a truth in life.
"In this case, I will take you to play a game that is a hundred times more exciting than this, so that you can have a good time. Li Lan's personality is like a boy, what she likes is also what boys like, she not only loves to play this challenging game, but also practices taekwondo, ordinary people are not her opponents, of course, she practices taekwondo is not used to fight, mainly to strengthen the body, but also to protect herself, these days, there are many bad people, with such a hand, you are not afraid of being bullied.
"Where are we going?" Li Lan pulled Zhou Fei up and left, Zhou Fei couldn't get used to her kind of personality of saying go, he has always been very cautious, everything he does is done after careful consideration, never impulsive, this is why he seems to be more mature and stable than many of his peers, this character makes him popular in school.
"Just follow along. Li Lan didn't answer him directly, but continued to walk forward, she was going to go to the beach with Zhou Fei, and it would be a long distance.
Sitting in the car, looking out the window in the world's eye-catching city, he knew that a person in this city is too small, like a drop in the ocean, insignificant, not all people can create brilliance in this city, success is a luxury for many people, for him is the same, in this city, he has no advantage, if you want to continue to live in this city, you have to put in the effort, people like him, except for hard work, there is no way. Less than a month after coming here, he felt that there was a difference between this city and other cities, just as Li Lan said, in the city you have to learn to run, so as not to fall behind. Since he is here, he must persevere, he can't give up halfway, let alone go back, if he goes back now, others will laugh at him, even if he goes back, he must go back openly.
"What are you thinking, are you thinking about Wu Zixi again?" Li Lan pushed Zhou Fei, who was pondering, he saw that Zhou Fei had been looking out the window, and seemed to be caught in a kind of memory, except for thinking about Wu Zixi, she really couldn't think of who he could think of? He is now in the same city as Wu Zixi, and he lives in the place where Wu Zixi works, this feeling is quite tormenting.
"Thinking about what I should do next, how can I still think about the love of my children! Besides, I am not worthy of Wu Zixi now. Zhou Fei's words were a bit self-deprecating, but he was right, the most important thing for him now is to find a job, otherwise let alone being with Wu Zixi, I'm afraid he won't be able to stay in this city.
"Don't say that, you have done a good job, I also know a thing or two about you and Wu Zixi, it's not your fault, she shouldn't say goodbye no matter what, saying goodbye is the biggest deception in itself, even if it's wrong, the wrong person is not you, you have to punish yourself." Li Lan understands the love between Zhou Fei and Wu Zixi, when they were in school, their love was about to become a model love, and both of them were about to become a model couple, which made many people very envious, and many people said that they were a match made in heaven. Others envy the love between Zhou Fei and Wu Zixi, but Li Lan is a little worried, the two of them are very calm on the surface, but it is this calm that makes Li Lan feel uneasy, just like the calm sea, it may be a storm or a typhoon and tsunami, this calm makes people very worried.
What kind of love is the best love, maybe everyone's answer is different, some people think it is vigorous love, some people think it is plain love, some people think it is a lifetime of unchanging loyalty, some people think that they will never give up, and they will stay together in adversity, these are all beautiful loves, which are worth pursuing and having with our lives. Zhou Fei and Wu Zixi's love, what kind of love it belongs to, Li Lan doesn't know, their love is beautiful enough, but something is missing, their love is flawed, it is this flaw that shatters their love, this flaw can't be seen on weekdays, like a virus hidden in your body, when you find out that it exists, he has already penetrated into your bone marrow, and it's too late to make up for it. It is this "virus" hidden in love that has brought Zhou Fei and Wu Zixi to where they are today, Li Lan doesn't know what this "virus" is, and he doesn't know how to remove this "virus", but he can be sure that this "virus" exists.
"Don't comfort me, I've become like this, you still praise me so obviously, I am very ashamed! I don't know which of us is wrong, maybe no one is wrong, but reality and time have changed us, I don't blame Wu Zixi for leaving me, she has the right to pursue a happy life, no one can make decisions for her, I just don't want to end up with her like this, it's not so much to come to Shanghai to be with her, but to find a reason for myself to accept reality, so that I can accept the fact that she no longer belongs to me. Regarding love, Zhou Fei thinks that he has done a good job, but in the face of reality, their love is still vulnerable, and he still hasn't figured out why Wu Zixi left him, and he didn't even want to break up with him in person. He wanted to redeem this love, but she didn't know what to do to make her change her mind, he couldn't find a way, so he didn't go to see Wu Zixi for a long time, and he didn't let Li Lan tell Wu Zixi that he had come to Shanghai, and he had to solve the matter between him and Wu Zixi by himself, and others couldn't help him. From the moment Wu Zixi left a letter and said goodbye, he knew that there would be today, and it would not be so simple for them to end because of a letter, he was unwilling, and he thought that Wu Zixi was not reconciled.
"Do you have any plans?" Li Lan can understand Zhou Fei's mood, who is willing to admit defeat so easily, even if he wants to lose, he must lose completely, clearly, even if there is still a chance to stay, he should work hard, he should not give up easily, it is not easy to fall in love, this is only in exchange for several lifetimes of reincarnation.
"Then look for a job first, and then talk to her when the right opportunity arises, and no matter what the outcome is, I will gladly accept it. Zhou Fei made full preparations, no matter what, this day will be faced after all, he can't hide, he can't give himself an answer, he can't explain to his heart.
"That's right, this is you, don't be surprised at any time, don't lose the first person in our school, it's really different. Li Lan was very happy to see Zhou Fei who was full of self-confidence, and brought him out today to help him regain his self-confidence, and now it seems that it has a certain effect, and it is estimated that when they end the day, Zhou Fei will not be afraid of anything, and he will have a clear answer to the matter between him and Wu Zixi.
Before you know it, the car has left the city and got on the highway, and the scenery in front of you has changed to a different one. Zhou Fei suddenly remembered the place Xu Fei had taken him to before going to Beijing, and the scenery here was a bit similar to there. Xu Fei told him that this is her kingdom, when you are unhappy, you can come here to sit and say, tell those flowers and plants about your unhappiness, although they can't speak, but they can share your worries for you, let you forget those bad things, and regain self-confidence. Xu Fei's words are still echoing in her ears, but she is far away, and she can only miss her silently in her heart and wish her all the best.
Some things are easy to lose, and some things are never lost once they exist.
Thank you for the time, let me meet you, the reason why life is so wonderful is because of your appearance, the reason why the time is so wonderful, because of the youth spent with you, don't ask me why I have tears in my eyes, just because I love this time, love you love deeply.
"What's wrong, why are you still crying?" Li Lan found the tears on Zhou Fei's face, she didn't know what happened to Zhou Fei, she was fine just now, why did she cry suddenly, she was a little blindsided.
"Thank you for being there for me when I needed help, for encouraging me and for comforting me, for making my life meaningful and understanding a lot. Zhou Fei buried his head in Li Lan's arms, now he is a child, Li Lan is his mother, he is too fragile and needs his mother's protection.
Li Lan didn't say anything, it was useless to say anything at this time, let him cry for a while, and after crying, there would be nothing left. Tears are not because they are afraid, but because they have been strong for too long, and they are the catharsis of emotions. During this time in Shanghai, Zhou Fei wanted to find someone to talk to, but there was no such person, today Li Lan gave him courage, and he was not afraid of Li Lan's jokes, so let the tears that had been suppressed for a long time flow wantonly! After crying, his life will go on, and his dream will be realized.
Li Lan took Zhou Fei to an extreme sports place, this time is located on the mountain, there is a distance from the city, but there are still many people who come here to play, Li Lan comes here as soon as he has time, and he can relax here with all his heart, this is a sport that makes you focus so much that you forget everything.
"The old man can still play this! There won't be anything, right?" Zhou Fei saw that several old people were preparing, although the safety of this sport could be guaranteed, but the old man playing this sport was a little worried!
"Don't worry! they're not ordinary old people, they're amazing. "Li Lan has seen these old people, they are more powerful than her young people, compared to them, these young people have failed too much.
Although Zhou Fei had enough psychological preparation, and the equipment on his body could also ensure his safety, he still hesitated when standing on the springboard, he didn't have the courage to take any step, and he didn't dare to jump no matter how beautiful the posture of others was. In the end, it was Li Lan and together, he jumped down, at that moment he forgot who he was, forgot what he was doing, as if time had condensed, everything stopped turning in an instant, what could prove that he was still alive was Li Lan's heartbeat, Li Lan's heart was beating fast, she didn't know if it was because she was afraid, or because she was holding him, he thought that Li Lan must have forgotten who she was and what she was doing.
"It's a pleasant surprise!" When they were separated, Li Lan asked Zhou Fei, Zhou Fei played this kind of sport for the first time, and he was a little uncomfortable, and now he still feels that the world is upside down, his head is always turning, and there are clusters of black lines shaking in front of him.
"It's not a surprise, it's a fright. Zhou Fei replied helplessly.
This day is like a person's life, there are too many unknown things, generally surprises, generally frightening.