He closed his eyes, not knowing if it was because the rain scorched his eyes and hurt him, or because he was sleepy and fell asleep.

The rain kept falling, a few wisps of wind passed, I shivered, I felt a little cold, and then looked at the people in front of me, still closed their eyes, like an old monk into the concentration, everything can not enter the eyes, ten thousand sounds can not drill into the ears.

I want to remind him that it is easy to catch a cold, but he can't say anything when the words come to his mouth.

He only looked at the tombstone in front of him and whispered in his heart, "Aunt Qin, you see your son, it seems that he has slept in the rain, if your soul still exists in the world, then can I ask you to enter his dream now and tell him to wake up quickly...... It's time to go back. ”

I don't know if my prayer was working, but he suddenly opened his eyes, and I was crouching in front of him. Now they are looking at each other, and they are all the same quiet, the same inky black.

He moved, as if to stand up, and I quickly stood up first, fearing that his head would hit the low umbrella, and reached out to him.

He reached out too, then grabbed mine, borrowed a few of my strength to stand up, and then let go without mercy. But the body turned upside down towards me.

I was caught off guard and staggered two steps behind me, a little embarrassed, but more at a loss.

He leaned against me, unmoved or spoken for a long time.

I think he probably knelt for a long time and his legs were numb.

The dense fog of the distant mountains wrapped the large and small tall and low houses, as if they were far, far away from us, so far away that I had the illusion that there were only two of us in this world.

He didn't move, I didn't move, he didn't speak, I didn't speak, they were silent with each other, and their wet clothes were ironed by each other's body temperatures, and then they were wet with the rain.

Later, when we were sent to Qin Jianghao's house, Du Yuntong left without stopping.

I was afraid that Qin Jianghao would be drenched in the rain and contracted the wind and cold, so I cooked him a bowl of ginger soup.

Handing it to him, he reached out and took it, drank a drop and returned the bowl to me, and then asked coldly, "What are you doing here?"

"......" Is it too late to ask now? If he had asked before, I would have dropped the bowl and would not have given him a drink.

When I drank the ginger soup, I turned my face and didn't recognize anyone.

I took the bowl and learned from his expression, with a cold face and a little disgust, and said, "See if you die." ”

He sank his face and snorted coldly, "I've disappointed you, I'm alive and well." ”

"Oh. I nodded faintly, then stood up, "I'm really disappointed, then I'll go, I'll come back next time when you die." ”

turned around, but the clothes were grabbed by him.

My heart couldn't help beating a few times, I didn't turn around, I moved, and I shook off his hand, but he just grabbed it so tightly that I couldn't shake it off. I didn't dare to pull on him too hard, so I turned around and asked him lightly, "What are you doing?"

The reason why I didn't dare to use force was not that I was reluctant to hurt him. But because it was raining, and I didn't change my clothes, after taking a shower, I was wearing his pajamas, he had several sets of spring, summer, autumn and winter, and the one I am wearing now is winter, white, velvet, very warm.

But if you don't pull it, it will be exposed, and you are even more afraid of it.

"Don't go. He spoke.

I thought I had misheard, looked at him in amazement, and asked, "What did you say?"

He said: "Don't go, stay with me, I can give you whatever you want." ”

I suddenly laughed, this girl hasn't given up yet?" "Qin Jianghao, do you want to support me?"

He frowned, as if dissatisfied, "Who taught you this? Dirty, don't say it again." ”

Who taught me? No one taught me, now all kinds of plots, TV and movies are not all this stalk, this bridge!? Such a popular unspoken rule, who wouldn't, still need to be taught?

I continued to laugh, "If not, then in what capacity do you want me to stay with you?"

He pondered for a moment before continuing, "It can be like when I was a child. ”

Like when you were a child, follow him behind his ass to eat and drink, and don't you have to pay?

I couldn't laugh, and I even wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry, at least, not in front of him now, because it was hard to restore my former dignity in front of him.

I said, "Qin Jianghao, that's impossible, I used to be young and ignorant, but now we are not young." Lonely men and widows live together, and if the name is not right, they will be gossiped about. ”

I was silent and did not speak.

I said, "Moreover, I will marry in the future, and you will also marry and have children...... Target. When it came to giving birth, my heart couldn't stand the pain, and I quietly took a breath, "We can't be willful anymore, otherwise it will only get worse, people are getting better and better, let's not go over." ”

He still didn't let go of my hand, but lowered his head and pondered for a while, and said, "Then how can you agree?"

What's going on? Is he praying for me?

Obviously, there is not much more Bai Luoluo in this world, there is a lot less Bai Luoluo, the earth will not be the end of the world without Bai Luoluo, Qin Jianghao can still breathe normally without Bai Luoluo, why do you say as if I am very important?

"Qin Jianghao. I called him in a hoarse voice, and when I saw him looking at me seriously, I said, "Listen, I'll just say it once...... Two people want to be together, not only you and me, but also ......"

"What else?"

"Love. ”

"In love?"

"Have you seen it?"

"I haven't seen it. ”

"What about the TV series?"

"Little soldier Zhang Ga, detective Di Renjie, society and law. ”

"What about movies?"

"The devil is coming. ”

...... "What the hell! Can't you have seen a little love story?"

No, Detective Diren Jerry seems to have a bit of a love episode, but ...... Forget it, it's not appropriate to give an example.

"Don't look at those in the future, if you have time, you can take a look at Huanzhu Gege, the love is deep and rainy, understand, know what love is, and then think about whether you still want me to be by your side. ”

He suddenly asked, "Have you seen it?"

"Yes. ”

"Then tell me what love is. ”

How can I explain this clearly? I can copy the sour text Zou Zou in Baidu, and tell him that it seems to be very reasonable:

Love is a ray of light that illuminates your life and gives you warmth. It is a glass of water that quenches your hunger and thirst in the desert, it is a kind gesture that touches your heart, it is a warm smile, it brings colorful beauty to your gray life, it is nothing, it is nothing, such as picking water by hand, there is nothing left after the water flows through and wipes it dry, but it leaves you with the deepest thoughts in your heart, turning your life upside down......

But these words do not make a person understand love, because love begins in the heart, if you do not have this person in your heart, how can you understand love?

If you survive, you don't need to be taught by others, and you will naturally be self-taught one day.

"I can't teach you this, anyway...... Love you, you ...... If you don't love me, you can't be together, I love you, and you love me, so we can be together forever. ”

"Do you love me, then?"

Sudden question, without warning, the answer is in the throat, almost can be said in a breath, but it is stuck there, and I can't say anything.

He looked at me with a focused and serious gaze, waiting for my answer.

I laughed, half-jokingly, half-seriously fooling the subject, "You don't love me, I ...... Nor will I love you. ”

His eyelashes blinked, and he said, "Life is so complicated, isn't it good to be simply together?"

I was stunned, remembering that when I was in college, I had a roommate who had never been in love for more than 20 years, and whenever she was teased, she always said indifferently: "My mother is called single-mindedness, clean and self-conscious, if the two don't really love each other, no matter how much he looks like a dog, the old lady will not mess with him." ”

Some roommates laughed at her again, "According to you, if you can't find a man you like in the future, will you have to stay a virgin for the rest of your life and not marry?"

If you can't find someone to love, the old lady will find a stranger she doesn't love to marry in the future, so that in the future, whether he comes out of the closet or I come out, it will be easy to discuss divorce, and it will not be troublesome. ”

At that time, everyone in our dormitory laughed at her for thinking deeply and thinking far, and before she got married, she thought about her life so sadly.

Now I realize how clear that girl is.

If it is not for the two lovers, it is better not to be in the morning and twilight, because unrequited love is really bitter, because you will live every day, he does not love you, and he may fall in love with other people's speculation and fear in the next second.

Then it's better to find someone you don't love to marry, at least you won't be scared day and night, you will never be sad and painful, at most it's just a little regret.

In the face of Qin Jianghao's request, I have not been moved, hesitated, and thought about it, because that was my wish, whether he loves me or not, it would be good to be by his side.

But it seems that after more and more people know because I like him, I can't deceive myself and continue to be with him when he doesn't love me.

Because it is not a gift to me, but an injustice to him, taking away his freedom when he does not know love, if one day, he knows what it means to love someone, but the one who loves is not me, he will not blame me, will he ruthlessly abandon me?

I was timid, and I didn't even have the courage to confess to him, so I was even more afraid, blamed and abandoned.

Without answering his question, I shook his hand away and took the bowl out the door.

I went downstairs, washed the dishes and put them back in the cupboard, then went to the bathroom to look at the clothes in the washing machine, which were being dehydrated.

Looking at the clothes under the plastic glass, which rotated so fast that he couldn't tell what color he was, he gradually became distracted, and all he thought about was Qin Jianghao's words just now, but he just thought about it, and didn't think about anything else.

Today's shift, go to bed early after reading. Have you gone home for the New Year? Spring Festival tickets are not easy to buy, have you grabbed them? There are still a few days left for the New Year, do you have any New Year's wishes?