Chapter 13 I want to admit it, but I can't

"What is the matter with you calling me?" Luo Shaoqian said the same thing for the eighth time, I texted him and said that he would come to the ward at 8 o'clock in the evening to find me, and he arrived on time for important inquiries, and stood motionless at the head of the bed for half an hour, opening his mouth every four or five minutes, with a cold tone and a ...... expression The expression is invisible, well, in the past half an hour, I have been writing my unfinished report on Sima Qian's punishment with my head down, and I have written eight words in half an hour: There is no one before, and there is no one after. The pen fun pavilion www.biquge.info thought it was just a matter of one sentence, but I didn't expect to really ask, and I was really a little ashamed. I traced the word "者" over and over again, and mentally rehearsed various versions.

Version 1: Luo Shaoqian, do you like me? No, no...... It's too direct, without a bit of girlish reserve.

Version 2: Luo Shaoqian, I heard ...... I heard that you like me, is it true? Is it in a hurry, I bet it. No, no, no...... Too frivolous, like a hooligan.

Version 3: Brother Qian, the Lun family heard about it...... Dwarf Oil ...... Lun Jiaba is embarrassed to talk about it...... Hehehehe...... I'm going to ~~ want to throw up ~~

Version 4......

"Wen Tong, do you have to remember the last twelve words before you can discuss important matters with me?" Luo Shaoqian said and quickly drifted to the side of the bed, pulled the pen in my hand, and wrote on the paper, "Thinking of heaven and earth, originality and tears." "The words are good, and at first glance I know that the name on the dozen or so books of mine was written by one person, and somehow, I saw the scene of him sitting at his desk writing my name on the title page of the book one by one, the beautiful font, the black pen and his handsome side face are intertwined into a landscape, which is fascinating. "Why do you want to write your name in my book?" I raised my head and winked at him a few times, always to say something to break the silence, and always to ask something, I always felt that there was a secret connection between me and Luo Shaoqian, obviously different from friendship but at least not love. I have no history of love, but I have never eaten pork and seen pigs run, the bloody episodes of the eight o'clock TV file did not happen between me and Luo Shaoqian, and the kind of heart-pounding love at first sight has not appeared strongly, I think this should not be love, it should not be......

"I'm afraid I'll confuse your book with mine. Luo Shaoqian's eyes staggered me to the side, which made me very uncomfortable, because I couldn't see his eyes, so I couldn't judge that he was lying to me from time to time. "You look at me talking. I forgot that my right hand had not fully recovered, but when I stabbed Luo Shaoqian, I cried out in pain with an "oh oh", and my retracted hand was gently pulled by Luo Shaoqian, and he looked at my injured arm with a frown, and his expression became darker and darker. "I can't stay with Yang Zi next time, it's so ......serious," he said to himself, not caring if I heard it. "The matter of 2,000 yuan, Yang Chen has already explained. I stared at his face, watching his expression change slightly, his brows still furrowed, and his eyes still fell on my arm, but the corners of his mouth moved slightly, what is this? "And then?" He didn't look at me, his tone was relaxed and slightly teasing, and he gently lifted my arm to rest on the soft quilt, and then straightened up and met my eyes. I was a little panicked, maybe people were just bored and wanted to get me to the school association, or maybe he really just thought I was suitable to be his assistant, so it seemed that I was self-inflicted, I don't know what kind of answer I wanted him to give, but according to my personality, the answer must be.

"Last time I got lost, why did you come to me, didn't you ask you to inform Yang Chen?" I didn't open my eyes and say these words into his deep eyes, God knows where I got the courage, maybe he said a playful "And what?" stirred up a certain fire in my heart, anxious to explain something.

"I think I should find you easier than Yang Chen. And then what? What exactly do you want to say?"

"I'm hurt, why are you taking care of me, why are you giving me a review?"

"Humanitarian, but didn't you drive me away later......?

"Yang Chen and Yan Ting said that you like me, is it true?"

“……”

After struggling for a long time about whether to talk about what I want to say, I blurted out without holding back my mind, and when I realized Luo Shaoqian's surprise, I was already ashamed of myself, don't~~ Why don't I know how to turn a corner?!, this kid, the rectum can't be straight like this...... What should I do now!I must be laughed at to death, just look at Luo Shaoqian's surprised expression and know the result, alas, mom~~ The old face of the Wen family has made me lose everything...... I don't know what to say, Luo Shaoqian doesn't seem to know how to break this terrible embarrassment, I look at him, he looks at me, for a long time, I can see a flower in his eyes.

"Do you like me?" I don't know how long he was silent, but he smiled at the corner of his mouth and spit out these words.

Do I like him? Actually, I've asked myself this question many times. Whenever I think back to the days when I got along with Luo Shaoqian, even those quarrels caused by work or pure fault making me laugh for a long time, I have felt the warmth and thoughtfulness under his indifferent mask, and I have to admit that he is indeed a very good person, and if he can be his girlfriend, he should be very happy. But what is love? I think of the crazy days with Yang Chen, Yan Ting and Shi Jingyi, and I will smile very heartily, I don't have the moment when Yan Ting saw Qi Dong, and I don't seem to have Qi Dong's family-like love for Yan Ting, let alone Yan Ting's unwavering waiting for Qi Dong. I seem to have a little special feeling for Luo Shaoqian's Luo Shaoqian, but when I see the adoring and nymphomaniac expressions of a group of crazy women, I think maybe I'm like them, pretending that he is just a prince passing by. In terms of feelings, I am a very cautious person, Yan Ting said how to know if it is suitable without trying, so she plunged into it, and I can't. I think I should not like Luo Shaoqian, or rather, I like Luo Shaoqian as much as many people, but it is definitely not love.

"I ...... Don't like it......" I lowered my head, my eyes left Luo Shaoqian fell on the 12 words he had just written on the paper in front of me, a little lost, a little scared, a little dazed, and mixed feelings.

"Heh~ You don't like me, so it doesn't matter if I like you or not. I'm gone, your hands...... Don't write. Let Yang Zi find you a nurse. "I didn't dare to look at his expression, I couldn't read any emotion in his tone alone, he cared about you as always, so much so that I had to wonder about the distance between our house. But what is such an answer? He seems to admit something, he seems to deny something, what he cares about, and what he gives up. I felt the shadow of the light as he turned around, and listened to the sound of his steps towards the door, the sound of the door closing softly and violently striking at my heart, and he left as he had done last time, and I could not even raise the courage to look at his back. I'm sorry, I don't know what's wrong with me, my own emotions, for the first time in more than twenty years I didn't understand.

Until I was discharged from the hospital in early January for winter vacation, Luo Shaoqian never appeared in the ward again, Yang Chen wanted to hire a nurse for me, I said forget it, don't be a loser, your family's money is not falling from the sky, Yang Chen can't resist me, and the nurse didn't ask for it. The injury on my right hand has been recovered for a month, I can almost move, I can cope with simple writing or something, the plaster on my leg is still white, and I will go home to find a hospital for rehabilitation. I applied for a deferment of the final exam, the counselor saw that I was really pitiful, after communicating with the teacher, in view of the fact that I listened carefully in class and was not absent, the four subjects that only need to write the end of the essay do not need to be deferred, and the essay on ancient Chinese history that is half written is naturally useless, Sima Qian is very lucky, I don't have to be disgusted by me when I move out, the paper was thrown in the trash can by me, and then it was picked up and sandwiched in the book by the aunt who swept the floor, looking at the paper at the end of Luo Shaoqian's writing of twelve words, I hesitated for a long time and finally did not throw it away, the words are really beautiful, worth collecting。

On the day I packed my things, a piece of paper fell out of an ethics book, and when I picked it up, I saw that it was densely packed with my name, and all kinds of fonts that I couldn't name, and for the first time, I thought the word "Wentong" was particularly beautiful. I think it was written by Luo Shaoqian, and I can now see his handwriting at a glance, and I don't know when he developed his skills. When I saw the dense page, my heart was stunned, tears flowed down, tears fell on the paper, blurring the two "Wentong", really touched, so big, no one has written my name so almost crazy, my dear parents probably haven't been. I think of some TV drama plots, it stands to reason that the person who writes this character either loves or hates the owner of this name, but after thinking about it, I feel that it is unreliable anywhere, I think he is bored, or...... Or maybe you suddenly want to study these two words. On the reverse side of the paper are the phone numbers of several people, I don't know any of them, I wanted to treasure this piece of paper, and I went back to tell my cousin who shows off every day, you see, this is written by your sister admirer, it's infatuated enough! But I think this phone number is estimated to be useful, and it seems too deliberate to copy it down for him, so before getting into the car, I still asked Yang Chen to hand it over to Luo Shaoqian.

I was sent by Yang Chen on this day, Yan Ting accompanied Qi Dong to the hospital to buy medicine, Shi Jingyi quickly caught up with the handsome guy in charge of a certain club in this month, people in love, I allowed them to forget their friends. According to Yang Chen's intelligence along the way, Qi Dong and Yan Ting, who seemed to outsiders, were really embarrassed, and no one recognized each other as their lovers, but they could see two people mixed together every day. Qi Dong bought breakfast for Yan Ting, and Yan Ting accompanied Qi Dong for follow-up, exercise, and supervised him to take medicine. I smiled and said nothing, they were relatives. I urged Yang Chen to get out of the single team too, he said that he had an oil bottle next to him, which was inconvenient. I said you're funny, where are you kid?!