(Cat flutter Chinese) Seeing Chen Xiang like this, I was anxious with her at the time, "Chen Xiang, what are you messing with me?"

But I was distressed, I didn't know what happened to her, I took the quilt to cover her, and then hugged the person into my arms, the soft little one, the shoulders were shaking, she was sad, I followed the distress.

It turns out that liking someone is such a worrying thing.

I coaxed Chen Xiang for a long time before she slowly calmed down and told her that her father was sick.

I promised her that no matter what happened, I would be there for her.

This time, I didn't lie to her, and I swear I mean it. After Chen Xiang fell asleep, I went to contact the most professional doctors in the best hospital, and the next day I took her parents to Beijing to arrange for admission examination.

I was with her from the examination to the subsequent operation, and it turned out that this was the first time I had the opportunity to do something for Chen Xiang. Fortunately, the operation went well, and before the Chinese New Year, with the permission of the doctor, I accompanied Chen Xiang and took the family home.

During this time, I knew that she was a little less defensive of me, but she still didn't dare to accept me easily, even if I confessed to her later by getting drunk.

But I know that day is not far away, and even Chen Xiang's parents have acquiesced in the relationship between the two of us.

A week before Chen Xiang started school, I sent her back to school, and by the way, I had a meal and drank some wine at the food stall at the school gate.

When I was drunk, I played tricks with Chen Xiang to lie on the bed in her bedroom for a while, and I didn't want to leave as soon as I lay down like this.

Not only did he not leave, but I also beckoned Chen Xiang, "Come and hug me." ”

Chen Xiang was also drunk, and when she lost her defense, she returned to her previous well-behaved and clever and good bullying appearance, and she was pulled into my arms just after she came over, turned around, and pressed under her.

I kissed her on the cheek, breathed hard next to her ear, and smiled at her, "I haven't tried it in a student dormitory yet." ”

When I said this, I felt like my mouth was dry, like I was being drugged.

Chen Xiang squinted at me, I couldn't help it, leaned over to kiss her, pried open her mouth, and drew circles in it to kiss her without breathing, and her hand kept holding on to me and didn't dare to let go.

I told Chen Xiang that I liked her.

We did it again, and this time it was really a long time apart. Cautiously entering, feeling her slight trembling and patience, the feeling of warmth and tightness, almost made me surrender immediately.

When I was with Chen Xiang before, I always thought about whether I was happy or not, the first time, I couldn't help but worry about her feelings, and every movement in and out was slow and gentle, not letting her hurt, waiting for her to feel it.

As a result, this little girl actually spoke to provoke me.

I was embarrassed to say that it was to make her comfortable and came so slowly, so I said that the bed board was too low and the place was too small to affect the play, and she actually laughed at me for making excuses.

She is really capable, but I don't know why, I still like Chen Xiang when I'm like this, I'm really trapped.

Don't love easily, once you fall in love, you can't extricate yourself.

Of course, it's not just this heart that can't extricate itself, but also ...... Hey. Later, I kept Chen Xiang begging for mercy, not because it was painful, but because the switch in her body had been completely turned on by me. I love watching her become more and more difficult to control because of the way I bloom.

After it was over, I hugged Chen Xiang, kissed her on the cheek, and then confessed: "I love you." ”

When I said these three words, I was actually very sure in my heart that I would only say them to her alone in this life. If this love doesn't come to fruition, I don't plan to try it with anyone else in my life.

And this sentence not only made Chen Xiang ask me in disbelief if it was true, but also made her eyes moist.

I laughed at her for being stupid, and of course I loved her.

It turns out that loving someone is not a burden and an adventure, and when you love her, you are happy.

On this day, I was finally able to sleep with Chen Xiang in my arms, the bed in the bedroom was narrow, and I let her hang on top of me, soft and easy to hug.

The first time I woke up, I also saw that the person I loved was in front of me.

Chen Xiang also woke up, so he asked me what I was looking at, and I smiled, "Look at my girlfriend." ”

After playing for so many years, for the first time, I took the initiative to say that a girl was my girlfriend, but Chen Xiang deliberately provoked me, not to say that he treated me as a pao friend, so if I made up for the obligations of pao friends, would I be sorry for her?

Unfortunately, before I could toss it, I was called away by a phone call.

Before leaving, I kissed Chen Xiang again, and I was very happy to see her in front of me now, I think I like everything about this girl now, including her pampered and proud little appearance in my arms.

In the following years, after Chen Xiang and I separated and reconciled, gained and lost, I realized that this day was the happiest day for both of us.

Before I could lock her firmly by my side, the accident happened again.

Lu Xiaoqi committed suicide, and the reason for the suicide was that she was four months pregnant, and the child was not the boyfriend she was very good to.

And I can't blame anyone else for this, it's my best buddy Chang Cheng and myself. If I had taken care of Chang Cheng at the beginning, or had reminded Chen Xiang earlier when I realized that something might happen, maybe there would have been room for redemption.

When I went to the hospital, I saw Chen Xiang looking up information about miscarriage and labor induction.

Chen Xiang cried and asked me what if she was pregnant.

This is the first time I have thought about this issue, even if I told Chen Xiang that I love her, but to be honest, I really haven't thought about getting married.

I didn't want to get married too early, and I didn't even think about getting married, before I fell in love with Chen Xiang, I thought I would play for the rest of my life, or marry the girl who was the right person arranged by the old man, and then continue to play.

With Chen Xiang, I have always had the idea of living together, but I don't want to be constrained by anything.

This probably has something to do with the fact that I grew up in a broken family, married and divorced, which was terrible.

I thought that if I really married Chen Xiang, no matter what happened in the future, even if I was allowed to die, I would not divorce.

Of course, this paranoia even I find ridiculous.

Later, before Chen Xiang's father was discharged from the hospital, I bought her a house in S City, fulfilled the promise I once made to myself, and gave Chen Xiang a home.

No matter how busy I am at work, I also take the time to carefully arrange it, Chen Xiang is in a bad mood for a while, so I will take everything into account, I have always felt that after this unpleasant past, the two of us can live a peaceful life. I went to work to make money, and Chen Xiang continued to study.

Just when I thought that everything was about to calm down and all the problems would be solved, Chen Xiang finally asked me about my birthday last year, and she begged me to investigate the surveillance video of that day again, because Lu Xiaoqi had an accident on that day, and he was raped.

I can only promise Chen Xiang to investigate and appease her. Actually, I also understood that there was nothing to check at all, so I went directly to Chang Cheng and gave him a punch when I met.

We grew up together, played together, and did a lot of dishonorable things together, but I never thought he would do such a thing.

After beating Chang Cheng, I knew that this would actually be useless, but I thought of a most idiotic solution, I asked Chang Cheng to be responsible for Lu Xiaoqi and marry her.

But Chang Cheng has always refused to agree, and he can't say anything.

In the end, he admitted to me that he was indeed the drug he gave Lu Xiaoqi that night, but he was not the only one who had a relationship/relationship with Lu Xiaoqi.

When I heard this, I had the idea of killing people, and I didn't dare to imagine what I would do if Chen Xiang suffered everything, but the fact is that the reason why Chang Cheng found someone to get that kind of imported magic was to help me get Chen Xiang.

Speaking of which, I can't get out of this matter at all. If I hadn't tricked Chen Xiang out that day and forcibly took her to the club, what happened later would not have happened at all.

I also know that even if I hide it, I can't hide it for long, but I can't open my mouth to tell Chen Xiang, and in the end I persuaded Chang Cheng to apologize by himself, and as for how he should compensate later, he will double the compensation back.

Watching Chen Xiang continue to have nightmares because of Lu Xiaoqi's affairs, I couldn't do anything, so I could only hold on to the luck mentality and want to stay out of it.

It just so happened that I had to go back to Beijing for a few days because of a project, and when I left, I thought that maybe Chang Cheng had already dealt with the matter, but I didn't expect that on the day I came back, I received a phone call that Chang Cheng was stabbed and hospitalized.

The person who stabbed him turned out to be Chen Xiang.

I'm worried about Chang Cheng's injury, and I'm even more afraid because I can't contact Chen Xiang. I knew she must be scared to death by now, and she didn't know where to hide and didn't dare come out.

And after I went to the hospital and saw that Chang Cheng's injuries were not serious, I almost thought about going over and giving him another knife. He and Chen Xiang are two people, who is right and who is wrong, and they don't even need to think about it.

Chang Cheng later confessed to me that it wasn't Chen Xiang who wanted to stab him. After knowing that Lu Xiaoqi's boyfriend Li Xiang was going to pursue the matter, although Chang Cheng promised me to apologize and compensate, he was afraid of going to prison, so he notified another person that night and prepared to hide abroad for a while.

After Li Xiang found out, he became angry with Chen Xiang and forced Chen Xiang to follow him to arrest people.

Originally, Li Xiang wanted to stab Chang Cheng with a knife, but Chen Xiang was afraid that he would do something wrong and stop him, so he injured Chang Cheng with the wrong hand.

After knowing the truth of the matter, I almost pulled Chang Cheng off the hospital bed.

Chang Cheng said: "I can't help it, my dad has to investigate to the end, Li Xiang's family protects him, so he can only find that woman." ”

"What the are you talking about that woman, that's my girlfriend, you know!"

I scolded Chang Cheng, but my heart became more and more chaotic, Chang Cheng's family has called the police, they will definitely investigate this matter to the end, and I don't have enough face to say this. Not to mention my dad, if I told him about it, he would only prevent me from being with Chen Xiang.

The only way is for me to find Chen Xiang first, then hide her in a safe place, and then slowly negotiate with Chang Cheng's family.

But I never expected that from the moment I left the hospital, someone was following me.

I thought that Chen Xiang might be hiding in the house I bought for her, and what I saw was her with Blu-ray.

When I was most vulnerable to Chen Xiang, I couldn't control myself and fought with Blu-ray in front of her because of jealousy.

What is even more terrifying is that I let Chen Xiang be taken away by the police in front of me.

I watched her fingers tremble with fear, and she asked me if I had called the police. I wanted to explain, but suddenly nothing came out of nowhere.

This feeling of powerlessness makes me feel painful, and if I can, I want to be arrested and locked up in her place.

Although I later managed to settle the matter, negotiated with Chang Cheng's family so that they would no longer embarrass Chen Xiang, and also took Chen Xiang out of the police station, her attitude towards me completely changed.

Obviously, we have only been well for a few days, and all of a sudden we are back to the past, not even as before.

In front of me, Chen Xiang kept saying that Chang Cheng was a forcible / rape/criminal, and even she thought that I was the same as her beginning.

I know that Chen Xiang's mood swings are so big that it is related to Lu Xiaoqi, and even more related to the three days he was detained in the police station.

No one knew what kind of life she was living in there, how much she was frightened and threatened, so I tried my best to reassure her, but she still wouldn't accept me, and even every time she saw me, she was angry.

Because I misunderstood her and Blu-ray, she slapped me.

At that moment, I didn't get angry, because I only felt distressed when I saw the wound on her arm. I've been working hard, going to her every day, doing everything for her, but she's getting closer and closer to Blu-ray, and becoming more and more estranged from me.

It seemed that I could only watch her give up on me.

Later, Chen Xiang finally came to me, but she told me that she wanted to separate.

Chen Xiang said that separation, not a breakup.

But is there really a difference between a separation and a breakup?

After a year of separation, no one is sure what will happen in this year, I don't even have confidence that I can wait for Chen Xiang for a year, I'm afraid I won't be able to withstand such a test.

However, Chen Xiang is very resolute, she has always been like this, she has always been very obedient and well-behaved, but once she decides something, no one can change it.

I know that if I forcibly keep Chen Xiang by my side, there will only be pain for her. In that case, it seems like I have no choice but to let go.

On this night, Chen Xiang and I both hugged and intertwined tightly with the last mood.

After the withdrawal, I didn't dare to stay longer and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Chen Xiang definitely couldn't guess that I cried for her.

Even I couldn't imagine who I would cry for. I turned on the faucet and hid the cry.

After taking a shower, I pulled Chen Xiang into my arms again, and although she said that I was too cold, she never pushed me away. I hugged her so tightly that I wanted to just rub her into my body and take her with me wherever I went.

I don't want to be separated from her, I don't want to be at all, in fact, I'm just a coward, I don't dare to love, I finally love, but I lose it.

I asked Chen Xiang what it would take for her to stay.

Chen Xiang's answer to me was: get married.

Maybe she said it casually, or maybe she deliberately gave me a problem. But whether it is me or Chen Xiang, we all understand that this is indeed the way to open up the situation.

But I couldn't say yes right away, so I told Chen Xiang that I needed to think about it.

She probably thought I was perfunctory, but I was serious. It is indeed impossible for me to agree to Chen Xiang's marriage immediately, in addition to family factors, I also need to think about it myself.

So I spent a day and a night to determine my thoughts, and I knew that I wanted to marry Chen Xiang, and I wanted to be with her for the rest of my life. After deciding on this matter, I went to Beijing to find my dad and negotiate with him with the results I had made this year.

I'm not afraid that my dad won't agree to me marrying Chen Xiang, but I just hope that I can give Chen Xiang the most perfect wedding that is blessed by everyone. I'm afraid that my dad will embarrass her in the future, so I have to deal with this matter first. In order to convince my father, I not only promised a lot of things, but also said the most unspeakable things that I had hidden in my heart for so many years, and this old man was finally persuaded by me.

I don't think I need to say anything about what happened next, I went to propose with great anticipation, but what awaited me was a ridiculous scam.

For whatever reason, Chen Xiang lied to me.

I was abandoned by Chen Xiang.

She said she wouldn't leave when we got married, and I did, but she avoided me and I couldn't find her again.

At that time, I was decadent, and I was almost the same person I used to eat, drink and have fun.

The marriage proposal also became a joke, and my father even told me that as long as he lived, even if he couldn't control me, he would never let Chen Xiang enter his door.

I still told him loudly that I don't want anyone but Chen Xiang.

I didn't have a good time in the year that Chen Xiang left, I went to her, beat the people who bullied her, secretly cared about her, and really waited for her.

I just didn't know that from that day on, my patience with her was finally worn out, and I began to hate her, hating her for failing my true heart.

Even if I can understand Chen Xiang's pain and helplessness, I still can't forgive her for leaving. I wasn't so generous with everything, why didn't she believe me when I had promised her that I would have her to protect her?

Could it be that I really give, and she has always been just a dispensable joke?

When I was a child, my parents divorced, and my mother left me when I was only four years old and left without saying a word, so I hated my mother for many years, and I still haven't really opened my heart.

Chen Xiang's departure is the same for me.

The difference is that I was still young at that time, and it can even be said that the impression left on me by my mother was actually not as much as that left by Chen Xiang.

Finally, a year has passed, and it is the day when I made an appointment with Chen Xiang. Probably this agreement was a joke from beginning to end, otherwise how could it happen to be April Fool's Day?

I didn't go to see Chen Xiang, even if I really didn't meet other girls this year, I still tore her heart in the most cruel way on this day.

I lied to her and made her think I/slept with someone else.

Then I lay alone on the bed thinking about how she cried, and I laughed and wanted to cry for a while, which was really funny.

The first time they met after the breakup was on the day of her and Xia Xia's graduation party.

Chen Xiang may not know that even though I hate her, I still let the school cancel the punishment of her and let her graduate smoothly. It's just that I don't want her to know, all I want her to know is that I don't care about her now.

I want Chen Xiang to understand that now in my eyes, she is nothing.

I deliberately teased her that day, changing back to the way she used to be when I didn't care about her at all, and I felt ridiculous when I saw her heartache and endure.

Wasn't it just like this Chen Xiang who was deceived by Chen Xiang in the past and took out his whole heart for her.

So this time, whether she is happy or sad, I don't care, on the contrary, I would prefer to see her regret.

When I didn't believe in love, it was Chen Xiang who changed me little by little, made me learn to love, and made me fall in love with her completely.

But after I really fell in love with her, she told me that our love really can't stand any tests.

Now I want her to cry, I want her to be uncomfortable, I want her to regret it for the rest of her life.

I actually hated Chen Xiang.

But at the same time, I must admit that I have never forgotten her.

I still love Chen Xiang, when love and hate are entangled, I painfully hope that she never appears in my life.

Then I decided that I was going to forget about her and get her out of my world once and for all.

(On the one hand, Jiang Hao's perspective allows everyone to understand the real him and know the whole process of his inner change.) Another purpose is to summarize the previous content a little. Actually, I didn't expect to write so much at first.,So I started to speed up the pace again.,For example, the year of separation.,Because there was an extra before, so it was omitted directly.。 There are still 2-3 chapters of Jiang Hao's perspective before the divorce, and then the post-divorce part will begin. And then the question of Jiang Hao's exit from the // track that everyone wants to know will also be explained clearly, right)

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