Night.

As in every day, Zhang Dongming talked about a volume in the first evening self-study.

In the second evening self-study, several students were reading books and doing problems in the classroom, and Zhang Dongming sat on the cement platform outside the classroom and didn't know what he was thinking.

After sitting for a while, I stretched, took out my mobile phone and sent a message: [What are you doing]

Tang Wan: [What's wrong?]

Zhang Dongming: [Not much]

Tang Wan: [It's rare, Teacher Zhang actually took the initiative to send a message!]

Zhang Dongming: [. . Why is it so sad to hear]

Tang Wan: [Not to mention the sadness, I cried bitterly!]

Zhang Dongming: [Hehe, what are you doing]

Tang Wan: [Preparing to take a bath]

Zhang Dongming: [Then wash it, it's nothing, just see what you're doing]

Tang Wan: [Oh, that's it!]

Zhang Dongming: [Hurry up and wash it off, the water will be cold for a while]

Tang Wan: [Okay, then come on!]

Zhang Dongming: [What kind of oil?]

Tang Wan: [Add the oil at the beginning of school, this year will pass soon, Teacher Zhang has worked hard!]

Zhang Dongming: [No problem, let's go]

Tang Wan: [Hmm!]

Putting away his mobile phone, Zhang Dongming sat down for a while and got up to go to the classroom.

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Sunday, cloudy.

When they came back from class at noon, Wu Chang and Qi Lili went home to get their clothes, and Zhang Dongming and the other four students ate and washed clothes in the courtyard.

After washing their clothes and staying for a while, all four students went back to school.

Since May Day, several students have been like this, if they don't go home on Sunday, they will go back to class after washing clothes in the afternoon.

Zhang Dongming stayed at home for a while, and was about to go to the store to have a look, when Ma Hongxu and his father came by bicycle and carried a bucket of soybean oil.

"Uncle, why are you bringing soybean oil again? ”

"It should be, it should be, oh, Mr. Zhang, you're welcome. ”

Since the beginning of this semester, plus this time, Ma Hongxu's father has come to deliver rice, white flour and soybean oil once, Zhang Dongming originally didn't accept it, but with the experience of the New Year, Ma Hongxu and his father didn't care what Zhang Dongming said every time he came, and happily put down his things and left.

In fact, not only Ma Hongxu's father, but also the parents of several other students have also come to send things a few times in the past six months, and Zhang Dongming, who can refuse, has refused, like Ma Hongxu's father, who doesn't care what he says and puts down his things and leaves, Zhang Dongming has no choice but to accept it.

Then several parents came separately, and they didn't discuss what everyone would send, which led to Zhang Dongming's family now having five barrels of soybean oil, and several students couldn't finish the high school exam.

Ma Hongxu and his father left, Zhang Dongming looked at a few buckets of soybean oil and shook his head with a smile, turned around and went out.

Seven or eight minutes, I arrived at the store.

There was usually no one in the store, Bai Yan was sitting there in a daze, Zhang Dongming didn't pay attention when he came in, coughed, and the girl came back to her senses.

"What do you think? Zhang Dongming sat down.

"Nope. Bai Yan smiled a little embarrassedly, and Zhang Dongming didn't notice the panic that flashed in her eyes the first time she came back to her senses.

"It's boring to sit like this every day, right?" asked Zhang Dongming with a smile.

"Nope. Bai Yan Zhengse said.

Zhang Dongming smiled: "How is your dad now?"

Bai Yan glanced at Zhang Dongming: "I have basically recovered, and there are no sequelae." ”

Zhang Dongming nodded: "This time is also mysterious enough, let your father pay more attention in the future, smoke less and drink less, it's best not to touch it." ”

A touch of helplessness flashed in Bai Yan's eyes: "Hope." ”

Zhang Dongming looked at Bai Yan and didn't say much.

Some of the words Bai Hongshan said on the day he went to the hospital actually moved Zhang Dongming, and also made Zhang Dongming change some of his views on Bai Hongshan, but it is obviously impossible to say that Bai Hongshan will completely change his previous problems after he recovers.

This cannot be explained by simple personality or habits.

is like what Bai Hongshan said to Bai Dongsheng on the way to the hospital that day: [Son, Dad may be dying, Dad is sorry for your mother, sorry for you and your sister in this life. 】

Bai Hongshan thought like this in his heart, but he was doing those bastard things in his life.

In fact, this is not a contradiction.

In most cases, people's deep-seated thoughts and superficial behaviors are not uniform, or even diametrically opposed, but this situation will be reflected differently in different people and different things.

This is a relatively profound problem, and it is difficult to explain it in detail, but it may be the complexity of human nature.

The two chatted briefly for a while, and it rained outside.

The weather forecast said that there was rain today, and I thought it wouldn't come down after a cloudy morning, but it was falling at this time, and it was quite heavy.

Bai Yan opened the door, Zhang Dongming helped her push the bicycle in, the south wind was blowing, it was raining in the house, Bai Yan closed the door tightly, and Zhang Dongming closed the window.

The rain washed away the clean and bright windows, and the pedestrians on the street hurried home in the rain.

Zhang Dongming looked at the time, at half past two, Wu Chang and Qi Lili must not have come back from home at this time, and the other students in the class have nothing to worry about.

"The rain was sudden. Zhang Dongming muttered.

"Hmm. Bai Yan looked out the window.

Zhang Dongming looked at her: "It's not easy to be outside in the past few years." ”

Bai Yan said lightly: "It's okay." ”

Zhang Dongming nodded, Bai Yan also said more, and the room suddenly became quiet, only the sound of wind and rain outside.

Zhang Dongming asked, "Have you ever gone to college?"

Bai Yan shook her head: "No, I won't study after graduating from high school." ”

Zhang Dongming then asked: "Did you go to college or not?"

A complicated look flashed in Bai Yan's eyes, and she finally nodded.

Outside the window, the rain was falling and the wind was blowing.

The wind was not strong, and it turned into the sound of rushing rain, and the rain continued to trickle down from the clean glass windows, and there was very little to see outside the windows, but it seemed to be able to see far away.

"I like rainy days, and I like ...... when I'm young"

"When I was a child, I always secretly ran outside to pour the rain on a rainy day, and I was often watered through, and then every time my mother would say, sometimes I would be spanked, and then I would cry as soon as I was spanked, and then my father would help me intercede every time, and then my mother would stop beating me, at that time, my father and my mother had a good relationship, and they never quarreled......"

"In the winter when I was eight years old, I can't remember exactly, anyway, it was the end of the year, when the Chinese New Year was approaching, my mom and my dad had a big fight, and that was the first time I knew they had a fight, and my mom smashed a lot of things in the house, cups, mirrors, TV...... Then my dad hit my mom, and I cried and shouted that I couldn't pull it away, and in the middle of the night, my mom led me back to my grandma's house...... I remember that night it was very dark, there was not a single star in the sky, on the dark mountain road, I was very scared, my mother kept holding my hand tightly, I couldn't walk, my mother carried me on her back, I was shivering from the cold, my mother squatted down and hugged me, my mother hugged me for a long time, and cried for a long time......"

Bai Yan looked out of the window in the rain and fog, the rain washed the clean window pane, reflecting her sparkling eyes.

"After that, my mom and dad would always fight, and I would cry and shout every time, but it didn't work, and then I gradually learned that they fought because my dad didn't have a good life...... Until I gave birth to my brother, my mom and my dad quarreled less often, but I never saw a smile between the two of them again......"

"Later, I was admitted to high school, my dad is still so old, my mom farms and works for me and my brother to study, and when I come back from the holiday at the end of the month, I will always see my dad drinking too much in other houses and coming back to play drunk, scolding and smashing things, my mom ignores my dad, let him scold and let him smash, my brother has been holding me next to me and crying......"

"Later, I was admitted to college, although it was not a good university, just an ordinary second book, but I really worked hard, three years of high school, I worked harder than anyone in my class, and then ...... On the day I got home with my admission letter, I saw my dad kneeling on the kang like a log, and my mom lying motionless on the kang......"

"I hate my dad, but he's my dad, what can I do......"

"After my mother left, my dad couldn't live anymore, but I couldn't ignore this family, I couldn't ignore my brother's ......"

The wind has stopped, the rain has lightened,

Bai Yan slowly closed her eyes, and in the room, only the sound of raindrops dripping from the eaves outside was left.

Bai Yan slowly came out and opened her eyes to look over: "I'm sorry, I don't know how to say this." ”

"It's nothing, just feel better. ”

Zhang Dongming said simply, and Bai Yan was silent for a long time: "Teacher Zhang, thank you!"

Zhang Dongming pushed open the window, the cool wind blew in, and he breathed in the fresh air: "I don't like to hear the word thank you, don't say it in the future." ”

Zhang Dongming never looked back, Bai Yan looked at his back, and nodded silently for a while.

Zhang Dongming turned around: "You learned accounting later?"

Bai Yan nodded: "When I applied for the university exam, I applied for the accounting major, and in the past few years, I have saved some money for my family by working in the city. ”

Zhang Dongming nodded and didn't ask any more, and the rain outside basically stopped: "I guess I can't come anymore, it's cold when it's raining, you are wearing too little, don't catch a cold, go back early." ”

Bai Yan shook her head and said, "No, it's not cold." ”

Zhang Dongming was a little helpless: "It's strange if it's not cold, hurry up and go back, I'll leave too." ”

Bai Yan originally wanted to insist, but Zhang Dongming was already about to lock the door with the lock, and he didn't say anything in the end.

On the way home, Zhang Dongming hugged his shoulders and walked tremblingly.

He came over today to tell Bai Yan to let her go back to the city to find a job, after all, the 800 yuan salary he gave every month was too little, and Bai Yan would definitely not be able to do it if she added money.

However, after listening to Bai Yan's words, Zhang Dongming changed his attention.

First, he knew that even if he said Bai Yan, he would not necessarily leave, and second, he decided to contact Bai Yan for a while longer to get to know her better.