Back in her room, she rummaged around, looking for something to prove that Yu Xuan had ever been a real presence in her life. But, to her sorrow, she found that she had nothing but the words he had said to her in her memory, the songs he had sung for her, the time spent with her, and the breath of him, his kisses and his love, which she could not preserve, and she did not possess anything from Yu Xuan.

Finally she recognized the facts, stopped her futile search, and sat on the floor weakly, looking at the wall separated from Yu Xuan's room in a daze.

Yuxuan, I'm sorry, I don't insist anymore, I'll give you the freedom you want, maybe it's to be precise, let me go.

After making this decision this night, Yi Xuan really let go of everything, except for the fact that she continued to live in the Yunxuan Hotel in Jiangcheng, she didn't dare to give up, subconsciously, she always seemed to feel that living in this place full of all the memories of her and Yu Xuan, at least it meant that they once had, if they really moved away from here, she really had nothing.

After dinner, Yixuan went out for a walk to the pastry shop alone, ordered a drink, found a window seat to sit down and spend time alone, sometimes looking at the pedestrians coming and going outside the window, sometimes not thinking about anything, emptying her brain and just sitting there and drinking a drink one by one.

Oh, she didn't know when she started drinking drinks, and the colorful water made of various additives was not so difficult to accept, just like Yu Xuan who had lost her memory, wasn't she used to it?

She smiled bitterly and shook her head, she stubbornly thought that she could apologize to the former Yu Xuan in this way, and stubbornly thought that this would make her empathize with Yu Xuan who was in a car accident that day.

She herself didn't know when she had such stubborn, almost paranoid thoughts, perhaps subconsciously felt that this was the only way to prove that she and he had really loved each other, and had experienced life and death choices together.

At this time, Yi Xuan, who stepped into the cake house, saw at a glance that the two people sitting opposite each other at the table closest to the kitchen cabinet in the store were Yu Xuan and Zhu Lin.

There was a drink and a plate of cake in front of each of them, Yu Xuan was dividing a piece of cheesecake with a small fork and holding it to Zhu Lin's mouth, Zhu Lin opened his mouth to eat the cake he fed, and also took the drink in front of him and fed him a sip, the two looked at each other sweetly and smiled.

Because of the sweet smile of the two, even the air in the cake house rippled with the sweet taste of happiness.

The waiter smiled and looked at the handsome man and woman in front of the kitchen cabinet with his eyes, and habitually greeted every customer who walked into the store: "Welcome." ”

After looking up and seeing that it was Yixuan, he asked with a smile: "There happens to be a window seat over there, what do you want to drink today?"

Yi Xuan, who withdrew his gaze from Yu Xuan in a panic, shook his head and replied, "Give me a cup of fruit tea, and I'll take it away." ”

"Okay, if you have something to do today, don't you want to sit down?" asked the service lady with an understanding smile.

Yixuan nodded subconsciously, stiffly facing the table in front of the kitchen cabinet, pretending to look at the boring abstract painting on the wall, anxiously waiting for the fruit tea he wanted.

The world is unpredictable, and life is prone to accidents, and the phrase probably refers to Yixuan tonight.

Tonight, it was already an accident to meet Yi Xuan and Zhu Lin in this cake shop a few streets away from the hotel, and Yi Xuan, who tried to leave with fruit tea, planned to use this way to avoid the accident from continuing to happen, but in a delicate "Sister Shu" call behind her, she was very sad to find that her life was really full of all kinds of bizarre accidents.

Turning around, I saw that Yu Xuan had already stood up and walked over, and asked her with a smile: "Sister Shu, will you also come to this small shop to eat dim msum?" I strongly recommend this dim sum to you. ”

Yixuan looked at the piece of pastry dotted with heart-shaped ornaments that he pointed to, and smiled softly after being stunned for a moment, "This dim sum is really delicious, I don't eat dim sum when I go out for a walk to lose weight." ”

As she spoke, the fruit tea she asked for was finally delivered, and she took it and nodded to Yu Xuan, "I'll go first." Then nodded to Zhu Lin, who was looking at this side, and turned around and walked out of the cake house.

After drinking a cup of cold fruit tea, when she raised her hand, she was shocked to realize that there was something cool on her face that was slipping wantonly, and she didn't know it, thinking that she was still walking calmly.

However, I didn't feel uncomfortable, shouldn't I be accustomed to that scene just now?

took a tissue and carefully wiped away his tears, turned around and returned to the hotel to wash up calmly and then leaned on the bed to brush the net.

Many times after that, in Yixuan's deliberate avoidance, she could always meet Yu Xuan and Zhu Lin in love in various unexpected places, and the two of them did sweet things that lovers in love would do as if no one was around.

As time moved forward at the speed of ants crawling, Yixuan finally managed to laugh and watch together as she was accustomed to.

There is no longer those sharp pains, and there is no longer a person's gloomy sadness, but there is always a sudden sense of powerlessness in the dead of night, and I always feel like a rootless duckweed floating in the water, not knowing where I am going.

Because her world is without Yu Xuan's company, everything in the world is displayed in front of her with a lifeless appearance, she can't see hope, she can't see the future, but she has to pretend to be light and light.

These two extreme manifestations aggravated her depression, and she had to remind herself to adjust her mentality all the time, deceiving herself and coaxing herself: everything is possible to live.

However, after doing everything she could, she could only helplessly watch depression sweep through her body and mind with a hideous face.

Through the hazy veil of time and space, she seemed to see the scene of jumping from the top floor of the hotel one day in the future, and she looked at this picture repeatedly, calmly waiting for its arrival with a state of neither joy nor sadness.

No matter how she struggled with depression alone in every dark night, when dawn came, every day when the morning light illuminated the earth, she was still the cold and confident Mr. Shu appeared in the video, decisively and calmly issued instructions to the subordinates in the other two cities to continue to expand business.

After dinner that day, Yi Xuan was about to go out for a walk, because she was thinking about her heart, she accidentally pressed the wrong elevator floor, the elevator stopped, she walked out of the elevator and found that she was in the guest room on the third floor, she smiled, and was about to turn around and press the elevator again, when a cleaner was pushing the cleaning cart past her, something fell from the car, the cleaner didn't notice it, Yi Xuan had bent down to pick it up, she was about to call the cleaner when she was pinching something in her hand made her heart move, and stopped.